Jade is not jade

During this sleep, both of them slept very unsteadily, raising their eyelids from time to time to see if the person in their arms was still there, as if they were afraid they were dreaming.

After waking up, Yu Nian was not as unscrupulous as before when he was impulsive, but seemed a little embarrassed.

Yang Jiayue found Yu Nian's palm under the quilt, and asked softly, "You frowning, what are you thinking?"

Yu Nian didn't dare to look at him, and only asked worriedly, "When did your mobile phone become in arrears, did you receive the text message I sent you?"

Yang Jiayue asked: "What did you post?"

Yu Nian was secretly happy, thank God! "nothing."

"..." Yang Jiayue didn't ask any further questions, since Yu Nian didn't want to say it, so he didn't say it.

Yu Nian asked weakly: "Do you feel sick? What happened just now..." When the two of them were touching each other skin to skin, Yu Nian was very afraid that Yang Jiayue would stop halfway because he couldn't accept it.

It is true that men are easy to be teased. Men are animals that think from the lower body, but the premise of this kind of thing is "psychological barrier".

And Yang Jiayue is an out-and-out heterosexual. From accepting himself, to liking himself, to having a relationship, how much psychological struggle does he have to go through?

"What about you?" Yang Jiayue didn't answer Yu Nian's question, but instead asked, "Will you regret it?"

Yu Nian blurted out: "I don't regret it."

Yang Jiayue raised the corners of his mouth and patted Yu Nian's back lightly, as if to comfort a baby. At this moment, he looked like an older brother doting on his younger brother.

If he was still confused and hesitant about this relationship before, then at this time, Yu Nian's answer strengthened his heart and made him no longer depressed or afraid.

If it is said that the previous hardships were all for him to get the heart of the person in his arms, then he would not hesitate to go through it again.

If he used to treat Yu Nian the same way he treated a distant brother, then from this moment on, he will treat him the way he treats his lover, and he can no longer tolerate others in his eyes.

Every move is a promise, which will be seen and remembered by another person. *1

Yang Jiayue put his arms around Yu Nian, rubbed his ears with him, and kissed his ears.

He no longer comforted Yu Nian the way he comforted a girl, any behavior was from the heart and instinct.

He didn't know when his mouth became so stupid, he couldn't even say the easiest love words, it seems that the legend is true, love can make people a fool.

……

A sound of "gurgling" came out of the bed inappropriately, Yang Jiayue laughed out loud, and asked Yu Nian, "Are you hungry?"

Yu Nian looked at him pitifully: "Well, you haven't eaten all day, aren't you hungry?"

Yang Jiayue kissed his nose and said, "Eating rice cakes will make you full."

Yu Nian: "..."

Yang Jiayue grabbed his phone to check the time, it was almost four o'clock in the afternoon: "I'll cook for you."

Yu Nian said: "Mom cooked the meal, it's in the kitchen, you can eat it while it's hot."

Yang Jiayue: "Okay, let's eat something first. I'll cook in a while and make two dishes for my aunt."

Yu Nian beamed with joy: "Well, let mom have a taste of the chef's skills."

When Yu's mother returned home, besides the smell of vegetables, there was also a strange smell. Since her eyes could not see clearly, her nose was particularly sensitive to smells.

She went away in search of food, and the range hood was turned on in the kitchen, which was rumbling, covering up the sound of her footsteps.

Two teenagers are busy in the kitchen, the taller one has the same back as her first love, and is skillfully cooking with a spatula, while the other is standing aside with a plate, looking intently at the man's profile, like As if with a tacit understanding, the man turned his head slightly, and kissed the lips of the young man who came up to him.

This series of movements is done so naturally; those two standing side by side are so pleasing to the eye...

Mother Yu stood at the door of the kitchen, so startled by the kiss that she forgot to speak. She stepped aside and covered her hot face with cold hands.

...Oh my, how old are you, and I am so shocked by the love of children that I blush and my heart beats...

Yu's mother blamed herself, but she couldn't control her imagination.

...Oh, really, it would be nice if I could see it more clearly just now...

"Mom? You're back!" Yu Nian came out with a pot of fried pork head meat. Seeing that his mother had arrived home from get off work, but he didn't notice it, he said strangely, "Why don't you make any noise!"

Mother Yu: "I just arrived too... Yueyue is back?"

Yu Nian blushed: "Yes."

Yu's mother smiled and said, "Come here, can you stay at home tonight?"

"Well, live here," Yu Nian turned his head quickly, as if feeling guilty about being found out about adultery, and said, "Mom, sit down for a while, Brother Yue is cooking."

"How can I let him do it?" Yu's mother glared at her son, "How many dishes do you have left? You watch TV for a while, and mother will cook!" After saying that, Yu's mother went to the kitchen.

Yu Nian held her back and said, "It's almost done!"

……

In the evening, there was a lot of fun at the dinner table, and Yang Jiayue was not as restrained as he was when he first came here.He was hungry for a day and a night, during which he only bought a piece of bread on the train, and then said "eating rice cakes" was also a joke, how could such a thing satisfy his hunger...

Mother Yu was full of praise for Yang Jiayue's craftsmanship, and during the meal she asked many questions with concern, such as where did she go to school, what major did she study, and whether she usually cooks by herself.

Both of them cleverly tacitly understood the past, and they broke through that doubt without any guesswork.

After the meal, Yu Nian and Yang Jiayue hid in the bedroom early.

Yu's mother still thoughtfully rushed hot water bottles for the two of them, but when she was about to enter the room to help them make the quilt, Yu Nian stopped at the door.

Yu Nian said nervously: "Give me, give me, we can fold the quilt ourselves!"

Yu's mother stuffed hot water into Yu Nian's arms and said, "Hey, okay, you can make it yourself."

I always felt that my mother's eyes were shining brightly just now... (Eh, stop thinking about Yu Nian! Do you think that kind of thing is broadcast live across the country at the same time!)

After closing the door, Yu Nian breathed a sigh of relief. (Just kidding! If Mom really came in just now and saw the messy quilt and sheets, and the hand cream on the nightstand...)

QAQ hand cream!

Yu Nian quickly sent the hand cream back to the bathroom, and washed the shell again, but it seemed to be flattened a lot...

As the saying goes, full of warmth and lust.

Yu Nian, a 19-year-old boy, experienced the joy of sex for the first time, with his lover nearby. If he can bear it, he is really a saint!Yang Jiayue is also not honest, he ate three bowls of rice at night, and he has a lot of energy.

That night, Yu Nian ran to the bathroom with his bare butt...

The interest is up, and he doesn't care so much-if I knew it, I wouldn't have put the hand cream back just now!

The two of them have really lived the couple life of you and me in the past few days, watching TV and movies during the day, and having sex secretly at night.

There are no entertainment facilities in the small town, and the two of them are unwilling to go out in the cold weather, which has fulfilled Yang Jiayue's previous prophecy - he is here to "play" Yu Nian.

Seeing that the Spring Festival travel season is here, Yang Jiayue really wants to go back this time.

Yu Nian accompanied Yang Jiayue to the station to buy a ticket. On the way, he held Yang Jiayue's hand tightly and said reluctantly, "Can't we celebrate the New Year at my house?"

"I still have to go back." Yang Jiayue patted Yu Nian on the shoulder and comforted him, "I'll call you and send you text messages. Don't turn off the phone this time."

Yu Nian let out a muffled "Yes", but silently prayed in his heart that some accident would prevent Yang Jiayue from getting a ticket.

In fact, the first station of the train to Beijing is not the small town of Yu Nian’s hometown, but a big city in the south. The railway runs through the north and the south. During the Spring Festival, many people go home from the south to the north. There is a ticket, and it is very likely that there is no seat.

The two of them went to the window to ask, and the seats they could buy were for the day after tomorrow, 29 years old, and they were hard seats on the extra bus.

"Yeah, it's the Chinese New Year at the station!" Yu Nian said gloomily, "Do you really want to go back? Can't you tell my aunt?"

Yang Jiayue rubbed his hair.

Yu Nian: "..."

Yang Jiayue hugged Yu Nian and said, "Okay, just a few days, I'll wait for you in Beijing."

Under the curious eyes of the ticket seller, Yang Jiayue bought a hard seat ticket back to Beijing on the 29th.

A few days before we parted, time seemed particularly precious, and no minute or second should be wasted.Even Yu's mother deliberately ignored it, and it was inevitable to see the two children stuck together, sometimes head to head, sometimes holding hands, like conjoined twins.

On the 28th of the Lunar New Year, Yu's mother's factory was closed for holiday.She took the children to the supermarket to buy necessities for the New Year, chicken, duck, fish, glutinous rice balls, rice... Two handsome boys followed her, carrying things and baskets for her, and the rate of returning was high.

Mother Yu's face was full of joy that couldn't be concealed, and even her eyes became clearer.

Knowing that Yu Yue was going back, she had been busy all night preparing things for him to take away.

Zongzi, roast chicken, dried fungus, hometown specialties, etc., a whole big bag.I slept for two hours at night, got up at five o'clock and made a big bowl of spicy fried rice cakes, half of which were wrapped in an instant noodle box for Yu Yue to eat on the train, and the other half was served with millet porridge for breakfast.

At seven o'clock, Yu Nian accompanied Yang Jiayue to the train station, Yu's mother spent the whole night in the living room, they didn't dare to do anything, they only dared to hug each other and kiss...

At 08:30, the KX92 train ticket check began. Yang Jiayue walked through the deserted ticket gate with his things.

Before going out, he looked back at Yu Nian, and saw him staring at him stupidly, with a look of reluctance on his face, leaning forward slightly, as if he would rush over to walk with him in the next second...

Yang Jiayue waved at him and mouthed three words.

The train rumbled into the small station with the sound of friction between the iron wheels and the tracks. Passengers in twos and threes returned to their long-lost hometown, but Yang Jiayue was about to leave.

He carried the luggage and found the carriage number printed on the ticket. Through the window, there were strange passengers, crowded space, and narrow aisles.

Before going up, Yang Jiayue seemed to smell the suffocating smell.He stood at the entrance of the carriage, hesitant to move forward.

The conductor urged him: "Don't get on the train! It's leaving in one minute!"

It seems to be back to the year when he was ten years old, he followed his mother to the north, and in order to save a ticket, he and his mother squeezed into the same seat.Beside him was a middle-aged woman who smelled like pig manure and was very fat. She and her mother squeezed themselves in between for twenty hours, making him suffocate.

But he didn't dare to say anything, because his mother had been looking out the window with red eyes since she got in the car.

At that time, a series of blows had made him learn to be silent.

……

Neighbors and teachers asked, Yueyue, who are you with after your parents divorced?

divorce?What is divorce?Among parents, if you have to choose one, of course it is with your father!Dad has a loving smile, gentle eyes, tutoring homework by himself every day, making soup for himself... and mother, a relative who is a little strange, comes home late at night, and dad takes him to school in the morning. sleeping at home...

But that night, my father stroked his hair and said, "Yueyue, follow mom from now on, be obedient, you are an adult, you are a man, you have to protect mom well, you know?"

He has been obedient since he was a child, has good grades and is obedient. He is a role model among children, the idol of his younger brother, and the prince charming of all the girls in the school.

He likes to pretend to be cool, and imitated his father to pretend to be deep, so when he heard his father's advice, he answered concisely: "I know."

He will not act like a baby with his father like other children, crying and saying "Dad, don't you want me?" He only knows that he is a boy and he must be strong. His father taught him since he was a child that a man bleeds but does not shed tears...

"If you miss Dad, write a letter to Dad, and Dad will go to Beijing to see you..." The last expression of the loving father has always remained in the depths of my memory. At that year, my father was still very young and had no gray hair.

He thought it was just a short separation, and he firmly believed in what his father said, but he never thought that this farewell would be a farewell forever...

Later, my mother remarried and was forced to change her name, and all the letters from my father were torn up.

She said: "You don't have a father, you are not the child he wants at all!"

She said: "I divorced your father because of your brother's mother! You still talk about him every day, and your heart is eaten by wolf cubs!"

She beat him, and if he was disobedient, she would lock him in a dark storage room for a whole day...

I don’t know when I started, I didn’t dare to think about it, I didn’t dare to expect any more, I just wanted to grow up quickly and forget about the past, childhood years were just a dream...?

dad……

Yang Jiayue stood in front of the train blankly, his lips parted.

The sky is white, the mountains are green, where is the destination?

There was a bell ringing that the train was about to close, and the conductor in the distance whistled hurriedly, and the conductor yelled at him impatiently: "You can't get on the train yet!"

Yang Jiayue took a step back and said to the conductor, "I'm sorry."

The man was startled, cursed "sick", and then waved the little red flag in the direction of the whistle.

The train comes and goes.

Yang Jiayue stood on the empty platform, raised his head and asked the sky: Dad, did you make Xiao Nian continue to love me?

From far to near, the staff looked at Yang Jiayue like a monster: "Young man, are you playing? You can't get on the bus after buying a ticket! What are you thinking? Could it be that you are out of your body?"

Yang Jiayue smiled apologetically and followed him out of the station.

"The guy is pretty handsome. What do you do? Or go to college? Let me tell you, you can't get a refund after passing the ticket inspection..." The staff was still chattering at the front, but Yang Jiayue was caught by the guy in the waiting room. The figure sucked away all sanity.

Yu Nian stood at the same place, still maintaining that posture, looking at the direction when he left.

His whole body was shrouded in loneliness, his eyes were gloomy, and there seemed to be a trace of unpredictable expectation, looking thin and pitiful.

Due to the small size of the station, the exit and entry halls are in the same hall, and the entrances are at two different corners.

Yang Jiayue went around and approached him step by step from behind. There were only two steps left. Yu Nian suddenly turned his head and opened his eyes wide in disbelief...

"I'm back again." Yang Jiayue looked at him helplessly and smiled.

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Note 1: "Every move is a promise, which will be seen and remembered by another person."

From Miyazaki Shun's animation film "Ponyo on the Cliff" (PONYO)