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After school, An Zhi packed his schoolbag and went to the stadium.

Now that he has signed up, Anzhi's idea is to do his best to do this well, even if he is rejected in the qualifiers.As long as you give without leaving any regrets, even if there is no result, An Zhi can still face Teacher Fang Ji with his head upright, without the slightest bit of shame or cowardice, and say something dignifiedly.

I tried my best.

She took up the challenge, tried bravely, and tried her best to do her best. Although the result was not satisfactory, An Zhihui had a clear conscience.

The stadium of Xijing High School is very large. The outdoor basketball court and badminton court are closest to the teaching building, and the plastic track can only be reached through it.There are so many students playing here after school, the two basketball courts are not enough points, and occasionally there are even disputes over the right to use the court.At times like this, the upper grades usually have the right to speak, and the lower grades can only leave in despair, respecting teachers and elders, which can be regarded as sticking to the rules on the court.

An Zhi took a look as he passed by, and found that Xi Mu was warming up on the basketball court wearing a white No. 8 jersey.Her long brown hair was tied into a high ponytail, and she fell down neatly. After a few shots of the ball in her hand, she jumped up to shoot, and scored a three-pointer.The eyes are calm and calm, the movements are chic and neat, and there is a fascinating handsomeness in every gesture.Coupled with her superior height and heroic facial features, there are a lot of fans screaming and cheering for her when she is playing.

Qin Siyu was also there, but she was separated from the group of girls by a certain distance. Her expression was not turbulent. She was neither happy for Xi Mu's great performance, nor because her sweetheart had such a bunch of fans. sister and jealous.She just stood aside, looking at Xi Mu quietly, her heart and eyes were all about her.

An Zhi suddenly felt sorry for her, and felt that it was worthless for Qin Siyu to like someone so begrudgingly. She is so good, and she could have someone who loved her better, but she insisted on hanging on the tree of Xi Mu. die.Thinking about it, An Zhi suddenly laughed, feeling that she was worrying unnecessarily, how could she have the spare time to feel sorry for other people, wouldn't she be even more pitiful.

She withdrew her envious gaze and continued walking along this road.A small road, divided into two worlds.There was a lot of noise on one side, and the adolescent boys and girls swayed their youth wantonly, running and laughing without any scruples, enjoying the best and most carefree time in their lives.Even liking is so blatant and undisguised, you must shout her name hoarsely in front of everyone, otherwise it seems that you can't express the love that is surging in your heart.

On the other side, the sycamore trees along the road dropped large pieces of withered and yellow leaves, which piled up on the side of the road, covering a thick layer.The girl stepped on it and made a crunching sound.She walked forward slowly alone, a lone figure with a bleak back, with the unique desolation of autumn.

An Zhi came to the plastic runway and slumped his shoulders slightly disappointed.Perhaps because of the upcoming sports meeting, there were quite a few students on the track. Taking a quick look, there were seven or eight of them, all of them in good shape, with slender limbs and full of strength.And in the football field inside the runway, there are more than ten boys playing football.

The football was kicked violently, drawing a beautiful arc in the sky, and it was about to fall into the opponent's goal.The boy guarding the gate jumped forward to meet him, but unfortunately he still didn't stop him.When the ball hit the net, they hugged and cheered on the lawn. The boy who shot the goal was lifted up by other people and thrown into the sky. The laughter could be clearly heard from so far away.

That's great, other people's youth.

An Zhi turned around and walked towards the infirmary. There was a small path there, which was sparsely populated and few people passed by. It was a good training ground for An Zhi.

She hung her schoolbag on the railing outside the infirmary, and put some valuables on her inside. There are teachers on duty in the infirmary, and there are surveillance cameras outside, so Anzhi is not too worried about being stolen.

A normal adult's step is about 500 centimeters. Anzhi's steps are small, and if calculated by 1000 centimeters, a distance of [-] meters will take about [-] steps.But if you count the distance to go back, in fact, [-] steps are enough.An Zhi took the tree at the door of the infirmary as the starting point, walked forward [-] steps, and then carved a mark with a stone on the ground, marking this as the turning point.

Qi Lin in the infirmary stood by the window with great interest and looked at the girl outside. She was holding a mug with steaming milk in her hand.The girl let go of the cane in her hand, and tried to move her legs like a toddler.

Probably because of the habitual use of her left foot, her movements are incoherent and unfamiliar, and even look a little ridiculous. After all, it is really absurd to say it. How can someone not walk?

Qi Lin couldn't laugh, his heart sank uncontrollably.This is definitely not a scene to laugh at, nor is it a funny story.She can see An Zhi's bravery and persistence. If anyone dares to laugh at her, Qi Lin will be the first to go up and slap him in the face.

The girl is constantly trying, trying how not to use her right leg too much, trying how to increase her speed as much as possible, she even used her watch to see how long it would take her to run 500 meters, but the result Not quite as expected.

The moment Qi Lin saw the girl's disappointment, he couldn't help but feel a throbbing pain in his heart. She put down the mug, put on a white coat, and walked out.

She patted the schoolbag on the handrail, the sound attracted An Zhi to turn around, Qi Lin picked up the schoolbag and gave An Zhi a gentle smile.

"Are you tired, do you want to come in and take a rest?"

An Zhi's eyes were surprised, the bangs on her forehead were wet with sweat, and her eyes were also wet with steam.She didn't expect that Teacher Qi Lin saw her and even invited her.Considering the pain in his right foot and his exhausted physical strength, Anzhi nodded.

This is the second time she has come to the infirmary. The last time she passed out, she was in a hurry to go home after waking up, so she didn't pay much attention to the appearance of the room.Now that he came in, An Zhi found that the place was clean and tidy, surrounded by big trees, which added a sense of tranquility.

"Sit whatever you want, you're welcome."

Qi Lin washed a clean new cup, and used the microwave to warm milk for An Zhi.

An Zhi smiled shyly, sat obediently on the sofa, and slowly rubbed his right ankle, trying to relieve the too sharp pain.She looked around, and found a pair of eyes staring at her coldly. An Zhi was startled, and when she looked closely, she realized that it was a snake.

The snake was in a transparent glass cage, with a blue body, a small head and tail, and a long, slender and beautiful body.This image reminds Anzhi of Guanhu in Japanese monsters, but without the beautiful fur.

(Guanhu: a fox that can hide in the barrel of a pen, very thin, like a snake but with fox fur)

"So you keep snakes."

An Zhi took the milk handed over by Teacher Qi Lin, thanked him, and asked with great interest.

"I didn't raise it. I don't know where the wild snakes come from are always entangled with me, and I can't drive them away. I was afraid of scaring the students, so I just bought a cage to keep it in."

Anzhi: ...?

It turns out that snakes still actively entangle people?An Zhi was a little confused. In her impression, animals like snakes are generally afraid of people and will avoid people. There is no such thing as actively entanglement.

It's not some white lady looking for Xu Xian.

Thinking of this, An Zhi suddenly became curious, whether this little green snake has a name or not.

"Then what is it called?"

"I didn't name her, do you think of one?"

An Zhi pursed his lips and smiled, a hint of mischievousness in his cuteness, "How about calling me Xiaoqing?"

Of course Qi Lin had no objection, "Sure, you can often come to the infirmary to see it in the future."

"Really? Will it bother you?"

"No, you are welcome to come here often to play."

Qi Lin smiled softly. She is not very beautiful, but there is always a sense of kindness when she smiles. It is difficult for people to feel defensive and resistant.It probably has something to do with her dual career as a teacher and a doctor. An Zhi couldn't help but feel close to her, curled the corners of his mouth, and smiled.

She drank the milk in small sips, the temperature of the heated milk was just right, it had that fresh and thick milky aroma, and it would not be too hot to the tongue.

Looking at it, Qi Lin felt like a kitten was licking milk, it was very cute.She softened her eyes and rubbed her palms, feeling that the current atmosphere is good.There is a cold wind blowing outside, the house is warm and peaceful, and Anzhi is not as restrained as he was when he first came in, so maybe we can chat now.

"Anzhi."

"Ok?"

"Do you want to say something to the teacher?"

An Zhi put down the cup, and slowly wiped away the milk stains on her lips, she knew what Teacher Qi Lin was talking about.The infirmary has never been just an infirmary, but also plays a role in the psychological communication of students, in order to help these children grow up healthier and better.

An Zhi didn't resist such help, but she didn't know how to ask.

"What does the teacher want to say?"

"Let's talk about dreams and the future. What kind of job does Anzhi want to do in the future? What kind of person does he want to be?"

"I don't know...I haven't thought about it..."

After all, for An Zhi, just living is already very strenuous.She still bears the sins of her previous life and has to pay off her debts. An Zhi really doesn't know what direction her life will take.Just like before transferring to this school, she never thought that the dragon who died for herself would completely forget her.

Life always gives her all kinds of surprises, not the kind of praise. An Zhi's weak body can't go that far, and she can't think that far.For her, tomorrow is a particularly illusory word, only today and now in front of her are real.

Qi Lin sighed silently in his heart, the expected answer, it's no surprise to get such an answer, it's just that Qi Lin wants to ask more directly.

"So have you ever thought about...suicide?"

"The psychological evaluation form you submitted online before admission, the results are not very satisfactory, and there is a slight tendency to self-destruct."

"The teacher has been very worried about you and wants to talk to you alone."

An Zhi tightened her fingers, and a trace of bewilderment and panic flashed across her face. This was her biggest secret, the most unspeakable shame. Now that Teacher Qi Lin pointed it out, she instinctively felt uneasy and subconsciously wanted to resistance.

"It's okay, you don't need to answer, and the teacher won't tell your mother about today's chat."

"I promise you this with my personality."

When her mother was mentioned, the city wall that Anzhi built collapsed instantly, and she felt unavoidably guilty and ashamed.Mother is the softest and untouchable point in her heart, and An Zhi's eyes will turn red when she touches her a little.

"I thought about leaving quietly, but I never did it, not even tried."

"Because I know that my mother loves me very much. She divorced her husband for me and left Peiping for me. If I leave, she will definitely be very sad."

"I don't want to make her sad, I dare not make her sad."

"But sometimes I can't help but wonder, would she live a much easier and happier life without me, would she not be so tired without me?"

Will she be like other women, with healthy and lovely children, a handsome and wealthy husband, and a complete and happy family?

Without her...without her...

The little girl hung her head in silence, her appearance of crying was really distressing, Qi Lin handed over a packet of tissue paper, she looked out of the window, the withered and yellow leaves fell from the branches, buried in the ground with a dead body .This is true of everything in the world, and no creature can escape this cycle of reincarnation.

"But you're just thinking about it, right?"

"You'd never do it, would you?"

Qi Lin's voice was still so gentle, without the slightest bit of blame, which made An Zhi feel that the psychological burden was greatly relieved, as if the heavy boulder on her chest was unknowingly crushed into powder, she nodded, her eyes were red, like a bird bunny.

"I won't do it."

"That's okay. Everyone has this kind of self-destructive psychology to some extent. Freud called it the death instinct and death drive. Even adults who are mentally sound will occasionally have the destruction of the world and the destruction of the earth." Explode this kind of negative thought, but he will definitely not join the terrorist/terrorist/molecular/item, really do it, right.”

An Zhi blinked, a little in disbelief: "So, is this normal?"

Qi Lin blinked at her, and promised with a light smile, "Yes, Anzhi, this is normal."

"You are also very strong, stronger than many people the teacher has met."

"You should be proud of your strength, and live with your head held high."

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Freud's explanation of self-destruction is in "Civilization and Its Flaws", you can take a look.

There are theories, but the senior sister is just writing nonsense, just look at it.

Qi Lin's identity is very mysterious, but the senior sister actually gave a hint!

Has any elementary school girl guessed it ~ there will be a red envelope reward!