In the city [entertainment circle]

49

Even if Li Ruosen didn't say anything, Shen Xiao could sense that things over there seemed no longer as urgent as before.Of course he didn't think it was because the conditions he had negotiated with Wang Zezhi were successful. When the filming of the film was finished, this kind of excuse sounded like a delay.

He had a guess in his heart, but he couldn't be sure.

After returning to the hotel at night, he called Li Ruosen.

"In another month, it should be finished." Shen Xiao said to Li Ruosen while sitting on the sofa in the room.He actually had a feeling that the conversation between Li Ruosen and himself was more natural.

It seemed that the invisible gap before was gone, and even if the call lasted a little longer, he would not reveal some anxiety in his voice.

He thought it must be a change from the Li family.

Li Ruosen's voice was still slow, "Ms. Shen, is the filming going well?"

"Exceeded the director's expectations." Shen Xiao said, he looked out the window, although it was midnight, but the lights outside were still brightly lit, he had no play tomorrow morning, so it didn't matter if he went to sleep later.

After he and Li Ruosen chatted about some innocuous topics, Shen Xiao finally couldn't hold back. He stood up, leaned against the window, and watched the endless traffic in the distance.

"Things on the Internet...you know?" He asked tentatively.

"Mr. Shen." Li Ruosen said helplessly, "I told you about the things on the Internet."

Shen Xiao actually didn't forget, he thought for a while, and decided to ask directly, "During this time, that person hasn't called me..." He thought for a while, and organized his words, "Do you know?"

Li Ruosen did not speak, and remained silent for a long time.Just when Shen Xiao thought he was asleep, Li Ruosen asked suddenly, with a little unconcealed anxiety in his tone, "Mr. Shen...are you angry?"

Shen Xiao didn't understand Li Ruosen's brain circuit for a moment, "Why should I be angry?" He wondered if his image in Li Ruosen's eyes was so terrible.

Li Ruosen faltered on the other end of the phone for a long time before saying, "I'm afraid you think I've overstepped the rules."

"Aren't we in a relationship?" Shen Xiao asked back, he softened his voice a little, "Of course I don't think you are beyond my range." He thought for a while, "Actually, I didn't tell you, it's also I don’t want to make you worry.” He whispered his plan, “I also know that Wang Zezhi is disgusting me, but there is no way, if these are all made up by Wang Zezhi, I can refute them...but these are indeed mine. past."

In fact, when he said these things, Shen Xiao felt uneasy in his heart. Although he knew that Li Ruosen didn't know nothing about his past, how much did he really know?

The understanding of him only comes from Wu Tao's narrative.

As for how much water the narrative contained and how much the impact of facing it was alleviated, Shen Xiao knew it without even thinking about it.

In fact, when the online video was posted, his first reaction was - did Li Ruosen see it?

Then Li Ruosen's phone call told him that he saw it, but he still cared about him.This relieved Shen Xiao somewhat of his worries.

Then there are the photos.

He never tried to cover up his past, but he didn't want to share it either, after all, it wasn't a pleasant memory for him.But when facing Li Ruosen, Shen Xiao couldn't help thinking.

To him, isn't his past a little too...real?

There is no whitewashing beauty, only the most authentic truth.All the fights were not for brotherhood, but for money.

Has Li Ruosen come into contact with this kind of thing before?

Shen Xiao didn't think so. He believed that Li Zhengying would never let him touch these things. Even though he later learned about these things from books, TV, and news, he still hadn't really touched them.

And what about myself?During the ten years when he was still Shen Qianshan, he had been living such a life.

He couldn't say that these were false, so he was a little worried in his heart, worried that he was not what Li Ruosen imagined.

"...Do you think my past is acceptable?" Shen Xiao finally asked.

"Why not?" Li Ruosen asked, "I already know all of this."

For a long time, Shen Xiao didn't understand what the so-called love is. In fact, he didn't understand family love very well, but after all, there are always examples of family love in countless movies and around him for his reference.

And what about love?It seems a bit too extravagant in modern society.

Because I love you, even dying together is sweet.Shen Xiao has never been able to understand this kind of emotion, but the love in the movie is always until death. No matter whether it disappears in life or not, there is always a moment when love surpasses everything.

So Shen Xiao can't act well, because he doesn't understand, he can't understand having such feelings.

Until now, he still can't tell whether his love for Li Ruosen is love, but at least, he will feel uneasy and uneasy when facing him.

Will be a little worried about the future.

And just hearing his voice can't help but smile.

If the liking for Li Ruosen before was just instinctively wanting to get close and seeing him, then now, Shen Xiao has cleared the fog and saw this feeling more clearly.

"I never told you about my past..." Sitting on the edge of the bed, Shen Xiao said softly to Li Ruosen, "My name used to be Shen Qianshan..." He decided to tell Li Ruosen all about his past.

Li Ruosen had always thought that Mr. Shen was a very serious person. He seldom smiled on weekdays, and always buried himself in his own affairs. No matter what the occasion, he was so serious, as if he couldn't smile naturally.

Even after they expressed their hearts to each other, although Shen Xiao's tone was much more relaxed, he still felt a little serious, but these are all up to today.

Lying on the bed, Li Ruosen felt that he was already drowsy, but Shen Xiao hadn't finished talking. He almost started talking about every flower, grass and tree in the town since he was a child. .

At first he listened carefully, after all he knew those things, it was two different things from Shen Xiao telling him in person, but as he was talking, when Shen Xiao had already mentioned the geese he had raised in his backyard... Li Ruosen has already started to feel drowsy, Shen Xiao's play is relatively late today, there is a night play.

Li Ruosen was also used to talking with Shen Xiao after filming, so he waited all the time.

But he never expected that Mr. Shen could say so much... Li Ruosen was lying on the bed, although the phone was still in his ear, but his consciousness was already blurred.

My head is full of geese in the backyard, lobsters in the pond...It sounds really interesting...Mr. Shen's voice is also nice...I feel so sleepy...

His breathing rate is getting slower and slower, slower and—

"...Go to bed when you're sleepy." Shen Xiao said suddenly.

Li Ruosen cheered up, "I'm fine."

"You can hardly keep your eyes open." Shen Xiao's voice was a little helpless, "Go to sleep."

"...How do you know?" Li Ruosen, who was already in a daze, asked subconsciously.

"I guessed it." Shen Xiao said, he said good night softly, and then——

Li Ruosen suddenly woke up, he seemed to hear Mr. Shen whispered something, I love you?

He was about to ask Shen Xiao to repeat it, when he saw that the phone had been hung up, and Li Ruosen stared at the screen for a long time, but couldn't be sure if it was an auditory hallucination caused by being too sleepy.

"Did you really say...?" Li Ruosen murmured to himself, and then sent a text message to Shen Xiao.

【I love you too. 】

[Go to sleep. 】

Here, when Shen Xiao said it, he regretted it a little. He is actually not young, and because of his personality, he doesn't like to talk about these love affairs. Can't say it.

But I don't know why, when I listened to Li Ruosen's gradual breathing and his drowsy answer, maybe I felt that the other party would not hear, maybe it was because of the medium of the phone.

Things that I thought were difficult to say, suddenly became easy to say.

He wasn't sure how much Li Ruosen heard, but when he saw the text message Li Ruosen sent next second, Shen Xiao knew that Li Ruosen should have heard it.

After all, he is a man who is almost 40 years old, why is he so twitchy about this kind of thing?Shen Xiao couldn't help but think while sitting on the edge of the bed.

It wasn't until after replying to the text message that Shen Xiao looked at the cigarette he had just smoked in his hand when he was talking, that he suddenly thought that Li Ruosen was in poor health, he probably couldn't smell the smell of smoke, and it seemed that the two brothers of the Li family didn't smoke either.

Maybe I should quit too?

Shen Xiao looked at the cigarette in his hand, and then threw it into the ashtray beside him. In fact, he is not a heavy smoker, and he rarely smokes when he is resting, but he always smokes some when he is on the set.

Now that he has made up his mind, there is no need to keep those cigarettes, Shen Xiao thought, he took out half a pack of unsmoked cigarettes in his pocket, and put them in the drawer, and then he couldn't help but see the cigarettes he put away. The wood carvings on the bedside table, "Good night." He said to one of the kitten wood carvings, and then nodded its head lightly.