Jade is not jade

It's too late to hide my panic at this moment, the action of turning off the camera has become a cover-up.

Do you want to say you don't care, don't you care, pretend nothing happened?Impossible.

Yu Nian's neck was stiff and his palms were sweating.

Luo Heng stood behind Yu Nian and looked at him steadfastly, without seeming nervous at all.

Yu Nian moved his lips and said, "Why are you secretly taking pictures of me?"

"Is the filming not good?" Luo Heng asked back, walked around the sofa, walked up to Yu Nian and sat down.

Yu Nian subconsciously moved to the side.

Luo Heng sat down indifferently, took the camera, and pressed the close button for Yu Nian.

Yu Nian's mind was in a mess, restless, and every cell in his body became alert.

"What are you thinking?" Luo Heng suddenly asked.

Yu Nian looked at him for a while with probing eyes, and asked hesitantly, "Are you gay?"

Luo Heng laughed suddenly, and he answered irrelevantly: "Sometimes, I really don't know if it's better to say you're smart or dull."

Yu Nian: "What do you mean?"

"What do you mean?" Luo Heng curled the corner of his mouth, and suddenly approached, "This means," the next moment, he bit Yu Nian's lips.

Their lips touched for only a second, when Luo Heng tried to take a step closer, Yu Nian raised his arm in shock and waved him away.

Yu Nian's face turned red and then pale. He wiped his lips with the back of his hand vigorously, staring at Luo Heng almost speechlessly.

——He was kissed by a boy, kissed by a boy...!

Luo Heng said: "You too."

It wasn't suspicion, and he wasn't asking the other party any questions. Luo Heng used a declarative tone.

"What, what?" Yu Nian was surprised and angry.

"If you're not, why don't you accept Wen Xiaoqin's pursuit?" Luo Heng approached Yu Nian again, "If you're not, why do you prefer staying with me rather than dating girls?" Shoulder, "If you are not, why do you dodge when you are touched by a boy?" Another hand clasped his wrist, "If you are not, why did you ask me if I am gay after finding out that I was secretly filming you, so vigilant... ..." Pulling her closer, he bullied her forward, not allowing the other party to evade and retreat, "So, you still deny yourself, don't you?"

"You..." Yu Nian, who was unable to refute because of his lack of strength, shouted angrily, "Shut up...!"

A sternness flashed in Luo Heng's eyes, and in just that moment, Yu Nian realized that the senior who had always acted like a good guy was not a good character.

Just when Yu Nian was about to fight back with all his strength, Luo Heng let him go.

Backing away, Luo Heng straightened his collar, looked at Yu Nian with a half-smile, and said, "You are too tired from living."

"What do you mean?!" Yu Nian panted, keeping his eyes on Luo Heng's face, nervously guarding against his every sudden movement.

Luo Heng said: "Relax, come, eat."

Yu Nian: "..."

From the tense atmosphere just now, Yu Nian didn't know what Luo Heng wanted to do, but he didn't eat it now, and he didn't eat it.

To be honest, he has absolutely no appetite for the food in front of him at the moment, but it seems very hypocritical not to eat.

Maybe Luo Heng was just joking, but he really got angry and angry?

If you still want to continue to be friends, then you still have to eat the meal in front of you...

Yu Nian thought for a moment, then picked up the chopsticks.

Luo Heng reminded him to eat more, his tone was normal as if nothing happened.

Yu Nian was so depressed that he had nowhere to vent his anger, and he was thinking about what to do.

Luo Heng suddenly said: "You must be thinking about what you want to do now, right?"

Yu Nian: "..."

Luo Heng: "If I am really gay, you will stay away from me, avoid me, and when you return to China, you will completely cut off contact with me, and never have any contact with me again; if I am not gay, you I guess you will feel very embarrassed, because the kiss I just left left a shadow on you, you will re-evaluate my personality and character, and you will think that I am abnormal because I secretly took so many photos of you. Lose trust, once there is no trust, just stay away, and also do not communicate with each other..." Luo Heng spoke for a long time in one breath, and asked, "Is that so?"

Yu Nian had nothing to answer, Luo Heng said what he was thinking.

"So, no matter what, you and I can't be friends anymore?" When Luo Heng said this, his tone was a little unnatural, even a little angry.

"No..." Yu Nian blurted out instinctively.

In fact, from the perspective of a friend, Luo Heng is a very good candidate.

He is humorous and enthusiastic, knowledgeable and talented, he is understanding and personable, he has ambitions and pursuits, and strives to make progress... If such a person can become friends with him, it is equivalent to increasing his worth.

What's more, if it weren't for the series of events caused by today's photos, Luo Heng, a friend, would really be impeccable.

When Luo Heng heard Yu Nian's answer, he laughed instead of anger: "Then tell me, why is it 'no'."

Yu Nian frowned, and it took a while before he said, "Can you answer my question first?"

Luo Heng smiled disdainfully: "Are you going to ask me if I'm gay?"

Yu Nian shook his head and asked, "Why did you take my picture?"

Luo Heng didn't answer directly, but picked up the camera, turned it on, flipped through it, and said slowly: "Look at how beautiful you are, if you stand there alone, no matter who raises the camera, they will all aim at you I can't help but want to take pictures of you, where you stand is the scenery, don't you know..."

Yu Nian: "..."

Luo Heng looked at the boy in the photo almost obsessively, "You don't know how likable you are, I liked you the first time I saw you..."

Luo Heng laughed twice, and continued: "I have never been attracted to a girl until I was 20 years old, but the first person who attracted me was a boy, do you think I am gay?

Yu Nian: "..."

Luo Heng: "You know, there is a type of boys. They are the favored ones from the moment they are born. They grow up well, get good grades, and are good at sports. They are the best in everything. Because they lived under the halo since they were young, they love They strive for perfection, appearance, behavior, everything, they pursue perfection, excellence and confidence...

"They are not willing to be bound by love to be free, until there is no good enough opposite sex around them to match. If a person is so good, he will put most of his attention on his competitors or companions, and those people also They are not ordinary people. Over time, they are easily attracted by each other's advantages, and then develop a good impression...

"There is a circle in Beijing University, and there are quite a few talented people. Most of them have sexual orientation problems, or they have no sexual orientation. They are all narcissistic, even selfish, hehe..." Luo Heng smiled wryly, staring at the camera A photo being displayed...

It was Yu Nian standing on the Westminster Bridge in profile, with his arms resting on the bridge railing, in a loose posture.

He stared flatly into the distance, with no expression on his face, but his thin figure and melancholy eyes could grab everyone's heart.

He looks fragile, but tough.How contradictory, yet so harmonious...

He is like a gust of wind, no one can catch it, and he will not stop for anyone.

"You don't know how popular you are in that circle. They all say that you and us are the same kind of people." Luo Heng said softly.

Yu Nian was already horrified under the shock. It wasn't Luo Heng who frightened him, but what Luo Heng said.

No, no! ...He wanted to refute loudly, but was even more shocked by Luo Heng's next sentence——

"Including Feng Feng and Rong Junqian you saw at the last party, they are all, and your classmate who came to exchange together, Wang, he is also."

No, I'm not like you, no, I'm normal...

The soul kept clamoring to refute, but his throat seemed to be sealed, and he couldn't make a sound.

Luo Heng looked at Yu Nian, who was not very good-looking, and said: "We are not abnormal, but we are too perfectionist. We will be attracted by any beautiful and outstanding people, thus ignoring the other party's gender. Because of beauty, We will yearn for, admire, and feel that each other’s small flaws have become cute, like a disguised liking, or even love... Ordinary people feel that they are not worthy, so they worship silently, so high that we can afford it. But think that we have enough capital to pursue, even if we don't, we will sharpen ourselves enough to be worthy of that person..."

Yu Nian's mind was rumbling, and several faces flashed across...

"A master always walks alone!" Standing in front of her, eight-year-old Yu Yue arrogantly dropped this sentence, asking Yu Nian not to always follow her.

"I will come to see you and write you a letter, but if you don't get the first place in the class in the final exam, don't even think about it." Nine-year-old Yu Yue said this and left with her aunt.For the next ten years, Yu Nian never ranked No.2 in his class.

……

"You are amazing, and so is my brother. I want to learn from you!" The boy who laughed and made people happy, ate twelve popsicles in one go, and called Wang Min in the hospital to act like a baby, he said , "Without Wang Min, I wouldn't be able to go to HKUST."

……

"He is the most important thing. He is more important than his parents," said Wang Min, who never showed his true nature in front of others. "He only belongs to me, and I only belong to him. We will not be separated."

……

And Ah Si, who shines in the Queen bar, once felt that if he is not a perfect man, he is a perfect actor.

Yang Jiayue, who was brimming with confidence on the podium, came to him in a white suit, put his arms around his shoulders, and in full view of everyone, bit his ear and said, "So, your real name is Yu Nian."

……

The first time I stood on the stage of Beijing University, I made a silent oath - if I can't find you, then I will stand on a high place and let you come to me.

After dreaming of Yu Yue, I woke up with tears on my face and said to myself: Before I met you, I would make myself good enough to stand by your side...

So many fragments, like fragments of violin music, fluctuate in my mind.

Yu Nian wanted to cry and laugh at the same time.

At this moment, Yu Nian had to admit that he yearned for Wang Min and Xiao Long's feelings, and had to admit how much he wanted to find Yu Yue, not just to tell him about the family affairs, but because the long-term admiration had faded away. It became a habit—to find him, to prove that he was good, he was admitted to Beijing University, and he was qualified to be his younger brother...

And, I have to admit, my feelings for Yang Jiayue...

"Confess to a man?" The second time we met, he teased himself in the bar, "I can consider him like this."

"Why are you so nice to me?" Yang Jiayue, who had disappeared for several months after asking this question, was so indifferent because he was dispensable...

On the rockery by the Jingda Lake, he who had just shed tears said: "Don't be my brother, but be my wife."

"Men who don't know how to drink will be laughed at!" He forced himself to finish his drink, then turned to chat with Wang Min speculatively, feeling dizzy and sad, secretly annoyed because of his lack of alcohol and knowledge.

In the KTV, he vomited and cried embarrassingly. It turned out that it was all because he felt that he was not good enough.

If it is excellent, my brother will not be able to find it.Only when you are excellent, you are qualified to love.

——Just so stubbornly blamed all the reasons on himself.

"You're right..." Yu Nian nodded condescendingly, "We are the same kind of people."

Hearing these words, Luo Heng felt inexplicable joy in his heart.

"Just let it go," he said hastily, "I struggled when I found out that I liked boys, and I felt very tired, but it's okay to let go, you see, now I can act freely To appreciate a person's beauty, a person's excellence, I don't think I'm a pervert, if I like someone, I won't blindly avoid or hide it, I will take the offensive, and I will do everything I think is good for him... ..."

Yu Nian listened silently, without any major reaction.

Luo Heng confessed to him without giving up: "I invite you to eat and drink tea, read books and watch movies with you, because I want to spend more time with you, get to know you better, and hope you can get to know me better...Look, you and I That classmate Wang is a student from Peking University, but I only treat you like this, I thought you would notice it slowly, I have been waiting until you see me taking your photo..."

"Luo Heng," Yu Nian interrupted him suddenly, "I know."

Luo Heng was taken aback, and then heard Yu Nian say: "Before, I was just deceiving myself. I could feel how special you are to me, and I appreciate your character and talent, but..."

Hearing the word "but", Luo Heng suddenly became nervous.

Back then, when I specialized in academic English, I remembered that there was a quick-reading guideline that said that when you need to grasp the main meaning of a paragraph in a short period of time, you should pay attention to turning words, such as "however", "however", "but", etc. Often what is to be expressed after this kind of words is the key point, and what is said before this is nonsense.

"However, I only regard you as a friend." Yu Nian said.