sarajevo sniper

Walter finally loosened his clenched fist and wiped his eyes with the back of his dirty hand.

Lin Nai knew how difficult it was for a soldier.He is an experienced person, he has gone through every stage, as long as he loses his comrades, it is difficult to get rid of the psychological pain.And the first time is always the worst, Walter has to figure out a way to come out on his own, he can't keep carrying the lost life on his back, it's going to crush him.

Someone stood beside him and held his hand: "He is not a child anymore, he can do it."

When Linnai turned his head, it was Leto's soft smile.He let go of his palm, fingers lightly inserted into the gap and then closed into one.Leto took him into his arms, and the two embraced briefly.

Despite their victory, no one smiled.

At nine o'clock, after the grain loading was completed, we finally set off from the airport and arrived at the refugee camp at 09:30.Many refugees stood on both sides of the road to welcome them. Cheers filled the narrow alleys. Some people took off their hats and saluted them. Women threw flowers and colorful scarves to the soldiers in the vehicles.The car was surrounded by excited children, who slapped the wagon, sang joyously, and even wanted to jump on the car to play with the soldiers.Drivers had to slow down to avoid hurting the children.

Sitting behind the car, Lin Nai pulled up a stumbling girl and hugged her in her arms. She took off a small clip with plastic fake flowers and pinned it to Lin Nai's skirt.Lin Nai kissed her forehead, and took out a pack of military ration biscuits from her arms and gave it to her.She thanked him in Bosniak dialect and praised his eyes.

Although Linnai already knew about the refugee camp in Sarajevo before coming here, the actual scale of the refugee camp was far beyond Linnai's imagination.It wasn't until he walked into this city within a city that he could truly realize that his choice was right, and only then did he understand what he chose when he chose to stand with Leto.

"There are all kinds of people here, Serbs, Croats, Muslims, Montenegrins, Macedonians... There are even Romanians and Hungarians. The total number is about 7 to 10." Leto led him out of the car. See the person in charge: "Berramovich will probably tell you that we only leave food for our own countrymen, but in fact Muslims are not even the largest proportion here. So it's really not good to say Which ethnic group gets the most food."

Lin Nai was still hugging the little girl: "If Belgrade had such a large refugee area, there would have been riots long ago."

Leto laughed: "Sarajevo is quite chaotic now. We almost razed the airport to the ground just now. Look how stable the people here are, and the children can be released to run around. Any normal In the country, the parents have already packed up their luggage and prepared to flee." He touched the little girl's head and took her from Linnai's arms: "Uncle is injured, it will be very hard for him to hold you. I will hug you Are you OK?"

Lin Nai was very pleased.The way Leto held the child made people believe that he would be a good father.Linnai could imagine that if the two of them had a child, Leto would hold his child like this.However, just half a month ago, he still thought that Leto was just a pure pervert, a psychopath.

They met the person in charge of the refugee camp. He was about to rest, but he was called up temporarily and came out to meet people in his pajamas. Looking at the carts of food, he thought he was dreaming.The establishment of the refugee camp was spontaneous, and the government did not intervene in the management. Currently, a delegation composed of representatives elected by various ethnic groups balances daily affairs.To put it bluntly, this is a group of abandoned people. No one cares about their lives, so they can only gather together to organize self-help.Relief from the United Nations has only occasionally occurred in the past two years.

"With this food, we can at least last until spring." The person in charge sighed: "We have lost a lot of people this winter. If they can wait a few more days, even a few days, maybe the situation will be different."

"If there is anything else you need, you can tell me, we will try our best to find a way to coordinate." Leto could see their dire situation.

"What we need most is doctors and medicines. We have all kinds of patients, countless patients, but even the cheapest medicines are very scarce, let alone doctors."

"We can feed back the needs, so that at least your voice can be conveyed."

"Oh, no, our voice is not important." The person in charge shook his head and let out a puff of cigarette. He held a short cigarette butt, even if there was only one puff left, he would not waste it: "Colonel, let me be frank with you. No one here One that cares if their voice is heard. Do you know why? Because they tried to be heard, trusted over and over again, only to be disappointed. Now, you see these run down A house or a tent or a thatch - call them whatever you like - they are just receptacles for pain, a mirror in which to judge yourself. This is a refugee camp, you know what I'm saying? It's not poverty It was disappointment, disease, and cold that brought us together. We have come here to declare our total loss of faith in this city, in ourselves, in people and in our feelings."

Leto and Linnai exchanged a complicated look, feeling deep sorrow at the same time.

The person in charge finally took his last puff of cigarette, and concluded: "We are dead, don't you see? This city is dead, and we are the heart that used to be active in this city."

The atmosphere was too depressing, and the low mood lasted until they came out of the refugee camp.Lin Nai asked Captain Mongoose for two cigarettes, one for himself and one for Leto.Two professional soldiers use nicotine to soothe their emotions.

Leto knew that this was not a long-term solution: "The war will end, and a referendum will be held next month. As long as Bosnia and Herzegovina can become independent, we have the right to be independent, and we will start reform and economic recovery."

"Do you think the referendum will pass?" Linnaeus asked.

"Yes." Leto nodded: "This is the last hope. We have fought a century of war, and it is time to end. There is no place like us that can fight a century of war. It will end. Everything will come to an end." There is an ending."

Lin Nai shook his hand and gave him a smile: "I can't guarantee that I can give you a happy ending, but I can guarantee that no matter what the ending is, you will not face it alone."

Leto took the back of his head, and the two exchanged a lingering kiss.

They didn't go back to the garrison command post, the two left alone after bringing the large army back safely, and Leto drove his private car back to his apartment in Sarajevo.The last time he was back here Linnaeus had kidnapped him for an identity document and fed him three bullets when he was set free.The government army later cleaned up the room briefly, sent away the damaged furniture, and simply painted the blood-stained walls, and Leto had no time to add decorations, so now the room looks very empty, except for the bed and the fireplace, Not even a decent sofa.

But for two people, this simple apartment is more than enough.Linnai didn't even have time to take off his shoes when he entered the door. The colonel pressed him against the door and kissed him. Fortunately, the sniper completely handed himself over to him. Their bodies were full of the smell of gunpowder, tar, and concrete and steel bars. Leto's lips tasted It smells like an exploded plastic tire, bitter and sour, but there is nothing more reassuring than this smell for Linnai.They were born in the war, and grew into a real person in the war. This is the essence of him and Leto.

If Leto still smelled of expensive aftershave or men's perfume, or if he still pretended to be a nobleman in a silk nightgown and piping slippers in front of Linnai, Linnai might lose interest completely.

"God, I fucking love you the way you look." Linnaeus sighed between kisses: "You don't know how sexy it was on camera when you shot me, I almost got hard."

Leto played a low smile on his lips: "So much for violence. It doesn't matter, we have a lot of time now, do you like spanking or strangulation? Do you want a belt? Or a horsewhip? I am willing to accompany you."

Lin Nai grabbed the hair on his forehead and pulled his head up violently, kissing it hard.It wasn't until he was out of breath that he calmed down a little.The two rubbed their foreheads against their foreheads, and Linnai had no strength at all, and was completely hung on the colonel.

"I think, before playing the game, we'd better take a shower and rest. You need to rest. Otherwise, I'm afraid I'll pass you out." Leto kissed his forehead, picked him up and walked to the bathroom .

Lin Nai did not resist, he enjoyed the feeling of being served.The Colonel carried him into the bathtub, undressed him—

"There is no hot water, so let's make do with it. In Sarajevo, only the mansions of the president and generals can provide hot water. Walter and the others are too tired, so don't bother them to come here to boil water."

Lin Nai didn't care, he took cold baths all year round, even in the cold winter of the Balkans, he didn't change this habit, he only indulged in Leito's command post for a while.He's not going to catch a cold after taking a cold shower.

Leto wanted to wipe his back, and he leaned comfortably on the bathtub and asked the colonel of the Bosnian government army to serve as his orderly: "You will be a good husband, I'm serious. Didn't the family give you an engagement?" ?”

Leto was wringing out the towel behind his back while answering vaguely: "In the early years, they really hoped that I would marry a Muslim. My father himself did not marry a Muslim, so my grandfather always had opinions on him. His old man very much hoped that I could represent him. He fulfilled the responsibilities of the family. As a result, I didn’t even convert to Islam. My grandfather announced in the early years that he would remove me from the family tree. Later, he found that I was the most promising person in the family, so he respected my opinions, including my marriage. He smiled: "I told him, help me find, what kind of woman can you find that will help me? Then I might as well find it myself."

"Why didn't you convert to Islam?"

"I was a communist for quite a while as an adult."

"Oh, I almost forgot. You are Tito's most loyal successor."

"In short, I don't want to convert, and they can't force me."

"Having a family with a multicultural background is also good. Our family is all Orthodox, but my parents left early, otherwise I would definitely be baptized as an adult. They found a godfather for me as soon as I was born."

"You were definitely raised religiously, but you still decided not to be religious?"

"Is there any use? Islam, Orthodox, Catholicism, communism, capitalism... There are so many people of different beliefs in Sarajevo - there is even a brother in our company who invites a shaman at home every New Year, and no one knows it is him What the fuck, they don't all end up on the battlefield together. When the bullet comes, it doesn't care who's behind you, it just smashes your head out. If Jesus can make the bullet bend, I'm sure The one who kneels most piously before the cross."

Leto let out a loud laugh.Such words were indeed spoken by special forces soldiers who have been fighting all the year round.

He took off his clothes and wiped his body. Linnai washed his hair and rubbed soap on his head, having a great time.Leto also let him play, and the two big men sat in the bathtub in the cold winter night and played with each other by washing each other's hair.

Linnai could clearly feel that Leto was in a good mood: "Actually, you are also afraid, right?" He pierced Leto: "If I hadn't chosen you, if I had decided to stand against you in the end, you would be very upset. Sad, right?"

Leto said calmly: "No, not only will I be sad, but I will also be heartbroken. Every morning when I see the sunrise and every evening when I see the sunset, I will feel the unrequited and piercing pain." He stared at the Lin Nai: "It's like a speculator who bet all his money on one stock, but in the end he failed miserably. What do you think will happen to him?"

Linnaeus joked: "So I'm a stock?"

Leto leaned down and kissed the foamy corner of his mouth: "You are a hope, Linnai. Embracing you is tantamount to embracing countless possibilities, but you don't make any actual promises, you only give a longing that is close to illusion, Drive me to the chase. You are the good and the cruel, the will to live and the cause of death. You are both my home and my danger."

Lin Nai could no longer control his heartbeat.No one had ever said anything like that to him, and Linnaeus didn't even know another person who could say it like that.He knew that Leto had always been good at rhetoric—this Bosnia-Herzegovina army colonel had little experience except for fighting, and he was familiar with philosophy, history, literature, and all fancy things—but what he said just now went beyond the category of "smart rhetoric". He could feel that Leto was sincere, at this moment, he was talking to Linnai with his lifelong feelings and beliefs.