red dust under the lamp

The white lady appeared.

Li Juanjuan appeared in white clothes.

Among the ignorant group of monsters, the white lady has already expressed a wish with her body, limbs, and expression. She breaks free from all the shackles in front of her eyes, breaks free from the ignorance of the group of monsters, and she wants to go to the endless sky.

However, she was injured, a weak little snake, only a young Xu Xian came, Xu Xian healed her, she remembered Xu Xian.

Since that farewell.

A long practice...an extremely long practice, the group of demons shouted, the white lady was a snake, writhing like a snake, practicing in struggle, and finally she turned the tail of the snake ignorantly, in a blink of an eye, a hundred flowers surrounded her, the stream in the mountain Surrounding her, she blooms from a lotus flower, she cultivates a human form, and she walks through the mountains.Breathing out the aura of the world and gathering the essence of the sun and the moon, she watched the demons decay and the world grow old in a blink of an eye. During her cultivation, a green snake accompanied her.

In a blink of an eye, she suddenly saw Xu Xian, so she led the green snake towards Xu Xian.

The sea changes, the scenery disperses, and the fairyland on earth fades away, replaced by the world of mortals.

By the West Lake, by the Broken Bridge, Xu Xian and White Snake met.

Ning Jue looked at Li Juanjuan and Xu Liwen on the stage, condescendingly examining the dance.Ning Jue doesn't understand art, but she admits that movements are beautiful, the human body is beautiful, and the story is also beautiful.

It was the white lady who resolutely endured criticism and went to the fairyland.

She leaned against the wall and watched everything on the stage. She watched Xu Liwen and Li Juanjuan performing lingering and loving performances. Then Li Juanjuan let go of Xu Xian and Xiaoqing, and suddenly jumped out of the crowd.

Li Juanjuan was reluctant.

Li Juanjuan is not a white lady.

Among the thousands of Bai Suzhens, the Bai Suzhen in this "White Snake New Edition" is not Li Juanjuan.

Xie Yichen thought silently.

She saw that Bai Suzhen was missing Xu Xian.

No, this is someone else's Bai Suzhen, this is the Bai Suzhen of various scripts and operas, but it is not the Bai Suzhen of this dance drama.She doesn't care about sentient beings, she stays in the world for a short time, that's her repayment, that's her myth, it's her own determination from the beginning to the end, if she loves these, she won't abandon everyone and become a fairy by herself.

She didn't know that Li Juanjuan liked Xu Liwen, she just felt that Li Juanjuan was not Bai Suzhen.No, Xie Yichen is worried, she can't let go, she doesn't agree!

Boom, boom, drums, thunder, Bai Suzhen bid farewell to Xu Xian, ghosts and monsters appeared one after another, the field was suddenly full of ghosts, in front of Bai Suzhen, all obstacles came, all pain came.

Sisters' friendship, husband and wife's love, common people, monsters, ghosts, in the underworld, under the Nine Netherworld, all rushed towards Bai Suzhen.

She danced as hard as she could, trying to break free.

But what she was trying to do was only herself in Xie Yichen's mind. Her eyes were blurred, and she couldn't see the stage in front of her clearly. Red, white, black, blue and blue were mixed together, and the colors were colorful.

Is she just here to see this?Is it watching the play being so spoiled, watching it slide to a strange distance little by little?

She seemed to have been greatly wronged, and her eyes were full of tears.Ms. Xie twisted the back of her hand to signal her not to make a fool of herself, but how could she bear it?How can my aunt bear it?Aunt can't see?Can't you tell that this white snake has already changed the sky and changed the sun, that it has already lost its three souls and seven souls?

In the remaining half, I endured the grievance, endured the pain, endured burningly, almost scratched my pants, and pinched my two legs reflexively... These two legs are not up to date, why are they the legs, sacrificed Not the face, but the legs?There is an empty skin left, but nothing can be done!She slapped Ning Jue forbidding her to pinch, and was too cruel to herself. It was not until all the actors were sweating at the curtain call, and Ms. Xie pushed her, that she came back to her senses, and even her palms hurt.

When Ning Jue pushed the cart over, Xie Yichen wanted to say a few more words.

She said more things to Ning Jue, as if she wanted to share her own fate... Ning Jue almost became her character, but if her fate was different, maybe Ning Jue would be better off, she would not have to suffer such a catastrophe, maybe she would be better off. Like a white lady... No, Ning Jue doesn't care about being a white lady. Even if she becomes a rich man from a poor life, she has to escape, and the flame in her heart is stronger than her.

But in full view, she didn't say much after all. Ning Jue was the psychedelic grass in the life-saving straw and her placebo. "Time", there is no regret, only peace, and you can think about other things - once you are alone, only half of the stage is left, like a broken bridge, without the other side.

She just went back to her disabled place and was picked up by her aunt.Then Ning Jue walked away behind him.

Li Yunguang, the direct person in charge of the dance troupe, was kind-hearted, followed by a critic and writer, followed by Li Juanjuan, who took off her make-up and walked in plainly, with her dance clothes loose on her body. Xie Yichen glanced at it.

After some pleasantries, the critic made a high-level comment: "I didn't realize until I arrived at the scene that the intention of this "White Snake New Edition" is too high. It is about women's liberation. Juanjuan is about the same age as my daughter. It’s amazing to be able to perform such a profound work.”

Li Yunguang smiled: "When it comes to women's liberation, we still have to learn from you. Your work "Concubine Yu" is old wine in a new bottle. It has a taste, and it is women's liberation. Our 'White Snake' may not be as good as your 'Concubine Yu'."

The writer's "Concubine Yu" is said to be adapted into a dance drama, and the dance troupe must absorb nutrition from literary works in order to survive.So we talked happily and flattered each other.

"What kind of image is the White Snake? She has been a demon for thousands of years, and she wants to marry a mortal who does laundry and cooking. This is feudal oppression. She broke free by herself. She awakened. She remembered that her original ideal was to become a fairy. She broke through obstacles and finally became a fairy. I think this story really shocked me. Juanjuan, you are the youngest and most promising young dancer I have ever seen. Go on and get a job title when the time comes. The people are watching you," said the writer.

Li Yunguang said symbolically: "Juanjuan is still young and inexperienced. To tell you the truth, the best candidate for our White Snake is Yichen."

The topic is brought to Xie Yichen, this is how people talk to each other, I will give you face, and you don't let me get off the stage, Li Yunguang will ask Li Juanjuan to participate in a national tour in the future, and praise her will be inevitable.

The next step is Xie Yichen's approval. The play has already come to this point. If Xie Yichen doesn't smile or give a few words of praise, she won't be able to get off the stage for the leader.Asking her to approve is just a matter of saving face, so what if she doesn't approve?The performance is still the same, and a few articles by the critics can lift up Li Juanjuan and step down Xie Yichen.

For the aesthetics of most audiences, it is impossible to distinguish the difference between Xie Yichen and Li Juanjuan's White Snake.

It doesn't matter what she says, but if she agrees, everyone should be happy, Li Juanjuan should be at ease, and Youyou's mouth should be blocked.

Xie Yichen's sadness suddenly aroused from below her body, as if her paralyzed legs suddenly felt angry, it wasn't pain, it wasn't itching, it was sadness that permeated her whole body, she didn't know if it was an illusion, the grievance just now came back.

When she was silent, Ms. Xie added a sentence for her: "Our Xie Yichen also often praised Juanjuan, saying that she recognized Juanjuan the most in the whole dance troupe. Juanjuan was one year younger than her. She worked hard and was also an old man in the dance troupe. gone."

Li Juanjuan lowered her head and said thank you, the smile on her face became more charming.

But Xie Yichen didn't look at anyone's expression. She wanted to lie, but her whole body was against her. Did she dare not tell the truth after she had a car accident?Did she lose her bottom line after going all out?

But everyone's face was given to her, and she slapped her again?

No, she thought about it, and spoke slowly: "Li Juanjuan is first-rate both in body movements and expressions."

Everyone's secretly lifted hearts fell heavily.Li Juanjuan smiled sincerely and was very happy to be recognized by Xie Yichen.

"but I think……"

Ms. Xie secretly pinched her shoulders.

But she continued: "When White Snake left Xu Xian, she looked back seven times. I think...she doesn't miss Xu Xian. Li Juanjuan's handling...is contrary to the intention of the whole show."

With a stiff smile and a pale face, everyone was silent for a moment.

Even Ms. Xie didn't know where to start when she wanted to smooth things over. Instead, Li Juanjuan seemed to have been poked and argued: "The White Snake doesn't like Xu Xian, so is she still the White Snake? This drama is The White Snake, not Chang'e. Even Chang'e, who has human love, will look at Hou Yi, isn't she lonely after going to the Heavenly Palace? I think you are using your own interpretation to occupy other people's interpretation..."

Before the elders had time to heal, Xie Yichen also became serious: "Her conflict is her repayment, the fulfillment of her humanity, and her ascension to immortality, the fulfillment of her divinity. You can say nothing about other white snakes, but ours White Snake doesn't—”

"Okay!" Ms. Xie interrupted the debate between Xie Yichen and Li Juanjuan, her face was very ugly.

The writer can still speak: "Let me just say, this dance drama has a profound conception, and the two mainstays have special high-level opinions. I think that the interpretation of this drama should be like this. When there are disputes, there should be thinking. I am very happy." Impressed!"

The elders were laughing again, Xie Yichen knew that what she did was wrong, she should have removed the "but" and the following part, but she kept her mouth shut, and the words came from elsewhere.

After people left one after another, Ms. Xie went to talk with Li Yunguang, sent the writer off, and turned around before leaving: "You go back today and reflect on it, and wait for me here, and I will come when I finish talking."

In the darkness, Xie Yichen pushed the wheelchair by himself and slowly turned around. Ning Jue shared the same sad fate with her in the darkness that could not be concealed. Be delighted.

Ning Jue slowly stepped down from the top step.

In a daze, Xie Yichen stood up, as if in a dream, she stood up, faced the auditorium, faced the blank auditorium, raised her arms, crossed her chest, bowed and saluted, and completed the final exit.

But this was a dream, Xie Yichen couldn't get up, the smoke on Ning Jue's body was still lingering, and a sense of confusion enveloped the two of them.

Xie Yichen said: "I let go."

Whether it was the truth, Ning Jue didn't know.

Xie Yichen held his weak legs, and extra wrinkles were pinched on his trousers. Xie Yichen bent his waist slightly, as if he was struggling to feel something. Ning Jue suddenly stood up straight, standing like a gracefully growing acacia tree, hanging down in pity Eye: "Go out for a walk?"

"Want you to pity me?"

Xie Yichen patted down the wheelchair heavily, stretched his body, like a baby bird learning to take off, raised the bones on his back with difficulty, his knuckles turned white while his hands were clenched, and the pain after empathy was written in his eyes.All the resentment was transferred to Ning Jue, and his face became ferocious. Every muscle trembled, contracted or relaxed, and the two legs that had always been placed at [-] degrees suddenly stretched a little bit.

She grew taller inch by inch, and raised her head angrily to stare at Ning Jue. Ning Jue was rushed by her with a calm face and pity in her eyes. Humblely pity her.

She stood up tremblingly, as if she had just broken out of her shell. Ning Jue remained silent, neither denying nor acknowledging, just watching the cripple suddenly regenerate, miraculously half-standing, struggling to hold on to the wheelchair, her body slightly Bow, slightly lower her head.

"I want you to have pity on me!"

The breath caught Ning Jue's neckline.

Xie Yichen inhaled and exhaled with difficulty.

"You are jealous of me." Ning Jue pitied her.

"What does it have to do with you! I just..."

just what?

what?

"Because my legs are good, because I didn't dance." Ning Jue fled from the car. For reasons that Ning Jue didn't know at the time, she walked resolutely. Along the way, regrets gradually disappeared. .

"Haha, am I jealous? All these people today have good legs. Am I jealous?"

Xie Yichen suddenly couldn't continue.

Is she jealous?She is jealous of all beings, jealous of Ning Jue, Ning Jue is the person closest to her destiny, so she is jealous.

She knew she was jealous, jealousy was burning like fire.

What she envied wasn't that Ning Jue's legs and feet were intact, it wasn't that Ning Jue pushed the door and left and chose to be poor and wandering...

She was jealous that Ning Jue didn't experience that afternoon.

After her mother passed away, she occasionally pushed open the door of the small theater that had been dusty for a long time, and saw a butterfly struggling and dancing on the stage. Lingfan's woman suddenly became a fairy, transformed into a butterfly, and flew towards a place that no one could see, far away from the world, shrouded in a dreamy mist like a veil.

She obsessively watched the thin dance coming out of the darkness on this simple stage, as if all the surrounding scenery was covered with silvery white moondrops on the white outline of divinity, as if she was in another world, and there was a door for her Open, filled with all the beauty that Xie Yichen, a young child, has not obtained in this life but yearns for. She sees her future outside the door, and sees all the pictures from birth to old age, but all the pictures have been dusty for a long time. She only knows that she is It had to be followed, and she had to open it again.

The door gradually disappeared, and she looked in surprise at the out-of-shape woman in the center of the stage. The woman put on a coat and lowered her eyelids: "Which family are you from?"

Xie Yichen met her aunt, Ms. Xie, at that time. Ms. Xie came back from abroad to bury her only sister who had suffered and persecuted, but it was too late. The name that still followed the father was erased by Ms. Xie.

The ignorant toddler was also erased, and replaced by the dancer Xie Yichen who became delusional after seeing a dream.

Now, the dream is not finished yet, the dream is a nightmare, and when she suddenly wakes up, she sees that she has become a useless person... The dream is one step away, but she has to wait thousands of years!When I die, I will turn into a pile of soil, and then stand on this stage... I can't wait for the afterlife!

She opened her mouth mournfully, but couldn't utter a single syllable.

She had lived all these days deceiving herself, but faced the moment of waking up from the dream!

Xie Yichen acted obediently and submissively, she was willing to come, she was willing to sit in the car peacefully, she did not leave like Ning Jue, it was for that never-ending dream!

How poor she is.

She knew why Ning Jue felt sorry for her... What was she chasing?

How could Ning Jue see it so clearly?Naked/naked/naked pity her with eyes?

She finally stood up straight, she and Ning Jue were at the same level, she couldn't express her jealousy, she couldn't express her sorrow, she almost stepped into the dirt, ashes to ashes, ashes to ashes, she was just a handful of dust !

She smiled miserably and woke up from the dream.

She fell into the wheelchair again, the feeling of her legs was pulled away, she stood up briefly, and was quickly taken away.

Desperation swallowed the sky, she had no smile, no expression, no grievance left, her soul was empty.

She wanted to die or was martyred before, but what is she martyred for now?Even death has nothing to pursue.

The soul completely went with that dream.

"I'm an animal that only knows how to eat, drink, and scatter. You are a demented fairy. Everyone has their own way of life. I don't advise you."

There was a small wooden bead in the pocket, Ning Jue turned it out, looked at the peace amulet she asked for in Pingkang Temple in the dim light, and pinned it on Xie Yichen's wrist.

The slender white wrist and the red and black beads reflected the jade-faced Buddha's brows red, Xie Yichen's eyes moved, but he didn't say anything, and his lips curled into a cold arc.