night lights up

Chu Heng's process of chasing me was not slow or boring. When it was time to make a move, he would never be a step late.

He is also so smart that he can completely see the changes in every stage of my life.

For example, at the time, I couldn't figure it out myself, and he waited patiently.It's just that he won't be on the sidelines like before. After he is sure, he is determined to participate in it.

That day, after class, we went to the playground to participate in the sports meeting.

On the way to school, my female classmate and I sent text messages to express our apologies, saying that she was a little upset when we couldn't come to school together.After class, the three of us walked to the playground together, and she was not at all unhappy.

Girls are really strange, after they don't like it, when they face that boy again, the deliberate reserve and cautiousness in the past are gone, and instead they are treated like a buddy.Along the way, I didn't talk much, just listened to the two of them talking.

Chu Heng is a very eloquent person. I thought my female classmate was very quiet, but I didn't expect her to be so eloquent in real conversation.

After arriving at the playground, the female classmate had a lot of things to do, so she reluctantly left.

I have nothing to do, not even run errands today.

I stood on the edge of the playground and looked down at my toes in boredom. He took a step forward, stood opposite me, lowered his head and smiled and asked me, "Aren't you angry just now?"

I looked up at him and snorted, "What are you laughing at?"

He laughed silently, I turned and walked away, and he immediately caught up with me.I walked fast, and he followed me all the time, asking very easily and comfortably, "Want to go to the game?"

"I do not want to see."

"That--"

I interrupted him: "I don't want to do anything!"

He smiled again: "Let's go then."

What is there to do?

I wanted to refute him, but I couldn't find a reason to refute. I really walked with him around the edge of the playground.The playground was full of people, and there were various competitions everywhere, and almost everyone participated in it.It's just the two of us, inside and outside.

My pace gradually slowed down, and when I looked back, I saw that he was always by my side.

When I see him, he will seriously ask me to see me, afraid that something will happen to me.

I have always been like this, in the world, but always feel that I am out of place.

But at that time, whenever I turned around and saw him, I felt a strange sense of stability in my heart.

Finally, someone was with me.

It turned out that it was really moving.

On the way, we met many people who greeted us.

In fact, it was to say hello to Chu Heng, and I did it by the way, and almost everyone would take a few extra glances at me, a stranger.He also didn't talk much to others, but there were so many people that we stopped every now and then.I am the most annoying to deal with people, but now I am watching with relish.When he talks to others, the smile on his face is so fake and sincere.

It's the kind that looks very sincere at first glance.

It's actually just a form.

But I don't think he is hypocritical. Many people are not true friends at all, and giving a smile is also a kind of politeness.

That's why he is famous all over the campus and is a man of the hour, but my popularity is so poor.

After a few stops, he asked me if I was bothering me.

I shook my head: "It's fun."

It wasn't funny, he laughed again.

I glared at him, and he smiled happily. He stopped and looked down at me. Behind him was a group of athletes crossing the finish line. The crowd also turned their backs to us. They raised their hands, jumped high, screamed and cheered.

Amidst the sound, I only saw his eyes full of smiles.

The whole world is very quiet.

There is only me and him in the whole world.

To say something shameless, I felt at that time that he looked at me like a treasure.

The only treasure in the world?

I laughed "hehe" in my heart, a little happy, as if it was stolen happiness.

I like the look in his eyes.

While circling around, he also met his classmates. He was more sincere to his classmates than to others.

There are male and female classmates, and several senior sisters insisted on asking me for contact information.I don't have this kind of experience, and I was about to give it in a ignorant manner, but he pulled me away.

We have to go to the hospital in the afternoon, and we go to the cafeteria for lunch early.

Naturally, I sat and occupied the seat again, and he went to buy food.This time we ate the beef sliced ​​noodles in the second canteen together. I sat on the chair and watched his back as usual.This time, it was much more straightforward.

When he turned around and walked towards me with a tray, many girls were still looking at him.

I've seen it all, but I'm rarely angry this time.

I still only see him.

I figured, whatever the reason, I never wanted to never see him again.

I want to see him every day.

Even if there will really be many things that I can't control in the future, even if I will regret it in the future, I don't want to lose him in my current world.

He broke into my world with great difficulty, this accident is so beautiful, I want to keep him.

I can't give him to someone else.

Everyone wants him, but he can only be mine.

At that moment, I was extremely calm.

The original thought was so simple, and what was realized earlier than love was such a possessive desire.

And what Chu Heng first expressed to me turned out to be the same. When we sat and ate noodles, he handed me the chopsticks and said to me: "In the future, if someone asks you for your contact information, you are not allowed to give it."

I picked out noodles with a chopstick, and said indifferently, "Huh?"

Seeing that I was absent-minded, he took my chopsticks away.I was dissatisfied and looked up at him: "I'm hungry!"

He held two pairs of chopsticks in his hand, looked at me seriously, and said, "Do you know?"

"Know what!"

"Don't give anyone contact information."

I hate other people controlling me. I wanted to choke him, but I just figured it out.Can't you just leave your popularity when you figure it out?

I said dissatisfied: "Got it!"

"what do you know?"

It's annoying, he's always like that, and I have to repeat everything to myself.

"I know I can't give other people's contact information!" After finishing speaking, I added, "I'm not a child, so I won't meet bad people!"

He shook his head, apparently thinking I had misunderstood him.

But he didn't explain much, since I obediently said what I should say.He handed the chopsticks back to me and said, "Eat slowly."

"Hmph." I took the chopsticks and lowered my head to eat the noodles.

After taking a few bites, I looked up at him: "Why don't you eat it?" Without waiting for his answer, I looked at his bowl, and it turned out that there was coriander in the soup.

The young master's picky eating disease has occurred again.

I didn't think much, and directly used my chopsticks to help him pick out the few coriander in his bowl.

"Eat, young master!" I looked up at him after picking it up, and took the opportunity to glare at him again.

He smiled and finally started to eat noodles. He ate much faster than me, and he waited for me for a long time.After we finished eating, he bought me another glass of pear juice on the way to the parking lot.He inserted the straw in and handed it to me: "No sugar, just a little sugarcane juice, is that okay?"

"Reluctantly." I tasted it, and it was okay, so I drank a few more sips.

He seemed relieved, looked at me and said, "There's nothing wrong with being sweeter."

I pretended I didn't understand, I lowered my head to suck the juice, and he stretched out his hand to push back the bangs that poked my eyes, and said softly, "Slow down."

I bit the straw and said vaguely, "I'm a little thirsty, the noodles are too salty."

He nodded: "I remember."

I almost rolled my eyes at him, what are you doing remembering this? !

He sent me to the hospital again, and I didn't object.

I want to spend more time with him, neither of us said it, everything has come naturally.

It was as if the past 20+ days of indifference never existed.

No one deliberately explained, let alone explained.

Before going to the hospital, of course I had my hair cut, because the bangs are too long.

During the haircut, he stayed with me all the time.When I went to wash my hair, he almost followed suit, but he was politely stopped outside the door.

The teacher Tony who washed my hair was a bit of a motherfucker, she kept twisting my waist, so she must be gay too.

I didn't have this concept at the time, and his hands were very gentle, and he washed my hair without talking too much.I'm not disgusted, and I even think he's nice.It’s just that when I was about to finish washing, Chu Heng came to see me by the door and asked me if I wanted to drink juice. There was a juice shop next door, and he bought it for me.

I replied "No."

After he left, Teacher Tony smiled and said, "My little friend, your boyfriend is very handsome, and he treats you really well."

I closed my eyes, but when I heard this, I opened them suddenly.

He had turned off the water, pulled me up, and wiped my hair with a towel.

To be honest, according to common sense, I should have been scared and shocked at the time.

But it was very unusual. I was surprised by what this teacher Tony said, but I was not afraid.

I even calmly let him dry my hair before taking me out for a haircut.Seeing me coming out, Chu Heng immediately walked towards me and asked me "Is it cold?"

Teacher Tony smiled ambiguously, covered his mouth and left.

When I sat down and had my hair cut, Chu Heng was always sitting beside me.

I looked at him in the mirror, and he also looked at me, his eyes were very peaceful.

My heart became more peaceful.

What did I think at the time?

It seems that I didn't think about it specifically. Instead, I looked at Chu Heng who was also looking at me in the mirror and was fascinated.

I will remember that Tony teacher for a lifetime.

After all, he is the first person to define Chu Heng in my life.

And it's such a cute title as "boyfriend".

On the way to the hospital, I said "boyfriend" to myself many times.

I am fine, but my voice seems to be about to move, and I can't wait to shout these three words out loud.

These three words are very cute.

Fortunately, my sanity is still there.

When I got out of the car, I put on airs and said, "Thank you for sending me here, senior, go back quickly."

When I said it, I already didn't understand it, so why should I bother?

He didn't say anything more this time, just smiled at me and walked forward first.

He memorized the address of my mother's ward very clearly, and it would be pretentious to say that when I got off the bus.I went to see my mother first, and then came out to find the nurse sister. When I went to see him by the way, I really hoped that he would stop keeping him.

I'm always going to stay all afternoon. Could it be that he's just sitting outside like this?

I was busy communicating with nurses and doctors for a while, so I didn't bother to urge him to leave.Later, the doctor wanted to tell me something, which was not convenient for my mother to hear, so the doctor and I went outside the door to communicate.

Seeing the two of us coming out, Chu Heng immediately stood up and came to me.

The doctor glanced at him: "This is?"

I was at a loss for words, Chu Heng smiled and said: "Hi doctor, I am his friend. If you have anything, please tell me."

The doctor looked at me again, and I nodded.We were talking about my mother's illness, which should not be heard by outsiders.But as soon as Chu Heng stood beside me, even listening to the doctor's words, I was not so afraid.In the past, when the doctor discussed my illness with me, I was most afraid of hearing some words that I could not accept.

Before I knew it, I assumed that he could listen to these very personal things.

I nodded, and the doctor told me with confidence.Fortunately, I said good things this time. My mother has such a disease, and it is impossible for her to be healthy to old age, and even her life is limited.

But if the treatment is good, it is possible to live a few more years, be discharged from the hospital, and go home to live a slightly normal life.

The doctor said that my mother's treatment effect is good this time, and she will be observed for another month. If it is still good, she can be discharged from the hospital temporarily.

The last time my mom was admitted to the hospital again, the doctors told me to prepare for the worst, and I didn't expect to hear that.

Of course he was happy, even a little overjoyed, the blood seemed to rush to his head instantly.My brain is blank, my head still hurts, and I don't know what to say.

I opened my mouth, and the doctor looked at me with a smile. He must have been used to these behaviors of the patient's family.

I am speechless!I looked at Chu Heng again, a little anxious, Chu Heng reached out and pressed my shoulder, asked the doctor what to pay attention to, asked some questions about medicine, and talked with the doctor for about 10 minutes.He didn't know anything, and even talked back and forth with the doctor.

After the doctor left with a smile, he turned to look at me, and I looked at him, but I was still speechless.

He reached out and rubbed my temple: "Does it hurt?"

My eyes widened, he knew even this!

He smiled: "You were so happy that you blushed just now."

It's rare for me to be a little embarrassed, he smiled and retracted his hand, and said softly: "You go in quickly."

I want to ask him to sit in the ward. There are four beds in the ward, but the other three patients have been discharged, and only my mother is currently living there.But... what if someone doesn't want to enter the ward?But he's sitting here all by himself, really kind of lonely.

I hesitated for a while, and said: "Senior, you go back first, I will stay for a long time."

He shook his head: "It's okay, you go in quickly."

"..."

That's how he is, no one can say anything about what is decided.

I knew it then.

I had no choice but to walk into the ward, my mother was in a light sleep, and the nurse aunt asked me who was outside the door in a low voice, and she saw it too.

I thought of the "boyfriend" Mr. Tony said in the barber shop. Maybe it was because of my mother, and I was really in a good mood. I even smiled at my aunt.

She was taken aback for a moment, but also smiled.

I said, "My friend."

Auntie didn't care and continued to work.

How did Auntie know that not only the word "boyfriend", even "friend" is the only one for me, An Sifeng, and it has a special meaning.

He stayed with me in the hospital all afternoon and went to the clubhouse, of course he was also with me.

On the way, he asked about my mother's illness.

This time, I was much calmer and told him when my mother got sick and when she relapsed.

He listened carefully, and when he arrived at the parking lot, he stopped slowly and called me who was about to get out of the car: "An Sifeng."

"Huh?" I looked back at him.

Why does he look like he has something to say?

I'm a little nervous, what are you going to say?Is he leaving?

So, look at me who is duplicity and desperate for face, I am so afraid that he will not be around.

He glanced at me and said, "Then I went to the doctor again."

"..."

He went to the doctor again and asked some follow-up questions.The doctor said that if the follow-up recovery is good, it will be no problem to live a few more years.What he asked was how to count as a good recovery. There are many specialized nursing homes in the city, which I also know, but the cost is also high.

I can't afford so much money, so I never thought of going to this place.

This is what Chu Heng is talking about now, and I refused immediately without even thinking about it.

He said softly again: "Think about it again."

We are no longer the same as when we first met, when I could still swear loudly back to save face.

Now I know that he really just wanted to help me.

I also know that this way, my mother can live longer and live more comfortably.

But, it's really a lot of money.

I can't accept good from others over and over again.

Besides, what kind of relationship do we have?

In this world, the closest relationship is nothing more than parents and family members, or some loving couples.

But look at the people all over the world, look at the family tragedies that are played out every day in the social headlines, even if they are so close, who can really help anyone without asking for anything in return?

How can I have the face to want such help, every drop of water will be repaid by the spring.

He gave me more than just drops of water?

I lowered my head and did not speak. He approached me cautiously, and said in a softer voice: "The doctor said that auntie will be observed for another month. Let's talk about it then, okay? Everything is in time."

I was wronged for no reason, and nodded: "Okay."

He said again: "Go up quickly."

I was also having a brain twitch at the time, and said again: "I really hate this place."

After I finished speaking, I immediately regretted it, and quickly looked up at him.

I could guess what he was going to say in the next sentence, and said immediately: "But I will last the remaining two months!"

He nodded, and I hastily unfastened my seat belt and turned to get out of the car.

Scolding myself, I hurriedly changed into my overalls.

When I say this, am I waiting for others to spend more money for me?

too disgusting!

I kind of hate myself.

But every time he talked to me, he was so gentle, as if I was justified no matter what, and under the grievance, some truths could not help but be uttered.

I changed my clothes and came out with a frown.

I knew he would definitely come today, so I didn't go to the balcony to chat with Brother Jin again.

The colleagues in the lounge haven’t seen me for a long time, and Chu Heng hasn’t been here for a long time. In such a place, there are countless gossips happening every day. My affairs are no longer popular, and they have long since lost interest in me.

I heard them gossip, and what they're talking about right now is the fact that a number one in the shop was ransomed and raised.

Colleagues were so envious, their words were full of sourness.

I was listening very casually, but when I heard the word "redemption", I suddenly thought of Brother Jin who was crying bitterly that day.

No way?

I finally got up, Brother Jin was not on the balcony, I went to his office to look for him.

He was there, sitting behind his desk smoking a cigarette.The room was full of smoke. After I went in, I covered my nose. He looked up at me and smiled: "Didn't your young master come today? Are you still here?"

"How do you know he's coming today?"

"Hey, the people in the parking lot downstairs saw his car. He is an important customer, and we remember the license plate number and car clearly."

I sneered, but I had other business with him, so I didn't bother with it.

I asked him directly: "Do you like someone?"

Sure enough, Brother Jin, who was still laughing foolishly, immediately changed his face.

He stubbed out his cigarette, turned his office chair, and turned his back to me.

"Knew it."

He turned his head and stared at me viciously, and I sneered again: "What's the use of staring at me? They're all gone."

He stood up immediately, adding pressure to his tall and strong body.

"You still want to hit me?"

He clenched his hands into fists, sat back and sneered at me: "I dare not hit you, there is a young master behind you."

Oddly enough, I wasn't angry either.

I'm even more curious about his affairs, not because I'm a gossip, but because I have some friendship with Jin Ge.These days are also thanks to his care. If we hadn't drank with him before, Chu Heng and I wouldn't be like this, and I wouldn't know about those things.

I didn't make my words too clear, just said: "There are so many people in the world who come and go. You should pay more attention to yourself."

"Speak lightly, how about you?" he challenged.

I was taken aback, yes, me.

I looked at him too, meeting his provocative eyes.

He asked me: "Do you know what it means to like?"

I shook my head.

"I don't want anything for him, including my life."

"Is this called liking?"

He sneered: "The young master waved his hand, sprinkled a lot of money, and took it out to have a good time. This is called liking, in today's world."

Someone knocked on the door and asked if I was there.

I have to go.

Brother Jin called me: "An Sifeng."

I looked back at him, Jin Ge's face was rare and serious: "Like is no longer worth money, only money is real. Your young master, you should also be careful."

"?"

"For us, the sky-high price is sometimes nothing more than someone else's dinner. You boy, it's okay to be tasted, don't really eat it. At that time, you will have no place to cry in someone's dark belly cry."

It was also rare for me to be serious: "He is different."

Brother Jin showed a weird smile: "You really like him."

"..."

Someone outside knocked on the door again, and I pushed it open and left.

I walked outside the private room with Chu Heng, and when I stretched out my hand to push the door, I thought of Brother Jin's weird smile again.

Brother Jin has stayed in such a place for a long time, so what he sees is true, right?

But Chu Heng's smile and what he said to me are also true.

What about myself?

my favorite?

That's called liking?

I pushed open the heavy door with both hands, and Chu Heng who was on the sofa immediately got up and smiled at me.

In fact, we haven't seen each other for half an hour.

Seconds are all turned into hours, days, and even years.

How can human senses be so exaggerated?

Is this kind of emotion called liking?

I stood by the door, a little confused, but thinking about these things clearly in my mind.

"Is it too dark? I'll turn on some lights." Chu Heng's voice tried to distract me from my reverie.

I came back to my senses, and in an instant, there was a switch sound.

The private room became brighter, and Chu Heng under the lamp also became brighter.

His smile—

Well, I go to him.

If that's what it's like.

That's it.

I love so much.