After reading through the book, I found out that I am the prototype of the protagonist

"Don't make a sour face," Lin Qi said.

Yang Qing couldn't do it, he looked at Lin Qi worriedly, his face was still pale because he had been in a coma for several days.He cut the peeled apple into pieces, handed it to Lin Xi, and said, "Brother, you really won't faint again? You scared me to death."

Lin Qi bit an apple, and the crisp sound swayed between his lips and teeth. After chewing, he slowly replied: "Don't worry."

Dreaming is sometimes pleasant, but it doesn't feel good to be asleep all the time. He still prefers to be awake.

"Oh." Yang Qing looked at him distressedly, "Brother, don't force yourself to smile. You don't have to pretend to be strong in front of me."

"No," Lin Xi said helplessly, "I'm really fine."

Yang Qing was just afraid. A good person collapsed in front of the grave and woke up after being in a coma for more than four days. It is conceivable how much stimulation this person must have suffered.

He fed Lin Qi another apple, and tried to think of something to comfort him: "When my grandpa passed away, I was stunned. It was the first time I experienced the death of a loved one. To be honest, it has been a long time. I'm not used to it, I'm going to cry every now and then. But now I'm here too. Brother, don't get too involved, your grandpa definitely wants you to be happy."

Lin Xi's chewing movements slowed down, and he let out a "huh".

"Xiaoqing," he asked, "do you feel reconciled? People will die no matter how long they live. The people we love the most will not stay with us forever, they will all leave."

Yang Qing sighed, his tone was a little melancholy, but not too sad: "It's okay to be unwilling. Instead of living in depression, it's better to be happy. A journey is a journey."

As he said that, he glanced at Lin Qi again, and said cautiously: "Brother, don't be angry, let me advise you. I think that no one lives to be with others, everyone lives for themselves. No matter how much you love That person, that person also has his own life, he has no obligation to accompany you to the end. As long as he stays with us for a while, we should all be grateful."

His voice became smaller and smaller, and he was a little nervous because he showed his disapproval for Lin Xi for the first time, but he still finished his words seriously: "If you feel unwilling because no one can accompany you forever, That's a bit selfish. Besides, everyone will die without exception, so I don't feel so unwilling when I think about it."

Seeing that Lin Xi was silent after speaking, Yang Qing became uneasy, he was afraid that what he said would irritate Lin Xi again!

"Brother." He looked at Lin Qi and called him again in a low voice.

Lin Xi seemed to come back to his senses suddenly, and raised his voice to say "hmm".

Seeing him like this, Yang Qing's heart tightened even more, and he hurriedly said: "What I'm talking about is just my opinion. Brother, you are so smart, you must have a better opinion than me. But you can't be pessimistic, pessimism is wrong."

He always speaks like this, a little unconfident, but he always shows a frank heart.Lin Xi couldn't help smiling, and reached out to rub his hair: "You're right."

Yang Qing chuckled softly, leaned his head close to let him knead, and said, "Brother, sometimes I think I'm a very open-minded person! I think I'm happy most of the time, isn't that good?"

"Very good." Lin Xi did not hesitate to use a higher-level adverb for him.

Yang Qing couldn't help but smile even brighter.

After transfusing another bottle of nutrient solution, Lin Xi can be discharged from the hospital.Grandma has helped him pack his things, but since he woke up, Grandma has been busy taking care of him.

Before leaving, Lin Qi watched his grandma bend down to fold the quilt on the hospital bed meticulously, and said, "Grandma, I'm all fine, don't worry about me anymore."

She turned her head and smiled: "I know."

He who wakes up and says good morning is feeling better.

She knows better than anyone what it feels like when a loved one dies.People have lived to a certain age, and have seen too many deaths, and they are not numb, and the pain is still painful.Just looking forward, for her, this is a new beginning.

Since then, she has no daughter or husband, and she will walk towards death alone.

Lin Xi sat on a stool beside him and saw the thin twilight reflecting into the room, covering his grandmother's frail body.As he did when he was a child, he raised his face and asked her, "Grandma, are you cold?"

Grandma came over, touched his cheeks with both hands, and smiled with eyes crooked: "It's not cold, grandma's hands are warm."

As winter nights approached, she would buy a steaming sweet potato on the street, eat a simple meal when she got home, watch TV for a while, and then fall asleep.In her own home, continue to live the rest of her life.

As long as her body temperature is still warm, she will continue to fight like this.

Yang Qing had already taken his things down, the car was waiting in the parking lot, and Lin Qi and his grandmother went down together.Talking about her not being cold, the grandma looked at Lin Qi with concern and said, "It's time to bring you a scarf, it's cooling down."

Lin Xi was about to say that he was not cold, when a pleasant voice suddenly sounded in front of him: "Here is the scarf."

He was startled, and after a few seconds, he and his grandmother looked towards the door of the ward.

Jiang Xiusi stood there, holding a handbag in his hand, and said to him with a smile, "Congratulations on being discharged from the hospital."

The discharge gift was a weather-matching cashmere scarf that was soft and warm.In front of grandma, he tied the scarf for Lin Xi. Lin Xi was dumbfounded and allowed him to move, and his face felt a little hot after he realized it.

After sitting in the car, the two stood next to each other, Lin Xi blushed even more, but he couldn't say anything.Although there is a vague feeling that they will not be able to penetrate the book again, the memory is still very clear.The scenes in the book are still in front of my eyes, especially the hug without hesitation.

That scene is probably poignant, peach blossoms as swords, piercing their hearts.But even in the book, ordinary people can't bear the severe pain at that moment.

Just thinking about it, Lin Xi felt that his heart seemed to be torn apart again, and it hurt like hell.He couldn't help turning his head, and asked Jiang Xiusi in a low voice: "Does it hurt? At that time."

The hand on the seat was touched lightly, and Jiang Xiusi's fingers touched his fingers.Lin Xi heard him say, "It doesn't hurt."

The air conditioner was already turned on in the car, but such a subtle move still made Lin Xi feel the temperature rise, and he was so hot that he wanted to tear off his collar a little.However, when the other hand reached up, he touched the scarf first, and the collar was hidden under it.

The soft scarf, with a faint scent, surged at the tip of his nose.Lin Xi couldn't help rubbing it with his fingertips a few times, but he didn't tear it apart.Let it be hot, it seems that the heat has become comfortable.

The two hands were kept together, touching each other's skin and sharing their body temperature.Not one step closer, nor separated.

Jiang Xiusi sent Lin Qi downstairs and didn't go up again. "take a good rest."

In the dark night, Lin Qi looked at Jiang Xiusi's cold face as usual, as if he had returned to the night when he was drunk.

At first I thought this person was ruthless, but later I realized that this is not the case.Jiang Xiusi doesn't know how to flatter, but he is not as cold as ice.He is calm, sober, and meticulous in his work.Emotionally, he is gentle and persistent, but he does not abandon the pride in his bones.

At the moment of separation, Lin Qi looked at him fascinatedly for a while, immersed in a special atmosphere.It's like a butterfly strayed into a dark hole, struggled to fly away for a while, but flew into a brand-new, unbelievably beautiful world, lingering and forgetting to return.

If he could see his foolishness, he would curse secretly.

Fortunately, Yang Qing understood him very well, knew that he would be annoyed for a long time after he realized it, so he pulled his arm very sensiblely, helped him out of the daze, and said, "Brother Jiang, be careful on the way back."

Lin Xi's gaze finally moved away from Jiang Xiusi's face, turned away unnaturally, and said, "Be careful on the road."

"I will be busy in the future, and I will be more involved in the later stage. I will often stay on the set." Jiang Xiusi patiently explained his work arrangements to him.

Lin Qi blushed, said "Yes", and Jiang Xiusi left.

He lay in the hospital for a few days without eating anything, relying on nutrient solution for sustenance, his body was relatively weak, his grandmother was worried about him, so this time he went back to his grandmother's house.

This parting scene was all seen by grandma.

After going upstairs and packing up everything, grandma told him to take a hot bath first.Lin Qi left in a daze.

He kept replaying the events of that night in his mind.Jiang Xiusi also seemed a little drunk, and became a little less restrained. He hugged him, made a very intimate move to him, and said the moving line written by Shakespeare.

In fact, Lin Xi wanted to reply to him that night.

The answer is also obvious.He didn't know how deep his obsession with Jiang Xiusi was, but facing such a person, he was always happy and light, so how could he say the words of rejection?

But Jiang Xiusi took a step back and laid a step between them.

It could have been natural for two people to get closer and bond together.When this level of steps appeared in front of them, they needed to lift their feet with great effort, and stand together in a posture of raising and lowering them, like lifting a chess piece, thus adding a cautious color to the upcoming love.

Jiang Xiusi was serious.He refuses the casual promises made when he is in a trance.

At that time, Lin Xi was unable to understand the alcohol.Looking back now, he really felt trembling because of Jiang Xiusi's various performances that night.

Why is love so dizzy, and Jiang Xiusi makes people feel so at ease.

After coming out of the shower, Lin Xi didn't know how intoxicated he looked, seeing his grandmother's half-smile expression, his body stiffened all of a sudden.

He blinked: "Grandma?"

Grandma pointed to the soup on the table and said, "Drink some hot water first to warm your stomach. Brush your teeth and go to bed later."

"Oh." Lin Xi sat down at the table obediently, but his grandmother's expression still made him feel scared.

Grandma also sat down, sat across from him, and looked at him lovingly.

Lin Qi buried his head and drank the extremely fragrant soup, then looked up at grandma cautiously.He couldn't hold back any longer and asked, "Why are you looking at me like that?"

Grandma laughed.With her elbows resting on the table, she tilted her head, leaned her face on her hands, and said with a relaxed posture, "Xiu Si is a good boy."

"!" Lin Xi reacted greatly, as if choking, fake coughed several times unnaturally, and pretended to agree, "Oh, yes."

Grandma shook her head gently, and said with a smile: "You think grandma can't see it?"

So what about homosexuality.She didn't care, but the tense look of her grandson amused her instead.

She said: "Whoever you like, as long as that person is not a bad guy, grandma will support it."

"Grandma." Lin Xi stopped eating and called her in a daze.

She waved her hand at him indifferently: "Grandma only wants you to be happy, nothing else matters. Grandma can see that you are relaxed and happy when you stay with me. That's enough. "

Lin Xi was speechless.

Grandma's smile softened even more. As Lin Xi's only recognized and last relative in this world, she had the responsibility to say these words, and she had to say: "You have been acting like a baby since childhood, but grandma knows that you have to be strong outside. , and never show weakness. You are straightforward, and you don’t like to socialize too much with people, and you have very few friends. If you don’t let grandma know, grandma won’t know anything? "

She said with pity and self-reproach: "Such a young child doesn't like to go out to play with friends. The whole high school, I just stayed at home and made those videos. Hobbies are one thing, and grandma supports them. But people can't live forever If you don’t communicate with the outside world, grandma is afraid that you will be lonely, and also afraid that you will actually enjoy loneliness.”

"I want you to go out to play, and I am afraid to disturb you when I see you fascinated. I often think that maybe some people just want to be alone. Grandma dare not destroy your life. But grandma also wants her children Can someone accompany you, a friend in twos and a lover.

"These are not necessary, but those who can have them are always happy. Grandma's only wish is that you live happily."

She looked at Lin Xi seriously: "Grandma is getting old and has no strength. Grandma can't hold you back when you faint. If he wasn't there, you would have fallen to the ground. If you bumped , grandma can't stand it. So grandma is grateful to him."

Lin Xi's eyes were moistened.He nodded vigorously.

"Xiao Ye," she didn't want the topic to be too heavy and make the child feel uncomfortable, and said to him with a smile, "be brave, you can like anything, and you can like anyone."

Lin Xi promised her: "I understand, grandma."

"Didn't he tell you today?" Grandma advised him, "He's busy. But when you recover, you can take the initiative to visit him."

This... Lin Xi was still a little embarrassed, he whispered: "Let's forget it."

Grandma's voice was a little louder: "How can I do that? If you like him, you should chase him too. You are also a boy. Boys, don't be coy."

"Oh!" Lin Qi was ashamed, but he absolutely couldn't accept coy comments.

Grandma hits with one blow.

Win.

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