godfather

The two squatted side by side under the wall of Meng's downstairs, under the moonlight and the cold wind blowing.The top of the head is the window of their house.Pigeons were kept outside the window on the second floor of the house next door, and miscellaneous feces and bird feathers were constantly leaking from the pigeon cages, creating a smell of fireworks in the world.

Shaotang said generously, "Xiaobei, you have really grown up."

Meng Xiaobei nodded: "Hmm."

Shaotang rubbed his leg on Meng Xiaobei's leg: "There is a lot of hair."

Meng Xiaobei was immediately amused, and mocked back: "Not as hairy as you."

Shaotang teased him: "Fall on me, rub against me again, my mother, I looked down, we almost got entangled and couldn't be untied!"

Meng Xiaobei laughed loudly, scratched his hair, and felt joy in his heart, the embarrassment and embarrassment he had just felt relieved all of a sudden.How much I like this person, every word is pleasant to the ear.

He turned to look at Shaotang, and seriously asked what was on his mind: "Godfather, come back this time, will you still leave in the future? Will you leave Beijing?"

Shaotang took Kai Kai and explained seriously: "Actually, I didn't want to come back at this time! The higher-ups assigned tasks to form a new team and promote young cadres. When I transferred back to Beijing, I also considered whether I would come to see you again in the summer. I am really afraid of the impact on you. Your exam is not worth it, your study is important!"

Meng Xiaobei said: "You won't affect me. I miss you so much when you're not here...that's what affects me."

Shaotang told me seriously: "Don't ride all the way to look for me when school starts in the future, you'd be stupid to delay your studies, do you hear me?"

Meng Xiaobei replied: "As long as you come to look for me, I won't look for you."

Shaotang frowned: "So stubborn?"

Meng Xiaobei said: "I will listen to you except this."

Meng Xiaobei kept having an awkward question in his mind, but he didn't open his mouth to ask, but Shaotang asked it out on his own initiative.

Shaotang's eyes were dark, reflecting the moonlight and tree shadows, his eyes were calm: "Xiaobei, I'm sorry, don't blame godfather."

Meng Xiaobei: "..."

The two fell into a long silence, and the north wind blew, blowing away the soot.

Shaotang said: "It's been more than four years since I left. In the blink of an eye, you have grown up so much. There have been so many changes and many things are different. When I first saw you, I couldn't even recognize your voice."

"I didn't fulfill my responsibilities as a father, and I didn't do my best to take care of you. I just called your dad a few days ago, and I was too embarrassed to tell him that I don't even know how tall you are, what size shoes you wear, How many taels of food do you eat for each meal, who are your school head teacher and classmates, what do you usually play... I don’t know, and I can’t explain it!”

Meng Xiaobei said, "I'm 1.7 meters four, with size 41 shoes."

"My dad doesn't know how tall I am, and I didn't ask Meng Xiaojing how tall I am, and what my love is like."

Like an adult, Meng Xiaobei was calm and indifferent, with a hint of resentment and indifference evident in his tone.

This topic is another unpleasant and taboo topic. Shaotang hurriedly said: "Don't be like this. After the high school entrance examination, your father will definitely bring Meng Xiaojing to Beijing, or ask you to go back to Xigou to visit relatives. You must not do it in front of your father." Being so stubborn, your father managed to heal Meng Xiaojing's leg!"

Meng Xiaobei lowered his eyelids and said nothing.

Shaotang disagreed, and said, "Your father still loves you, why didn't you come to Beijing for you and leave your brother in the valley? Don't hurt your father's heart, and don't treat him badly."

Meng Xiaobei didn't speak even more, and when such a topic was mentioned, he felt thorny all over his body, as if a self-closing wall was propped up from the depths of his heart.He used the hair curtain to block the subtle expression changes on his face.It is said that adolescent boys who like to hide their eyes with hair curtains to pretend to be cool, either have a dark and wretched heart, or have extremely low self-esteem and sensitivity in their bones.Meng Xiaobei belongs to the latter.

Shaotang said again: "The clothes you are wearing are not the ones I bought for you back then. The ones I bought for you are too small, so throw them away."

Meng Xiaobei hurriedly said: "No...you still send me money every year! I never complained to you!"

Shaotang shook his head: "Your father also sent you money. Money is really nothing, let me tell you, money is nothing."

"When I went to the military academy for further study, I was thinking about my future promotion in the army and my career. After I left, I... I felt that I was too selfish, so I let you stay in Beijing alone. Your father is not here, so you are like It was my only responsibility, but I also ran away in the end! I am really afraid that you will fail to learn well, and blame me for this."

Meng Xiaobei was scratching his head, thinking that he didn't seem to have done any bad things except occasionally doing handwork under the covers at night, right?

Shaotang's eyes flashed, and he suddenly grabbed Meng Xiaobei's left hand, squeezed the index finger and middle finger and rubbed it a few times, and asked abruptly, "Smelly son, have you started smoking?"

Meng Xiaobei: "...Huh?"

Shaotang sneered: "Don't fucking pretend to me."

Meng Xiaobei quickly lowered his head and scratched his hair, messing up the soft hair on his head.

Shaotang sneered, "I've been smoking for more than ten years, once I smell the bad smell on you, I'll know what you've done!"

Meng Xiaobei grinned shamelessly and said cheerfully, "Good godfather, don't tell my grandparents."

Shaotang warned again: "Don't smoke too much, it's not good for your health. Also, don't buy the cheap Hara cigarettes sold by your second factory cooperative, and smoke the best quality."

The two of them got together to talk about some intimate conversations. Meng Xiaobei mustered up his courage and boldly leaned his head on the side of his godfather's shoulder, and wrapped his arm around Shaotang's waist.The moment I leaned up, hugging the person I liked was absolutely different from hugging a girl with someone else. My eyes were blurred, my heart was trembling, and it was so sad and sweet.He didn't say it clearly, he didn't confess his love, he just pretended to be crazy and foolish, and took the opportunity to hug her.As long as the other party doesn't refuse, he can make an inch at any time.

Shaotang frowned and said "how old are you" in disgust at him, but didn't shake off his tired and crooked arms.Shaotang put Meng Xiaobei's hand on her, and his fingerprints lightly stroked Xiaobei's strong forearm with blue veins exposed, feeling the traces of time.Just now he found that Xiaobei was "like that" in the bathhouse, Shaotang felt indescribably embarrassed and palpitated.This kind of thing can't be exposed, the son is thin-skinned, and the little dad still feels distressed.

The two hugged like this, Shaotang turned his head and kissed Meng Xiaobei's hair, the kiss was generous and crisp.The softest part of my heart suddenly melted away, and it was so warm...

Meng Xiaobei suddenly took out a colored chain from his trouser pocket: "I made it for you, do you wear it?"

Shaotang frowned when he saw it: "Wear this thing? A girl wears it."

As Shaotang said so, he had already taken the things in his hand.

Meng Xiaobei hurriedly said: "Boys wear it too, everyone in our class wears it!"

Shaotang explained: "We trained all day long to climb the mountain and roll in the mud. It's really inconvenient. Sweating must have made you dirty!"

Meng Xiaobei whispered: "Anyway, I made it up for you alone."

Shaotang disliked it, and quickly put the bracelet on his left wrist, as if it was a matter of course that this thing was made for him!He carefully tied the knot and tucked it into the sleeve of the sweater so no one could see it.Several 20-year-old soldiers in the team wear red ropes and colorful ropes, which were woven by a good friend in the family.Only men who are hurt by others wear this, who doesn't understand?Who is the fool?In fact, they are all trying to figure out who can pretend to be stupid in front of each other.

Some words can't be said, and they are too explicit and frank, maybe in the future I will never be able to hold hands side by side, or hug without scruples like this again.Even if you like someone again, you can't lose the bottom line of propriety.

Later, both of them were unbearably cold. It was cold and the wind was too strong at night, so they would catch a cold after taking a bath.Before leaving, Shaotang said angrily, "Meng Xiaobei, go and exchange your dad's underwear for me, I'm dressed like this, it's too uncomfortable to strangle my thighs!"

Meng Xiaobei stared at Shaotang, getting closer to each other, and his words became more and more courageous: "I just want you to wear mine, you are not allowed to wear my father's!"

Shaotang didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and waved his hand: "Your underpants are too small, mine are uncomfortable."

Meng Xiaobei was overjoyed, and teased: "Godfather, is your thing so big?"

Shaotang scolded back: "It's not like you haven't seen it before, kid! The bird is big and the nest is small, it can't hold me! Get out there and get me your father's."

A man's obscene laughter erupted in the dark corridor.Meng Xiaobei was so amused by this man that he felt impulsive, and wanted to hug Shaotang to play tricks, begging to touch the big sexy bird's nest...

Meng Xiaobei pouted and took off his father's underwear, always unwilling.

Meng Xiaobei asked Shaotang to change in his bedroom, Shaotang's eyes flickered, and he refused to go upstairs, insisting on changing downstairs.There is a deep door opening in the door of the old-fashioned residential buildings, where bicycles are placed.The doorway was dark, and Shaotang leaned against it, quickly took off his outer pants and long johns, and changed his underwear.This person minded going upstairs, but he didn't mind being stared at outside in the wild. It was probably a habit he had developed in the wind and rain during his years as a soldier. He was a rough guy.

Meng Xiaobei secretly treasured the pair of underwear that carried Shaotang's body temperature and breath, and spread them under his pillow every night.

From then on, he could vaguely see that Shaotang didn't like to step into the room where he lived, and seemed to deliberately avoid certain people.Adults are actually the same as children. Some things are unwilling to say clearly, so as not to hurt each other's face, but they care about it in their hearts and deliberately avoid it in action.

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Because Shaotang re-entered Meng Xiaobei's life this winter vacation, it seemed extraordinarily sweet and short, and school started in no time.

Meng Xiaobei usually plays foolishly, after all, in the last semester of the third year of junior high school, and the atmosphere of studying and preparing for the whole grade in key schools is intense.He rides out of the house at [-] o'clock every day, starts self-study early at [-] o'clock, has eight classes a day, works overtime and reads until evening self-study is dark before returning home.Their grade group leader, a female, has an anxious look all day long with a red face, teeth and claws, and a fierce look that hates iron and steel. It can be seen that there is too much pressure on the entrance quota, and it has to compete with the city's key No. [-] Middle School next door. Excessive anxiety disorder.Meng Xiaobei can't finish the big white exercise book and mock exam papers for each district every day.The overall level of the schools in Chaoyang District was poor, so the teacher gave them Xicheng and Haidian papers, but the test results were poor, and many questions had never been seen before!So the whole class was scolded, and everyone made up lessons...

There is no time to pick up girls at school, the work of the host of the radio station and various clubs has also been suspended, and Meng Xiaobei has no time to go to Haidian to meet his godfather.

Although he can't see each other often, Meng Xiaobei is still very happy, and his expectations are not high, a little warmth can make him feel happy.His godfather called their family downstairs as agreed, Meng Xiaobei sometimes went to Qi Liang's house to do homework, and also used Liang Liang's house phone to call Shaotang.

On the phone, the godfather's voice was rare and gentle, or maybe Meng Xiaobei's crush had an illusion.Shaotang promised him, "Take a good exam and get into a good school. I will take you out to play during the summer vacation."

During the lunch break at school, Meng Xiaobei was tired lying on the desk in a daze, sometimes his hands itched, and he would draw Shaotang in the blank space on the back of the exercise book.

Once in the morning when get out of class was over in the fourth quarter, Meng Xiaobei and Qi Liang rushed out of the classroom immediately, carrying lunch boxes in their hands, and raced quickly to the cafeteria.Teacher Xiao, who teaches Chinese in their class, passed by with a stack of papers, and smiled at him from afar: "Xiaobei, the composition is not bad this time."

Meng Xiaobei's eyes were slender, and the corners of his mouth raised lightly: "Really, thank you, Teacher Xiao!"

Qi Liang walked close to Meng Xiaobei, bowed his head and did not speak.

Teacher Xiao glanced at the two of them, turned around and lifted the curtain of hair, twisted his hips slightly, and walked into the building with chic steps.

Qi Liang stared at the teacher's back, and snorted: "Among our grade teachers, Xiao Yi likes you the most. I always see him making fun of you."

Meng Xiaobei: "He likes me? I think he really wants to see you, and he always talks to you when he has nothing to do."

Qi Liang rarely showed displeasure: "I don't like to talk to him, you didn't see, he asked me to go to his office and I never went in!"

Meng Xiaobei shrugged, what's wrong with you.

Qi Liang frowned, and babbled again: "Xiaobei, he will ask you to talk to the office in the future, so don't go!"

At that time, Meng Xiaobei didn't understand what Liangliang's complaint meant, it was her mother-in-law's.He thought to himself, our scores in Chinese are so good, and the only subject that can be mentioned outside of Chinese, mathematics, politics, history and geography is Chinese, why should Xiao Yi talk to me when he has nothing to do?

Qi Liang was still nagging, Meng Xiaobei couldn't wait to step into the cafeteria: "What are you eating today, show me quickly!"

Meng Xiaobei has slight myopia, [-] degrees, and doesn't wear glasses. Every time, he asks Liangliang to show him the menu.

Qi Liang squinted his eyes and said, "Wait in that line, Yinya Phoenix Preserved!"

Meng Xiaobei snorted, "Pfft, isn't it just stir-fried chicken slices with mung bean sprouts? If you like chicken, I'll take my fried meatballs."

Qi Liang spat at him: "Meng Xiaobei, the Hui people in your files are so shameless!"

There is also a Muslim female student in their class, who is very different from Meng Xiaobei, but she is very particular. When cooking in the cafeteria, the master will ask the master to replace the spoon that used to hold Jiaoliu meatballs, and just give her a new spoon. Served with beef and potatoes.

Meng Xiaobei packed a lunch box full of jiaoliu meatballs and fried shredded pork with garlic sprouts, walked over in front of the female classmate, and met her contemptuous gaze.

He has always had this unscrupulous tone.

The more half-grown boy with this kind of style, the more he attracts attention in school...

Xiao Yi, male, the Chinese teacher of their class, is not the head teacher, but has more power than the head teacher, and is the deputy teaching group leader of their grade.This person is only in his 30s, can teach the graduating class of the third grade in a key school, and is also the backbone of teaching and research. It can be seen that his ability is quite good, and he is a young teacher that the school focuses on training.

This person came to class for the first time, introduced his name on the blackboard, and wrote it in a handsome font, Xiao Yi, with the word Lanyan.The whole class burst into laughter at that time!A male teacher with such a glamorous and elegant pair of names and characters, to put it bluntly, is a literary youth who teaches Chinese, with a small and fresh temperament of literature and art; to be funny, this word is Qiong Yao, this is the name of the heroine of Qiong Yao's Republic of China drama Tune it!Later, when everyone started class, they found that Mr. Xiao was a good lecturer, with a gentle and kind temper. He cared about every student and rarely got angry when he scolded a student. Gradually, they all felt that Mr. Xiao was a good person.

The art exhibition of their junior high school students was led by Xiao Yi, and they specially selected Meng Xiaobei's paintings, which they appreciated very much.

The art club Meng Xiaobei joined rehearses small dramas, and also asks Mr. Xiao to be an extracurricular tutor.Other teachers are annoyed to ask for extra work for themselves, and do not take part-time fees for extracurricular activities. This teacher Xiao is different. He likes to participate in activities and make friends with students.

Only Qi Liang hated Xiao Yi, and when he saw Xiao Yi walking in the corridor, he immediately turned [-] degrees to avoid him.Meng Xiaobei also didn't understand why Qi Liang was so disgusted with someone surnamed Xiao.

In the two Chinese classes the next morning, Meng Xiaobei held the same posture every time in class, propped up the textbook, buried his head, blocked the front line of sight with the textbook and hair curtain, and sneaked down below to do other things.He understood all the texts, he was too lazy to listen, and he didn't like to take notes, anyway, he would copy Sun Yuanyuan's after the get out of class was over.

He draws his sketch portrait below, using his memory and imagination to describe a certain person, the little secret in the Xigou woods in his childhood impression.

He didn't raise his head for half a class.

As long as an experienced teacher stands on the podium, it will be clear at a glance which student is doing what is going on below.

While Teacher Xiao was talking, he suddenly put down the lecture notes, stepped down from the podium, and walked straight towards Meng Xiaobei!

Sun Yuanyuan was alert, saw it first, and coughed twice anxiously.

Qi Liang kicked Meng Xiaobei's chair leg from the side and back.

Xiao Yi asked in a deep voice while walking: "Qi Liang, what are you doing?"

Qi Liang was so frightened that he quickly covered his face with his textbook.

At this moment, Meng Xiaobei suddenly raised his head, and hurriedly stuffed the shameful drawing paper into the desk...

Xiao Yi walked two feet away from Meng Xiaobei, took a deep look at him through the thick glass lens, turned his head and returned to the podium.

This is knowing that there is a ghost under Meng Xiaobei's seat, but he didn't steal his desk, saving him enough face.

The bell rang for the end of get out of class, and the workbook was handed in. Meng Xiaobei and Qi Liang went out side by side, and went to the bathroom in the corridor.

Meng Xiaobei walked a few steps, then stopped suddenly: "Fuck!...It's broken."

Qi Liang: "What's the matter with you again?"

Meng Xiaobei: "Just now I handed in the exercise book!"

Qi Liang: "Ah."

With a broken and irritable expression on Meng Xiaobei's face, he turned around in a circle, kicked the wall with his feet, and yelled in a rough voice: "That picture I drew in class! ... I put the picture in the exercise book. I rely on it!!!"

Qi Liang was puzzled: "...what have you been drawing?"

Meng Xiaobei was anxious and restless all day, out of his mind, terrified, almost desperate, and wanted to jump off the main building of the school.

He did a stupid thing that can be called a shame and a shame, and he really deserves to be punished!He painted things that shouldn't be painted, and exposed his most private feelings.

At that time, he didn't have much taboo and knowledge about "homosexuality", but he also knew intuitively that his secret love for his little dad could not be noticed by those around him, and it would be embarrassing to be found out.That was a secret he shared with himself.

The thing that was mistakenly handed in in the exercise book was a little yellow painting that he couldn't help stealing when he was thinking about it in class. The painting was next to the outpost in Xigou Mountain, Qishan Mountain, and in the grove by the pool...he drew two naked men hold together.He imagined the intimacy of his godfather with him, Shaotang hugging him from behind, Shaotang kissing him, pampering him...

After self-study in the evening, he walked by the office of the Chinese teaching and research group with a guilty conscience, and there was still a small light in the room.

He thought to himself that it was over this time, and that tomorrow he would invite parents, and he would be called out at the school assembly to make him embarrassing, and he would be set as a model of puppy love and violation of discipline.

The door opened, and Meng Xiaobei's breathing stopped in his throat, he lost his breath all of a sudden, bowed his head, turned around and left, his expression and pace seemed to be about to go to the execution ground.Teacher Xiao poked his head out and called him: "Meng Xiaobei!...Come in and talk."