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The middle-aged woman was still chattering and insulting: "The general manager is amazing, if you have two bad money, you will be poor."

Lin Congxuan was trembling all over and walked slowly, Chen Zui was heartbroken, so he simply hugged him horizontally.

A similar incident happened in high school. Lin Congxuan was stopped by a few gangsters who sneaked into the school and called him a fool for stealing his money.When Chen Zui arrived that day, Lin Congxuan was trembling with fright, but he still stubbornly protected his backpack and tried to reason with the gangsters, telling them that stealing money was illegal.

Chen was most afraid that Lin Congxuan would be frightened, resisting the fist he was about to throw, and chose to call the police. After returning home, Lin Congxuan still vomited and had a fever because of the fright. Chen Zuo waited for him for two days before he recovered.When he recovered from his illness, Lin Congxuan was listless, always looking downcast, and Chen Zui took him to the underwater world for a day before he gradually became cheerful again.

Chen Zui put him down at the gate of Lin Congxuan's house. He patted Lin Congxuan's head through the hat and asked softly, "Xiaoxuan, are you scared? Where are the keys?"

Lin Congxuan hid in his hat, trying to suppress his trembling hands, then he lifted his hat and raised his head slightly, but did not look at Chen Zui, he stared at the doorknob and raised the corner of his mouth forcefully, and replied softly: "I'm fine, I'm No, scared."

Chen Zui was not relieved because of this, Lin Congxuan looked very gloomy and did not seem to be okay.Chen Zui blamed himself and stood helplessly. He walked a little closer and said in a hoarse voice, "Xiaoxuan, I'm sorry, I was wrong."

Apart from apologizing, he really didn't know what to say.Originally, under his care, Xiaoxuan could raise cats, grow flowers, draw comics, and live a good life under his doting, but it was because of all kinds of stupidity that Xiaoxuan encountered today.

Lin Congxuan opened the door, he froze when he heard Chen Zui apologize to him, he hesitated for a while, his voice was very soft, he said: "Dad said, if a person apologizes to you three times for the same thing, then he must I am sincerely apologizing to you, Xiaoxu, I am not angry anymore, so please stop apologizing."

In fact, the moment he saw Chen most weakly lying on the bed yesterday, he was no longer angry, and he even regretted that he shouldn't be angry with Xiaoxu.

Chen most eagerly wanted to refute, but seeing that Lin Congxuan seemed to have a lot to say, he held back.

Lin Congxuan held the doorknob, and thought about what he wanted to say last night for a long time before turning around and facing Chen Zui. He didn't dare to look at Chen Zui, and stared down at a button on Chen Da's coat. After watching for a long time, he mustered up the courage to speak.

"That aunt just now was actually right. I'm very stupid."

Chen was heartbroken, and hurriedly cut off his words: "No, you are not stupid, you are very smart."

Lin Congxuan ignored it, and said to himself: "I know I'm stupid and stupid. You, aunt, uncle, and Yi Wan all feel that I need to be taken care of, and you are also very guilty because of dad and saving uncle, so, You are all very nice to me."

"I'm not only stupid, I'm also bad. Marriage is what I asked for. You married me, but I'm still angry with you. I'm angry that you don't like me, and I'm angry that you married me just because of Yu Cong's death." Punish me, so I chose to divorce and move here. I know you don't like me, but I can't let you go. "

"I know you feel a little guilty to me because of Yu Cong. You moved here, you cooked me breakfast, sent me picture books, and sent me potted plants. You wanted to make up for me. But I, I'm afraid of you One day you don't feel guilty about me, you will leave me forever, so I don't want your things, I hope you will feel guilty forever."

Lin Congxuan clutched his heart and began to sob at the end, already incoherent.

When he really left Chen Zui, he found that he had lost the will to live at all.His calmness is a fake face pretending to deceive Yiwan and his uncles and aunts. In fact, he would hold a steamed bun and recite Chen Zui's name silently every night, a thousand times ten thousand times.

Downstairs that day, Yi Wan said cautiously, "Chen Zui felt very guilty to you because of Yu Cong's matter."

Then Chen Zui moved in the next day. When he found the "yolk bag" and breakfast that Chen Zui had left at his door, he was puzzled for a long time, and then he understood that it was Chen Zui expressing guilt to him. Feelings.When he was sick, Chen Zuo must have taken him to the company because of guilt, cooked for him, and bought him picture albums.

At this time, Chen was as good to him as he was in high school.

He wanted to eat the breakfast made by Chen Zui, and he wanted to accept the picture book that Chen Zui gave him, but he was afraid that Chen Zui would stop treating him well if he didn't feel guilty.He despicably enjoyed this kind of Chen Zui's tenderness for a while longer, so he pretended not to care about it, and pretended not to know that Chen Zui lived upstairs.

But last night when he saw Xiaoxu lying on the bed weakly and skinny, he was about to die of remorse. Seeing the hideous wounds on Xiaoxu's palm, he hated himself why he didn't talk to Xiaoxu sooner. Say "I'm not mad at you anymore".Does guilt really torture a person like this?

It was the first time in the past three years that Chen had seen Lin Congxuan speak so many words fluently at once. It took him a long time to comprehend Lin Congxuan's meaning with a stiff body and trying to maintain his sanity.

Every word Lin Congxuan said was like a piece of iron that burned Chen Zui's chest. He swallowed his Adam's apple to relieve the soreness in his nasal cavity, and asked in disbelief: "Xiaoxuan, I have neglected you for seven years, and I almost hurt you." Die you, don't you hate me?"

Lin Congxuan shook his head with red eyes and held back tears, and replied: "I don't hate you, I know that you are sick in your heart, and I also know that you have misunderstood. I was just a little angry, but I am not angry now, so Don't torture yourself, okay?"

Chen Zui didn't answer, he asked again: "Xiaoxuan, are you just angry that I don't like you?"

Lin Congxuan nodded and then shook his head again: "Don't be angry, I really don't want to be angry anymore, it doesn't matter if you don't like me. Don't feel sorry for me anymore because of Yuchi. Actually, I don't remember anymore. You No more guilt, no more cutting your hands, no more sickness."

Chen was the most frightened, his head woke up instantly as if he had been electrified, and his voice trembled when he spoke.

"Xiao Xuan, it was you yesterday, right?"

Lin Congxuan finally raised his head. He grabbed Chen's most injured hand, gently rubbed the blood-soaked gauze, and then nodded.

Chen Zui couldn't bear it anymore, hugged Lin Congxuan's desperate sobs from behind, what made him desperate was that after he had done so many hateful things to Xiaoxuan, Xiaoxuan was worried that he would not be happy, Worried about the wound on his hand, worried about his fever and illness.

Originally, he thought that Xiaoxuan hated him and was disappointed in him, that's why he wanted to divorce him, and that's why he didn't want to accept his little kindness.The truth is that Xiaoxuan thought she didn't like him, so Xiaoxuan felt sad, and Xiaoxuan took this sadness as anger.

Even if it's just because of this little bit of anger, Xiaoxuan is still guilty of his little illness.

How kind and clean is it to be so stupid!Too stupid to hold a little bit of hate in my mind.

It turns out that all his Xiaoxuan wants is a firm "I like you".

Chen Zui buried his head in Lin Congxuan's hat, heartbroken and unable to take a full breath, his chest twitched twice before Chen Zui felt better.

He hugged Lin Congxuan tightly, and said with a sob: "Xiaoxuan, I will tell you these words a thousand times and ten thousand times in the future, so it doesn't matter if you don't understand this time. First, what I did to you For things that are too much, you should hate me, scold me and beat me, instead of reflecting on yourself that you should not be angry with me. Second, uncles, aunts and everyone are not treating you well because you think you can’t take care of yourself, nor Because of guilt, but because everyone loves you very much. Third, I like you, love you, from a very early time, earlier than when you liked me, the only person I like is you, no Because of guilt."