planting fields, raising children

Liang Haoquan came back to his senses, seeing Jing Xing's appearance, he guessed something in his heart. "The picture shows your two fathers?"

Jing Xing opened his mouth slightly but after thinking about it, he closed it again. There are some things he knows well, so he doesn't need to pretend to be confused, and it's pointless to go around, besides, he wants to know the truth.Just nodded: "Do you know them?"

Liang Haoquan was not in a hurry to answer, but pointed to Jing Xing's father Jing Wenfei, "This is the father who raised you, right?"

It was only then that Jing Xing remembered that Liang Haoquan had never met his father, "Well, it was thanks to your help that he left so safely."

This is one of the reasons why Jing Xing couldn't resent Liang Haoquan. Maybe Liang Haoquan didn't take it seriously back then. To him, it was just something he could do without raising his eyelids, but to Jing Xing it was heaven. Such a great kindness, he must keep it in his heart.Although he couldn't save his father's life in the end, at least he had tried every possible drug treatment and the best care, instead of watching his father die without being able to do anything. Looking back now, at least I have no regrets in my heart.

"To be honest, I didn't take it seriously at the beginning. You are just one of hundreds of people. But among so many people, you are the only one who can do this for such kindness. Speaking of which, your father gave The person we matchmaking, but I have never seen him, and I regret it now when I think about it. If I had cared more, maybe I wouldn’t have made such a big mistake and made you live in pain.”

It's a pity that there is no if in this world, no matter how regretful you are, history will not repeat itself.

Jing Xing has been by Liang Haoquan's side these years, and he knows that both the Liang family and Liang Haoquan himself are very keen on charity.It's not like some people on TV are just showing off for fame. Liang's charitable foundation may have some meaning, but it has actually helped many people. People benefit.But Liang Haoquan himself did it entirely out of an instinct, and he did what he wanted.He has helped many people in private. Some of them are seriously ill like him and cannot seek medical treatment, and some are unable to go to school due to poverty.

Liang Haoquan is not a kind-hearted person who pays attention to the weak and then helps them out. Every time he helps out, he is inadvertent. Basically, he is the type who feels pitiful when he sees it, and then goes along with him.So it didn't take long to forget about such a thing, including helping Jing Xing back then.After he found out at the time, he just made a few phone calls, and then he didn't care about it anymore.As for the subsequent development, he didn't know how much Jing Xing owed him.

Although Jing Xing later knew Liang Haoquan's temperament, and also knew that the help back then had no other meaning to him, but at that time his love was deeply rooted, and he was not shaken by this truth.It's just that the secret love has slowly turned into taking the initiative to show favor, hoping that Liang Haoquan can see himself and fall in love with him.

Jing Xing was silent, staring at the photo without speaking.Liang Haoquan sighed and pointed to another person, "Although this photo is small and the black and white characters are not clear enough, he does look like a person I know."

Jing Xing looked up at Liang Haoquan, his eyes couldn't hide the excitement in his heart.Although he made up his mind not to recognize each other, he couldn't restrain the curiosity in his heart, wanting to know what kind of person the other half of the blood in his body came from.He has always been curious about what happened to his father and this man, and why his father was left alone in Shouhe Village.It's just that he has never had the courage to face it and find answers. Fear is a fact that makes him sad, just like his father.Because of fear and scruples, he never mentioned this man again until his death.

"His surname is Han, and his name is Han Guanghui. He is a legendary general with great military exploits. Now he has retreated behind the scenes and rarely appears in people's sight, so you may not have heard of it, but his name is well-known in the military circle. I met him once, at Chen Xiangdong's birthday party. At that time, Chen Xiangdong was admitted to university on his birthday. Grandpa was happy and threw a big banquet for his birthday. Grandpa was the founding father of the country, so all the people who came here were from the military At that time, when he came, I still remember someone saying that Mr. Chen had such a big face that he was able to invite him. My grandfather is also a well-known figure in the military circle, and no one who can be mentioned like this is definitely not Simple, because of this I paid special attention to him among so many people at the time. So the photos and the reality are quite different, but I think it should be one person.”

The Liang Group is involved in the industry and has dealings with the military, and Liang Haoquan's grandfather's relationship with each other is even closer.Jing Xing also did homework in this area when he was in the Liang family, and he had never heard of the name Han Guanghui, but his military exploits have faded from people's sight. It is not easy to be such a person. His father got involved?Is he really his other father?Jing Xing couldn't help hesitating, feeling that things were getting more and more unbelievable.

Jing Xing was silent for a long time before opening his mouth with difficulty, "He—how is he doing now?"

Liang Haoquan raised his eyebrows, "You want to ask if he is married and if he has any children?"

Jing Xing lowered his head, knowing that the answer must be that he was married and had children, how could such a big shot stay single with a man who didn't know where to go.And the attitude towards homosexuality in that era was much stricter than it is now.Starting a family and starting a business is also something that men must experience, otherwise the pressure of family and society can break a person down.But he still couldn't help but want to ask, he really wanted to know if the person his father was waiting for was also waiting for him, maybe there was some misunderstanding back then, it wasn't that the other party abandoned his father and him.

Liang Haoquan patted him on the shoulder, "Do you know what the biggest reason I paid attention to him was?"

Jing Xing looked up with a puzzled look on his face.

"At that time, I hadn't come out yet, but I had already confirmed that I liked a man, and I struggled with it for a while. It was he who gave me courage."

Jing Xing's voice trembled, "What do you mean?"

"He is still single to this day. When someone mentioned him, the biggest point of contention was that he had not married yet, and the reason was because of a man. Although everyone said it cryptically, after all, such a thing can be used as a stain in the military and political circles , especially in that era, such stains could make it impossible to serve in the army for a lifetime, even if it was just a small soldier. So this is also his legend, such a big shortcoming, he was not caught by others, and he can still climb to his current position. People admire it. This also let me know that as long as people stand at a high enough height, even the most difficult things will be acquiesced."

Jing Xing grabbed Liang Haoquan excitedly, "You mean, he, he might have been waiting for my father?"

Liang Haoquan gently comforted him: "Don't get excited, what I heard at the beginning was only a few words, after all, no one would talk about these past events on that occasion, and his affairs are difficult to inquire about. Not much. I know you don’t want your other father to be a heartbreaker, but you have to calm down. If you want to know what happened back then, I can help you investigate, but I’m afraid it’s not right to avoid his eyes and ears. Easy, it is very likely that he will find you, and you have to be mentally prepared for this."

Under Liang Haoquan's soft persuasion, Jing Xing slowly calmed down from his excitement, and shook his head: "Forget it, it doesn't matter what the truth was back then, my father has passed away, so what if I know the truth? If you miss it, you miss it, and it is doomed that Yin and Yang will never meet again."

"What if he's still waiting for your father? Do you keep him waiting for someone who can't wait? It's too torture for him."

It took Jing Xing a long time to say something quietly, "It's better to have something to wait for than nothing to wait."

Liang Haoquan felt a dull pain in his heart, suppressed the soreness, and thankfully said: "It's okay, it's a good thing I'm not him, at least you're still here, at least I still have a chance to guard you, waiting for you to turn around, and I haven't missed the time."

The road ahead may be bumpy, bumpy and full of thorns, but at least the person who is waiting is alive, and you can see him crying and laughing, instead of holding a cold tablet and being sad, unable to do anything.

In contrast, Liang Haoquan feels that he is very lucky, and he is more calm about the long road ahead.At least people are still there, aren't they?

"Are you really planning not to pursue the past? If everything is a misunderstanding, I don't think your father in the spirit of heaven wants everything to go wrong? After all, he is your other father, maybe your father wants you to recognize him as well." Not necessarily, I'm afraid it's not easy for him to be alone now. If it was a mistake, it would be too regrettable for both of them to end up like this."

Jing Xing frowned and his heart was in a mess. He didn't think about searching before because he thought it was too far away and too difficult, so he gave up easily.Now this person is in front of him, and he only needs to slightly open the door to know the truth of the past, making it difficult for him to make a choice.There seemed to be two villains fighting in his mind, which gave him a headache.

I didn't understand before, when Jiang's mother told about the events of the year, she realized that his father had never forgotten that person.Sitting at the entrance of the village and looking at the lonely look in the distance, Feifan Asu made him remember deeply.Until his death, my father didn't have the courage to explore the truth. I'm afraid this is the most regrettable thing in my father's life.

But let him reveal the truth, Jing Xing felt that he lacked a little courage, and his heart was full of panic and fear, just like his father back then.If the truth is cruel, does he resent or feel worthless for his father?

"I, think about it again." Jing Xing sat on the sofa restlessly, resting his head on his hands.

Liang Haoquan sighed, and sat beside him: "I'm not forcing you, I will support any decision you make. It's just that time waits for no one, he is already old, and he was able to get so many military achievements back then. The body is back together. Now the body is about the same size, so it is estimated that the life expectancy is shorter than the average person. I heard that in addition to his own will, the reason why he quit behind the scenes these years is that his body is not good enough. What I just said If so, I'm also afraid that you will have regrets."

"Is he not in good health?"

"I saw him ten years ago. At that time, he looked older than his peers. I really don't know what is going on now. I only know that he is still alive. If you need me, I can help you investigate, but he The physical condition of a person with this identity is confidential, and he will definitely be alarmed at that time, I can only try not to turn my attention to you, but I can't guarantee that I can avoid it."

Jing Xing was very confused, leaning on the back of the sofa, looking at the photo of his father.There are very few photos of his father, this one was taken by Jing Xing when he was admitted to university, with a faint smile on his face.Although he has lived in the countryside for so many years, his elegance and style have not been concealed.

Thinking back now, my father's family background should be good in the past, he should have come from a scholarly family or something, and he should have been pampered when he was a child.When he first arrived in Shouhe Village, his father was completely indifferent to grains. Even though he has been busy in the village for so many years, he has never been able to do as well as a real farmer.In addition, her health is not very good, and she does not work as quickly as Mother Jiang.Sometimes Jiang’s mother recalled Jing Wenfei, and always remembered that the first time he cooked rice, he cooked a big pot, because he didn’t know that the rice would rise after cooking, so he ate it according to one person. A few bowls of rice so scooped rice cooked rice.

At that time, except for the children who grew up in our family, who would not know this truth.And judging from his father's conversation and knowledge, he felt that he was different from others, which was why Jiang's mother had no idea to go further with Jing Wenfei.He felt that Jing Wenfei was an unreachable person, and hinted a few times that the other party didn't mean that, so he never mentioned it again, and lived in such a mutual dependence all the time.

Literati are also emotional, and most of their fathers were tortured to death by themselves.Father has always had a knot in his heart, and even with him and Mother Jiang and her family, there is no way to untie it.But he didn't have the courage to find out the truth, so he held it back for so many years, and finally grinded himself to death.

Presumably my father knows better than anyone why he came to such a point in the first place. Without him, maybe my father would be more confident.But because of his appearance, his father couldn't feel confident, and always felt humbled and felt like a monster, so he refrained from taking this step.In the past, he didn't know why, but now that he has Chenchen, he understands.Although he has faced it calmly now, it is inevitable that there is no knot in his heart.

He and Liang Haoquan knew it well, and Liang Haoquan also showed a completely indifferent attitude, but he still didn't dare to admit anything directly.Even if he loves Chenchen again, he feels that having Chenchen is his greatest luck.

Jing Xing finally couldn't help but said: "Can you help me investigate? I want to know his recent situation, if it's inconvenient, just fine."

"You and I don't have to be so polite."

Jing Xing lowered his head with a dejected expression on his face, if he had no choice but also didn't want to entrust Liang Haoquan to have anything to do with him.It's just that such a person is not something that a small person like him can touch. He is not yet mentally prepared to face such a father.Moreover, he was also afraid that the truth was not as optimistic as they thought. If he got caught in the fire, he would be as easy to be crushed to death by such a character as a small ant. He couldn't make fun of his life and the lives of his whole family.

Liang Haoquan sighed, "Don't worry, I won't use this matter to threaten you. I'm just playing to get closer to you today. I'm sorry for making you conflicted and disgusted. I swear I won’t do anything to make you unhappy in the future. I help you investigate just because I don’t want you to regret and regret it, just like I do now.”

The room fell silent for an instant, only the sound of each other's breathing was heard.

"Liang Haoquan, you don't love me, why are you trying so hard to please me? If you feel that being rejected by me hurts your self-esteem, or you want me, I will accompany you tonight until you get tired of it. But you can't cum inside, I can I don’t want to do it again. It’s such a hassle if I didn’t buy a condom, and I don’t know if contraception will work for me afterward…”

Liang Haoquan jumped up from the sofa in horror, pointed at him and hesitated almost speechless, "What do you mean!"

Jing Xing smiled slightly: "Isn't that what you mean by living here? Or do you despise my body and just want to experience the warmth of the family here and find true love outside? If so, I hope you hide it well Don't be in my family. The most important thing is not to show it in front of Chenchen. I don't want Chenchen to have such a world view. It's hard to find someone as stupid as me in the world. I don't want Chenchen to die because of something like this. under……"

Liang Haoquan's expression suddenly became wonderful, he looked at Jing Xing like a monster, "You, you...why do you miss me so much? I just..."

"Just what? How dare you say that you really love me now? It's just like you were to Zuo Xiaozuo back then, so eager and crazy. It's just that you want to settle down when you're old, don't you?"

Liang Haoquan wanted to refute, but he didn't know where to start.He wanted to say that he was not like this, but felt pale and powerless. He was indeed not as enthusiastic and crazy about Jing Xing. After all, he had known each other for so many years, and it was hard to feel that kind of freshness and novelty.Although the separation of these days has made Jing Xing very different from before, there is still a certain distance from the intensity he had towards Zuo Xiaozuo at that time.I want to say that I really want to settle down, but there are other things besides this.He couldn't figure out what that feeling was, and the boundary between love and not love was blurred, making it impossible for him to justify.

"I don't know why you have such messy thoughts. You just need to know that I believe in you. You are the only one in this life. There is no such thing as Zuo Xiaozuo or You Xiaoyou. Love is not always so eager, and it can flow slowly. Very late Now, go to rest early, don't think about anything messy. I want you to be the same when you accept me, I'm not so dirty." After Liang Haoquan finished speaking, he ran out of Jing Xing's room almost in a state of embarrassment, almost closing the door I forgot to bring them.

Seeing him walking away, Jing Xing couldn't help laughing, he had to be together if he wanted to get entangled, why should he be so depressed by himself.In this way, what can be guaranteed is that he is physically safe, and he doesn't have to worry about someone sneaking into his room.Although Liang Haoquan should not do such a shameless thing, but who knows if he will suddenly have a brain convulsion and take it by force.

If the body wasn't so special, it would be a jjj. Men don't have as many scruples as women, but if someone dies again, he will really go crazy.He thought of the pain and entanglement before he came again, and his scalp began to tingle.The feeling of hiding for fear of being treated as a monster is really too bad.

The next day, Liang Haoquan looked at Jing Xing with weird and evasive eyes. There was no way that Jing Xing had always been restrained in his heart, even when the two of them were in bed before, he was very reserved.Although she would cooperate with his movements and try her best to make him comfortable, she would never talk about these things so bluntly.It was as if Jing Xing had never asked for anything from him, he had always been so honest.At most, it will be hinted in action and will not be expressed verbally.He was really taken aback yesterday, although he was a little annoyed at the bottom of his heart, why didn't he just push the matter down.After all, he also has desires, and it is impossible for him to be invited like this.

But his weird thoughts and his future strategies overwhelmed this desire, until now he still can't believe that these words were spoken by Jing Xing.

"What's wrong with that guy? Why are those eyes so eager and dissatisfied? You won't let someone get you yesterday, can't you, bro, why...you really disappointed me!" Xiao Yang glared at Jing Xing angrily. .

"What are you talking about, nothing."

"Then why did he have this expression so early in the morning? Didn't he look domineering, cool and handsome yesterday? Could it be you who overwhelmed him?" Xiao Yang was shocked by this guess, as if a light bulb went on in his heart.That's a good idea!If the two of them had to get entangled together, so that the superior Liang Haoquan would be suppressed, it would be so emotional.Although being oppressed does not mean being weak, the psychological feeling is quite different.

Jing Xing smiled helplessly, "It's a pity you don't become a screenwriter."

Xiao Yangte sighed in disappointment, "It's boring, but after all, I think it's a good idea. If you are really together, you can suppress him, so that no one will be killed, and you can still see him being so arrogant and arrogant. People are so oppressed by you that they are lingering, thinking about it makes sense! You say you want it, but you don’t want it, you don’t just want it..."

Jing Xing burst out laughing, his shoulders trembling uncontrollably.Nima, how can he look at this nursery rhyme directly in the future.In the future, this song must be deleted from the computer, so that Chenchen cannot hear it.

Wu Yong and Liang Haoquan couldn't help but looked over, their faces puzzled.

"Smile, laugh, laugh, I'm serious." Xiao Yang gave Jing Xing a dissatisfied look.

Jing Xing waved his hand, "No, Yangzi, you are such a treasure, I love you to death!"

Xiao Yang brought his face closer with a proud face, and gave Jing Xing a big bear hug. "Me too, honey."

Now the faces of the two people on the opposite side turned green, and when Mama Jiang came in, she saw such a scene - Jing Xing and Xiao Yang blushed from laughing, while Wu Yong and Liang Haoquan sat on the side and their faces turned black.

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