Am I a scumbag?

The starlight shines through the window paper, and the candlelight flickers slightly.

Yan Yuliang's memory is not complete, so Zhuang Qingqu had to start with some things from his childhood.

In fact, I said it very reluctantly.

Every time he said one more sentence, he broke more? A point of his fragile self-esteem.Yan Yuliang also felt sorry for him, so she obediently got into his arms and curled up her toes, rubbing and rubbing on the insteps to comfort him.

Zhuang Qingqu's voice was hoarse from being rubbed by him.

Hold him down: "Don't make trouble."

Yan Yuliang made a "huh" sound, but then hugged his waist and twisted and twisted mischievously.Zhuang Qingqu was made stiff by his quarrel, and he hugged the person in his arms tightly angrily, there was nothing he could do with him!

Yan Yuliang closed her eyes in Lan Wang's arms.

With the narration of the story, many sporadic memories slowly emerged and became clearer.

At that time, the Tantai clan and the Zhuang clan fought against each other, and they were incompatible.When Tantai saw Zhuang's sending him off? Zhuang Qingqu went to the third prince's side, and immediately planned to send his own son to the prince's side.

Tantai's sons are generally too early to be the age when they can be companions.Fortunately, Lao Laide's youngest son, Tantaihong, is half a year younger than Zhuang Qingqu, so his age is barely suitable.

However, a sudden illness occurred again temporarily.By the time he recovered from his illness, it was already a whole year later than the scheduled time of entering the palace.

Although the first time the two entered the palace was a year apart, they both happened to be in the midsummer when the colors were intense and emerald.

When Lan Wang first appeared, he looked cool and beautiful. He was dressed in powder makeup and bright jade zongzi color, noble, proud and awe-inspiring.

Tan Taihong was just recovering from a serious illness at that time, but he was very thin. He was not too conspicuous, and he was dressed in bright red clothes that could not hang loosely on his body.Like a limp, inconspicuous kitten.

The little milk cat was very stupid when he first entered the palace.At any rate, Xiaozhuang only gets lost in the bare winter snow, where the surroundings are all the same.But Tan Taihong was the first to enter the palace? He got separated from his servants within a day.

Yan Yuliang still remembers that it was a scorching afternoon with cicadas singing.

The child was sweating profusely in red and curled up under the corner of the wall, crying pitifully in a low voice.

The prince passed by and ignored him.The third prince passed by and ignored him.

Only he was kind enough to pick up Xiao Hongtuanzi and send him back to his servant?

Also the young son of a family, Tan Taihong is not as awkward as the young master Taiwei.Tantai is sensible and polite, not only greeted the second prince sweetly for the second meeting, but also prepared a beautiful fan as a thank you gift.

At that time, the prince was already seventeen or eighteen, and there were many friends who were officials in the previous dynasty, so he didn't have time to attend to a ten-year-old companion.

The crown prince refused to take Tantaihong to play, so Tantaihong would consciously get close to the second prince on a daily basis.

When this past event was being narrated, Lan Wang hurriedly brought it over coldly.

Fortunately, Yan Yuliang is no longer able to understand Lan Wang very much.

In the eyes of the second prince back then, this was probably just a story of "Here comes the new little one, quite lively and cute".

But in Xiaozhuang's eyes, it must be a big grievance of "coming from behind".

Ming? Ming? He came first.

But was snatched away by the nasty little ghost Lihua of the Tantai family with rain and a sweet smile. Everything that should belong to him.

……

Zhuang Qing and Qu Cong didn't like Tantai Hong the first time he saw him.

Before Tan Taihong came, he had accompanied him for a whole year.During this year, he strived to be strong everywhere and strive to be the first in everything.

Regardless of Wenxiu or martial arts, they must force others to dominate.Even the third prince's eloquence and the crown prince's equestrian skill, Zhuang Qingqu would not give in at all during the real competition.

After such a long time, except for the second prince who is ignorant and ignorant at all, everyone else has slightly criticized him.

Zhuang Qingqu didn't admit that he was wrong.On the contrary, I feel that Ming? Ming? It's that group of people who don't work hard and slack off every day, and are jealous that he is better than them in everything despite his young age.

Until Tan Taihong appeared.

As the young son of the Tantai Clan, Tantaihong is at his fingertips whether it is calligraphy, Danqing, reciting blog posts, discussing countermeasures, riding horses and archery, and he is as good as Zhuang Qingqu in everything.

His temper was completely different from that of Zhuang Qing and Qu Nan.

Tan Taihong has a delicate, fragile, glamorous and noble face, but he loves to laugh, is lively, amusing, unruly, and has a wide range of interests.He also likes some frowning scripts that make people frown, and the messy wine that he doesn't know if he will drink dead people.

Dressed in red all day long, bluffing, flitting around like flowers and butterflies, Zhuang Qingqu looked at him coldly, feeling annoyed and noisy.

He still doesn't understand? Why do people like such a person.

The person he can't get close to, Tan Taihong always gets close with a smile and a fuss? In the past.

Tan Taihong is extremely talented.

Regardless of culture, prose, martial arts, casually? Look at it, touch it twice.

Because of this, there is also a lot of naughty capital.

He often sneaks into the second prince's side to whisper in class; or joins in a prank to add beards to the pictures of ladies drawn by everyone; from time to time, he takes out a mess of banned books and fine wine that he doesn't know where he got; what's more? He sneaked off to the West Market with the second prince and came back with a face that nothing happened.

Since he entered the palace, the second prince has become more and more stubborn.

Homework falls behind a lot.On the contrary, Tantai, who brought him down, was still able to rank among the best in both literary and martial arts exams every time.

Zhuang Qingqu was the most angry twice when he was a child, one was on a rainy day, he grabbed the second prince who was about to run away in the rain, and asked him sternly: "There is Tantai behind Tantai, what do you have?"He doesn't study all day and still knows everything. He has everything. What will you do in the future?

In the end, the second prince just laughed and still wanted to slip away.

The only time in Zhuang Qingqu's life that he meddled in others' affairs was when he was playing the piano with a cow, and he was so angry that he didn't talk to the second prince for a month.

Another time was a sunny day, riding and archery competition.

He practiced for this competition until all ten fingers were injured, but he still lost to Tan Taihong, who had delicate fingers. The red-tasseled card of the first place was snatched away by the boy in red with a bright smile.

The young master of the Zhuang family actually lost to the members of the Tantai family, and he was severely reprimanded by Zhuang Xinhuo when he returned home.

Su Xu felt sorry for him for his injustice: "Master, it's true, the young master won? He didn't see praise for thousands of times, but lost? Scolded once!"

Zhuang Qingqu didn't think there was anything.

Even if his father doesn't discipline him, his self-esteem will never be allowed to be overwhelmed by Tan Taihong.He should have been better than that man in everything.

So that year Zhuang Qingqu went crazy? He kept studying and practicing martial arts, rain or shine.

During all the days when Tan Taihong and the second prince were playing, strolling, and playing pranks, he was gritting his teeth impeccably and diligently.Hard work pays off.Finally? In the exams at the end of that year, he was far superior to others in Celun, Danqing, Qinqi, Riding and Archery, and Martial Arts.

He finally "won" and got what he wanted.

But even though Tan Taihong lost, he didn't feel regretful at all.

Taking the second place happily, he turned around and asked the second prince and Xun Chang to sneak out to the West Market and eat sweet-scented osmanthus wine at night.

Zhuang Qingqu was puzzled and looked at them gloomily.

The second prince: "Xiao Zhuang, do you want to come together?"

Zhuang Qingqu couldn't open his mouth because of his throat.The person next to him: "Hey, Ah Liang, don't embarrass him, he is rushing back to study, how can we delay? Let's go!"

Zhuang Qingqu went home that day and celebrated with his family.

The young master fell ill in the middle of the night?

Is Yi sick? For half the winter, only the second prince came to see him.Snowflakes fell on the second prince's shoulders, and he reached out to touch Xiao Zhuang's head, with a bit of worry in his eyes.

Can't help but ask him, Xiaozhuang, are you really tired?

In fact, you are still young, and the future is long.There is no need to force everything.You are already "very good", everyone has their own strengths, and there is no need to strive for the first in everything.

Zhuang Qingqu's face turned cold immediately: "What is the second prince? What do you mean?"

"Tan Taihong won the first place, and you all congratulate him, and you think it should be taken for granted. I won the first place, is it 'reluctantly'?"

Then the second prince was given the order of expulsion for no reason.

Yan Yuliang is gone now? I don't remember how I felt when I was kicked out of the Zhuang Mansion by Xiaobudian.I probably couldn't laugh or cry, I think it's the farmer and the snake again?

At that time, he didn't know Xiaozhuang well enough.I vaguely know that he has a weird temper, but I don't know that he is so weird.And I thought that Zhuang Xinhuo's requirements were too strict to force his son to be like this.

but not.

Xiao Zhuang is proud of being so strong, but also sour and vinegary.Too bad he didn't know that at the time.

It's just that the shell is hard, but the inside is actually very soft.If you touch it along the fur, it will be very obedient.

But he didn't know then.

Yan Yuliang now thinks about Xiao Zhuang Ming? Ming? He was a proud son of heaven, but he was shunned by everyone.I'm afraid that the grievances that I have never suffered in my life have been suffered? Over and over again in those few years.

Until they grew up a bit, Zhuang Qingqu lost his temper and became reticent and steady.

The second prince persuaded everyone to play with him again.But most of the time, it was still a group of lively people joking and laughing in front, while Zhuang Qingqu silently followed behind.

Jinyu three years, the last darkness before dawn.

The Tantai family failed to assassinate the emperor, and the conspiracy was exposed and eventually fell. The people said that the emperor had good luck.

But in just two months, the century-old giants were wiped out, and the emperor left? What kind of "lucky" was it?

"Azhao has been collecting evidence of the Tantai Clan's rebellion since he took the throne, no, it should be said that when he was the prince."

"After my whole family was murdered in Beijiang, surveillance was stepped up."

So it can be so fast.Zhuang Qingqu got it before he was seriously injured? The Tantai clan's criminal case file was sorted out early, and the arrest of the culprit by the Green Willow Camp was also authorized by the emperor.

"Are you caught at that time? There are many traitors. Some people want to pay off their merits and confess that there is a box of secret letters hidden in the private fort outside the Tantai Clan's city."

"Can the letter prove it? Tan Taihong knew about the family's rebellion, so he can be convicted of Tan Taihong."

"..."

"But when I arrived, the letter had already been burned to ashes by Tantai's servants."

"If you look for an informer again, you'll die for no reason."

Hearing Yan Yuliang's scalp exploded.

"I thought..."

This is different from what he knew before!Shilu and Tan Taihong and his family in prison all said that it was a letter that could prove that Tan Taihong had nothing to do with the conspiracy!

King Lan lowered his eyes: "The evidence has been destroyed, so Ah Zhao will not believe that Tan Taihong is guilty no matter what."

"There are also rumors that the letter was burned by me. I killed Tantai by all means to avenge my father. There are still many people in the court applauding me."

"But even if... the Tantai family is harmed? My whole family, Tantai Hongruo is really innocent? I won't frame him!"

"The fire was indeed caused by his servant! Ah Zhao, think, if it is a letter that can prove? His innocence? Why did the servant rush to burn it?!"

Lan Wang's voice was low and his chest heaved violently.

Yan Yuliang hurriedly helped him cover it, and flashed back in his mind for a moment? A lot of cause and effect.

Tan Taihong in the prison pleaded not guilty, looked at him with firm eyes, and said, Azhao, you executed me casually, and I didn't know about the treason at home.

But I never betrayed you. We have known each other for ten years. Since you were the second prince, I have been waiting to see you rule the world, see your blessings and protect the people of the world, and wait to see you bring Da Xia back to prosperity!

Although I am dull, there is a god above my head? I have a clear conscience, and I will never let go of my mouth even if I die.

Outside the dungeon, the young Zhuang Qingqu pressed his weak body against each other day by day, asking why the emperor didn't kill Tantai Hong.

But in Emperor Jin Yu's view, this is not a question of who to trust at all.

But the truth burns away?, forever?.

What was written in those "letters"? Can it be proved? Tan Taihong is innocent or can he be proved? He is guilty, or is there nothing to prove? Can't?

Xi Xingjian has been in Dali Temple for many years, and Yan Yuliang clearly remembers that he said that it is unreasonable to talk about evidence when judging right from wrong.

Xi Xingjian once judged a case in which the husband, mother-in-law and neighbors all believed that the wife murdered the concubine.Because of the deep hatred between the two for many years and the entanglement of interests, the main room was still sneaky at the time of the crime, and it could not be anyone else except her.

But no evidence could be found, and the wife also complained.

Xi Xingjian was more cautious, and tried his best to investigate all kinds of clues under the scolding of everyone, and finally found out that it was not the real room.Although everyone thinks it's her.

"..."

The shadow of the moon moved eastward, shining through the screen window.

During the long silence, Yan Yuliang suffered unprecedented pain and pierced his heart.

He knew that he should actually comfort Xiao Zhuang.Coax him, say I was wrong?Tantai plotted rebellion and treason, I was blind back then.

Needless to say, Xiaozhuang's grievances over the years, he believed that Xiaozhuang would not frame others.

...But it just can't.

Exchange your sincerity for your sincerity.It is so easy for Xiaozhuang to open up to him now, he can't use "coaxing" to perfunctory his heart.

But if he wants to tell the truth, it is that Xiao Zhuang definitely did not frame Tan Taihong, but Tan Taihong may not have conspired against him either.

At least not conclusively.

Yan Yuliang once again truly hated himself for being clear-headed.

He is really not as good as those stupid kings.

What does the foolish beauty say? It is what it is? Whatever the beauty likes is fine.

Even if everyone in the world scolds the emperor as a fool, you might as well love your concubine and be honored and favored for the rest of your life, be held in the palm of your hand, be proud of the scenery, be happy and comfortable.

How could it be like him, the beauty who was with him really hurt? At the time, he said that they were "torturing each other"! !

"Xiao Zhuang..."

Is Yan Yuliang extremely guilty?

Zhuang Qingqu is such a sensitive and delicate person, I immediately understood what he meant.

Yan Yuliang could even feel the breath of despair in an instant.

Emperor Jinyu really panicked too?

Does he regret it? He should coax him against his conscience!Shut your eyes and coax!What is true?

How sad will Xiaozhuang be?Has he lost his memory? Can't remember clearly? But he still refuses to approach him.

The emperor is so eccentric, why blame King Lan for hating Tan Taihong.

The more Yan Yuliang thought about it, the more he couldn't do it, he got up and tried to bend down and kiss the person next to him.For the first time in his life, when Zhuang Qingqu was kissed by him, his reaction was stiffness and resistance.

Banyan Yuliang is even more sad.

Hold on.It's my fault, and I deserve to be disliked!

……

Back then, the Tantai family was convicted of treason, but Emperor Jinyu was lenient, and the Tantai family's family members found out that they had nothing to do with the treason.

It's just that Tan Taihong couldn't keep it.

Even if the evidence is insufficient.But the public was full of grievances and refused to let it go, and the number of petitions was like snowflakes, so Emperor Jinyu had to compromise.

Yan Yuliang's old trick, if you can't be comprehensive? Just make a compromise, and if you can't make a compromise? Just lie.

Let no one know about the private release of the son of the criminal minister.In order to convince everyone, he also seriously acted in a crying scene for half a month.

Unexpectedly, all male members of Tantai's family were killed, and the old lady was so sad that she hanged herself with several daughters.

"Xiao Zhuang..."

Thinking of this, Yan Yuliang really wants to die?

If there is a chance to see Tan Taihong again, he must tell him to blame me if he wants to complain, why? Blame Xiaozhuang! ! !

Thinking about that treason now, so? Everyone is a disaster.

Zhuang Qingqu was seriously injured, and Tan Taihong faked his death and left his hometown. He worked hard but couldn't be perfect.

The moonlight is hazy, and the candlelight is faint.Zhuang Qingqu was silent.

"Xiaozhuang, say something."

"You understand me..."

"Don't feel bad, okay, I believe you. It's just that I think that letter and that servant..."

Refutation is meaningless at all, otherwise there would be no stumbling? After so many years, there is still no solution.

Yan Yuliang remembered the boy Xiaozhuang tugging at his sleeve with red eyes.

"I'm not as close as you and Tantai, so you don't believe what I say, just believe his side?!"

I also remember that he came to him after he was drunk: "May I beg you, Ah Zhao, please trust me. I really didn't lie to you."

Banyan Yuliang's heart is about to break?

He really didn't think it would work.Xiao Zhuang's body injury is still not healed at the moment - the wound of Tantai Hong's heavy bow made Lan Lan lie down? After so many days, suffered? So much pain, almost to the point of losing his hand?

But even now he still speaks for Tantai and is still reasoning.

Talk about a fart!

Does Xiao Zhuang want to be reasonable?

Yan Yuliang thought about her past six months.Every day, Zhuang Qingqu, even with a cold face, can make the dog emperor jump up and down with peace of mind and confidence through various petty details.

And Emperor Jinyu for so many years...but only gave Xiaozhuang a lot of loneliness and grievances.

Even the gods should be sad or die.

Emperor Dog, what do you do every day? What? ! ! !

Yan Yuliang gritted his teeth and straightened his back. He tried his best to untie his shirt, his fingertips trembling a little.

"..."

It's useless to take it off, and most of it is self-defeating.

But even if he has a good mind, he can't think of anything else he can give to Lan Wang.

There is no shortage of rewards and treasures to King Lan, and his status is already above [-] people. Sincerely, he actually gave it to King Lan? But maybe half of the dog emperor's heart was taken away by wolves before he lost his memory. It is far from enough.

Then all he had left was this lackluster body?

……

Yan Yuliang thought that what he did would anger King Lan, and even make him cry.

But the moonlight was faint, but there was a burst of warmth on the chest.

King Lan wrapped him gently, and stroked his face with cold fingertips.

Under the moon, there was a scarlet aftertaste in those eye sockets, but they had already become completely clear and clear.

Yan Yuliang rarely dodged his eyes.

He felt that he should be very ugly at the moment.That's what he looked like in the first place, but he still had an unseemly look on the verge of weeping.

He has to stick.Otherwise, if this continues, one day Lanlan will be disappointed, and will not continue to like him?

"I'm sorry," he lightly touched Lan Wang's wound, his voice was difficult, "Those who hurt Lan Lan are all bastards, I will never speak for him again."

"I believe in Lanlan. I only believe in Lanlan. It's my fault..."

King Lan kissed him? He, softly.Didn't let him go again? Finished.

"No, Ah Zhao is not wrong."

Yan Yuliang whispered: "Lanlan, don't always say such things against your will."

Zhuang Qingqu shook his head, not against his will.

Arguing? For so many years, he has been biting at being wronged and let down.But the bottom of my heart is not clear, and Ah Zhao is also right.

What the servants burned could be evidence or a pile of waste papers. Even a whistleblower may not be a true whistleblower, and a servant may not be a real servant.

I only blame myself that the horse wasn't fast enough back then, and didn't arrive one step earlier before the burn was over.

For so many years, he was young, vigorous and greedy, and wanted his loved ones to trust him unconditionally—but now he more and more understands that one cannot pursue "two contradictions".

He loves|Yan Zhao's intelligence? Unparalleled, you should understand? He will discuss the matter as it stands, and not be blinded by emotion.

He loves|Yan Zhao has a lenient heart, so he can't forgive him? People who don't like him become jealous to the point of madness.

Yan Yuliang: "But it may not be..."

"The evidence is gone. It can't prove? Tantai's conspiracy, and it can't prove? His innocence!"

"What if I really misplaced someone?"

How wronged should Lan Lan be? "

"will not."

The moonlight shone in, and Zhuang Qingqu's pupils were stained with light? Bright? Dark?

"Not wronged."

"On the contrary, it's Azhao. At that time, you had to hide someone who forced you to kill your friend for many years, and you had to save someone who might have betrayed you."

"We still have to deal with major national affairs, balance the situation between the DPRK and China, and defend against foreign enemies. At that time, Ah Zhao was tired, hard and uncomfortable, but he never said anything about it."

Lan Wang gently pressed against his bare|naked chest, rubbed against his warm shoulders, and kissed his neck tenderly like a small animal.

"Azhao is an emperor, how much he can't help himself, I know? I know. But I can't get over it after so many years, I'm just like a fool."

"If I..."

"If I could understand you earlier and help you more by your side, you wouldn't have worked so hard. Maybe we wouldn't either..."

Yan Yuliang didn't understand what he was talking about at all.

It's all bullshit, he doesn't believe it!Is it enough for King Lan to fight north and south? On the contrary, the dog emperor is the one he loves? A person can't be a foolish king even once, and can't protect his shortcomings. How dare he say that he loves him?

Lan Wang had no choice but to wrap his clothes for him: "Okay?"

Yan Yuliang: "Lan Lan."

He twisted and twisted on someone's body, throwing himself into his arms.

The dog emperor is not without heart.In fact, there is still a little, maybe there are many more, and he wants him to know.

"Every time Lanlan hugs me... she tries her best to bear it. I know it."

"I don't want Lan Lan to bear it any longer."

He leaned over and kissed Prince Lan.

Lan Wang hugged his waist tightly.It used to be a sweet kiss, but this time the moonlight was hazy, but it was complicated and ambiguous.