red dust under the lamp

The topic is still unfinished.

But Ning Jue felt that whether it was hot springs or bathhouses, talking about these things was probably due to some brain problems... She started the conversation herself, and she cut it off by herself, and then she didn't say any more anecdotes about men's nonsense. Xie Yichen didn't ask any more questions, they were all quiet, both of them sat obediently, reading in the reading room.

During Chinese New Year, this place shouldn’t be opened, but money flows in people’s hands continuously, it’s blood flow, if you stop for a moment, you will die, who will make them move?Still human.

I saw a man in a bathrobe with a smile on his face, pulling out the business card he had prepared earlier, striding towards Mr. Li and his wife, passing by Xie Yichen, glanced back, and showed a smile with red lips and white teeth.

In the public space, everyone is wearing scantily dressed clothes. It seems inappropriate to smile like that. Ning Jue stared at him with a mean look of a moralist, watching him seize the opportunity to take a bath and rush to Mr. Li, seize every opportunity to introduce his company .

These days, such a young man who can come out to start a business is really rare... We chatted a few words over there, and only heard "study abroad" vaguely

"Investment" and other words, from time to time came a few laughs.

But after all, Mr. Li felt that the festival had a sense of ritual, and he told him that he should go back to the ancestral house in Lianhua County for a while before returning to Haijing, and then contact him.

Unexpectedly, the man said that he happened to be going to Lianhua County on business, so it was better to be on the same road.

"what is it call?"

"Jiang Wang, Wang Wang of the telescope."

Jiang Wangcai, 27, has the muscles of a good swimmer. He looks square and upright. After talking about business, he decided not to bother Ms. Xie and Mr. Li's two-person world. He turned his head to look at Ning Jue, blinked, and showed a sly smile. meaning.

Ning Jue frowned, but it wasn't like Xu Liwen's feeling when he saw her at the beginning - when a man expressed his liking for a woman, his emotions rushed over passionately, and it was difficult to hide.What is Jiang Wang winking at her for?She only felt some kind of premeditation, but her intuition was unrefined, so she just looked down at the book.

Xie Yichen said, "Did he see you?"

"I'm not a target. Men will look at me wherever I go."

"You are very beautiful."

"If you praise me any more, I'll turn my face off." Ning Jue closed the book, not knowing what words to use to describe Jiang Wang's eyes, which definitely had no intentions for her, but something else.

The meaning really became clear. After spending most of the day lazily in the hot spring center, Mr. Li chatted with them and said that he was going to set off. He would drive with Jiang Wang and go straight to Lianhua County. House.

Before getting into the car, Jiang Wang made a bouquet of pink and white tulips and handed it to Xie Yichen.

He wore a straight thin-line shirt with straight trouser seams and a clean mouth. He was a handsome guy who was rarely seen at that time.He handed over the flowers, without saying much, a little more Western style, and a combination of Chinese and Western: "Happy Chinese New Year, Miss Xie."

Xie Yichen was stunned, and Ning Jue suddenly realized.

Was it premeditated against Xie Yichen?Or just for sex?Or some kind of sudden pity?

But before they could respond, he had already circled around and disappeared.

After that, I was in the rearview mirror, shaking with a tattered golden cup. It seemed that Cui Jian's song was still playing in the car, and it was transmitted intermittently. People shook their heads and the car followed.

Xie Yichen looked at him from the mirror, and Ning Jue looked at Xie Yichen from the side, without saying a word all the way.

Jiang Wang is a businessman, he came to do business, and he approached Mr. Li to ask for investment. Xie Yichen had no idea what kind of business he was doing.

When we arrived at the ancestral house, someone had already cleaned it up, and there was heating in the one-story house, and the steam was baking his cold hands. Xie Yichen held the flowers and looked around for a vase to plant them.

"Are you interested in him? Just a few flowers?" Ning Jue laughed.

Xie Yichen put the flower down and saw how many petals it was broken: "I just think he is very good at being a man, talking about business, and taking care of his family. After all, it is winter, these flowers should be quite expensive." She picked it up again, one by one She tore the petals and scattered the bedside table. When Ning Jue said that she should clean it up, Mr. Li knocked on the door and asked them if they wanted to set off fireworks.

There are no tall buildings, no mansions in this place, and the fireworks are indiscriminate, but these days are not thirty, not the first day, not the fifteenth, and not the fifth day, and there are very few people who set off flowers.

Mr. Li drove to the street and bought two boxes of fireworks. They were booming, sky-scurrying monkeys, and a few hanging firecrackers. He enthusiastically carried these and asked Ning Jue if he dared to set them off.

Ning Jue pretended to be scared and hid, shaking her head and refusing anyway, showing a timid look.

Xie Yichen just smiled, raised his face, and encouraged her uncle to light the fire. There were a few tubes of firecrackers in the courtyard, and the tails were not too long or too short. Mr. Li took out the lighter from his trouser pocket, and there were a few murmurs from outside. .

Ning Jue opened the door, and a group of children dispersed with a crash.

Mr. Li wished it would be more lively, Xie Yichen said less, and Ning Jue stayed silent, looking at a group of children abruptly. As if he had been pardoned, he enthusiastically called them in, invited them to put flowers, and gave them candy, just like a big boy. child.

Ms. Xie finally lost her restraint and yelled to pay attention to safety, this one should not sit there, and that one should stand far away. The children were very shy, both boys and girls, but Mr. Li encouraged them, and after a while, fireworks rose into the sky.

"Does your family have any relatives in Lianhua County?" Ning Jue lowered his business and chatted with Xie Yichen. Ning Jue made up his mind not to play. Xie Yichen's conditions were limited, and he didn't need to deal with Mr. Li's enthusiasm, so he lowered his voice to inquire about something. .

"My aunt has some relatives in Lianhua County. They are all older ones. The juniors don't have much contact with each other. I don't know many relatives like aunts and uncles. My mother and I don't know each other very well. It’s clear. I have to go to pay New Year’s greetings tomorrow.”

It seems that they are relatives of my aunt and have nothing to do with Xie Yichen.

Suddenly a few children became lively, and a girl approached Xie Yichen shyly. Before she had time to ask how she became so beautiful, the boys came out and asked carelessly, "What's wrong with your legs?"

Ning Jue scowled: "Go, go..."

Xie Yichen was silent for a moment, and did not call out to those children who were driven away by Ning Jue, but grabbed her fingers with his backhand.

"I hate dead children, and I don't know if my name is useful now." Ning Jue said.

"what?"

"In the past, whoever's child was disobedient, just said to cry again and let Wang Yu stuff a dead mouse into your mouth." Ning Jue imitated the tone of the parents, and Xie Yichen smiled: "I remember when I saw you, you took it. With a slingshot, you shoot a mouse with a slingshot?"

"The mouse's skin is slippery. Unless you get close and use skillful force, you can't beat it. Usually, you use barbed wire and poison. But I found that sometimes Liuliu powder is also effective, but I haven't analyzed it carefully. It may be eaten. anything else."

Xie Yichen vaguely recalled the scene when he saw Ning Jue at that time, but it was a little fuzzy, and shook his head with a smile: "Why do you look like a boy."

"Like it?" Ning Jue raised his eyebrows.

"It's not like now."

"I'm going to catch mice now, so I'm also like a boy?"

It was also a joke, Xie Yichen was only thinking vaguely, the Ning Jue at that time overlapped with the Ning Jue now, now Ning Jue has a weak voice, her skin is a little gloomy and pale, beautiful girls people always want her to be quiet and delicate, but Ning Jue It can stop children from crying at night, she finds it interesting.

Perhaps just to prove this sentence, she slept with Ning Jue at night, when Ning Jue suddenly lifted the blanket, grabbed the shovel from outside and slapped the ground four or five times, Xie Yichen was so startled that he almost stood up again.

"What's the matter?" The sky was still dark, at one or two in the morning, the sky where the fireworks had been set off was gray and full of a smell, there was too little light, and there were only shadows of each other indistinctly.

Ning Jue's black shadow moved and bent down, but he didn't know what he was doing. He turned on the flashlight and took a look, and exhaled: "It's a mouse, I killed it."

Before Xie Yichen took a closer look, she shoveled the dead mouse out.

"Come to eat gun-powder," she said.

"Do they take gun-powder?"

"I can eat anything, I can eat it as long as I can. The mice here are very strange, and sometimes they will climb up the wall. No one has been there for a long time. The south is a sorghum field. Rats are inevitable in bungalows. Sometimes they will bite off the water pipes." You have to keep an eye on it at home." Ning Jue raised his shovel and got into the bed again with a cold air, and Xie Yichen lost sleepiness in the other bed, always worried that a mouse would suddenly appear somewhere in the dark.

"Rats hide from people. Unless they are mentally ill after taking medicine, they know that they will be beaten to death." Ning Jue comforted her.

"What about the one just now?"

"I thought we were asleep at night, so I only dared to walk on the ground."

"Then how do you know?"

"After I told you about the mouse, I dreamed that I was going to eat dinner. The old lady celebrated her birthday and served flat peaches and pastries. I said this is really ancient style... Just as I was about to pick it up to eat, the old lady suddenly had a sharp and long mouth. Beard..."

"Don't talk nonsense."

"Okay, I just heard them creaking, I'm a shallow sleeper." Ning Jue smiled, wrapped the quilt tightly and curled up.

Xie Yichen thought about it, and was relieved by her joke: "I haven't seen a mouse for a long time. I was bitten once when I was a child, and I was very afraid of this kind of thing after that."

There was a burst of even breathing.

Ning Jue suddenly said, "I just went down to shoot mice, did I look like a man then?"

"It's not like." Xie Yichen didn't realize that this was a continuation of the day's topic, but Ning Jue smiled, and she also understood.

After waking up in the yard, I saw the bloody remains of the mouse from last night, which was frozen hard. Ms. Xie said that she forgot to borrow a cat earlier, but now it seems that Ning Jue is better than a cat.

Behind the scenes, Ning Jue said that she is not a cat, but a mouse, and she knows what mice do, so she is able to make an accurate shot.

Only Xie Yichen heard her high opinion, shook his head and said: "You said these things again, saying that you are a mouse, you are a trash..."

"Don't talk about this." Ning Jue was determined not to let Xie Yichen explain himself, and pushed her to follow the pace of New Year's greetings, looking here and there, but he didn't dare to go too far. The security of Lianhua County is not as good as that of Haijing, and he met many hooligans when he went far , that would be dangerous.

When they were reunited with their families, Ning Jue knew he was an outsider, and hugged his knees downstairs to watch as the ant, who had been revived earlier, moved a piece of instant noodle scum.

However, she suddenly saw a familiar person.

I saw him wandering in on his bicycle without greeting anyone, got out of the car with a sad face, and took out a cigarette and a bottle of wine from the basket.The wine is Beijing Erguotou, the smoke is fake Hongtashan, Ning Jue sat there and looked at him.

How is he so old?It was only over ten years ago, her head was bald, her waist was bent, and her legs seemed to be trembling. After standing there for a while, she suddenly walked towards Ning Jue.

Ning Jue sized him up and thought about it, was there a way to find a male teacher of German chocolate at that time?is it him?Could it be that I made a mistake?

But he had already approached, bowed his waist in an old-fashioned way, and humbled himself: "Little comrade, may I ask Xie Tianhua, does Director Xie live here?"

Xie Tianhua is Ms. Xie's relatives who are paying New Year's greetings today. Ning Jue looked at the gift he brought and couldn't help frowning: "Are you here to give a gift?"

"No, no, whether to give gifts or not, come to pay New Year's greetings..."

"There are guests at home, so come back another day." Ning Jue didn't have a good word to say.

She is like a mouse that has taken gunpowder, now she is full of mania, a revolution broke out in her belly, she wished she could get up and slap his ears directly.

"That's where I live." He didn't recognize her, and didn't care about her, he went up with trembling legs.She suddenly remembered when the teacher was kneeling in front of her, the chocolate in her pocket that had forgotten its taste at the end, and the scene where he couldn't wait to take off her pants.

She suddenly smiled and didn't look at the ant any more. Regardless of whether it got home or not, she was already in a good mood.

Sure enough, he was politely invited out, holding fake cigarettes and wine of unknown authenticity, and went downstairs in a daze.

Ning Jue deliberately asked: "How is it, Teacher Zhu? Why did you come out with something? Director Xie is not here?"

She tiptoed and poked her head to ask, and there were relatives of the Xie family behind her, which seemed to be a pretense.

However, with her sound, the male teacher's soul was called back, and he turned his head sullenly, full of unsatisfactory anger... Whoever came to give gifts during the Chinese New Year, gave them so embarrassingly!Asking for help, he...how can he lower his head, he is an intellectual!Has German relatives!In the early years, not everyone fawned on him, but now something happened to him...

He was determined to teach this little comrade a lesson, without thinking at all, how could she know that he was Mr. Zhu and not Mr. Zhang, Mr. Wang, Mr. Li... He just wanted to vent his anger in his mind, and stomped his feet and scolded: "I Bah! A thing with a human face and an animal heart! It’s full of feces and urine, pretending to be an upright official! Don’t you just use a few indicators! Isn’t it just a broken director! Bah! Someone came from the province, I wish I could give someone a butt—”

Ning Jue threw a rock at him, which hit his forehead.

"You hit me? What are you? You dare to hit me?" He immediately raised his fist to deal with Ning Jue. After taking a few steps, Ning Jue raised his hand and slapped him.

"Look at who I am, what are you? I'm still asking Mr. Xie to do something, let's do your grandpa!" Ning Jue had tasted power, she had tasted power, tasted the pleasure brought by someone else's identity, Old scores are settled again, she actually didn't care how the male teacher touched her back then, but she hated the teacher for framing her in the end, bah!nausea!A grown man being duped by a five year old?It is really not afraid of shame to say it!

The Xie family was not around, she slapped him twice, and suddenly realized that she was not really adopted by the Xie family.

So she didn't hit the third one, and the real situation overwhelmed her like a tidal wave over the power of nothingness.If there was no Xie family, she would never dare to go back to Lianhua County, and there would never be such a happy thing.

Ning Jue suddenly fell silent, while the man who was blinded by her two slaps stumbled and covered his face. He didn't know whether he was frightened by her awe-inspiring aura, or recognized that Ning Jue was holding him to death, and quickly backed away. Through the peeping eyes from the open window, he rode back on the bike.

The palm prints are intricate, and Ning Jue has asked people to tell his fortune many times, but this is the first time he has checked his own life in the palm of his hand.

She beat her furiously, beat her heart out, her palms hurt again, and reminded her brightly of the time when she was called a little/whore/women... So what if she was beaten, she was a bad person after all Even if he went to night school, avoided hooligans, and lived a good life, he was still a bad person. He was a rat in the cracks, he was garbage, and he thought he was a tank after eating gunpowder... The one she shot to death Only rats.

It's because of Director Xie who doesn't know her at all, it's the kindness of Ms. Xie's family, and it's the reward that I got after being ungrateful that shouldn't belong to me.

After the beating, she didn't regret it, but suddenly realized that after the happy ending, she would settle down with nothing, a vast expanse of whiteness, like fine dust floating under the lamp, and when the day dawned, there would be nothing left .

Is there anything that I can rely on?

The muffled sound of the wheelchair rolling over the ground made Ning Jue turn around, Xie Yichen frowned, Ning Jue let go of his hand, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry."

Xie Yichen passed her and looked at the back of Teacher Zhu who was going away: "Why do you apologize? You didn't apologize even if you did something wrong, why today..."

"I'm a bully," Ning Jue said.

"It's a derogatory term."

"I know, I'm a bitch."

The wheelchair approached her slowly, Xie Yichen raised his arms and pulled her, forcing her to face himself: "I'm a waste."

"you are not."

"Then neither are you." Xie Yichen raised his arms and tried to reach her shoulders, Ning Jue bent down obediently, his knees were soft beside Xie Yichen's legs.

"do not Cry."