red dust under the lamp

The white lady turned her head back, not because of nostalgia, not because of weakness——

Xie Yichen was in a daze for a moment, and finally noticed that at some point, she unknowingly stole Li Juanjuan's scene again, tore off the white lady's skin from the opponent's body, and put it on herself.

Li Juanjuan took her part and did not show any displeasure. Xie Yichen froze, retracted his feet from the edge of the stage, and faced Li Juanjuan.

For some reason, my legs no longer hurt, it seems that the strength is tamped, coming from the ground, like a thick and prosperous root system supporting a fragile dead branch.

The moment she looked back at Ning Jue, she seemed to have some kind of revelation. She didn't want the white lady to look back, but it was reasonable to look back at that time.

People and drama are two sides that are intertwined and nailed together. Xie Yichen turned his head, and the white lady also turned her head. What she looked at was Ning Jue, and she seemed to see herself, her heart beat like a drum, boom!boom!boom!Heavy and powerful, jumping heavily.

Li Juanjuan said: "I was startled, but luckily you turned your head, otherwise you would fall—"

"I'm sorry," Xie Yichen apologized sincerely, took the coat from Ning Jue and put it on, "I unconsciously... stole the scene, you danced very well, I..."

"Hey, I understand. The director said that I lack energy. What I lack is your energy. What is it called? Are you afraid of being smashed to pieces? I can't say it, but seeing you dance, I understand. I will come back later." Take a look." Li Juanjuan was magnanimous, and patted Xie Yichen's shoulder to signal her not to mind.

Xie Yichen smiled wryly: "I think you handled it better... If you don't look back, what kind of white lady..."

Li Juanjuan was stunned, after many years, they actually recognized each other.

I don't know why, but I really want to cry, but after all, I have been polished in the society, and the tears flowed into the city.

His eyes were bright, and he was eager: "It's really rare...don't worry about it, I have gained something. I said I was right to find you. Haven't you eaten dinner yet? Let's have a meal together? Isn't Wang Yu also coming?"

Ning Jue remained silent all this time, when she suddenly heard Li Juanjuan mentioning her, she smiled and said, "Ms. Xie is watching from below."

Only then did I see Ms. Xie sitting with folded arms in the darkness at the end of the auditorium, looking coldly at the stage.

Both Xie Yichen and Li Juanjuan turned their faces and bowed to the auditorium.

Ms. Xie got up and walked down the corridor step by step to the bottom of the stage.

"Mr. Xie, have you... seen everything?" Li Juanjuan greeted first, she noticed that Xie Yichen was silent, and felt that something was wrong, she was the first to smile, bent over and ran off the stage from one side.

Ms. Xie smiled kindly: "I didn't expect you to remember me."

"Look at what you said, no one can forget you. Even if you are acting in a movie now, people will look at me highly when they hear that I was trained by Mr. Xie in the dance troupe!" Li Juanjuan's compliment came at the right time, Ms. Xie said with a pleasant face, "The dance was very good. I just came in to watch it for a while, so I have nothing to say."

"I still need your advice." Li Juanjuan said.

"It's really good." Ms. Xie praised Li Juanjuan for a while, and Li Juanjuan was also a little shy, and danced in front of Ms. Xie, and Ms. Xie gave her a few points.

Ning Jue and Xie Yichen retreated behind the scenes, retreated from the backstage, there was a small corridor that only two people could pass through, Xie Yichen lowered his head to change his shoes, Ning Jue lowered his voice: "Why do you suddenly feel that Li Juanjuan is right?"

"There's nothing right or wrong, she's not enough, I'm too much, neither is good." Xie Yichen pursed his lips.

"Why do you suddenly think so?" Ning Jue liked Xie Yichen who was determined to get up and dance and couldn't wait to prove himself.Now that Xie Yichen calmed down, she didn't hate it, but she was afraid that Xie Yichen would be sad.

Xie Yichen simply sat on the spot, pinching his left and right hands, stretching his pale knuckles: "It's not about dancing...it's more like...a matter of heart."

Ning Jue thought for a while: "But if I don't call you, you're going to jump off."

"Why do you understand so well? It's a pity that you don't learn this dance." Xie Yichen deliberately laughed at her, Ning Jue obviously didn't know anything, today there was no set, no group dance, the dance was abstract and freehand, and it was able to touch her thoughts ?

"I told my aunt, I like you, I'm divorced, I want to be with you." Xie Yichen explained to her, but it seemed to explain to himself, "I thought... since it's this kind of... Unacceptable things are like becoming a fairy, you have to suffer, you have to betray your relatives, even if my aunt can't understand, and she doesn't talk to me anymore, I have to say..."

Ning Jue blinked and wanted to say something, but finally held back and pulled Xie Yichen up from the ground.

"It's very self-willed...and never looks back. I thought it was because I chose you between my aunt and you...but I don't know how to face you anymore," Xie Yichen said in a quiet voice as he was hugged by her. He explained softly with a smile on his face, "It seems...abandoning my aunt, even you. I danced with Li Juanjuan today, and suddenly I was very unwilling...Am I wrong? I didn't wake up until you called me .”

In silence, Ning Jue kissed her on the cheek until cold tears fell.

"My aunt persuaded me... She persuaded me to turn back. I hate deviousness, but I always do it like this... I regret getting married, so I don't plan to turn back again, and I don't even plan to compromise, but I feel very sad..."

"If we go down one road, we won't even have you and aunt... What's the point of me being alone?" Xie Yichen asked, asking himself, and listening to Ning Jue.

Ning Jue pondered.

Both of them are people who repeatedly question fate and think about it, ask themselves why they do this and why they do that, like walking in the dark, they must be illuminated by a beam of light, even if that beam of light is a tiny lamp——

In the end, Ning Jue said: "I frightened you. Today, my aunt suddenly came over and asked me, and I was shocked. I guessed that you were like that, and you insisted on your own ideas, and you didn't talk too much. You still had me in Pingdu, but now you rushed up alone, what would you do without me?"

She said that she was very important, as if she was the hand holding the kite string, so Xie Yichen wouldn't fall into the mud.

But Xie Yichen understood what she meant, it was another version of not talking well, hiding her complaints in tenderness, complaining that she rushed out on her own initiative, treating Ning Jue as a flooded common people, regardless of left.

"I admit my mistake." Xie Yichen said.

"There's no need to apologize today, my aunt is going to interrogate us aggressively." Ning Jue let go of her, and walked towards the auditorium holding hands.

Only then did Xie Yichen notice Ning Jue's change, from "your aunt" to "aunt", and couldn't help but smile: "It's still aunt, aunt knows our relationship, it's good if she doesn't pinch our heads .”

"I still came here in her car today. As a human being, I have emotions and desires... Auntie is more reasonable than Boss Kong," Ning Jue said, referring to his own experience. As soon as Boss Kong moved out, he felt Xie Yichen's eyes sparkle, and immediately changed his tone, " She loves you the most. If she is willing to talk to us today, she must understand it with reason. Just went to buy big pliers, and come here to watch you dance?"

In fact, Ning Jue didn't know what to do in his heart, and when he said it, he just comforted Xie Yichen and asked her to relax.

She can say Boss Kong because she has no feelings for Boss Kong, but Ms. Xie is different. Ning Jue always feels that she owes her. Once Ms. Xie is sad, Ning Jue must pinch her thigh to avoid surrendering immediately.

Fortunately, Xie Yichen is here, it is a booster, so she should stand firm and not run away.

After Ms. Xie had guided Li Juanjuan, she told her: "You young people, you can make an appointment another day, leave it to me today, I have something urgent to find them..."

"I just remembered that there is something I can't do. I'll make an appointment with Xie Yichen another day." Li Juanjuan immediately pinched her bag and greeted Xie Yichen in the audience with a smile.

Xie Yichen raised his hand and watched Li Juanjuan leave in a hurry.

It's not good to know too much...

At least keeping them here now is like some kind of interrogation scene. She feels that she is a criminal suspect.

"Let's go to dinner too," Ning Jue said proactively, "I've found a new job, I'm sitting in an office, the salary is good, I'll treat you."

Xie Yichen glanced at her, and Ning Jue smiled brightly, as if he didn't feel conscious of being interrogated at all.

But he didn't know what to do, and he laughed a little bit, like a demon who had just grown up, and Ms. Xie's piercing eyes saw her true colors all of a sudden: "What to eat, let's eat after explaining clearly, sit down."

Seats are arranged in rows and cannot face each other.After Ms. Xie sat down, Ning Jue immediately walked to the front row, knelt and turned her head, as if she was happy to be judged, frank and frank, and as if Ms. Xie wanted to praise her, she acted positively and waited to receive the little red flower.

Xie Yichen was about to come over, but was hinted by Ning Jue's eyes, and finally Xie Yichen sat next to Ms. Xie. Ms. Xie glanced at her and snorted coldly: "It's useless to do anything, but you listen to her..."

Xie Yichen tensed up, and Ning Jue smiled: "Yes, I am very obedient."

Ms. Xie was saying that Xie Yichen listened to Ning Jue too much, and when he turned his head, Ning Jue confused the object and acted shamelessly.

Ms. Xie hates Ning Jue like this. She loves and hates at the same time. At this moment, she hates more than she loves. When she hates, she is shameless, shameless, insidious, cunning, and frivolous. Neat and lively.

How many interpretations does a person have?For a person, how many pairs of positive and negative words can describe her?

Because of this love-hate relationship, Ms. Xie was so angry that she should first criticize from a moral standpoint and not look at the characteristics of the person in front of her.

"Don't be so hippie, tell me how you two... got together." Ms. Xie said with a cold face.

Xie Yichen narrated exactly when she met Ning Jue again, how she felt she couldn't let it go, when Ning Jue accepted her love, and why he shamelessly came out to reveal his sexual orientation.

Ning Jue braced her face, she listened with gusto, and Xie Yichen turned her head in embarrassment, Ms. Xie turned to look at Ning Jue: "Tell me."

"Aren't you trying to match us up? After all, I'm going to the Civil Affairs Bureau now." Ning Jue deliberately joked.

"They're all women, go to the Civil Affairs Bureau, then you go." Ms. Xie pointed outside to tell her to get out, Ning Jue supported her face: "You are a reasonable person, you want to know why the two of us went this way. It’s what I said, if I could choose, I don’t want to, I know this road is difficult..."

She suddenly fell silent, remembering that she knew that her life would be much better if she was adopted by Ms. Xie, but she still chose a difficult way to escape... She had a position to continue speaking, but when she continued, she felt that Ms. Xie must have thought of it. this matter.

She didn't want Ms. Xie to be sad.

So the voice changed: "If you want to know, I will tell you. You know who I am, a heartless animal... Another person who is used to being wild, is a wolf who is not familiar with feeding. I think that I am very It's hard to fall in love with anyone, but I really want to live with someone...I want to have a family."

Ms. Xie said: "Let's talk about it, don't underestimate yourself."

"It's a matter of fact." Ning Jue smiled.

This time Xie Yichen leaned over to look at her slightly, Ning Jue smiled, covered his mouth, crossed his hands, and signaled not to speak.

Then she looked into Ms. Xie's eyes. Ms. Xie tilted her head and crossed her hands in front of her body, as if she was about to hit her.

"Meeting you in Pingdu, I am very sad. I miss you very much, but I feel that I escaped and I am unworthy. You did not recognize me, but I feel relieved. You gave me a lot of money, and I don't care about someone you don't know. I am fine too……"

"Tell me about you and Xie Yichen." Ms. Xie interrupted anxiously.

"Isn't that what I'm going to say! Xie Yichen is here, I'm afraid I'm going to hold her and cry after I finish talking."

Ms. Xie was speechless and waved her hand to ask her to continue.

"I've been hanging out on the streets, and suddenly I came to your house. At first, I thought, if I were your daughter, would I have lived such a good life? But then I didn't want to think about it. I felt very selfish. , always enjoy, but don’t give. At this time, I feel that Xie Yichen needs me very much, and I want to take care of her... It’s very rare. I want to take care of people’s emotions, but I’m not very good at taking care of people. It's because she doesn't speak well, but she always tolerates me, so I gradually learn to speak well with the people around me..."

Xie Yichen turned his eyes.

At this moment, it seemed that she was forced to reveal her heart in front of Ms. Xie. She liked to listen, but she was embarrassed, afraid of being laughed at by her aunt.Ning Jue spoke sincerely and honestly, without any pretense at all. She peeked at her aunt's expression, thoughtful and serious, took a breath, and gently interrupted the topic: "Because you always speak very well, You know what I'm thinking..."

Ning Jue said, "I even pushed you to the roof to encourage you to commit suicide."

Ms. Xie's calmness immediately cracked: "What? Is there such a thing?"

Xie Yichen: "Nonsense again? You are trying to persuade me not to think like this, don't belittle yourself at a time like this..."

Ning Jue: "Then my behavior is so extreme—" She said herself very badly again.

Ms. Xie was so shocked by the "suicide" that she almost stood up.

Xie Yichen: "Aren't I also extreme? If you didn't remind me, I would have been thinking about it for a long time. I don't know when I would do something stupid. If you talk about it, I won't think about it. Today is fine, let's talk about this——"

Xie Yichen was a little anxious, his aunt was here, and Ning Jue talked about committing suicide, what if he thought they were both crazy?

So at this moment, these two people almost had an untimely quarrel.

Ning Jue propped up her upper body and knelt straight on the seat: "It's true! This kind of thing happened! I also want to say that because I was jealous, I pretended to be a lady and sneaked into the nightclub to find Jiang Wang, stole his wallet and then saw the photo of you two. What's worse than jealousy! Don't you know?"

It's over, Ning Jue thought she was hiding this matter, but she didn't expect to spit it out in a hurry now.

Ms. Xie was even more surprised: "Nightclub? Jiang Wang? Are you pretending to be a young lady?"

Ning Jue blinked and lowered his head, Xie Yichen was even more surprised: "You stole it?"

"Ang," Ning Jue simply raised his head, "I will pay him... well, let's not talk about it, why are you staring at me? How did I know you liked me at that time? Weird... It took me a long time to think about facing you!"

Nightclub...Of course Xie Yichen knew that Jiang Wang had gone out, but she didn't interfere with Jiang Wang's life. After returning, he lost his wallet, and Xie Yichen kindly helped him find it at home...who would have thought that there was Ning Jue in the middle!

Ms. Xie was even more astonished. There were so many contents of astonishment that she didn't know what to say.

Xie Yichen helped his forehead: "There is no need to pay for it... It's better not to let him know, I will buy him something next time."

Ning Jue: "I didn't do it on purpose, I just couldn't help it. It's like being on the top of the building. I see you are sad, and I want to comfort you, but I don't know how to comfort you... I feel useless, so let you face it yourself Come on, I won't want you to die like that."

Now the two of them have not quarreled, Xie Yichen just wanted to thank Ms. Xie for her opinion, but looking at Ms. Xie in the blink of an eye, Ms. Xie just pressed her right hand vainly, asking them to rest for a while.

Ms. Xie said, "I'm going to scare you to death...why didn't you say it earlier? What's the reason? Looking for death or life?"

"It's all over." Xie Yichen said proactively.

Ning Jue nodded: "You want me to reminisce about the past..."

What this means is that she liked Xie Yichen for too long, and she wanted to recall that time, Ms. Xie understood, and cut off the topic: "I think, I am an enlightened parent, I should take care of you and listen to your opinions. But this matter... You say it yourself, is it reasonable? Two women, no children for a lifetime, how do you live when you are old? Outsiders say... Oh, you two are shameless, and you don’t care what others say, just say you two, Now the relationship is good, together for a lifetime, what about the future? A man and a woman can still have a responsibility tied to their children, and when they are old and have no feelings, they can still be together..."

Ning Jue silently raised her hand, and Ms. Xie asked her to speak.

"Aren't you and Mr. Li on good terms...Jiang Wang and Xie Yichen are both divorced..."

Rebellious!Ms. Xie wanted to stare at her to death.

Yes, Ms. Xie reflected on herself, she has no children, she is old, and she still has a good relationship with Mr. Li...Jiang Wang and Xie Yichen are married, what about responsibility?This marriage and divorce is so fast that people's waists will be broken...

Can't think of how to refute.

People say that a thick-skinned person can do anything, but Ning Jue uses his fearlessness and shamelessness here, which is reasonable and has a firm goal.Ms. Xie wanted to say that homosexuality is wrong, but why is it wrong?She couldn't think of a reason, these two people were not like the kind of people she had heard, who were involved in dirty things... It seemed that there was nothing wrong with them except for liking the same sex.

Ms. Xie hates herself for not being feudal, hating herself for being too open-minded. If she is that strict and unreasonable parent, the two people must be separated by pressing their heads at this time. No matter what the reason is, an old ancestor Rules can crush them to death.

But she couldn't convince herself, she froze for a while, seeing Ning Jue smiling always felt irritating.

Unable to speak for a while, Ms. Xie said coldly: "You two can do it for yourself! I can't control you!"

Ning Jue said to Xie Yichen behind his back: "Look, my aunt can't beat us, if you want to run away, run after us!"

Ms. Xie laughed angrily again, and turned her head: "Who is your aunt! Shameless!"

"I was like this when I was five years old." Ning Jue got up rascally, Xie Yichen smiled secretly, feeling his aunt stepping back.

Auntie is a gentle parent who always blames herself. Even if she is disobedient like that, she tolerates her infinitely and is willing to listen to their wishes-how can Xie Yichen abandon her like this, give up on her, and not care about her feelings?Perhaps it was my too cold and rigid attitude that made my aunt angry, because I insisted on going my own way...

She looked at Ning Jue, at this moment, she suddenly understood the meaning of turning back.

Ning Jue had already shamelessly grabbed the corner of Ms. Xie's clothes: "Are you done asking? Then let's go eat."

Ms. Xie stared at her, she looked at Ms. Xie.

In the end she lost the battle, what should Ms. Xie do if she hates her?She is so shameless, her weak self-esteem is being trampled on by herself... But she understands that Ms. Xie cares about her, if she doesn't care, why would she ask her what she thinks?If you don't love her, why did you specifically tell her not to leave?She can feel love, but... if at this moment, she feels the keen, hated feeling...

She would run away, would withdraw her hand.

She defeated her instinct and forced herself to stand here. She wanted to love, to tell Ms. Xie that she cared about her very much, respected her very much, and it was the gratitude that she had never been able to express—even if she was wandering on the street, she would think, Someone picked her out of a gang at the orphanage.

His fingers trembled a little, and he wanted to shrink back, then hid in the shell, and asked Xie Yichen if he wanted to elope... Knowing that it was impossible, he still couldn't restrain his thoughts.

On the other side, the person she respected couldn't understand her feelings, turned the meanness into a knife and spread it out with his eyes, and used indifference to ask Ning Jue to withdraw his hand wisely, and quickly gave up and left——

She almost cried, she wanted to cry, she was actually very wronged... This was not chosen by her, this was chosen by her again, she likes Xie Yichen, it is clear, shameless, lost face, like Bai Like a lady ascending to immortality...

She doesn't look back, she doesn't back down, she wants to...overcome all of this.

Her fingers trembled violently, but her eyes became firmer, and she faced Ms. Xie with a bitter smile that almost deformed when she begged.

Xie Yichen was beside her, holding her back.

Weak support.

Xie Yichen turned to Ms. Xie: "Auntie..."

In a daze, Ning Jue found that his fingers were no longer shaking.

Because Ms. Xie held her hand, and took Xie Yichen with the other.

Warm...from...the embrace of the elders.

"Eat... let's eat," Ms. Xie lost her composure, as if she couldn't accept her current decision, her voice trembled, "I don't understand... maybe in the future... eat, eat... You... have a good time, I……"

She let go of the two juniors and wiped away her tears with her back to them.

When she turned around, she still wanted to say something sad and tearful, but Ning Jue suddenly interrupted: "Are you treating me? No, I said I was treating you..."

Ms. Xie was crying and laughing, not knowing whether to laugh or cry, she was so angry that she laughed straight away: "It's too obvious! I invite you! Give you a stick! Why are you so angry, you say..."

She walked out angrily.

Xie Yichen stared at Ning Jue, and finally let out a tense breath: "Smart words."

"Don't use idioms indiscriminately," Ning Jue retaliated, "This is what he said from the bottom of his heart."

But jokes are jokes, both of them were sweating on their backs, as if they had passed through a catastrophe, the clouds cleared, Xie Yichen silently took Ning Jue's hand, and walked out of the activity hall, Ning Jue quietly waited for Xie Yichen to raise his hand to touch the switch.

Snapped--

The lights went out, and the stage and auditorium went dark together.

The door was gradually closed, and the light outside became even rarer, forming a brighter and brighter line at the door——

Ning Jue suddenly said, "It seems that I didn't have a crutch."

The door opened again, the light overflowed like a stream of water, patted the feet, diffused into the hall, brushed over the rows of seats, flowed onto the stage, merged into a small spring, was pulled by the unknown wind, and floated in the air fine dust.

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