The author and protagonist HE [Transmigration Book]

... What is "again"?

Xiao Muyu was more confused than the princess who didn't know whether she was awake or not.

She must have mistook herself for someone.

Xiao Muyu thought.

Perhaps it was her mother, the former empress who had passed away long ago.

"I'm not your mother..." Xiao Muyu whispered.

Looking at the princess's misty eyes, she judged that the other party was probably still in a daze, looking a little pitiful.

Thinking of the other party's life experience, Xiao Muyu felt a little soft-hearted, and also felt somewhat guilty for no reason.

Tracing back to the source, she can be regarded as the "culprit".

Regardless of the princess' indifferent character and future ambitions, she is indeed a very pitiful person.

His mother died early, his father was seriously ill, he had few friends, and he still had the burden of a whole country on his shoulders.

Not to mention those villains who hide in the dark and watch her dead.

If it weren't for such a cold and vigilant personality, maybe it would not be able to survive at all.

Xiao Muyu subconsciously reached out and stroked the princess' hair gently.

Softer than expected.

And the princess didn't beat her in anger.

Probably really unconscious.

The princess heard Xiao Muyu's murmur clearly, and understood her meaning without hindrance.

Actually not.

The princess swallowed those words back, lowered her eyebrows and eyes, and sank her head, resting on Xiao Muyu's lap.

The person with a subtle sense of guilt in his heart did not evade this time.

The princess felt that her consciousness seemed to be a little fuzzy——

That's not entirely a misunderstanding.

Although it wasn't the main reason, but thinking about it carefully, she might not have been angry because of it.

Especially when her father said he was sorry for her mother.

The first queen is a knot in the heart of the princess.

Although the old emperor loved the princess so much that he was indifferent to his other three sons, it didn't mean that the princess grew up in a healthy environment.

Rather, it is such an extreme environment that created the princess's indifferent character.

In the early years, the old emperor and the late empress were very affectionate, but the late empress had not given birth to a child for many years, and there was gradually turmoil in the court. The former empress persuaded the old emperor to accept the concubine.

After confirming that the concubine was pregnant, the old emperor never saw them again, but sent his servants to take care of them, and prepared to pick one to adopt under the empress's knee.

As a result, within half a year, the queen became pregnant and gave birth to the princess.

Since then, the old emperor has long forgotten about the adoptive child. He only wished to spoil the only daughter of him and the empress. A husband and a father.

The Empress Xian had a kind heart and was considerate and gentle, otherwise she would not have been able to actively persuade the emperor to accept his concubine.

She took pity on the other children more than the emperor, and it happened that they were about the same age as the princess, so when the former queen was still there, she often let the children play together.

Children's perception is more acute than that of adults, and they quickly understand that their father doesn't like them, and they dote on their younger sister.

The obvious jealousy was easily drawn out.

What's more, there will never be a shortage of deep-minded and ambitious people in the harem. Under the subtle influence of their precepts and deeds, the children also huddled together to deliberately isolate the youngest sister, and also became invisible accomplices several times.

The princess suffered several dark losses at that time, and gradually she didn't like to associate with people.

The queen may have noticed it, and later stopped forcing her to communicate with her brothers, and began to protect her consciously, but that was only a few short years.

When the princess was still young, the first queen died in a war.

The old emperor was hit hard by this, and in a rage, after the opponent chose to surrender, he still chose to destroy that country.

He has also been depressed for a long time since then.

The unattended princess suffered a lot at that time, but the imperial concubine took care of her until the old emperor remembered that he had a daughter.

By the time the old emperor wanted to double compensate the princess, the princess had already grown up in such a turbulent environment.

In the immature rebellious period, the princess resented her mother.

Even today, she still has complicated feelings about her mother.

There is love and nostalgia, and there is complaints.

Many years ago, her mother left without looking back, which made the princess experience the feeling of being abandoned for the first time.

Later, in that dream that seemed to have no end in sight, she reviewed her life countless times, repeating that pain again and again.

The mother died first, then the father left, and the person who once thought he was a confidant stabbed him in the back...

She thought her vocation was to end all wars in the world, but she was treated as a tyrant and a devil. Even the common people cursed her to die. No one expected her existence...

When she realized it, she was already alone.

It was the lowest point of her life, but she was trapped in the wind and snow for a long time.

Facing the wind and snow alone was enough for her to recall all the details of that short life over and over again.

She is not Xiao Muyu, she didn't know that she was just a person in the book at first, those real memories and experiences once became the source of oppressing her nerves, and the forced repetition almost drove her crazy——

Maybe already gone crazy.

The stagnant time turned into a hole in her heart, until she saw Xiao Muyu at the end of the snowstorm.

That was a cluster of fire in the darkness, the last life-saving straw for the drowning person, of course she stretched out her hand without hesitation, wanting to grab it.

Hua Feixue has seen half of Xiao Muyu's life.

Even if they had never met before then.

The life-saving straw that turned into obsession was so heavy that when she woke up again, she found that she had returned to many years ago, and she didn't feel happy, only the emptiness in her heart was still obvious.

When I woke up in the middle of the night, I got up and looked down, only to see the empty palm.

That's when the feeling of abandonment returned.

Deeper than ever.

——You saved me, but you walked away again, without even giving me a chance to confirm whether it really existed.

But she is lucky.

That person finally came to her side.

But occasionally when waking up from a nightmare, I still feel flustered, afraid that this is just a dream, and the people next to me will turn into stardust and dissipate when I blink.

She could only reach out her hand again and again, holding it tighter and harder.

Xiao Muyu has no way of knowing these things, and the princess may never tell her.

Xiao Muyu's heart softened for a while, and the princess indulged for a while, so they depended on each other all night.

They were woken up by Pei Qiuyue the next day.

Pei Qiuyue was called over by the palace maid, and when she hurried over, she obviously didn't expect the princess to be there, so she called out "Holy Maiden" first, and saw the princess poking her head out from under the unsightly quilt.

"What's the matter?" The princess's voice was hoarse, as if she had just woken up.

"..." All of Pei Qiuyue's words got stuck in her throat, and she stared at her for a long while speechless.

If she had to use any words to describe her feeling at the moment, it would probably be similar to a heart attack.

Why are you here, princess?

Why are you lying here, princess?

And what about the saint?

……

Pei Qiuyue was so full of desire to complain that she didn't know what to say first.

The princess must have been spoiled by the saint.

Xiao Muyu woke up in such an embarrassing silence, Pei Qiuyue stared at her a little hairy, so she turned her head to look at the person at the door, then quickly turned her head back into the quilt, and worked harder to put herself Huddled in a ball while trying to sneak the princess out.

Of course it didn't work out.

As soon as the princess stretched out her hand, she pressed her thigh.

Xiao Muyu's face turned pale - her legs were already numb after being pressed all night, and the feeling at this moment can only be described as sour.

From the corner of the eye, Xiao Muyu froze in the quilt and did not dare to move, the corners of the princess's mouth twitched, and the gloomy and chaotic mood of the previous night suddenly became clear.

It was only when she turned back to look at Pei Qiuyue that she restrained the happy expression on her face.

Pei Qiuyue's expression became more complicated: "..." The female university did not want to stay.

——Perhaps His Majesty’s mood is nothing more than this.

"Ok?"

"Holy... some empresses in the harem want to see the Holy Maiden." Pei Qiuyue sighed lightly, and started to talk about business, "Besides, I heard that His Majesty has summoned the national teacher in private."

"Where are people?" asked the princess.

Pei Qiuyue realized that she was asking those who wanted to see the saint.

"I was stopped outside, and the maid came to report in a hurry. I thought the princess was not here..."

Pei Qiuyue sighed. Although she didn't like Xiao Muyu, she also knew that if she allowed herself to face those concubines, she would probably suffer a loss, so she rushed over in a hurry.

The princess has always disliked those concubines, and they would not approach her in normal times.

I haven't met once in a few years, and the princess will not take the initiative to call, for fear of dirtying her eyes.

This time, I thought it was either my brain was twitching and preparing for a demonstration, or I heard the wind and wanted to win over the saint in advance.

What I am most afraid of is that someone with a higher status secretly instructed me to make a special trip to trouble the saint.

If something happened to the saint, the culprit would be nothing more than an insignificant and unloved concubine, but if something happened to someone, it would be a big trouble.

It is better to have one thing more than one thing less.

"Since the princess is here, I will send a message to let them go back."

As Pei Qiuyue said, she turned and wanted to leave, but the princess stopped her from behind.

"Let them in," said the princess.

"Princess?" Pei Qiuyue was a little surprised.

"It's all here, there's nothing wrong with recognizing someone." The princess said in a chilly tone.

Pei Qiuyue silently shut her mouth, and mourned for a few seconds in the bottom of her heart for those who came with unknown motives, then nodded in response, and went out to spread the word.

Xiao Muyu, who was quietly acting as a wallflower, still had numb legs, and wanted to wrap up and run away as soon as Pei Qiuyue left.

She also vaguely remembered how hard the concubines other than the imperial concubine were, they were like excellent templates for walking cannon fodder.

——After all, it was a cannon fodder used to embarrass the princess in the early stage.

If it wasn't for the princess, she would immediately jump up to the roof and run again.

It's a pity that the people next to him are watching.

Xiao Muyu almost rolled into a ball and rolled out of the corridor, but was grabbed by the corner of the quilt by the princess, forced to turn halfway, and rolled into the embrace of the princess.

"What are you running for?"

Xiao Muyu's legs were so sore that her complexion was a little distorted. Hearing this, she gritted her teeth and deliberately put on a weak look: "...I, I'm afraid."

Although I know she is pretending...

"What are you afraid of?" The princess reached out and pinched Xiao Muyu's cheek, "I will support you."

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感谢在2020-12-0720:48:46~2020-12-0823:24:06期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

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Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: 19 in 1101 bars;

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: 30 bottles of Yuliang; 20 bottles of Instant Fanghua; 3 bottles of Ci;

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