Am I a scumbag?

When Tang Xiujing said this, he paused for a while, trying to see Zhuang Qingqu's reaction.

Lan Wang did not respond for a moment.

There were no waves in those shallow pupils, no surprise, no sadness, no sudden realization, nothing.

At one point, Tang Xiujing couldn't help being anxious: "Brother Zhuang, you have experienced so much with the emperor's brother, and you have sacrificed so much for each other for many years and nine deaths. Finally, you are together. You will never... until now, you still refuse trust him?"

"..."

King Yue Lu was really anxious to death: "Brother Xiaozhuang, it's been so many years, why are you still confused?! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, this king really wants to—"

"No."

After a while, Zhuang Qingqu finally said.His body was weak and his voice was hoarse, and it was difficult for him to speak even a few short words.

"No." He shook his head, "No, I don't believe it."

Believe it or not, even if he heard Su Xu say that A Zhao killed the Zhuang family, A Zhao did not refute it, he still felt that it was not the whole story.

For so many years, he has understood Yan Yuliang.

So many people who committed crimes and meritorious deeds were spared, and so many people were given a chance to be reborn as human beings.And why would they just drive the Zhuang clan to extinction regardless of it.How could he believe such a nonsensical thing.

He was speechless for a while, but he suddenly realized something after many years——

Back then, Yan Yuliang tried to explain everything to him countless times.

Many, many, many times.

In the first night of Jinyu's four-year Tangquan Palace, it was not a good day.In the future, he repeatedly pinned him down on the dragon bed and stripped off his clothes, and repeatedly rubbed him into his arms, kissed and caressed him involuntarily.

When he was so angry and dragged away from the Golden Luan Palace in front of everyone, he couldn't help dragging him to Chuwei Palace, a small rockery, and the imperial garden, and acted according to his temper.

Every time alone, Yan Yuliang tried to explain.

Unfortunately, the young Zhuang Qingqu completely misunderstood.All he saw was this person who was clearly in his arms, but who was still obsessed with mentioning Tantai Hong all day long!

Keep mentioning, keep mentioning.

Repeatedly explained to him why Tan Taihong was released privately in the first place, hoping he would understand, but he didn't know that he didn't want to hear it at all.He blocked his mouth with kisses again and again, making him unable to speak and breathe.Taking him as his own, eating him and swallowing his bones and blood, tossing him until he was covered in bruises and couldn't get out of bed.

But he also mentioned that it drove Zhuang Qingqu almost crazy.

At that time, he felt that Yan Yuliang was really cruel.The son of the criminal minister will never come back, but he still has only him in his eyes.

what about me?

Having loved you for more than ten years may be cheap in your eyes.Will be deceived at will, worthless.

He didn't want to hear his sophistry anymore.

When he opened his mouth again, he pinched his neck and said Yan Zhao, shut up.

If you say that there is no half truth in your mouth, I will not believe a word.

He insisted on explaining, so he just said yes, then you explain first, what kind of mentality did you have at that time and pretended to be sick to me for half a month?The acting was really good, Yan Zhao, when you saw me in such a hurry, you laughed like crazy, laughed at me for being so deceitful, laughed at me for wishful thinking, laughed at me for being a complete joke, right?

During that time Tang Xiujing was in Huadu, and he could often see Emperor Jin Yu's tired face.

In the imperial garden, Emperor Jin Yu smiled wryly at him, saying Xiao Tang, you must not learn from me, and don't deceive people easily.You see, I have lied to Xiao Zhuang once, and the matter will never go through again.

In the eyes of Xiao Zhuang, I am already a person who is full of lies and has no credibility.

If you want to do anything else with him, he won't believe me anymore.

Swallows flew between the beams.Emperor Jin Yu lowered his eyes and closed his eyes.

After a long time, when it opened again, it was already clear and clear.

……

Afterwards, Tang Xiujing didn't know how to tell Zhuang Qingqu.

He bowed his head and sipped his tea tactically.

Since he no longer had credibility, Emperor Jinyu simply kept Zhuang Qingqu at a respectful distance.Those days were simply a culmination of the ministers participating in "Zhuang Qingqu went crazy and committed chaos" and the messy gameplay of various palaces and imperial gardens.

Later, Emperor Jinyu finally turned his face completely.

For half a year, he was left out of the palace, and he was never summoned again.

During those six months, Tang Xiujing went crazy after hearing about Zhuang Qingqu.With red eyes holding a token, he forced his way into the Zhenghua Gate, but when he failed, he went home in a rage and smashed the newly built mansion.It is said that Zhuang Qingqu went to the Lvliuying school to train soldiers, and he was injured all over his body.Said that he got drunk and hurt his stomach for a long time.

All this, the emperor's brother turned a deaf ear to it.

Great Xia is a vast country, and the political affairs are much more complicated than Yuelu.As the exiled King of Yuelu, Tang Xiujing also knew his identity, respectfully and earnestly busy with the emperor's brother as a trainee, always obedient, and did not dare to take the initiative to mention Zhuang Qingqu.

Until the end of the year, there was a border dispute between Daxia and Yingzhou.

Zhuang Qingqu went to the table to invite Ying.Before the expedition, the emperor's elder brother finally met him again.It was still a solemn and solemn meeting with the emperor high above and the ministers at the side of the Golden Luan Hall, and the two were so far apart.

In the hall, Zhuang Qingqu was dressed in military uniform and saluted respectfully with lowered eyes, his handsome face showed a coldness of self-denial and reverence.

But Tang Xiujing could see clearly. When he raised his eyes to look at the emperor, he couldn't hide the pain, which made people worry.

However, the emperor's brother still didn't respond.

Tang Xiujing still remembered that the last time Zhuang Qingqu set out to fight Beimo, he watched the emperor's elder brother send him off from a distance, and the two of them were reluctant to part and kept whispering.Before getting on the horse, Zhuang Qing and Qu Yan looked forward to mustering up the courage to say something in a low voice, both of them blushed.

How sweet and charming they were then.

But this time they were extremely unfamiliar, until the Green Willow Army left the city, neither of them said anything more in private.

Tang Xiujing actually understood everything.

Jinyu's four-year Great Summer, although I don't know how much better than the subjugated Yuelu, but it is also a waste of time, and nothing can go wrong until the political situation is stable and the dawn dawns.

Therefore, in this year's court, Yan Yuliang needs absolute stability and stability.

The people around him can only be like Xun Chang who can maintain impartiality and rationality under any circumstances.Or endure misunderstandings like Xi Xingjian and still serve the country wholeheartedly, like General Xia Houlie who has gone through ups and downs and still does his job well without fighting or grabbing.

Tang Xiujing secretly felt that the emperor's elder brother was a little unfeeling, but as the emperor, he understood everything.

Let alone Jinyu for four years.Even in a peaceful and prosperous age, the king of a country must hope that the people around him will be gentle and forbearing, and put the overall situation first.

Once insane, he commits trouble and dares to do anything.If it were Tang Xiujing, he wouldn't dare to keep such a person.

But he didn't dare to tell Zhuang Qingqu the whole story.

He was afraid that he might say the wrong thing.

It made King Lan sad, and finally implicated the emperor's brother.

……

Zhuang Qingqu could clearly see the embarrassment on Tang Xiujing's face.

He gritted his teeth and tried to get up, but Tang Xiujing refused to help him.

Really, I don't know whether to be angry or laugh.

Now he really dislikes Yue Lu, a horrible place.Nothing good has happened since he came here, and he vowed never to come again!Not to mention falling off a cliff with poisonous hair, he had to take the life-saving pills given by Tantai Hong to survive, and now Tang Xiujing had to be careful.

He is dignified and dignified, but Tang Xiujing treats him as fragile? !

"What do you know."

Panting for breath, he propped himself up and sat up.

"What happened back then, you were nothing more than a bystander, and you only... stayed for only two years!"

"Yes, Ah Zhao didn't want me then."

"You don't need to tell me, I know better than anyone else."

"..."

"But since he once allowed me to be close and pampered me, how could he just turn his back and say no, so he can never let me go?"

The King Lan in front of him was an appearance Tang Xiujing had never seen before.

Neither the gentleness and introversion when he was with the emperor, nor the impulsiveness of youth many years ago.Wearing only a middle-clothes, he is full of stateliness, luxury and oppression. It is very similar... very similar to the powerful, lofty, and "regent" of Daxia who people said in the ten years of Jinyu.

Tang Xiujing shrank her neck secretly.

But Zhuang Qingqu knew that at this moment, he was actually not the regent.Over the years, he has had many appearances, from a young boy to regent, to Zhuang Qingqu, the wise minister behind Emperor Jinyu today.Looking back, it was neither.

It was a very long detour.

All kinds of stupid things in the meantime, I can't bear to see them.

Jinyu went to Yingzhou for four years, and he and Shilu conquered Yingdu in three months.After returning to Huadu, the whole country cheered and celebrated.While Yan Yuliang spared no expense in rewarding him generously, he did not hesitate to take back the military power in his hands.

But not long after, Yan Yuliang had to return the military power to him.

Let him continue to regain the lost land in northern Xinjiang, counterattack Yuelu and drive away the Luoyun Army to escort Yuelu King back to the country.As soon as the army returned to the capital, the emperor took back his military power.

Su Xu was so angry: "You always do this, what do you mean! This dog emperor is really bullying people too much! Young master, we—"

The young master has entered the palace.

After gaining military exploits, Zhuang Qingqu's status in the court skyrocketed, and Emperor Jinyu could no longer easily keep him out of the palace.But even though he was close, he was still obviously guarded against alienation.

Zhuang Qingqu tried his best to regain the lost ground, hoping to regain his favor.

It turned out to be a good thing, they were determined not to let him go.Guard him, avoid him, think he is crazy.very good.Ah Zhao really deserved to be the son of Da Xia whom he had acquainted with early on, and he really turned against the ruthless emperor's family.

...But after all, he has put so much effort into him, so he has to get something back, right?

The old dream in Chu Wei Palace repeats itself.

Zhuang Qingqu, who came back from the battlefield after the bloody battle, became leaner and more perfect.His hot fingertips easily caught Yan Yuliang, and he hugged him wantonly in his arms. He said, Ah Zhao, I don't want gold, silver and treasures, and it's not uncommon for him to be appointed as a marquis and courtier.

You know what I like, Azhao.

He picked up the emperor's fingers and stroked the scars on his chest and abdomen bit by bit.

He said, look, the wound was suppurated in the scorching heat of Yingzhou, so it was so deep, I could bear this kind of pain, Azhao must reward me with something, right?

In the 11th year of Jinyu, Zhuang Qingqu no longer wanted to let Yan Yuliang touch those injuries again.

But when he was young, he was really shameless for a while.

Not only forced the emperor to touch it over and over again, but also bit the emperor's ear to settle accounts with him.A scar once, half an hour at a time, these scars are especially deep, at least an hour.

For several consecutive years, Zhuang Qingqu was either fighting in the south or north, or holding the emperor in the Chuwei Palace.

There are a bunch of vaguely written "overnight stay in the imperial palace" in the daily life note.Occasionally, when Zhuang Qingqu was in a bad mood, he would seriously discuss with the old historian at the time whether to respect the historical facts and simply change it to "Night Whoring the Emperor's Palace".

The old historian couldn't understand that this Zhuang Qingqu, with a cold, noble and abstinent face of a nobleman from a family, could open his mouth and keep his mouth shut.Thinking about it again, I was scared out of my wits.Who does he want to prostitute with his daring?This is disrespectful!

The same two years.

Although Zhuang Qingqu returned his military power, he was famous for his repeated military exploits.Da Xia, who has been suppressed and humiliated for a hundred years, is very proud and worships him as a god.

Followed by countless people who want to cling to make friends.

Countless capable people, strangers, merchants and wealthy merchants have joined Zhuang's family and let him drive them.Among them were many members of Zhuang Xinhuo's former party members. Even Wu Yiwei, raised by Zhuang's family, had been dormant for several years after Zhuang Xinhuo's death, and began to reopen under the influence of Zhuang Qingqu.

For a while, the court was huge and the fire was cooking oil.At the beginning, Zhuang Qingqu told Su Xu that you should remember the lessons learned by your father, keep a low profile, and beware of backstabbing by those civil officials.

However, Emperor Jinyu's various means of control and suppression came faster and more urgently than expected.

There are so many patterns and lofty intentions, Zhuang Qingqu refuses to accept it.

No one wants to be guarded and calculated by the one he loves, stepping on the soles of his feet without mercy every time, even if he has nothing to do, he will be stepped on his heart twice.

Zhuang Qingqu felt uncomfortable and suffocated for a while, and went to shout and argue with Emperor Jinyu.

Later, it became too uncomfortable, and he even started to appreciate Emperor Jin Yu's various means.After Ah Zhao turned his face and turned ruthless, his tactics were really thunderous, stabbing a knife in his heart, making Su Xu scold his mother in anger.

This is still reserved, just "beating".

Sometimes Zhuang Qingqu secretly wondered, would one day, Azhao use really powerful methods on him?

When he drank the bottle of poison, Zhuang Qingqu actually had a little selfishness secretly.

Countless times of asking for nothing, countless times of being unable to explain... This kind of bitterness and powerlessness is just right, and he also wants Ah Zhao to taste it.

Whether even the slightest distress is his wishful thinking.

……

In Yan Yuliang's eyes, there was shock and sharp pain that could not be concealed.

Later, the Green Willow Army triumphantly returned from northern Xinjiang, and Daxia had Yunsheng Prefecture.Zhuang Qingqu also became the first king with a different surname in the hundreds of years of Daxia Qianqiu.

After several months in northern Xinjiang, Yan Yuliang not only made a special trip to the border to see him, but also searched for medicine all over the country.

For the first time, Zhuang Qingqu felt that he was wrong.

He always knew that Xun Chang was worried that he would follow in the footsteps of the village, and repeatedly urged Yan Yuliang to clean him up, but Yan Yuliang refused at all.

I also know that there are many courtiers looking for trouble when they have nothing to do, and they always write letters every now and then to persuade the emperor to marry the concubine and spread the branches. Yan Yuliang also shifted all the responsibility to the King of England.

There was no one around the emperor all the time, only sleeping with him.

Perhaps, he didn't care about him as much as he thought.

The most uncomfortable thing in life is always to despair after giving hope.However, Zhuang Qingqu met him twice.

For four years in Jinyu, the person who promised to kiss him when he came back pushed him away.In the seventh year of Jinyu, the same person came to accompany him on a special trip, also searched for medicine for him, felt sorry for him, and even secretly shook his hand in the middle of the night.But still refused to want him.

The sunset glow in the desert is very beautiful, like rouge, fat, and fire.

When Emperor Jinyu returned to Beijing, he made a special trip to comb Zhuang Qingqu's long hair, and his clumsy hands hurt him.He also panicked, and said softly that Xiao Zhuang was really sorry.You will definitely meet someone better in the future, much better than me.

The dusk in the desert is very quiet.

After he said that, what else could Zhuang Qingqu say.

It's been so many years, I've been fighting for it for so long, I've been forcing it for so long, but in the end it won't work.

That being the case.Forget it, forget it.

Since then, Zhuang Qingqu has never been to Chuwei Palace again, nor has he violated any rules.

But I always crazily think of a certain day.It was an ordinary afternoon, and it was rare for Yan Yuliang to wear a solemn black and silver dragon pattern underwear for the first time, instead of the usual refreshing color.

He was dressed in black, which completely complemented his black-hearted emperor temperament.

When Zhuang Qingqu walked in, the sunlight fell on Yan Yuliang's eyes through the window.The emperor was obviously thinking about something again, holding the booklet in one hand, and tapping lightly on the window with his slender fingers in the other.

The scheming and sea-like thinking of the city mansion is really fucking...

Outrageously good-looking, outrageously alluring.

He is also sick.He couldn't like a decent person, he just liked Azhao's toughness who planned every step of the way, he liked his insidiousness of quietly calculating everyone, and he liked his strength to turn the tide against the sky and change the country's fortune.

How can he let go?There are plenty of beauties and good people in the world, but where can I find someone who is exactly the same?

It's fucking outrageous that such people exist in the world.

And every day, like a cherished little tiger, scratching his heart.

After a while, it itches and hurts.