In the city [entertainment circle]

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Li Ruosen didn't think there was anything to be satisfied with, nor did he feel that there was anything to be dissatisfied with.What Shen Xiao said was nothing more than a casually made-up excuse, which couldn't be taken as the slightest truth.

He looked at Shen Xiao who was squatting in front of him, thinking about what Shen Xiao should look like, "Then are you willing to tell me about your past?"

"Actually, there's nothing to say." Shen Xiao said, "Aren't you tired sitting in the wheelchair?" He handed Li Ruosen his hand, "Go to my bed and rest for a while." He said.

Li Ruosen handed him his hand, and asked Shen Xiao to hug him on the bed, watching Shen Xiao take off his shoes for him, and then put his legs under the quilt.

"Would you like some drinks?" Shen Xiao asked standing by the bed after finishing all the work.

"What do you have?" Li Ruosen was curious.

"Only tea." Shen Xiao said, and he turned to make tea for Li Ruosen.

Li Ruosen looked at Shen Xiao's back and found that he had broad shoulders and a standard inverted triangle figure. Seen from behind, he felt very safe.

Shen Xiao's pillow was placed on the back of Li Ruosen's waist, and Shen Xiao's quilt was covering his body... He looked at Shen Xiao who was pouring tea for him, and felt unreal for a while.

Before that, he could only see Shen Xiao in the cinema, but now, he can stay in the same room with Shen Xiao and listen to him talk about his past——

"Give."

Li Ruosen raised his head, and when he was in a daze, Shen Xiao had already finished making tea and came to him.

He reached out to take the black tea handed over by Shen Xiao, "Mr. Shen likes black tea?"

"It was given by someone else." Shen Xiao took a sip himself, "I don't understand tea."

Li Ruosen expressed his gratitude, and then took a sip as well.

For a moment, the room fell silent.

Li Ruosen found that since he and Shen Xiao met, silence was the most common situation between them.

"I don't know how to say it." Shen Xiao said, "You should ask." He said to Li Ruosen, "What do you want to ask? As long as I can answer, I will tell you."

Li Ruosen was at a loss for a while, holding the teacup in his hand, looking at the black tea in the cup, what did he want to know?

He actually wanted to know a lot, Shen Xiao's past, why Shen Xiao left that city, why he changed his name... and his former girlfriends.

"Mr. Shen, why did you change your name?" Li Ruosen asked cautiously.

"Why?" Shen Xiao pulled the chair and sat in front of Li Ruosen, he seemed to want to smoke... Li Ruosen watched him take out a cigarette from his pocket, then hesitated, and put it back again.

"I don't mind." He hurriedly said to Shen Xiao.

Shen Xiao shook his head, "You're not in good health." He leaned back on the chair as he spoke, he didn't speak, and Li Ruosen didn't ask, after a while, he said, "That little Wu, did you tell me what my name was before?" ?"

Li Ruosen shook his head.

"I used to be called Shen Si." Shen Xiao said, his expression was flat, and there were no ups and downs in his tone, "I am the fourth eldest in my family, and the youngest one, but it was purely an accidental product. Raising children at that time was not what it is now. So particular, one more child is just one more pair of chopsticks.”

"Then I hung around for many years. When I grew up, I realized that I was picked up by this family. I stayed because I was a boy." Shen Xiao said to Li Ruosen, "I'm called Shen Si because At that time, I was born at four o'clock in the morning, and the person who left me didn't write his name, so he left a date of birth."

"Later, I didn't like this name, so I changed it to the one I saw first." Shen Xiao said, leaning on the back of the chair, wearing a gray sportswear, with a calm expression, "Actually, you should Let Xiao Wu tell you, because I can’t remember many things myself.”

"The bad things I have done..." Shen Xiao said to himself, "You know Lin San, Lin San is half of me, we are ignorant, fighting and fighting, except for not stealing chickens and dogs, those bad things, I It’s all done.” He looked into Li Ruosen’s eyes, “You don’t take it seriously now because I’m no longer the gangster I was back then, and what you hear is all my narrative, but your elder brother may not be like that. I think so."

"Your elder brother doesn't like me." Shen Xiao came to a conclusion, he still took out a cigarette from his pocket, but he didn't light it, he just put it in his mouth, "So I'm curious, how did you convince him to let you follow me After all, in my opinion, he is planning to raise you as a lady of the family."

Li Ruosen didn't understand this point either, he didn't have any special reaction to the lady in Shen Xiao's mouth, he sat on the bed and looked at Shen Xiao, "Mr. Shen, have you ever been in love?"

"Of course I talked about it." Shen Xiao said as a matter of course. He was smoking a cigarette, not wearing glasses, and his chin was unshaven. He was full of indescribable charm, "I'm already 37 years old, how could I not I've been in love." He said, "What you want to ask is my past?"

Li Ruosen nodded, he knew all about the girlfriend Shen Xiao was talking about later.

"...Of course we talked about it." Shen Xiao said, he took down the cigarette, "Actually, it's not about dating, it's just playing together, and we can't talk about any feelings."

Li Ruosen didn't speak for a while, he could feel that Shen Xiao was concealing some facts, so he changed the way of asking, "Then Mr. Shen, have you ever liked anyone?"

Shen Xiao didn't speak anymore, he held a cigarette in his hand, looked at Li Ruosen, his expression could not be said to be confused or troubled, "You want to know?"

Li Ruosen nodded.

"Do you really like me?" Shen Xiao's tone was a little unbelievable.

Li Ruosen nodded.

Shen Xiao got closer, he sat on the edge of the bed, and reached out to touch Li Ruosen's cheek, "Do you know what this means?" He said, "You know what you would do if you really fell in love, right?" Don't blame him After repeated confirmation like this, he just felt that this young master seemed to have no common sense in certain aspects. He always felt that Li Ruosen's liking was the kind of adoration.

"Mr. Shen." Li Ruosen calmed down now, he reached out to hold Shen Xiao's hand, "I should have told you, I dreamed about you."

"I know what it means, and I know what it means, so I'm sure, I really like you."

Li Ruosen spoke seriously, his words were very straightforward.Because he always felt that he and Shen Xiao were like two parallel lines, and now they only intersected briefly.

He was afraid that if he didn't make it clear now, he might not have a chance to make it clear in the future.

Shen Xiao looked at Li Ruosen with a complicated expression, and he broke free, "Of course I like people," he sat a little further away and said, "My music teacher."

"Actually, I don't remember what she looks like now." He said to Li Ruosen, "What I remember is her back facing the sun, a willow tree outside the window, and her back stepping on the organ..." He asked as if remembering something, "Do you know what a step organ is?"

Li Ruosen didn't understand why Shen Xiao asked such a question, but he still nodded, even though he had never seen the real thing.

"Your music lessons when you were young must have been piano, maybe that kind of grand piano." When Shen Xiao said this, a little smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, but he didn't expect Li Ruosen to shake his head.

"I never went to school." Li Ruosen said.

Shen Xiao asked in surprise, "Are you kidding?" He said, "Will the Li family not let you go to school?"

"I went to elementary school." Li Ruosen said, "I didn't have it later." He said that after his mother passed away, Li Zhengying completely took over the power, and then he had an accident, and Li Zhengying was even more worried about him going out.

Shen Xiao looked at Li Ruosen and didn't speak for a while, maybe this was too unbelievable for him, Li Ruosen thought, before meeting Shen Xiao, although he also knew that most of the people went to school, he didn't think there was any What, after all, going to school is to learn knowledge, and he can learn this at home.

"Is school...interesting?" Li Ruosen couldn't help asking.

"It's not interesting, but it's also interesting." Shen Xiao said, "I'll meet a lot of people."

He looked at Li Ruosen, and he didn't know if it was sympathy or what. When he noticed Li Ruosen's overly strong emotions before, he wanted to avoid them, because he was not used to such overly intense emotions. Maybe when he was 17 years old , he would like it.

But now it is 20 years later, he has long since lost that mood.

Besides, he didn't think the Li family would sit back and watch this relationship, but from Li Ruosen's few words, he could feel the controlling desire of the head of the Li family.

He would not naively think that Li Zhengying would be the kind of person willing to give his younger brother happiness, on the contrary, he would probably be the first to object.

The child I slowly raised was abducted by a poor man who was about the same age as me?

No parent can bear it, not to mention Li Zhengying's attitude towards Li Ruosen is much more paranoid than ordinary parents.

But now, after hearing Li Ruosen say that for so many years, he hadn't been to school much and had almost no contact with the outside world, that little bit of instinct to stay away turned into sympathy.

For so many years, his world is only as big as Li's family, and the rest are virtual worlds, maybe in books or movies.

So originally I just wanted to divert the topic briefly, but now Shen Xiao decided to make it a little longer, "This music teacher came when I was in the third year of junior high school. At that time, I already discovered my relationship with this family. Who am I with?" I don’t have a good relationship with anyone at school, and I don’t like anyone at school.”

"But no one cares about me, I just wander around. There are not many people like me in school, but there are a few." Shen Xiao said, he remembered that it seemed to be a spring afternoon at that time, and he didn't want to stay in the classroom , decided to go for a walk.

So he went out through the back door. He was very thin then, but he is not the same now.

When he was wandering around in the playground, he suddenly heard the sound of a piano, so he walked to the music classroom following the sound of the piano.

He remembered that the music classroom was on the second floor, and there was a row of willows outside. The wind blew in through the window, causing the willow branches outside to flutter, and then the hair of the person in front of the organ fluttered as well.

"Then I saw that music teacher." Shen Xiao said, it has been more than 20 years, just like he said before, he can't remember the teacher's appearance, "I lay outside the classroom, listening After a while, the sound of the piano stopped, she turned around, found me, and asked me, why didn't you go to class?" Shen Xiao said to Li Ruosen, "Then I ran away, and I don't know why I ran."

"Later, as long as it was music class, I was never late."

"What happened later?" Li Ruosen couldn't help asking.

"Later, after only staying for half a year, this teacher left. She originally came from a big city. Our place is too small, and things are broken, and we don't even have a piano." Shen Xiao said, "She left At that time, I felt uncomfortable for a long time, and then I thought, it must be the feeling of falling out of love."

"But I have never known her. My liking is just my imagination. What I like is the scene at that time." Shen Xiao said to Li Ruosen, "How fragile is this liking?" He I feel that I have made it very clear, just like him at that time, Li Ruosen fell in love with him only because of the role of Lin San, and he never really understood him from the beginning to the end.

Just like what he only likes is the peaceful scene of playing the piano, what Li Ruosen likes is also Lin San who refuses to admit defeat on the screen.

"...But, I only like you."

Shen Xiao looked at Li Ruosen who spoke softly.

"Mr. Shen." He said to Shen Xiao, "Why don't you believe that I really like you?"