Jade is not jade

Seeing that his brother was stunned by the fright, Xiao Meng suddenly felt a little funny again, and seized the opportunity to continue teasing him: "I saw you doing that kind of thing with Brother Min!"

Xiao Long's expression contorted and he gasped: "What, when?"

Xiao Meng: "In the winter vacation of freshman year, you and Brother Ming stayed at our house the night before we came back from Beijing..."

At that time Xiao Long was sleeping, Wang Min lay on him and kissed him, Xiao Meng bumped into him accidentally, turned around and fled without daring to take a second look.

He stayed in his room for a while in fear, his heart beating faster than the first time he kissed his first love girlfriend... Later, he was afraid that their parents would see them doing this kind of thing, so he couldn't help coming out and secretly guarding the door for them.

In retrospect it was truly abominable!Wang Min simply doesn't see himself as an (outsider) person!

Xiao Long's face turned red and pale when he heard it, and he wanted to die!Under the helplessness of Liu Shen, he instinctively wanted to call Wang Min for help, but just now he made up his mind not to bother him with these things...

hehe.Xiao Long smiled wryly: You fool, you can't live without Wang Min at all!Whether you are happy, sad, or confused, the first thing you think of is always him.

We have known each other for five and a half years now, Wang Min entangles himself like cattail grass, firmly holds himself down like a rock, a rope saws wood, and water drips through a stone...

Xiao Long sat on the bed in frustration, covering his face with his hands, feeling bitter and helpless but also gratified and moved.

I wish to have one heart and one mind, and the white head will not be separated.No one in this life can separate them.

"Xiao Meng." Xiao Long called out his younger brother's name in an unusually low voice, so serious that the corners of Xiao Meng's mouth twitched.

Xiao Meng: "Huh?"

Xiao Long plucked up the courage to grit his teeth and said, "No matter what, I will be with Wang Min for the rest of my life!"

Xiao Meng: "..."

"You may think I'm disgusting, think I'm a pervert, hate me, despise me..." Xiao Long choked up and continued, "I know this is abnormal, but there's nothing I can do. Choose between Wang Min, I, I...I choose Wang Min, I love him, woo..." After saying this, Xiao Long couldn't help sobbing.

Seeing the brother cry out after such an affectionate confession, Xiao Meng was instantly at a loss: Hey, big brother!is it so serious!It's not life and death!I just said that you had an affair with Wang Min, and I didn't force you to go to Liangshan!Do you have to be so involved? (=mouth=)

A certain person was crying so badly, his tears and snot were wiped on his younger brother's mattress, as if he had foreseen the end of being abandoned by his relatives, the more he thought about it, the sadder he became, the more he felt wronged, the more he thought about it, the more he felt that this ending was heartbreaking Cut the lungs.

Xiao Meng panicked, his brother's state will soon attract his mother and it will be over!

"You (crying) keep your voice down!!" Xiao Meng pulled out a few tissues and stuffed them on his brother's face in a ruthless manner, then walked around the bed nervously, and even went to lock the door.

Once crying, Xiao Long couldn't stop, and the panic about the future poured out. It turned out that those worries never disappeared, but were buried in the deepest part of his heart under Wang Min's comfort and protection.

While sobbing, he said incoherently: "Mom will definitely not be able to accept it, and Dad, they will kill me if they find out, I will let them down, woo... I will definitely not have children in the future, two Men can’t have children. If I could have one, I’d like to give Wang Min one, let my mother hug her grandson (?), but I can’t, if only I were a girl, oh... you I have been so good at girls since I was a child, and I have talked with so many girlfriends. I don’t have any of them. I only have Wang Min, but Wang Min is really good. Without him, I would be a big fool. So fulfilling, he has done a lot for me, I can't help him with anything, only I can repay him with my whole heart and no hesitation (promise with my body), only this... woo woo..."

Xiao Meng was embarrassed and speechless, because Xiao Long was still in the "state", he couldn't say something light-hearted, so he could only make fun of it seriously: "Brother, I won't despise you, you It's fate too... In the worst case, I'll have another adoptive child for you in the future, and that's not a problem..." Well, the task of carrying on the family line is so arduous! (=_=)

Half an hour later, Xiao Long finally finished venting, his nose and eyes were still red, his face was wet, and the corners of his eyes drooped.Xiao Meng sat on the edge of the bed, looked sideways at his brother twice, and thought about it again.

I don't know if it's a psychological effect, but I always feel that my brother who likes men is different from normal men... (Please tell me that the "poor and cute" feeling that arouses men's desire to protect is an illusion!!!)

Xiao Long didn't know that Xiao Meng was having these psychological struggles, but felt that his brother was so caring and moved him very much.

Immediately afterwards, the shoulder was hugged by an arm, and then the head was pulled over to lean on someone's shoulder, and Xiao Meng's muffled voice was heard next to his ear: "Don't be sad, I won't tell my parents. "

Xiao Long: "..."

It's been a long time since Xiao Long had such intimacy with Xiao Meng. Ever since he had a skin-to-skin contact with Wang Min, he was a little shy to hug another person of the same sex like this, even if that person was his younger brother...

Xiao Meng said: "Take your time, my parents couldn't accept it at first, but it's not as serious as what you said, you have such a good relationship with Wang Min, they won't cut off ties with you just because you two are not married together. Our parents are more traditional, but which one of their generation is not traditional? I couldn’t accept homosexuality at first, and I found it disgusting. It was only after I knew about the relationship between you and Brother Ming that I gradually learned about it. I thought Homosexuality is not normal, but you and Brother Ming are very different from the homosexuality I imagined. After reading a lot of books on homosexuality, I realized that homosexuality is not a disease. It is a normal love just like heterosexuality. So , People’s ideas can be changed. Nietzsche said, “We must overcome the times in one person.” More than ten years ago, college students were not allowed to fall in love! From a psychological point of view, as long as parents With some coaching and indoctrination, they can slowly accept these facts..."

Xiao Meng's stiff movements showed that he was not as natural as he looked, both his tone and his movements were a bit mature, but what he said made Xiao Long admire him, and his younger brother's image instantly glowed!

Xiao Long was so moved that his spine twitched and went numb, and the tears that had just stopped showed signs of welling up again.

The younger brother who used to step on ketchup with his buttocks, the younger brother who cried and clamored for this and the ignorant younger brother, the younger brother who ran away from home for his first love and his dream, has finally grown up...

In the evening, I share the bed with my younger brother, each with a quilt, Xiao Long sleeps inside, facing the wall and texting Wang Min, telling Wang Min everything that happened today.

A text message can only type 50 characters, Xiao Long sent a full 22 before finishing the matter.

Wang Min was lying on the bed, smiling with the corners of his mouth curled up. The inbox was full, washing away his exhaustion.

The phone vibrated again, and Wang Min clicked on it to read, with a concentrated smile, and his arms trembled slightly.

He held the phone tightly in his hand, turned over and lay down on the bed, and slowly and deeply buried his face in the pillow.

My little one, why do you always make me lose control?Did you plant magic trees in my heart? They follow your command and always touch my emotional nerves inadvertently. I am obviously not such a person who is easily moved...

In the dark, the screen of the mobile phone glowed brightly, and above it was the content of the latest text message: "Brother, I'm not afraid, I love you."

I have talked about liking for a long time, and now I start talking about love, without deliberation, without hypocrisy, and from the heart.

-

Yu Nian's hometown doesn't have an airport, so it's more convenient to take the train directly to the provincial capital city by plane.Yu Nian usually buys a hard-seat ticket when he goes back. This time Yang Jiayue went together. For the first time, he bought a soft-sleeper ticket that is comparable to the price of an airplane ticket. One upper berth and one lower berth. He boarded the car at night and slept all night, and he arrived the next morning. .

The two rushed to leave during the days when the students were on vacation, so that Yang Jiayue could return to Beijing earlier.

I don't have a lot of luggage, so I need to add some nutrition for my mother.Most of Yu Nian's relatives have gone away, except for his mother.

"Auntie, how are you?" The two couldn't sleep at night, so they sat on the lower bunk and chatted.

"It's okay. After my uncle passed away, my mother started to eat vegetarian food. She has many friends who chant Buddha together, and they take care of each other on weekdays."

"Well, you can rest assured when you go out." Yang Jiayue asked again: "Will Auntie ask you about finding a partner?"

Yu Nian frowned and said, "I'm only 19 years old, what's the rush?"

That's right, Yang Jiayue smiled wryly, he was four years older than him, so naturally he considered things differently from him.

Yu Nian leaned over to hug Yang Jiayue's waist, and said playfully, "Are you worried about my mother's objection?"

Yang Jiayue: "Yes."

Yu Nian buried his face on Yang Jiayue's shoulder, and whispered, "It's okay, I told my mother a long time ago that I won't get married."

Yang Jiayue asked in surprise, "Why?"

Yu Nian: "No reason, I just don't want to get married."

Yang Jiayue: "Auntie, what's your reaction?"

Yu Nian: "She said I'm still young and ignorant."

Yang Jiayue: "Inevitable."

Yu Nian looked into Yang Jiayue's eyes and said, "I'm serious."

Yang Jiayue's hands on Yu Nian's waist tightened and he didn't speak.

Yu Nian was not interested in flirting, so he looked for a book to read by himself. Yang Jiayue knew that he was angry, so he was stunned for a while, and went over to read with him.The two of them lay opposite each other on a middle-aged man. He was sleeping just now, but now he woke up and said, "You two brothers? You are both so handsome!"

Yang Jiayue sneered, and chatted with him casually.

The middle-aged man spoke broken Mandarin with most of the local accent mixed in.

Yu Nian didn't find it difficult to listen, because the dialect spoken by the other party was very close to his native dialect.His hometown is a small inland city in the south, and the local language is very difficult to understand.

What shocked Yu Nian was Yang Jiayue's reaction... He chatted with the middle-aged man with a natural expression, without any embarrassment or embarrassment because he didn't understand!

Yu Nian couldn't read the book anymore, his heart was in a mess, like a fire burning in his heart.

If a relationship is mixed with concealment and deception, it will generate doubts and suspicions, making people think wildly and no longer pure.

Despite trying to control myself not to doubt, the brain instinctively surfaced the greatest possibility.

...Yang Jiayue, who are you?

Yu Nian didn't dare to say it, and he didn't want to say it. If he said it, everything would be messed up and everything would be over...

After being groggy all night on the train, with doubts and anxiety in his head, he arrived at the platform in the early morning.

It was a small station of less than [-] square meters, sparsely populated, and only two trains passed by every day.

It was bitterly cold in December, and the two of them snuggled up in the waiting hall to wait for dawn. In half an hour, there was a bus leading to the town and going straight to home.

Yu Nian closed his eyes and rested his mind, but Yang Jiayue was awake all the time. He held Yu Nian's hand and rubbed it lightly, feeling a sense of melancholy in his heart...

This is the station where I left that year.

It has changed a lot, and in my impression, this place is very big. On the day I left, there were many people I didn’t know, and I was holding my mother’s sleeves in fear, maybe because I was still a child at that time.Now it seems that it is really a size that can be seen at a glance...

I'm back, Xiaonian.

After getting on the bus, Yang Jiayue kept staring out of the window. His eyes did not look like a curious tourist, but like an old man in his twilight years.He was remembering, feeling sad, and there was a distressing loneliness in his eyes.

Yu Nian's fingers were held by Yang Jiayue, and they gradually became hot until he was sweating.

He said silently in his heart: Yang Jiayue... Jiayue... Yue...

In the car, Yu Nian answered a call from his mother, asking if he had arrived at the stop. Yu Nian said in his hometown, "Now I'm on the bus, and I can get to my door in less than an hour. Mom, I brought a friend with me." .”

Yang Jiayue pinched Yu Nian's wrist nervously, and after Yu Nian hung up the phone, he said, "I'll go open a hotel."

Yu Nian said: "Where do hotels in this kind of place come from? There are only guest houses. No one lives there all year round. It's very dark and unhygienic."

Yang Jiayue: "..."

Yu Nian: "Go live at my house tonight, I just told my mother."