night lights up

The song seems to be an invisible hand, pinching my throat and his, and holding down my body and his body.

We didn't speak any more, and we didn't move even an inch.

My body continued to lie between the steering wheel and him strangely.

The song is not long, not even 4 minutes. After the release of "Wind Memory", we are still like this.It turns out that it is not only our voices and behaviors that are pinched and held down by songs.

Even this short time seemed to be thrown out of the gate of time by this song, and the two of us lingered outside.I don't know if he wants to go back ten years later, I don't want to go back at all, just stay ten years ago.

It was also at this time that I discovered that ten years later, no matter how many wrinkles he and I had on our faces, and no matter what masks we wore.Actually, nothing has changed.

I haven't listened to this song in ten years.

I am very sensitive and tend to be attached to all kinds of relatively static things.For example, the songs we listened to, the food we ate, the books and movies we watched when we were in love.These, I dare not go back to listen to see to eat.Once I touch it, I will sink for a long time and fall into a deep place, and I will never be able to climb up again.

What's more, it's such a song.

He may also know that there is no point in pretending to be in front of me.

Especially after "Wind の Memory" is played, most of the songs that follow are the ones I used to like to listen to.I like to listen, and he who is with me all day naturally listens to me.The year we fell in love was the happiest year of my life.

Mom's health is improving, and his presence makes up for all the love I've lost in the past.

As he said, I almost thought that my life would be wrapped in honey from now on.

I even told him very naively that honey is so sweet that I would like to be wrapped in it to make amber.

He smiled and said it was not okay, he said I was his.

In fact, of course I know it can’t. First of all, amber is not made of sugar, but it looks like it has the same visual effect.

But he also said that good amber can be stored for hundreds or even tens of millions of years.In the future, when both of us pass away, we can ask someone to wrap our ashes in resin, buy a good place in the woods and bury them, and we will make amber that has been handed down for many years.

Let me say again, wow, isn't that even if the land falls apart, we won't disappear?We will always be together, it is really a landslide love.

He hugged me and laughed.

More and more familiar singing voices flowed out, and he finally moved first.

He hugged my knee with one hand and my waist with the other, carefully removed me from the steering wheel, and put me on the passenger seat.Originally, he had already brought it, but he seemed to want to tie me up again, but he casually threw it aside.I looked down and it fell right at my feet.

The rope was languishing a bit, and he was definitely not pretending anymore, and he was no longer threatening to tie me up.

Or, he didn't pretend either, and of course people will change in the past ten years.

It's just that the song can't fool any of us, and the words he said have not changed with time.

Our hearts don't seem to have changed.

Even if he becomes another person, to me, he should not change.

I lowered my head, thinking of what he said about "Amber", and listening to these songs, it was really uncomfortable.

He fastened his seat belt and said in a low voice, "Fasten your seat belt."

I didn't ask much, and tied it up for myself stiffly.

He stepped on the accelerator and drove the car away. I still didn't ask him where he was going.After driving for a while, he first said: "Have you seen the river?"

I shook my head.

This small city is on the bank of the Yangtze River. The city is not big, so it is not troublesome to go there.I haven't been there, one is because I was not in good health in the first few years, and I couldn't go to places with too much tide and wind.Secondly, people with my personality can easily get nervous when they see things like Jiang Shui.

He glanced at me and saw that I shook my head.

He added: "I thought you came to this city because of the river."

I thought about it, and it seems that I did say that I would go to see the Yangtze River together.He also said that I am cute, and everyone else wants to go to the blue sea and take pictures with all their strength, but I want to see the muddy river.

How did I answer him later?Kind of don't remember.

The riverside is not far away, and soon, his car drove onto the riverside road.

Further forward is a trail with many trees planted on both sides.The trail was not easy to drive, the car shook a little, and he stopped the car when there was no way forward.The right front of the car is conveniently facing the river, and there is a guardrail.He rolled down the car window, and I could already hear the sound of the river.

He reached out and turned off the music in the car.

The sound of the river was getting closer, and he asked me now: "How have you been these years?"

I took a deep breath and said in a very normal voice: "It's been a good life. As you can see, I opened a small shop. The business is not bad. I don't need money. I have food and drink. There are beautiful little boys watching every day. , and still make money, how great it is.”

He finally sneered again.

I haven't changed to him, maybe he hasn't changed to me, but we are the same ten years later.

As soon as he sneered, I couldn't help but choked him again: "Is it funny?!"

"I see you're protecting that guy in your store."

Did you mean Xiaobai?

I immediately said: "Of course, he looks cute, and I am happy to see him. Who doesn't like a beautiful and cute little boy? Don't you like it too? Otherwise, why are you calling so many?" To see him.

Sure enough, he also shifted his eyes to look at me, and asked, "Did you use the 1000 million my mother gave you to open the shop?"

"..."

"no?"

Actually not.

I haven't heard of his mother for ten years, but when I heard about it, I couldn't help but feel a little cold and uncomfortable.

After thinking about it, I nodded: "Yes. I don't have any money, so I can only use that."

He was silent again.

I don't know whether to be angry or disappointed in me.

But his anger and disappointment towards me had reached its peak ten years ago, right?

He has asked me about my activities in recent years, so it’s not good if I don’t ask him?

Since he didn't speak, I also asked him: "What have you been doing all these years?"

He ignored me.

I was the one who got angry at him first, he didn't speak very well, I was not happy.But he didn't speak, and I was not happy, so I had to say again: "Speak."

"Go to work and make money."

I was very angry: "Who doesn't go to work to make money? Who wants to hear what you say! I want to hear the specifics!"

He just didn't want to answer my question properly!

"Who are you to me?" He still asked.

"..."

"Since no one is there, what's the use of asking?"

"..." I held my breath, and after holding it for a while, I still couldn't hold it anymore. I immediately took off my seat belt, opened the door and got out of the car.

He said behind me: "Don't go down."

The voice was cold, and I was even more angry: "Who are you? I want you to control me!"

I got out of the car with heavy steps, and within a few steps forward, I saw his shadow behind me, and he followed down.Wherever I go, he will follow wherever I go, and his ghost will linger!

I couldn't help thinking that when he followed me home before, he couldn't get angry and turned around and yelled at him: "Don't follow me!!"

He stopped where he was, five or six steps away from me.

I glared at him, but he was expressionless.After staring for a long time, I admit defeat, turn around and continue to stride forward.He followed again, I braked again, and turned to stare at him again.He continued to look blankly at me, I turned around and he still followed me.

I was so angry that I wanted to take medicine again.

I walked faster, getting further and further away from him.

The road ahead was very uneven. There were many large and small stones, almost made of stones. I stepped on a big one and continued to walk deep.But there are so many stones, it is not easy to walk, he reminded me behind me: "You see the road clearly."

"I know!" I yelled without looking back.

Not long after the roar, there was a sound behind me, and I immediately turned around to look.

I didn't care much, but Chu Heng's foot got stuck between two stones.

"It's right!" I said to him.

He looked up at me, then lowered his head to pull his own feet.I don't know if he did it on purpose, I think it should be easy to pull out, but he hasn't been able to pull out for a long time.At first I really gloated, he was as fun as pulling carrots, but after watching it for a while, I didn’t think it was fun anymore.

Chu Heng is not such a person. Since it is so difficult to pull out, it can be seen that his ankle will be injured.

I lifted my feet and walked towards him. There was a distance between us, and I walked quickly.

Pulling out the "radish", he still did not forget to raise his head to remind me: "You see the road clearly."

"I know! Take care of yourself!"

I walked up to him, squatted down and looked carefully, found a good angle, and helped from my side, and finally pulled out his leg.

But before I could care about the joy, my right foot slipped and got stuck in the gap between the other two stones.

Very painful.

My left leg went limp, and I slid down to the stone. I looked up at him.

He frowned: "Who told you to come back?"

"Didn't I come back to help you?!"

"I can pull |out by myself."

"Forget it! You haven't pulled it out for a long time! I did this to help you, and you still have this attitude?"

"you--"

"What are you! You don't come to my shop, don't tie me up, don't drive me here, don't follow me, what am I doing like this?! Shut up! You are the culprit!!" I looked up shouted at him.

"..." Chu Heng took a deep breath, "You are right."

He bowed his head and didn't speak anymore, but pulled out my foot just like I did just now.

Anyway, I felt very painful, and I was planning to support his hand and get back to the car quickly, not wanting to make any more trouble.

He bent down and hugged me directly.

………………

In fact, in the past ten years, I have lost a few pounds.

But...it's really strange to be hugged like this again.

I shook my uninjured foot: "Let me go down!"

"Don't make a fuss."

"Who toss? Who toss?!"

"You and I are tossing."

"..." I stopped tossing.

"Does it hurt?" He asked again.

"It hurts a little." I answered honestly.

He stepped on the stone carefully, carried me back to the flat road, then faced the river, and said, "Look."

I looked at it, puzzled: "What's wrong?"

"Jiangshui."

"what?"

"We watched it together."

"..." I looked at him carefully, is this person not sick?

He didn't look at me, but turned around and said, "Let's go."

I wasn't in so much pain that I couldn't walk. I asked to get down again, but he refused to let me down.

Walking to the side of the car, I felt vigilant: "Don't even try to tie me up again!"

He looked down at me: "Why should I tie you up?"

"how could I know?"

"Don't know? Keep tying."

"Wait!" I raised my hands, "I know!"

"Say."

I do not know……

He made a gesture to put me on the seat and tie me up again, so I hurriedly said loudly: "I really know!"

"Say."

"..." I couldn't figure it out, and I didn't want to be tied up by him. In terms of force, I was really no match for him.I had no choice but to wink at him pitifully, "Don't tie me up, okay?"

"reason?"

"It hurts to be tied up, are you willing to let me hurt?" I continued to pretend to be pitiful.

He nodded: "Yes."

"Hey." I smiled.

"Then are you willing to let me hurt?"

"Nani?"

"speak Mandarin."

"……what?"

I couldn't understand what he said, and he looked down at me for a moment, then sighed suddenly.

He opened the door of the rear seat and put me in. I quickly shrank in, and he followed suit.

He closed the car door and said, "An Sifeng, you haven't changed."

"Ah?" I don't understand this sentence, is there something wrong with my behavior just now?

I was thinking about the conversation just now, but he asked again: "So, what kind of medicine are you taking?"

The topic changed too fast!

And at the same time, he grabbed my leg into his knee, held it firmly with one hand, and took off my shoe with the other.

It turned out that it was just distracting my attention, and the main purpose was my pants pocket!But my leg and that foot were already in his hands, I leaned against the car window, thought for a while, and immediately said: "I didn't eat——"

"When I kissed you, your mouth smelled like medicine."

"...So that's why you kissed me?"

My glass heart is broken.

So that's why you kissed me!There is no other reason at all!

My face drooped immediately, and I bowed my head. He was still saying, "What medicine did you take?"

I'm in a bad mood: "Anemia medicine."

"I believe?"

"Believe it or not! I'm deficient in iron, can't I replenish my blood? I still have the last trace element inspection report at home! I took four tubes of blood! I even pricked my finger! Do you want to read it!"

He took out my medicine from my pocket, unwrapped the paper bag, and looked at it for a while.

Brother Jin unwrapped the outer packaging of the medicine and wrapped it in paper for me. Fortunately, he didn't know what these medicines were at all.

But he still handed over his palm: "Do you need to take so many medicines for iron deficiency?"

Although I can't guess it, it's still not easy to coax...

I looked at his palm, then looked up at him: "Okay."

He kept staring at me, waiting for my answer.

"It's an antidepressant." I rephrase it.

He frowned, as if he still didn't believe it.

I whispered: "I broke up with you at that time, and my mother passed away. I couldn't stand it, so..."

Mentioning my mom, it was obvious that the temperature on his body had changed.

After about a minute, he spoke again, and he asked me, "Where is Auntie?"

I said indifferently: "I was buried in this city. My grandfather's father was born here, but left here for Shanghai at that time more than 100 years ago. This is barely my hometown, and my mother can be regarded as returning to her roots. My hometown is in a town below, and the feng shui of the cemetery is very good, I often visit her."

After finishing speaking, I lowered my head and saw his palm still in front of my eyes.

His palms slowly closed, wrapping the medicine into his palms.

I think he should believe it, right?

He retracted his hand and wrapped it in paper again.During the movement, I saw the ring on his left ring finger.

In fact, I saw it from the beginning, but I just forced myself and didn't want to watch it.

We used to have a pair of rings, but he threw them away, right in front of me.

The one in front of me, with a few broken diamonds, is more beautiful, but it is no longer the pair we used to be.

I have to admit, it's still sad.

Now that my mother is mentioned and more and more things from the past are mentioned, some things seem to be able to be said.

While he was packing the medicine, I asked him, "Are you married? I saw the ring on your finger."

He didn't speak, still packing medicine.

"Your mother said she was your childhood sweetheart, that you were a good match."

He still didn't speak.

I leaned back on the car window, looked up at the river in the distance, and the words became farther and farther away, and the more I said, the more I said, "You are married, you should treat your wife better. I will not go to such places in the future." Play, you can’t play around while on a business trip. It’s really not a good place, you must treat her well. You kissed me today, but it happened for a reason, and it won’t happen again in the future. Don’t worry, I won’t think about it .”

Although it is no longer possible for me and him, we also separated early.

I still hope that he will be the most shining person.

He has always been the brightest person in my life.

Anyway, I can't live for too long, so let's regard that unintentional kiss as the last surprise for me.

He whispered these along with me, without answering.He packed the medicine and stuffed it back into my trouser pocket.

He finally believed it.

"After all, I still feel that I was sorry for you back then. Although I choked you a lot today, I still want to say hello to you—"

He leaned in, kissed me again, and cut me off.

I was stunned.

He said: "It's not to test whether it smells like medicine."

"Huh?" I glared at him.

"But you can think so."

"Huh?" My eyes widened.

He stepped back a little, and said again: "Do you really believe what my mother says?"

"Yeah." To be honest, I really don't really believe his mother's words... I really don't care that his mother scolded me back then.And his mother is also a lady of everyone, so she really doesn't know how to swear, and she is polite and reasonable.

On the contrary, his mother is often so angry that I can't say a word.

Even if his mother is really a shrew, I'm not afraid.

It was just between the two of us, and it was never just that.

Ten years have passed, and it is meaningless to say more, I admit it directly.

After a long time, I seem to really believe it.

I would think it would be nice if he was actually married.

Because that childhood sweetheart is a fact, and his mother took me to meet him, who studied art.She is not only beautiful, but also has a good personality and speaks softly.And she knows a lot, she doesn't know the relationship between me and Chu Heng, seeing Chu Heng's mother took me there, she thought I was a distant relative, and chatted with me for a long time.

There is such a person by Chu Heng's side, of course I am jealous, and of course it is painful.

But if she can soothe the despair I brought to Chu Heng, I will thank her.

Even though I still envy and hate her.

"You think I'm married?"

"Isn't it, your mother said."

He sneered: "You really believe her."

"..."

He stopped kissing me.

I feel a little pity, but I dare not say more, let alone say more.

He reached out and took his mobile phone from the front and handed it to me. I pressed it and looked up at him: "A password is required."

"Guess for yourself."

"..." I typed in his birthday, which is wrong.I then input the birthdays of his parents. Back then, I even remembered the birthdays of his parents, which was wrong.

I will see him again.

He looks at me too.

I had to type in 0820, my birthday, with a little embarrassment, and the phone turned on.

I looked at him again, and he still stared at me coldly.

I smiled awkwardly: "It's a coincidence." And handed him the phone.

"Click to open the address book for yourself."

"...I don't really want to see it."

"Tie if you don't look."

"..." I had no choice but to open the address book, and at the beginning I saw "wife" with A added.I looked at him again, "Is it alright?"

"Look."

I frowned, so I had no choice but to open it. My mobile phone number was under my name.