sealed with a kiss

We were opposites in those days, he was fighting for life and death, while I was abroad celebrating my rebirth

After I met him in college, when I went abroad as an exchange student, I was the most peaceful and happiest time. I almost forgot that he existed in my whole life, and I forgot that he had appeared in my life.

If it wasn't for Mo Shaoqian's phone call, I would have continued to study abroad for postgraduate entrance examinations, and I would never see him again in this life, nor would I return to China.

But he just wanted to show up again, and he just made a phone call during the Lantern Festival when the moon was full in a foreign country.

I just gave a soft feed, but tears burst out of my eyes. I thought I would never cry because of him again in this life, but I couldn't help crying when I only heard this word softly in my ears.

I thought it had been tens of millions of years, but I didn't expect to hear his voice all at once.

I kept crying in front of the phone, kept crying, crying until I fell asleep on the bed and he was still listening on the other side. . .

I feel that I have buried him very deep, so deep that I don't even know that it has taken root and sprouted in the bottom of my heart.

A voice woke me up so easily.

"Tong Xue?"

I put away the memories and went over, and he took out a bunch of photos from the drawer.

Flipping through it quickly, tears finally couldn't help falling down.

We have known each other for six years, in the first three years he was torturing me, in the fourth year we were exhausted and gave up on each other, in the fifth year we were getting used to falling in love, and in the sixth year we really felt each other's existence.

How many people have six years?I waited until I was 24, and he wasted from 30 to 36.

His youth is gone, but I can't enjoy my youth.

In the past six years, he has inadvertently known what I like and what I am afraid of, but he is like a puzzle, never able to figure out me but getting deeper and deeper, unable to extricate himself from nesting around him, crying and laughing.

He treats me like a child, gets angry and laughs, but I just want to see if I can affect this person's emotions.Tears dripped slowly on the photos. I had never seen these things before, and I never knew that someone would secretly take them. At that time, I was really happy and carefree, as if I felt that the future was bright.

"Madam Mo said that Mr. Mo has been looking at these photos for a day, and you can ask him what he thinks, but he has officially gone to work since these photos, and he has become the same as before. Give it back to me."

I wiped my tears and said, you sent him on purpose, right?Why are you crying for me?Mr. Zhang laughed and said, "You little girl."

I cried all afternoon when he said anything, even Mo Shaoqian sat on the balcony in the middle of the night and smoked a cigarette all night facing the moon.

In fact, the first time I saw Mo Shaoqian when I returned to China, he was very thin, and I could touch the bones between his fingers when I held my hand. I kept looking out the window all the way, trying not to cry.

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☆、Mo Shaoqian 3

For the first time in a foreign country, I feel so far away from you

I can't really feel your breath.

It's been a long, long time since I felt like this.

The driver didn't want me to go back last night, even if there are only three hours left, I will tell you personally

I am fascinated by the reluctance and sadness you show

I still clearly remember the first time,

We just got married and went on a business trip, you timidly asked me how long it would take

Half a month

You stand next to a row of hyacinths in the yard, frowning and letting out a low cry, for so long.

I never thought that you would still stay, even if you were cheated at that moment, you were willing to be obsessed with

For the first time in my life, someone will treat me like this, and will accommodate me in a corner of my heart

Nothing about emotion, pure concern

I can't wait to call you when I get off the plane today.

Your burst of crying disturbed me

In fact, I don't want to tell you about many things about the company, and I don't even want you to worry about me.

It's just that two months is too long, even more than a year of waiting for you.

So I'm easily irritated, imagining your loneliness at home alone

I can feel that feeling alone

My mother sent her children back to China under my begging. With them, you will have time to forget about me

Just now when I met some old classmates, Shu Yan got drunk and dragged me to complain

Never thought that such a tough person would cry

After returning to China for a long time, his youthful lover has lost his face, no youthfulness and illusions.

I understand his compassion when he sings

No matter how bright and successful you are outside, you still don’t want to face an empty cold room when you go home.

I know this feeling, so when you cry, there is nothing I can do.

For a long time before I would be stuck in self-blame

I would think that if it wasn't for my presence, you would still be living in your own peace and happiness, and you would be happy for the rest of your life.

But now you smile at me more and more

you don't know how beautiful your smile is

When you smile, my life seems to light up

Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't have so much

I shouldn't have your warmth

I was not good to you before, I know

But such a crime you forget so easily, forgive

And I also enjoy such tenderness safely, piercing your smile into my heart

Vice President Zhang said that I spent 34 years betting on the second half of my life. I was lucky and won, but the price I paid was too high

I never tell outsiders about my personal affairs, but I can't hide it from him alone.

I don’t know when I started to tell him something about you, and I would go out with him to see what you were doing, and with a small gesture, I would laugh at him and say that you are usually very good to many people, why is it you?

Maybe it's really me who is obsessed with ghosts, people who haven't met you won't understand

At this time, I can look at you openly like this

A long time ago, I didn't even dare to touch your hair

Every time I come back to smell your hair is all kinds of cheap perfume

I think you don't know how to run a family, so I just don't want you to suffer abroad

I think you are too noisy, I just want to hold you quietly and feel your real existence

I think you can't do good things, but I just don't want you to be promoted, so that I can be a worry-free intern forever

On the day you confessed your love to me, I was as excited as when I first met you and didn't do any work the whole night

My mother told me, I don’t want to hurt you again in this life, I know, but most of the time, I refrain from losing my temper with you, ridiculing and sarcasm

I'm whimsical you're only allowed to talk to me, only to see me

I want to hide you in my body forever and never let it out

Only now do I understand that getting someone is all you need is your heart

If it's just a body, they will only hate each other and flee for the rest of their lives...

You called in the early morning. You were very tired from work during the day, and you fell asleep on the bed because you were blinded by your eyes.

know you will call

Just be conscious.

Maybe you really forgot the time zone difference between us

You said a lot with great excitement.

I didn't expect you to say so much to me.

I used to always say that you were too noisy, not because I didn't like it, but because the next moment without your voice, my whole body was lonely.

So I scolded you, yelled at you, and even told you to go away.

I regret it when you leave

And the forced smile made me feel even more pitiful.

I don't know when you will take the initiative to smile at me, you will tilt your head and ask me many strange questions

I think you are stupid, but I don't even know it.

When I go to work the next day, I can't control it and ask to help you solve it.

About I'm really crazy, crazy as keen to hear your every word and request.

I remember that two days before the wedding, you pulled me excitedly and said, what should you do when you get married, you should know what to do when you are married.

I know you don't mean it, but I still ruthlessly shake off your hand and tell you to get out.

Even I loathe myself.

I haven't seen your smile for two days

When I called my mother, I never thought that mentioning your name would cause me to cry from heartache.

So when you were six months pregnant and the doctor said that you and the child were in danger, I resolutely asked you to abort it.

Without you, no one in this world would love me.

On the phone, you still smiled brightly and said some boring things, faintly sleepy, and I fell asleep under your voice for the first time

In the past, you also said on the phone that you would sleep with a slight breath when you were tired. I think you must be very cute at that time.

In the hotel room, I asked the housekeeper to buy a pot of asparagus bamboo, which is very lush and green.

But I just don't like it.

Just now I called Sister Hui to take good care of the pot of asparagus at home.

It was supposed to die, but it turned out a little green buds when I went home that time

I was very pleasantly surprised, I took it and gave it to Master Yu

He is an expert in gardening, and he must have a way to bring it back to life.

The old driver who knows everything about it says that I have severe obsessive-compulsive disorder

Actually he was right.

Some things may really have no meaning, but I impose some feelings on it.

Just like you.

You hate me for ruining your life, your love.

I knew at that time that even if you lost everything and went to divorce, you would not marry me.

I still remember not long after I got married, you held my cell phone and just answered a call

I can't help yelling and losing my temper at you.

You looked at me in confusion, crying with tears all over your face

When you cry, my heart breaks.

I just don't want you to see countless unsent messages in the SMS draft box.

You don't love me, I know it.

It's like never thinking about marrying me.

You don't know, I'd be scared too!

Afraid you see everything

I'm afraid that you will feel sad when you see me being soft.

That's fine, you never know the pain in my heart

As long as you are always happy.

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