night lights up

One thing, no matter what, the heat will slowly fade away.Gradually, our fight incident, including everyone's pity and disbelief towards senior Chu Heng, all cooled down.Every year at the end of June, I have to take the test of CET-[-] and CET-[-]. I have passed both CET-[-] and CET-[-].I also signed up for the sixth grade that year.

At that time, the relationship between me and Chu Heng's mother was strange and harmonious.Every time his mother was so angry that I covered her heart, Chu Heng would laugh from the sidelines, saying that his mother liked me very much.In fact, I think so, if you really disgusted me, you would have long since wanted to see me, so why bother to quarrel with me all day long.

I also like his mother very much, but every time we meet, he makes me break up.It would have been better if it hadn't been mentioned.

But Chu Heng was sought out by his younger uncle, who was afraid of his mother.He discussed with his little uncle and went on a business trip for a few days, so that everyone would feel better about each other.Chu Heng went to other places, so I went back to live in my home, which is closer to the nursing home, so it is convenient for me to visit my mother.

One afternoon I came back from the nursing home and walked through the cars parked downstairs.As soon as I passed by, there was the sound of a car door opening behind me. I didn't pay attention, and was about to go upstairs to check the fingerprints.

Someone asked: "Hello."

I'm the only one here, are you talking to me?I looked back in surprise, it was a middle-aged man, and I couldn't tell the exact age.Looking at his eyes, he should be in his 40s, but his face is still very young, and he is the kind of person who is well maintained.His face was stern and rigid, and he seemed to be a very difficult person to get close to.

After I looked back at him, he twitched the corners of his mouth, probably trying to laugh.But I can't laugh, so it's a bit weird.

I don't know him, and I've always been wary of strangers.But rare, I didn't dislike him very much, my hand was still on the door frame, and I said ignorantly, "Hello."

He walked a few steps forward, walked down the steps, and introduced himself: "I am Chu Heng's little uncle."

It turned out to be the little uncle.I have heard about him for a long time, especially recently, the little uncle was entrusted by Chu Heng's mother, and he didn't want to go, but he had to persuade Chu Heng.In fact, there is no persuasion, Chu Heng has been drinking and chatting with his little uncle a lot these days.

Since I'm not a bad person, I immediately opened the door and said politely, "Hello, Uncle."

I didn't dare to call him "Little Uncle" directly, because I was afraid that people would think I was too enthusiastic.

He seemed to want to laugh, but couldn't, so I invited him upstairs to sit down.

He followed me into the house, I put down the keys, found out the slippers for him to change, and then went to boil hot water and make tea for him.I was busy walking up and down, and he was sitting on the sofa in my house all the time.I thought about it countless times, is it because Chu Heng's mother saw that it was useless to persuade Chu Heng, and asked him to persuade me again while Chu Heng was going out of town?

I peeked at him sitting in the living room, his eyes were slightly lowered, and he didn't look around.It seems to be easy to get along with, I took a deep breath, I have nothing to be afraid of, even if you persuade me to break up, I have something to say!

I made tea, walked to the living room with the teacup, and handed the cup to him: "Uncle, please drink tea."

He suddenly came back to his senses and raised his head to thank: "Thank you."

I smiled at him, sat down opposite him, and waited for his cross-examination.He took a sip of tea, the tea was a little hot, he frowned, but swallowed it anyway.I think, this is the time to speak, to be ready to speak!

Sure enough, he took a sip and didn't drink any more. He put down his teacup and looked up at me.

His lips moved, and he finally spoke.

But what he said was: "I heard Chu Heng mentioned you, your surname is An?"

I nodded, Chu Heng said that his little uncle is not very nosy, and it is normal not to know my name, so I simply said directly: "Uncle, my name is An Sifeng."

He said "Oh" and lowered his eyes again.

How to say this?

I blinked, but decided to act first, I thought for a while, and asked, "Uncle, are you here to persuade me because of the matter between me and Chu Heng?" He looked at me, and I said bravely , "I am the same as Chu Heng, we will not break up, no matter what you say. Please also tell Auntie my determination, no matter who persuades us, we will not break up."

"Why?" he asked.

"Uh, there's no reason, because I like him, and he likes me."

He looked at me again, did not speak, but picked up the teacup and drank it slowly.After finishing drinking, he got up straight away, and I also stood up, wondering even more, leaving now?Nothing has been said yet.

Sure enough, he left. When he was walking towards the entrance, he passed a small high cabinet with some crystal balls and other small ornaments on it, as well as a photo of me and my mother.It is a photo of me when I was a child. I was only four or five years old. My mother was very young at that time, too young and too beautiful.

He stopped, and I saw his gaze, and immediately said: "This is my mother."

I also thought about it, so what if my mother had that experience.Our mother and son are already paying off the debt for that matter, no one can look down on us because of this!It's all done by myself, I will admit it frankly, and I will also take this as a lesson.

He asked, "Is your mother there?"

Chu Heng's mother would definitely not tell him about such a thing, but I am not afraid anymore.

I said: "My mother is not in good health and is now living in a nursing home."

His eyes lingered on the photo for a while, then he said goodbye and left.

I watched him leave, and called Chu Heng wonderingly, and asked him: "What is this for? Your little uncle is so strange."

"Maybe it's because my mother saw that I was not at home, so she asked him to persuade you again."

"It should be, but your little uncle didn't urge us to break up. He left after drinking a cup of tea, hehe."

Chu Heng smiled: "My little uncle was also told by my mother that he couldn't help it, let's go through the motions. You are not scared, are you?"

"Of course not!" After chatting with him about his little uncle, I asked him again, "I'll take the sixth grade exam the day after tomorrow. Are you coming back?"

"I'll come back in the afternoon and pick you up from school."

"it is good!"

The next day I went to the nursing home to see my mother. My mother is now able to go to the ground. Usually, when I go, she mostly sits by the window reading a book, or chats with her aunt next door in the downstairs yard.

When I went there that day, she sat on the bed alone in a daze.

"Mom?" I called her, she came back to her senses, looked at me, and smiled, I went in with a bag of lychees, "I bought them at the door, and they were sold directly by the fruit growers with their carts. It’s fresh. But if you eat too much, you can get angry, just eat a few.” I washed my hands and peeled lychees for her to eat.

I peeled one off and handed it to her without looking up, but she didn't pick it up for a long time.

"Mom?" I looked up again and called her.

She forced a smile, took it in her hand, and ate the litchi.But then, she was still the same, always absent-minded.We have been living together for so many years, and we can still see something is wrong. I put the litchi aside and asked, "Mom, what's wrong with you?"

She shook her head: "No, it's nothing." After she finished speaking, she also wanted to hide her panic, and then asked about Chu Heng, "The graduation ceremony is coming soon, are his parents going that day?"

The plan to meet his parents that day had been mentioned to her before, but nothing had happened at that time.At this time, my mother asked again, so I had to choose the best one and said: "If his parents have time, they should come. Mom, don't worry, his parents are very good! Especially his mother, I talked to her, she is very cute Yes. I've even met her!"

Mom immediately regained her spirits and asked in surprise, "Really?"

"That's right." I smiled and told about my shopping with his mother, and my mother was even happier: "That's good, that's good, it's great that his parents like you."

My mother has been worrying about this matter. Although Chu Heng's mother kept arguing with me when we went shopping together, what's the point of telling some white lies.Besides, I really felt at the time that it would be a matter of time before Chu Heng's parents accepted me.

For this reason, I smiled even brighter.

My mother believed me when she saw me smiling so happily. When she was happy, she couldn't help crying: "His parents can recognize you, so I don't have anything to worry about anymore. I blame my mother for being useless. As a mother... ..."

I wiped her tears: "Mom, don't cry, his parents are very reasonable people. Who is helpless?"

"Yes, yes, that's what you said."

"Mom, don't worry, I am so good, everyone will like it!" I said this proudly.

My mother laughed through tears again, I thought about it, and said: "I also met Chu Heng's uncle, and his uncle is also very good, and their family is good. By the way, do you see the photos of his parents? "

"have a look!"

I found the photo from my phone and showed it to my mother. My mother kept nodding after seeing it: "At first glance, they are very good people. My mother has never seen them before. They are decent people. Only such a good person can raise Chu Heng." Such a good child." Nodding, she still cried, "It's great, they can like you, it's great."

I was heartbroken by what my mother said.

What she meant was that when she was with those men before, she never met Chu Heng's parents, which shows how decent their family's family style is.

I suppressed the sadness in my heart, and continued to look back at the photos, show them to my mother, and make her laugh.

Mom kept smiling happily, she no longer had any expectations for herself, and I was her only hope.The photos turned over one by one, and I stayed close to my mother all the time. Suddenly, her shoulders tightened.

I looked back at her, her eyes didn't move, she pointed at the person in the photo with Chu Heng: "This, this is?"

I took a look: "This is Chu Heng's little uncle, who has the best relationship with Chu Heng, and there is a picture of Chu Heng's little aunt behind." I said, turning backwards, but my mother's shoulders never relaxed.

"Mom?" I closed the flip of the phone.

Mom's eyes blinked a few times slowly, she looked at me and smiled: "It's okay, Mom, Mom is just a little worried about you and very happy, so—"

I thought that she did this after seeing Chu Heng’s little uncle’s photo, and immediately understood, I said: “Don’t worry, even if their uncles and aunts don’t like me, it’s okay! His parents agree with me. Besides, his uncle likes me very much, he went to see me at my house yesterday, he—” I was so excited that I almost told the truth that his little uncle came to persuade me to break up with Chu Heng, okay After braking in time, I smiled obediently at my mother, "Anyway, you can rest assured!"

Mother smiled and nodded.

But I still felt something was wrong. Before leaving, I secretly went to the aunt next door and asked my mother how the morning was. I arrived at the nursing home in the afternoon.

Auntie is very talkative. Hearing my question, she said: "Someone came to see your mother this morning. I think it seems to be an acquaintance. They chatted downstairs for a long time."

"Is she also an aunt?" It's not that my mother has no friends at all. Aunt Lin will come to see her when she's done with her work.

The aunt shook her head: "No, it's a man."

My heart tightened, thank you, and left first.

Are the men who can come to my mother the ones who accompanied me before?

I clenched my fists, my mother is so sick, why come here?No wonder my mother's face is so reluctant, she has been away from that kind of life for a year or two, who wants to meet the old people again?My mother doesn't want to mention these things to me, so I can't take the initiative to ask.Fortunately, I'm about to go on summer vacation, and I'll come over every day to accompany me. I'll see who else dares to come over!

I left the nursing home, took a shower at home, poured a cup of hot water, and lay on the bed waiting for Chu Heng's call.

The first one to wait was my mother's call, and I answered it immediately. I was afraid that something had happened to my mother.

My mother heard my panicked voice and said, "Don't worry, it's okay, it's okay..."

"really?"

"real."

"Then mother, did you call me?" I secretly guessed that my mother was in a bad mood after seeing those people, so I tentatively said, "Mom, is there anything unhappy about you? Tell me."

I hope she can say it. Mom hesitated for a long time, but didn't say anything substantive. The two of us have been talking nonsense in circles. I noticed it and could only follow her first.When I was about to change the subject, my mother suddenly asked, "Do you still remember that my mother showed you a picture of my great-grandfather before?"

"remember."

"Do you remember that town?"

I nodded: "I remember."

She was silent for a while, and said, "Baby, let's leave Shanghai, okay?"

"..." I was stunned for a long time, and then asked, "Why?"

Mom is not the kind of person who thinks for a while, and it is very meaningful for her to say such words.This sentence seems simple, but the meaning behind it is profound. Leave Shanghai?That also means leaving everything here, so what about our hometown?That happened several generations ago. My mother and I were born and raised in Shanghai, and this is our home.

She wants to leave our home and wants me to leave Chuheng.

I grabbed my phone tightly and asked in a low voice, "Mom, did someone look for you and did you say anything?"

I have to suspect that it was Chu Heng's family who went to find her mother and said something.

Instead, my mother panicked: "No, it's not."

"why?"

The mother remained silent again, and then said: "Baby, Chu Heng's parents will not accept you, nor will they accept our family. Instead of being sad in the future, we should break up early, isn't it good?"

"Why didn't they accept us? They are obviously accepting me step by step." I couldn't understand, she agreed with Chu Heng to wear a ring for me, she was so happy.

"No."

"What's that?" I demanded.

"I, I..." Mom was speechless.

I didn't want to push my mother too hard, so I changed my tone and sub-tone: "Mom, don't be afraid, and don't worry, no matter what happens, I can solve it. You have to trust me and Chu Heng."

Mom didn't continue talking and hung up the phone.

But my mood became completely gloomy. It happened that it was raining outside. I put down my phone, walked to the balcony, opened the window, and let the rain drift in.

The dreary rainy season is here again.

I looked up at the jet-black sky, feeling a little uneasy in my heart.

People's sixth sense is sometimes terrible. From the time it rained at night, I was uneasy until dawn.It was still raining, but it wasn't a heavy rain, but a continuous light rain.Although the rain was small, it lasted for a long time, and the ground was finally filled with stagnant water.

When it was almost time, I packed my schoolbag, took my umbrella, and went to school for the exam.

I felt that something was going to happen, so I was extra careful that day, and even double-checked whether I had brought all the admission tickets and ID cards. I even brought several 2B pencils and a dozen fountain pen refills.Be extra careful when walking, for fear of bumping into someone.

I sat in the examination room safely, and I was relieved.

The female classmate was in the same examination room as me. Seeing me like this, she secretly turned her head and smiled at me, thinking that I was funny.I also thought I was amusing, so I laughed at myself, took the test paper, and buried myself in the questions.When taking the sixth grade test, I used special earphones for listening and tuned to a fixed channel.

After everyone listens, fill it out, and the teachers will collect the listening test papers.After the listening session, there was no sound in the channel. I was about to take off the earphones when a noise came from my ears, and I frowned.Immediately afterwards, I suddenly heard my name, and a mechanically synthesized female voice mechanically said, "An Sifeng, a major in ancient literature, met Chu Heng from the School of Economics with a drink at the Moon Palace Club." This voice said it three times in a row.

After three times, the sound stopped abruptly.

People in the examination room who were still wearing headphones turned their heads or looked up, looking at me like a ghost.The rest of the people who had taken off their earphones quickly put them on again, just in time to hear the lingering sound.The teachers didn't know anything, and when they saw this, they immediately said, "What's the matter, quickly take off the earphones and continue the exam!"

They collected the test papers quickly, and I froze in my seat with my head drooping.

I didn't even have the strength to lift the pen, and of course I didn't take off the earphones. The teacher came to me and whispered to me to take off the earphones.I didn't seem to hear it, but she continued to say that a teacher outside called her in a low voice. She looked back and went out first.

When she came in again, she walked up to me slowly and looked at the name on my answer sheet. After a while, she said, "Take off the earphones first."

I still don't move.

She helped me take off the earphones and put them gently on the table.

I always remember the teachers who invigilated the exam that day, and I am very grateful to them.

Later, I didn't write a single question, and I never moved again throughout the exam.Time is slow, but fast.After the bell rang to end the exam, the teachers put away the test papers, and the students in the exam room never left.The female classmate was the first to walk towards me. As soon as she moved, more people walked towards me. Some were curious, some were malicious, but no one said a word.

More people knew that An Sifeng was in this examination room, and the periphery of the examination room was full of people.

It was the two invigilators in the examination room who helped me. The male teacher pushed everyone out of the examination room, and the female teacher helped me pack my pencil case and schoolbag, and then helped me up and supported me.The male teacher stretched out his hand and pushed me away, and finally helped me down the stairs in a small path that was pushed out.

The whole building seemed to be following me.

Such a big gossip is rarely seen once in many years, and there are many people around the teaching building.The rain was so soft that even the ground in the teaching building was covered with water vapor, and the whole world seemed to be wet and sticky, making it uncomfortable.

I was supported by the female teacher, and I finally walked into the hall. It was lively and lively, but it suddenly became very quiet.I paused, and the female teacher supported me to continue walking outside. She whispered in my ear, "Don't be afraid."

At that time, I didn't feel afraid or not afraid. My whole body was like a dead body, relying on the teacher to support me to move.

We walked out of the hall, and before we went down the steps, there were people in front of us.The male teacher was about to help us push people away again, but all the people in front suddenly moved out of the way automatically.

I kept my head down, and saw a pair of shoes slowly walking up the steps not far away.

It's Chu Heng's shoes, I bought them with him.

His feet stepped up step by step, getting closer and closer to me. When he was closest to me, I looked up blankly.

He was still in a black suit with a calm expression on his face.

He said to the female teacher and the male teacher: "Thank you two teachers."

The two teachers didn't speak in embarrassment, and he said to the female teacher again: "Teacher, can I help you?"

"Okay, okay." The female teacher nodded.

Chu Heng turned around and bent down, the female teacher helped me onto Chu Heng's back, and Chu Heng picked me up.My face was buried in his back, I didn't even dare to look at the world anymore, I just wanted to hide.He carried me on his back, straightened his back, and walked straight down the steps.

We walked into the continuous summer rain together, and walked into the sight of the whole school.

Chu Heng said: "I know everything."

"Someone deliberately retaliated, and I asked someone to investigate."

"Don't be afraid."

I seemed to be a dead person, motionless, and he said again: "You look up at the rain falling from the sky, and you look at the people around you and their eyes."

I shook my head, I dare not look.

"Look at my back again."

His footsteps never stopped, he said: "An Sifeng, I'm always here. Look at my back, I'm always here, don't be afraid."

"I'm always in front of you, take a look."

I raised my head slightly, and all I could see was his back, and I only dared to look at his back.

I lay on his back and finally started to cry, and the sky in June cried with me.

Yes, I am afraid, I am very afraid.

In the past, when I was most desperate, I just hated the world, but this time I was afraid, I was afraid of it.

I don't know what else will happen, will my mother's past be ripped apart in front of everyone one day?

Is this the debt that our mother and son must repay?

why?

And why?

But with so many causes and effects in the world, how many of them will really give you reasons and tell you why?Why?

Chu Heng carried me to the parking lot in front of the school, opened the car door, and stuffed me in. I looked like a rain-soaked rag, barely hanging on the car seat.Chu Heng was about to close the car door for me when my cell phone rang and I moved my hand. Chu Heng took my cell phone and answered the call for me.

Chu Heng wanted to stay away from me and listen, so I reached out and grabbed him, and heard the voice of the doctor on the phone.

My mother was in a coma and was just picked up by the 120 ambulance.

Although I still don't know the reason, I have realized that it has something to do with me.

I tugged on Chu Heng's clothes and became tighter, I looked up at him.I can only look at him, who else do I have besides my mother, only him.

After Chu Heng briefly talked with the doctor, he immediately hung up the phone. He looked down at me and said with certainty: "It's okay."

He pulled my hand away, turned around and got into the car, and took me to the hospital quickly.

My mother suffered from lymphoma, and she was dragged back from the gate of death with great difficulty. Even if she was dragged back, she would only live a few more years.My mother's immunity is not very good. The doctor said that if you want to live even one more day, you must maintain a happy mood.

Chu Heng and I have a good life, which is also a great comfort to my mother, and it will only get better and better this time around.

He fell into a coma suddenly, most likely due to a major stimulus.

After arriving at the hospital, Chu Heng went to the doctor, and I sat outside the emergency room.The aunt my mother met in the nursing home also accompanied her to the hospital.She saw me coming and immediately came to talk to me.

She said: "Another person came to look for your mother. He was different from yesterday. I didn't know what to say. Before he left, your mother passed out. That person looked fierce and not a good person. We were anxious at that time. I sent your mother to the hospital, no one noticed, that person left early."

I nodded and said "thank you".

Auntie sighed and sat with me.

After the mother was rescued, the aunt went back.My mother was pushed into the ward, and Chu Heng sat with me in the ward, holding my hand all the time.He turned off both of our mobile phones, and I looked at my mother who had become old again on the bed, feeling dazed.

I didn't dare to think about anything, and I didn't dare to think about how this incident would end.Chu Heng's parents know all about it, so what will they think of me?How should Chu Heng's classmates and teachers think of him?As for me?Can I still go to school?

I kept looking at my mother on the bed dumbly.

After my mother woke up, after the doctor's examination, she turned her head and saw me.In an instant, all the tears came out of her eyes.

I silently called "Mom".

Chu Heng got up first, bent down to talk to her softly.But she just looked at me and asked me, "Who introduced you there?"

Mom knows.

I have nothing to say, my eyes are sore, and I can't even cry.

It was very difficult for her to speak, but she still managed to say: "It's your Aunt Lin."

Chu Heng wanted to speak for me, but I spoke first, and my voice was very calm: "I begged Aunt Lin, it's none of her business, she didn't want to, so she gave us 10 yuan."

Chu Heng also immediately said: "Auntie, he has never been wronged there."

My mother looked at me and kept crying silently, as if she couldn't hear Chu Heng's words at all.

The ward was eerily quiet.

After a long time, my mother's withered voice reappeared, and she said, "It's all my fault."

Mother's voice is really withered, and her flower almost died of illness, but she never gave up, she never gave up on herself, because there is still me.I am her life, she still wants to see me more, she doesn't want to die.For the first time, she withered voluntarily.

She added: "It's all my fault, I'm useless."

I stood in front of the hospital bed, unable to catch a word.Even Chu Heng had nothing to say.Mom never looked at Chu Heng, she just kept looking at me.Through her tears, we look at each other.

Of course Chu Heng's parents knew about it immediately, and they couldn't find him by phone. The uncle who took us out of the police station last time called the hospital.

Chu Heng also had to go back. The uncle said directly in front of my mother and me: "Your father said, if you don't go back, he won't even think about going to school."

This "he" refers to me.

Chu Heng hugged me tightly, and said "don't be afraid", that he would find someone to accompany me, and that he would come as soon as he finished talking to his father.I nod, all nod.I'm already like this, and I don't have the courage to think about his parents anymore.Chu Heng hurriedly left with that uncle, my mother said coolly: "You have been lying to me."

I bowed my head and said nothing.

"His parents won't look down on me at all, and they don't look down on you. Baby, there are so many roads in the world, and I walked the most embarrassing one. Why do you still want to be like me?" She lay on the bed, laboriously one after another Literally.

I stood in front of the hospital bed without saying a word.

"Why? You can't be together. Let's take an easier way and let mom go with ease."

I shook my head: "I haven't grown up yet, you can't go. You said you want to watch me grow up."

Mom was speechless and began to gasp from crying.

I hurried to call the doctor, but my mother stared at me and said to me, "Leave him alone."

I stopped and looked back at my mother. After looking at her for a while, I said dully: "But if I break up with him, I will die."

When my mother heard this, she paused, and began to wail and cry. She lost her breath and passed out again.

Doctors flocked to me, and I was squeezed to the outermost edge. I could only hear the sound of various machines and the anxious conversation of doctors.

I shrink back to the corner, Huang Meitian, even the walls are so cold.

Chu Heng said to find someone to accompany me, and that person arrived soon. It was a sister and Chu Heng's assistant.She has a cute smile and has been with me all the time. When my mother was unconscious, she never left me.Chu Heng's contact is also with her. I don't want to say a word, no matter who it is with.

My sister hung up the phone and said to me distressedly: "Don't worry, the boss said it's okay with him, and he will come to see you soon."

I nodded, knowing in my heart that if it really didn't matter, I wouldn't have not come by now.

I thought of Chu Heng's mother's words, especially the sentence about comparing my heart with my heart.If my child is made like this by an outsider, I will hate that person to death, and I just wish I would never let my child see such a person again in this life.

I shrank back in again, on the corner of the sofa in the single ward.

My sister got up to see my mother, poured hot water for me, and urged me to drink.

Chu Heng's phone has not been disconnected, he has not come, his mother has not woken up, and his sister has not left.

At night, my sister fell asleep on the sofa. I woke her up and talked countless times before I persuaded her to sleep on the empty bed next door, while I continued to sit on the sofa.

In the middle of the night, the rain continued outside, and all the lights in the ward were turned off. I sat in the dark, and after a long time, I could see everything clearly.

I got up and went to the bed to look at the rain outside the window and the white curtains that were slightly blown by the summer wind.

In sight, many windows were dark, and they were all asleep.I got into the curtains, looked at the few remaining lights, and was fascinated.

After some time, footsteps sounded outside the ward, and I immediately turned around, thinking it was Chu Heng.

A stranger walked into the ward.

Or rather, not entirely strangers.

I stood inside the curtain, showing two eyes, and I could see clearly that it was Chu Heng's little uncle.I hid in the curtains again and watched him come to the bed and look down at my mother.

He watched his mother for a long time, and I also watched him for a long time.

He sat down by the bed, and I kept staring at his back, only the sound of machines running in the ward.

So, he said "I'm sorry" voice, I heard it clearly.I stand as long as he sits.My mother is a critically ill patient. Doctors and nurses came to see her condition at night. When I turned on the small light, I was shocked when I saw someone.

No one saw me, I heard him talking to the doctors, saying that he was a relative of Chu Heng, and he came over to have a look.

The doctors believed it, and whispered to him about his illness, and said that his mother should be waking up soon.

The doctors came and went, and after more than half an hour, he went to call the doctor again, and my mother woke up.

All the headlights in the ward were turned on, and I sat on the floor, hidden in the curtains, and no one could see me.As soon as my mother woke up, she called "baby", she was looking for me.

The nurses said I was sleeping next door, tried to comfort her, checked her body, and changed her water.

After a busy call, the ward fell into silence again, but the lights were not turned off again.I think my mother saw him, will my mother faint from fright again?

A few minutes later, my mother's dull voice sounded: "Why are you here again?"

His voice was even slower, several beats later, before he said, "I'll come to see you."

"Look at me, the ugliest one, what do you look like?"

"sorry."

Mom laughed hoarsely, the laughter was extremely ugly.

Mother said intermittently: "I want to take An Sifeng back to my hometown. I won't live long. When I die in the future, can you ask someone to take care of him? He can't go to school anymore. Someone in the school hurt him. I sold my house and opened a bookstore for him. He likes to read books. He is a good boy. I lied to him for too long, and I have no ability to make him grow up happily. I seem to have done something wrong. I shouldn’t have given birth he."

It was very difficult for my mother to speak, and it took about 10 minutes to say such a sentence.

"I want to take him abroad," he said, "and never come back."

"No, don't let him know this, it's too ugly and too embarrassing. You don't deserve it either."

"I'm not worthy, I don't say anything, I just want to give him what he deserves."

"No need!" Mom's voice became sharper, "I, and he, don't need you, or anything in your house! I didn't need it before, and I won't need it in the future!"

After finishing speaking, my mother added another sentence: "We don't need your family either!"

I lay on my knees, tears streaming down my face silently.

"Mom, where's my dad?"

"Your father is dead."

When I was a child, I asked this question, and my mother answered it this way.I'm a little sad that other kids have dads, but I don't.I'm still too young, and I don't understand my mother's weird tone.But it's just sad for a few days, that's fine, in the world of children, there are too many things worth caring about, what is a father?

I do not need.

I have always wondered why I had a sense of trust in Chu Heng the first time I spoke to him, I was obviously so wary.

I also don't understand why I was the first to see him in the crowd when we first met.

I don't even understand why many times we happen to have the same thoughts and occasional similar habits.

So did he, he said, this is gravity, this is fate.

Chu Heng's little uncle asked me if my surname was "An", and came to see me specially, asked my name, looked at my mother's photo, but didn't say a word.

Chu Heng once wanted to take me to meet his little uncle. He said that his little uncle had a good relationship with him, and that the last word of his name was also "wind".He said that his aunt met him before leaving the country, and said that his little uncle had someone in his heart, and he didn't understand why he wanted to marry her when he clearly had someone in his heart.Chu Heng told me everything, Chu Heng asked me if it was true.I also foolishly gave him advice, persuading him to help his little uncle, if you really have someone in your heart, get together quickly before you get old, and don't lose again.

I put my hands over my face.

They were still talking, and he said: "Recently, I often dream that it rains that day, and you are waiting for the rain to stop on the porch of the hotel like me."

Mom said, "Don't mention that, it makes me sick."

"sorry."

"You make me sick to even say 'sorry' and I hate everyone in your family."

It was almost dawn, and his mother urged him to leave: "I don't want him to see you, and you don't let your nephew come to see him again, everyone in your family is unworthy. Don't come and spoil us again."

"I'll come back tonight."

"Don't come again! Get out!"

"Drink of water--"

"roll!"

He should have rolled, I heard footsteps.

I let go of my curled up body, spread my legs wide, and leaned back against the wall, looking at the ceiling, trying to stop my tears, but couldn't.

After he left, my mother gasped for a long time until she fell asleep again.

After the sound of the machine became quiet again, I stood up from behind the curtain. My legs were so numb that I couldn't stand up at all.I stretched out my hand to hold on to the curtain, grabbed the window sill, and barely stood up.

I went to the next door to wash, organize my grooming, and turn on my phone.

Whether it is the counselor or the monitor, they are all looking for me.I left a note for my mother and went back to school with an umbrella.It was a long black umbrella with a large circumference. I stood under the umbrella, but not many people recognized me.It was only when I entered the building that someone recognized me. I let others look at me openly, put away my umbrella, and went to the counselor.

Strictly speaking, this kind of thing did not violate the school rules, and the counselor didn't know how to ask.But such a thing, I have to ask again.The counselor was embarrassed for a moment and asked me if I could let my parents come.

I shook my head: "My mother is seriously ill and hospitalized."

The counselor said "Oh" and said: "The school went to investigate, but they couldn't find out who it was. It was only after the hearing was finished. Uh, it didn't have a big impact. The school didn't continue to investigate."

I understand that this person is very smart. If he releases him before the listening test, it will be a violation of the rules, and the authorities will order an investigation.But if this happens after the listening comprehension is over, it can be big or small.The school must know who did the trick, but the school can't afford to offend someone who can do something like this, so let's make the big deal smaller.

Anyway, I am a bare-bones commander, anyone can kick me a few times.

Seeing that I didn't respond, the counselor asked me again: "What are your plans?"

I said flatly: "If the school doesn't want me to drop out, I will continue to go to school and take the exam."

The counselor quickly waved his hand: "That's not the case. It's just this matter, uh, you will have a difficult time in the future."

"It's okay, after the summer vacation, everyone will forget about it."

"If you have a good attitude, that's good, ha ha." The counselor has always been nice to me, and she is also a graduate student of the school who has just graduated. She is not a few years older than me, she is a girl, and she speaks very softly.Then she kept comforting me.After talking for more than an hour, he let me go.

When I came out of the counselor's office, it goes without saying how much attention I received.

I didn't bow my head any more, and I wasn't as scared as yesterday, and continued to be watched generously by them.The people passing by, they all whispered to me, but I didn't care.

Yes, I don't care anymore.

Walking out of the teaching building, Chu Heng, holding an umbrella, turned to look at me.

I stopped and stood on the steps to watch him, but he didn't move and looked at me.Did his parents finally let him out? It wasn't easy for him to come this way, I smiled at him.

He has always been like this, willing to do anything for me.

I am very happy, my smile is sincere and brilliant, and it can reach people's hearts.

Sure enough, the expression on his face immediately relaxed.

I jumped down a few steps, walked up to him, and got under his umbrella.I even took the initiative to hold his hand, even though so many people around me were looking at me.

"Let's go." I pulled him and walked out of the school.

He held my cold hand and said, "My mother is also sick, so she came a little late."

"It's okay. It's not easy for uncles and aunts. Don't be angry with them, and don't mention me in front of them these days. After a long time, it will be fine."

I was so sensible that he was surprised, he looked at me, and I looked at him: "What's wrong?"

He shook his head.

I laughed: "You have to grow up, I figured it out last night. Strictly speaking, apart from life and death, what else is a big deal? Or, even life and death are not a big deal, right?"

He shook his head again: "My big deal is you."

My heart was blocked, and I almost sobbed in pain.

I quickly lowered my head and dragged him to turn right, heading towards the place where there are few people.