The author and protagonist HE [Transmigration Book]

A faint soft light shines on the fingertips.

The place that was touched also ignited a fire-like heat, but it was not unbearable, and the perennially cold palm seemed to gradually warm up.

The scars gradually faded at a speed visible to the naked eye until they disappeared.

Hua Feixue clenched the other hand, looked up at Xiao Muyu's expression, and finally couldn't help asking after a while: "Why?"

"what?"

"Why did you do that?"

"Do you mean this wound?"

"Ah."

Hua Feixue lowered her eyelids, the wound on her palm has healed, but the tingling pain is still vivid in her memory, it is not strong, and occasionally when she thinks of it, it feels like a needle prick, she could have ignored it, but it is hard not to care about it .

She knew that the young Xiao Muyu was not normal, but she never expected that she would do such a thing——

Maybe it was the illusion brought by the strangeness, for a few moments, Hua Feixue almost thought that she was going to kill herself.

Do you think she can stay after she dies?

Or do you think she "betrayed" her?

In fact, Hua Feixue didn't need to bother to pursue these issues. After all, it was an illusion, and no matter how bad it was, it was a past that she had never touched, and would never be able to touch.

But when she thought that that person was also "Xiao Muyu", she couldn't help but not care about it at all.

Since they are all "Xiao Muyu", maybe the older one can understand the younger one's thoughts to some extent.

"Does she want to kill you?" Xiao Muyu narrowed her eyes, thoughtfully, "Maybe she treated you as a toy."

It's not very nice to say it quietly.

Hua Feixue unconsciously wanted to withdraw her hand.

"However, if it's something you like very much, you probably won't be willing to destroy it." Xiao Muyu clenched her wrist, and then said, "It's more likely that you are regarded as an enemy, or... that is not 'me' at all." .”

Hua Feixue was slightly startled: "What do you mean?"

"It's just an illusion—you don't take everything in it seriously." Xiao Muyu said, "The illusion is actually controlled by people, and it changes rapidly. One second may be a real memory, and the next second is a fictional illusion. ,It may also love you one moment, and hate you the next moment.”

Of course, it may also want to kill you.

In Xiao Muyu's world, countless people died in the illusion.

No matter how powerful people are in reality, their hearts will be shaken by false illusions, and they will be more vulnerable to fatal injuries.

If Xiao Muyu hadn't gone to rescue Hua Feixue in the illusion of Yulin Valley, she might have died there quietly.

"You have saved me many times." Hua Feixue realized it later.

The wound on the palm was completely invisible, Xiao Muyu let go of her hand, and her eyes moved to the envelope.

Hua Feixue moved her hands tentatively, a little lost in thought.

If it is said that Xiao Muyu promised to protect her at the beginning because she had saved the other party once, but counting the times of the old master, Xiao Muyu would have returned it long ago.

But Hua Feixue turned around and owed Xiao Muyu several lives.

If it were Hua Feixue herself, it would be impossible for her to waste so much energy on someone she didn't care about.

Not to mention that this person was not very kind to her at the beginning, and of course he was not considered an important person.

But Xiao Muyu spent so much time and energy on her, Hua Feixue couldn't help but think a little more.

For the other party... Is there still something special about me?

"I thought you would hate me." Hua Feixue said in a low voice.

"How could it be?" Xiao Muyu looked at her in surprise, "I thought you should understand when you were in the illusion?"

"Huh?" Hua Feixue looked up.

Xiao Muyu was still holding the letter paper in his hand, as if he just took the time to look over it, and then he added a sentence casually.

"I really like you."

If it wasn't for liking, who would come back to save her from afar.

Xiao Muyu has always only saved those who can be seen around her. Even in the end times, she never thought of protecting a person from beginning to end.

She has saved many people, but for those people, she is just a passerby.

Sometimes people who were rescued in the previous town, they parted ways at the entrance of the town, and then heard the news of each other's death in the next town.

Of course Xiao Muyu would feel sorry, but that's all.

Even when saving someone next time, as long as the other party doesn't ask to stay, she will not actively follow the other party to protect them, even if she knows that the road ahead is very dangerous for those people.

Although there are indeed constraints in reality, she never even thought about it.

Because she didn't see those personal lives as her own responsibility.

Only Hua Feixue, when she guessed that there might be danger, she came without hesitation.

It is driven by impulsiveness, but there is no doubt that there are prerequisites such as "like", "prefer" and "care".

If you ask what kind of "like", maybe Xiao Muyu has to think about it, and can't give the correct answer.

But even if there is another chance to do it again, Xiao Muyu will still make the same choice.

In this world, only Hua Feixue is different.

There is no doubt about this.

As for those deeper things, Xiao Muyu is not going to distinguish them for the time being.

It seems pointless to think about these things when everything is unknown.

Xiao Muyu and Hua Feixue took the letter paper and decided to go to Yulin Valley first.

Now all the clues point to the illusion in Yulin Valley, and they can only check the situation in person, and they are also a little worried about the safety of Yuzhu, after all, in a sense, this is the trouble caused by the two of them.

If something happened to Yuzhu, they would feel a little bit sorry.

Pei Qiuyue also insisted on going with them.

Most of the people in the palace were hit, and the remaining sporadic people gathered to guard the door, but there was nothing they could do in this situation.

Still don't know what will happen on the road ahead, Pei Qiuyue thinks it's useless for her to stay in the palace, but there are more people on the road who can take care of her.

The princess' injury is mostly healed, but her complexion is still not very good-looking, and she needs someone to take care of her.

To put it bluntly, Pei Qiuyue just didn't trust Xiao Muyu enough, and was worried that something would happen to Hua Feixue on the road.

Hua Feixue wanted to open her mouth to veto this proposal. Although the situation in the palace hadn't been clarified yet, no one could say that the road ahead would not be more dangerous. She didn't want to drag Pei Qiuyue into taking unnecessary risks.

"What if everyone in the palace wakes up and you and I are not here, what if there is a mess?"

"Just leave a letter." Pei Qiuyue's eyes were firm, "Besides, there are several adults around, but I am not in an important position, and the impact of my absence is the least."

She paused, and then said: "For me, my task is to assist Her Royal Highness, just for you. If you... then it is meaningless for me to stay."

Pei Qiuyue had no intention of going to court, if it wasn't for Hua Feixue, she might just be a low-key and ordinary lady, living an ordinary life according to the rules of the secular world.

Neither stemmed from sympathy for the old emperor's order, nor gratitude to the former empress.

It can be said that she entered the palace entirely for Hua Feixue alone.

If something happened to Hua Feixue and she couldn't come back, there would be no need for her to stay in the palace.

Pei Qiuyue's intuition made her understand that the current situation is different from the past, and it may be more serious than she imagined, so she naturally has no way to stay and wait for death with peace of mind.

Hua Feixue rarely saw Pei Qiuyue persist like this.

She wanted to say something more, but Xiao Muyu patted her on the shoulder, expressing her agreement first.

"Then let's go together." Xiao Muyu said.

"But—" Hua Feixue frowned, wanting to say why Xiao Muyu followed suit.

Before she could say anything against her, Xiao Muyu exerted a little strength on the hand holding her shoulder, turned his head and smiled at her.

"Don't worry." Xiao Muyu blocked her words, "I will protect you two."

Xiao Muyu's expression was serious, and his tone was mild, but it didn't seem like he was joking, or a temporary compromise.

It was more like she had been expecting Pei Qiuyue to go with them.

"It's nice to have more than one person to take care of you."

When walking on the road, Xiao Muyu explained to Hua Feixue in this way. She reached out and touched Hua Feixue's wound, and the latter immediately turned pale and shrank subconsciously.

"Although the wound has almost healed, the pain perception is still there. The wound healed after so long, and the body itself has not adapted yet. It is better to rest well. I am not as good as the second lady. careful."

Not that convincing reason.

But both of them were so persistent, Hua Feixue didn't refuse anymore.

She was also faintly worried.

I don't know what will happen in the future, and no one knows what changes will happen in the palace. It will be even more dangerous if Pei Qiuyue is left alone.

Hua Feixue could only use this reason to comfort herself temporarily.

The same is true outside the palace.

The town was dead silent, but there were a few kittens here and there, who seemed to have realized something was wrong, and took advantage of the gloom to sneak into the store and steal a bunch of things.

But they soon fell on the road rubbing their eyes and yawning.

The expected chaos did not occur.

But it's better to say that the situation is worse than they expected.

The temperature was also dropping, Hua Feixue was born with a cold body and didn't notice it. Although Pei Qiuyue's cultivation was not bad, she was far inferior to the princess. When she left the city, her face also turned pale. Turn up the spiritual power to keep out the cold.

"If this goes on like this, even if I don't die in a dream, I'm afraid I'll be frozen to death first."

Xiao Muyu agreed with her opinion, and lit a small fire by the way.

The firelight dispelled the chill, which was more effective than spiritual power to keep out the cold.

Pei Qiuyue gradually regained her spirits, and discussed the current situation with Hua Feixue in a low voice, and even some countries famous for their large-scale formations guessed it, trying to deduce the real reason as much as possible.

Xiao Muyu couldn't interrupt, so he just listened from the sidelines.

In the middle of the road, they stopped occasionally to rest their feet. Xiao Muyu was only responsible for lighting the fire, and the other two were responsible for confirming the direction of progress.

Xiao Muyu didn't say that she had her own navigation system.

She thinks the other two need a break.

Pei Qiuyue and Hua Feixue were far more terrified than Xiao Muyu—although they didn't express it directly, they grew up here since they were young, and such a strange situation was unheard of, if they couldn't find a solution, the final result might be that they were the only ones left A few people are almost equivalent to being abandoned by this world.

Hua Feixue had experienced a worse situation than this one. She thought that she would be trapped to death in that snowstorm.

But after it's lost and recovered, it's even more unsettling to step back into that situation again.

When their conversation came to an end, Pei Qiuyue went to the water's edge to fetch water, and Hua Feixue sat next to Xiao Muyu.

Xiao Muyu sat cross-legged beside the fire, resting her elbows on her thighs, propping her chin, staring at the dancing flames in a daze.

Hua Feixue stared at her profile for a long while, just in a daze, and finally looked away after a long while.

Xiao Muyu's voice came from the side: "Why haven't you succeeded?"

Hua Feixue was stunned for a moment, and it took a while before she realized that she was talking to herself.

"No reason." Hua Feixue paused and explained, "It's just that it's not interesting."

"Huh?" Xiao Muyu uttered a doubtful syllable.

Hua Feixue stared at the fire in a daze, while thinking, slowly explained the reason.

At this time, in front of Xiao Muyu, there is no point in hiding it.

Besides, she probably wanted to talk to someone in the first place.

"I used to think that inheriting the throne was a matter of course. Everyone told me so when I was young. My mother also said that I would be a wise monarch, and my teacher said that I would make Xuefu country stronger."

No one has ever doubted the talent and ability of Her Highness the Princess.

Including Hua Feixue herself.

Her future is a road that can be seen-but it must be magnificent.

She may become a generation of Mingjun, and her name will go down in history, or she may be able to break through the boundaries of practitioners in this era, and once reach the top and soar.

Of course, it is also possible to fail, or even destroy the country, or even be assassinated to death by the enemy before that.

Either way, she cannot escape the identity of the future empress.

"Do you hate being a queen?" Xiao Muyu poked the fire and asked, "Is there anything else you would like to do more?"

Hua Feixue tilted his head slightly, glanced at Xiao Muyu, then shook his head: "No."

"I don't reject the succession to the throne, nor do I have any other things that I would rather abandon everything and have to do, but I can't integrate into it."

"why?"

"I grew up in the palace since I was a child. Although the number of people in the harem is much smaller than previous generations, there are still all kinds of struggles. All I see is the ugly side of human nature, and I know there will be a good side. For example, I am very grateful to Qiuyue for supporting me, but that is different."

-What's the difference?

Xiao Muyu asked questions with his eyes.

"I don't hate this world that much, but I don't like it either."

There were dancing flames in Hua Feixue's eyes, and a bit of confusion gradually appeared on his face.

If I had to describe it, it would probably be "empty".

Influenced by her childhood environment, she seldom felt that kind of pure kindness. Even Pei Qiuyue met Hua Feixue only because of her relationship with the queen at first.

Although the relationship became closer afterwards, it was still somewhat different—also because of the difference in status and class, they both reserved a certain amount of leeway for each other.

What's more, there was only one such person in Hua Feixue's life so far.

Pei Qiuyue has a noble status and doesn't have too much ambition. When facing Hua Feixue, she always supports and encourages her, and never drives her to do anything.

The common people within the borders are the real responsibility that lies on the future empress.

However, Hua Feixue has never had any real feelings for them, and she can't empathize with them after not having much contact with them. The only cognition is "responsibility".

Facts from her previous life proved that even if she wanted to be good for them, she would still be misunderstood and even accused and hated.

Although that's because what she did hurt some people, they can't see the stability and peace in the distance, and they can only be crazy about the pain in front of them.

This is human nature and should not be blamed.

But Hua Feixue was not really ready to bear these responsibilities.

Because in fact, she doesn't really love those people, those people she wants to protect, when there is only an empty shell of "responsibility", it will only make people feel painful.

It's part of growing up.

If Hua Feixue hadn't experienced that seemingly endless blizzard, and hadn't been reborn suddenly at the lowest point of her life, she would have stood up again after being confused, stumbling along the same path, and gradually found the meaning of her life. Body and mind become really strong.

——Or just abandon those boring fantasies and weaknesses, truly invincible.

Because at that time she had no choice.

But it's different now.

Hua Feixue has gone through a trough, but she has not yet realized the great love for all beings, and at the end of the storm, she witnessed the whole story of the disaster in another world with her own eyes.

She suddenly discovered that the world she was in was not the only one, nor was it all.

One's own world may even be false, and it may be destroyed in the next second, like a toy that can be rounded and flattened by others.

And people in another world are struggling for life and death, so warmth and hope are more precious, and this world is much more peaceful. Although there are occasional wars, it seems childish and ridiculous in front of the foreign enemies of all mankind. up.

Even without her, the world will still run, and people in this country will still live well.

She can't guarantee that she can make her subjects better than before.

Nor does she expect praise and gratitude from those she has never met.

Maybe she wasn't fit to inherit that seat.

Hua Feixue let herself hesitate for a long time, but she knew that she would succeed in the end, because she also had no other choice, and what she had seen only added to her confusion.

"If this accident hadn't happened, I had planned to succeed next month...they have already picked an auspicious date."

Hua Feixue concluded with this.

Xiao Muyu listened quietly, and she hardly interrupted later, just being a listener, and she didn't even change her posture.

She was contemplating, only the fire in her eyes was flickering, which showed that she did not fall asleep during this long narration.

It took a long time before she opened her mouth, and there were only two short words: "...Sorry."

Hua Feixue was startled: "Why do you say that?"

Xiao Muyu smiled lightly, but she couldn't say she was happy: "I heard before that you refused to succeed to the throne because of me."

Hua Feixue was silent for a moment, and the tips of her ears were slightly red, but Xiao Muyu didn't notice: "It's just a little influence..."

Not the main reason.

But more or less still remember.

Hua Feixue admitted this without any precautions, but she was a little embarrassed, and it was too late to take it back.

Xiao Muyu's eyes softened, and the expression on his face seemed to be a bit guilty.

"It's me, the 'creator', who is too bad."

What Xiao Muyu said was something that Hua Feixue did not expect.

She seemed to be completely different from what Hua Feixue said.

Hua Feixue was silent for a moment, feeling that she vaguely understood what she meant.

It's the evil taste of the creator—Hua Feixue's misery for most of her life was created artificially.

Her cold and ruthless character was not born like this, it was the pressures and disasters that weighed her down to this point.

She lost her mother since she was a child, never gained real preference based on parental status, was excluded, poisoned, and had no friends. She singled out the suffering side and listed it out to laugh with others, and she could get a few sympathies or pity.

But only the "God" who created everything does not have this qualification.

This was originally given to her by "God" himself.

So now Hua Feixue has a cold personality, doesn't trust others, is lonely, and even has doubts about life, and can't find a way forward.

Of course, this cannot be blamed on Xiao Muyu herself.

No one thought that the words written inadvertently would become real.

Who would really feel pity for words?

What's more, the current world has long been formed, and even Xiao Muyu herself suffered a lot when she first came here. This world is no longer under her control, and there is no way to accuse her of being careless.

—That cannot even be called a fault.

Hua Feixue didn't often think of this matter, so when Xiao Muyu took the initiative to mention it, she was in a delicate mood.

Perhaps it was because her mother died under the conspiracy of the old master, and it was difficult for her to have any overly caring feelings for other people in this world.

Before that, her attachment to Xiao Muyu had been deeply planted in her heart, so she never thought of blaming him.

If Xiao Muyu wanted it, Hua Feixue would even give her her own life without hesitation.

Regarding her thoughts, Xiao Muyu just let out a long sigh, and didn't seem to be much relieved by it.

Pei Qiuyue, who was looking for water earlier, was walking back, when the sound of dead branches being trampled was coming from far and near.

When he turned his head to look, the figure in the forest was already faintly visible.

So the two people who were still chatting closed their mouths and didn't go any further.

It's not that she doesn't trust Pei Qiuyue, it's just that these inside stories are too unbelievable, telling her will only increase her troubles, and it won't do any good.

Hua Feixue thought that this topic was over.

But just as she turned around, she was greeted with a hug from Xiao Muyu.

Xiao Muyu hugged her so tightly that Hua Feixue felt the pain in her abdominal wound again.

Though she knew the wound there had actually healed.

Xiao Muyu rested her chin on Hua Feixue's shoulder, those words were almost murmurs close to her ears.

"If you had the chance to do it all over again, what would you wish for?"

Xiao Muyu's embrace was very warm, so warm that Hua Feixue felt his head was a little dizzy from the smoke, so he blurted out without thinking.

"As long as you're here."