red dust under the lamp

As we all know, Xie Yichen rarely loses his temper.

She has always been well-behaved and quiet, and often because she doesn't lose her temper, Mr. Li thinks that she is always alienated... There is a sense of distance in being polite.

Xie Yichen is such a person with a sense of distance.

After the accident, her composure doubled, she read and ate with her eyes downcast, she never caused trouble to others, she seemed to know that she was already a trouble, her face was written as harmless to humans and animals, at least, it looked so from the outside.

What about inside?

Since it is harmless, who cares about people's heart?It seems that before the terminal illness, there were only a few slightly frequent coughs, which were ignored by the nerves, and it was only when hemoptysis spit out bile that the disease was terminally ill and there was no cure.

Surface scenery is also scenery.

Xie Yichen's brewing emotions were tumbling, surging in her throat all the time, she would not shout it out, she would not spit it out, she just held it like that, not knowing when to be dominated by emotions and become an angry respondent.

It was when I got up early that morning that I suddenly lost my temper.

It snowed again in the middle of the night, and there was a white velvet blanket in the yard.

Covering Ning Jue's whereabouts.

The note was torn in half by her and fell crumpled on the table.

Even the farewell letter was written on other people's waste paper, not even a farewell, just a casual notice, telling her that Xie Yichen, my old lady will not stay here, goodbye.

What is this?Before she could speak, Ning Jue left.

In the final analysis, it was because of what happened last night.

Xie Yichen looked at the piece of paper, feeling trembling all over, not understanding why she was so angry - she shouldn't be angry at all, she should think about how to bridge this part for Ning Jue, so that Ms. Xie and Mr. Li would not fly into a rage , she should have found a good excuse for Ning Jue, but she couldn't convince herself anyway.

What is this?

What happened to them?For a man, do you have to be jealous like this?So much so that she didn't even want to see Xie Yichen's face again, and couldn't pass the night, so she just walked away?What did you think it was when you ran away?Give Jiang Wang to her tolerantly?

What did Ning Jue think of her?A woman who can't wait to sell off because she's crippled?Do you have no brains to think that if you have some money at home, you can meet your true love?

Vulgar, too vulgar, like acting in a play.

Angry and annoyed.

Ning Jue thought he was generous?Just leave?What do you think of her?where to put herIs Jiang Wang the important thing?

It's only been a few days with Jiang Wang, not even an hour, but the years spent with Ning Jue Wusheng are lighter than a man?

Xie Yichen was so angry that he laughed and walked around the room anxiously. She suddenly remembered that one day when Ning Jue was still taking care of her in Pingdu, a sparrow broke in by mistake, and Aunt Shu cut off its wings. He tied his legs, and his chest was like a burst balloon with anger.

Well now, Ning Jue left so easily, how free, like a bird, he left as soon as he said, ignoring the world, ignoring friendship, not even pretending to say goodbye, cutting it open with a knife, ruthlessly like Another species that accidentally broke into a human home!

damn it!Why?She can only be angry in the house, she has no clue, she can only curse silently here!Even when she stood up, she had to grab Ning Jue's shoulders, try her best to wake up her legs, exhausted all her strength, was sweating all over her body, and wished she could stand there bleeding from her teeth...

That's right, she probably understands that she has always stood up like a flashback only when Ning Jue was around, and became a living person for a short time... Yesterday she suddenly lived for a few seconds because of Jiang Wang, and Ning Jue became It became like this.

It's jealousy.

what.

Xie Yichen almost lost the strength to sit up, and laughed at himself.

Ha, yes, that makes it clear.

Why is it because of a man, can Ning Jue take a liking to him?Ning Jue doesn't like Jiang Wang, Ning Jue is jealous of him.

Jealous of him briefly taking back the resurrection of a dead man from her grasp, jealous of his being able to make himself happy.

Look, what a proud person Ning Jue is!The two words of arrogance and "I'm leaving" are written on every word on the note, three words, clear and plain, like a notice pasted on the door of the neighborhood committee, it is issued to everyone.Signing Ning Jue, I am afraid that others will not know that it was written by Ning Jue, who wrote it?Who are you Ning Jue?Whose pen and ink will it take to write two more characters?Did you explain your part too much?

He should have understood earlier that when Ning Jue left, he thought that Xie Yichen was sitting in the car and wanted to share his aunt's love with her, so Ning Jue left without hesitation... Split?Nonsense, Ning Jue didn't share this thing in the dictionary... Xie Yichen scolded himself, how could he forget?Three years old and seven years old, what kind of virtue was Ning Jue when he was a child, and he is still like this now, a bastard!ha!A bastard!

How can you expect a bastard who grew up alone to have a half-hearted warmth in his heart!

Now, too, Jiang Wang is here, wanting to share Ning Jue's privileges.

So Ning Jue turned around and left without any regrets.Ha, she got it.

She and Ning Jue are just an exclusive treasure, even if the treasure is a waste, as long as it belongs to Ning Jue alone, Ning Jue will keep it. Once outsiders get their hands on it, Ning Jue will immediately throw it away and look for a new love.

Why did she try to stand up because of Ning Jue? Because of her?Or was it accidentally witnessed by Ning Jue?The scene after scene, the moment she struggled hard...how could Ning Jue have the guts to steal her efforts?

Sorrow struck violently like labor pains, Xie Yichen shredded the note until it was beyond recognition.

Why?

She thought that if she was not in a hurry to fall into the arms of a man, she would temporarily avoid being treated like a glass doll in the window... She never thought that the most trusted friend around her would treat her like this, what kind of friend?Bah, I just appreciate her through her, find her interesting, and feel that she needs to rely on her to make her Ning Jue look valuable!

Ah.

Power flowed back to her limbs and bones, she supported herself, searching for all the dirty words she could find to describe Ning Jue.

But after much deliberation, it seems that I only learned the phrase fart - which is not applicable to the present.

Why do other people learn swear words without a teacher, she is like a flower in a sterile greenhouse, and can't be contaminated by anything human, no wonder people treat her like a doll, she is a sterile doll, Bright, even the suffering is delicate and bright--it's as if it's a play, as if it's going to be on stage anytime, anywhere!

She scolded herself, trash, rubbish, idiot, three words back and forth, she didn't know whether to scold herself or Ning Jue, her eyes were red and red, one wave of tears had not receded, and another wave came again, everything since the car accident Everything came to mind, she scolded herself, the pain of chest tightness seemed to be dragged back to the scene of the car accident.

Let me die, let me die... huh?

Just as the thought came to my mind, my aunt had already come in through the curtain with a faint cry: "What's the matter? Where's Ning Jue?"

Thoughts of suicide are fleeting.

What about Ning Jue?

"Auntie..." She tried to calmly explain the cause and effect, as always decent and quiet.

But it failed, and the emotions were like a dam burst, out of control.

She tries to be decent, but that's what's not decent, snot or tears don't know which one will come out first, and she falls helplessly to the bottom of the water, with no boats around, she can only open her arms and look for a small piece of life that can save herself in the waves. sampan.

On the first day she was adopted by her aunt, she did not stretch out her arms to grab her aunt like today, and shrank stubbornly into the elder's arms, vaguely saying, "Ning Jue...doesn't like, doesn't like us...our family ...she hates me...she...we...had a big fight...well, it wasn't a fight...she left...I...I hate her to death..."

"Gone? When did you leave? How dangerous is this..."

"Isn't she capable..." Xie Yichen has recovered his fluent speech, "Let her go, go wherever she likes, I don't want to see her again."

So far, neither Ms. Xie nor Mr. Li have any idea of ​​the specifics of Ning Jue's departure. Xie Yichen didn't say anything, but when they mentioned it occasionally, Xie Yichen said where Ning Jue liked to go.

"Okay, let's talk about what she is doing," Xie Yichen changed his posture, took the crutch from the bedside, pressed it in the palm of his hand, and prepared to hang up the phone with the other hand, "Jiang Wang? He is on a business trip and hasn't come home yet... I know Lah, it's all over and I'm going to have a baby..."

The doorbell rang suddenly.

"Stop talking, the range hood cleaner is here... what? I don't cook, he does it. It's all right, auntie, everything is fine."

After that big cry, the relationship with her aunt and uncle became closer, the sense of distance disappeared, and the white lady officially came to the world.

After hanging up the phone, she called out to the door, and she walked out slowly on crutches.

Nancheng Housekeeping Service Company is quite careful. Knowing that only the hostess is at home, they specially told her that the master sent by her is also a woman. She looks thin and is wearing shoe covers. The clean canvas tool bag is placed beside the foot blanket. .

The whole body was clean, Xie Yichen didn't look too much, and slowly moved to the kitchen.

The tool bag was pulled open, and the woman pulled out the Nancheng Daily from the inside, spread it out, folded it into a finger-wide strip and pinned it under her armpit, took out the form, and filled in one by one with a ballpoint pen: "Let me confirm, it's ginger. Mr. made an appointment...for the range hood service, right?"

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