Mr. Butler on the catwalk

It's the first week of August.Next week, Luo Lin will fly to Koh Samui to hold his first official catwalk in his life.And now Luo Lin is sitting in front of his newly bought computer - learning English.

Koh Samui's clear water, sandy white coconut trees and shadows must be amazingly beautiful.However, perhaps other models have the mood of going on vacation by the way, but Luo Lin's attitude is much more serious.The designer is an American no matter what, and if he can't even understand the request, he will definitely not accept it.This is the last case requested by LGM. After that, his videos, still photos and other materials will be sent to the United States to participate in the primary election immediately.At this critical moment, Luo Lin never wanted to fail.

The condition of the air conditioner in his dilapidated house is not good, Luo Lin is afraid of the heat, and will tie a small ponytail behind his head when studying.His hair has grown longer, and now it is soft and curly and close to his cheeks, making his whole temperament more gentle.When He Shiwei came to visit as usual, Luo Lin also opened the door in this casual manner, and smiled at the people outside.

Luo Lin and He Shiwei didn't mention He Shiwei's hasty escape a few days ago.The former is obtuse, the latter is a deliberate understatement.Now He Shiwei is standing in the corridor carrying a large bag of fruits and vegetables, and what he is implementing is what he calls a "gentle capture policy."

However, this policy seems to have no effect so far.

These few days, He Shiwei has often come to Luo Lin's place to grab a meal under the excuse of "cooking by yourself is not delicious", "cooking by yourself is not nutritious", "cooking by yourself is lonely" and other non-technical excuses.A person like Luo Lin who takes serving others as his own responsibility will naturally have no objections, so He Shiwei will come here every day as a matter of course, and every time he visits, he will brazenly bring the ingredients he wants to taste.The two of them have been living happily together for a few days. Although the love for fellow countrymen has reached a new level, the substantial progress is——

Absolutely not.

He Shiwei sometimes wants to vomit blood secretly.How dull should Luo Lin be?His dignified boss of the company came to Luo Lin's desk with a cup of coffee under the watchful eyes of everyone. Luo Lin just smiled and said thank you, and didn't go into the deep meaning of his actions at all, and just went on to prepare his own style first. Take courses.He Shiwei couldn't just stay by Luo Lin's side all the time, and in the end he could only walk back to the office resentfully.

Luo Lin is really different from the women He Shiwei has ever met - and also different from men.Boss He can only gradually thicken his face. Whenever Luo Lin comes to his office to report, he will take the opportunity to eat a handful of tofu: for example, hug his shoulders, pat his waist, and occasionally push that when he is tired, he will collapse on Luo Lin. On Lin - just like this, Luo Lin still had a pair of clear eyes, completely shielding his ulterior motives.He Shiwei was really helpless in this situation.

But these are small things.Last time, Zhang Yishan moved lightly in front of him, and seemingly casually said: "Tsk, my dear good brother, do you want to play with Xiao Luoluo for real this time?"

Seeing his sharp eyes, He Shiwei could only stop him with a sentence of "It's none of your business".

Zhang Yishan sighed, but put aside his teasing intentions, lowered his voice and said, "Look for yourself, don't go too far. Last time Cui Shinian was involved in so much, and your father is not someone to be fooled... Do you want me to help you talk to him?"

He Shiwei's head began to ache: "Wait a little longer...let me see again."

Zhang Yishan glanced at He Shiwei again, turned around and left without saying anything.

... He Shiwei's father, He Zhanyan, was considered a front-line figure in the business world ten years ago.Now retreating behind the scenes, the iron-fisted style of doing things has also remained the same.The old man had been a soldier before, and he was very vigorous and decisive in his actions, and he was a man of one word.If He Shiwei immediately leaned in front of his father and said "Dad, I have a crush on a man and want to live with him"...

Will be beaten to death.

Zhang Yishan's reminder is not without reason.The most critical question now is nothing more than "how serious" He Shiwei is.If many things are just a play on the spot, everyone just laughs at the end. After the game is over, you can stop talking about it.But "playing" with Luo Lin? ... unimaginable.

He Shiwei felt that everything was blocked, so he sat quietly in the office for a whole day, and finally moved towards Luo Lin's house slowly when he was about to leave work.

...But leaving aside some serious and heavy topics, just getting along with Luo Lin is really peaceful and happy.

Now Luo Lin is busy in the kitchen, going through the fruits and vegetables that He Shiwei bought one by one.He Shiwei mentioned to him to eat tomato and winter melon soup, saying that this kind of light food is easy to eat in summer.After turning the paper bag upside down, Luo Lin still couldn't find the shadow of the tomato.

"Brother He?" Luo Lin called out to He Shi who was outside the kitchen, "The tomatoes are gone, why don't we make do with other things?"

"Ah, it's okay, I'll just go downstairs and buy it now. Is there a supermarket near you?"

"Turn left when you go out, and you will see a supermarket selling vegetables when you keep walking."

"En, I understand." He Shiwei raised his hand at Luo Lin and went out again.

Luo Lin wore an apron and was busy in front of the stove alone, shredding green peppers and potatoes, and defrosting beef.Not long after he was busy, he heard knocking on the door again, so he wiped his hands on the apron, and went to the living room to open the door.

He thought it was He Shiwei who forgot to take his wallet, and he was smiling when he opened the door.When he saw the person outside the door, he could only subconsciously stop laughing and put on a dazed expression.

Duan Fei was standing outside the door, wearing a black satin shirt and beige linen trousers, with a dark purple silk scarf tied around his collar.His hair has been trimmed and smooth, which is exactly what a successful person looks like.However, Duan Fei's expression was still tense, his childish face didn't match the clothes.

With one hand still on the door, Luo Lin hesitated for a while whether to close the door immediately.Feeling that was still inappropriate, Luo Lin sighed and asked, "Is there something wrong?"

Duan Fei licked his lips and said hesitantly:

"Then what...you, are you okay?"

Luo Lin moved his eyes away from him, replied "It's okay", and said: "If there is nothing else, I have other things to be busy, so I won't send it off."

With that said, he closed the door.

Duan Fei looked really anxious, clenched his fists, raised his foot and stuck his shoe between the cracks in the door.Seeing that his eyes were red with anxiety, Luo Lin could only relax and said, "If you have something to say, tell me quickly... It's not good for the neighbors to see you like this."

Duan Fei let go of his fist, put one hand on the door and the other hand against the wall, and opened the door again with all his strength.Feeling helpless, Luo Lin shook his head, but let him go instead.Duan Fei squeezed into the room, looked around at the furnishings of the room, just about to open his mouth, but didn't know where to bring up so many things he wanted to say.

Luo Lin put one hand on his waist, and rested his other on his forehead.After waiting for a long time, he suddenly heard Duan Fei say, "I'm going abroad."

"En?" Luo Lin felt a little surprised and raised his head.

Duan Fei lowered his head, a bit regretful that he suddenly jumped to this topic that should be the last one, but he continued to talk nonchalantly: "I'm going abroad next month...to go to university. The doctor said , if I want to get you back, I have to turn myself into a... good person first."

Luo Lin lowered his eyes to such a speech, but did not give any response.

"I know it's impossible to make you believe me again. But I really want to become the Duan Fei you like... I have been to psychotherapy, really, I, I have learned how to control my emotions Temper, how to talk to people well..."

Duan Fei's tone was a little hasty, as if he wanted to prove his hard work urgently, but in the end he just lowered his head, covered his eyes with his hands, and his voice sank.

"...I know I'm not good enough... I've done a lot of wrong things... Now I'm standing with you like this, I don't know what to say to make you not angry, I'm not that smart..."

Duan Fei's voice choked for a moment, and finally continued:

"I came here just to ask, can you wait for me? Can you wait for me a little longer, until I become a good person...can you give me some more time..."

Looking at his trembling hands, Luo Lin suddenly felt sad.He was silent for a while, and replied: "But... I have no reason to wait for you. I don't love you anymore, Duan Fei. I'm already tired."

After hearing this sentence, Duan Fei rolled his Adam's apple, opened and closed his lips silently, and finally said after a long while: "It's okay... It's okay if you don't love me, I will still do what I should do... "

He repeated the sentence again as if to comfort himself, then met Luo Lin's eyes, and said that sentence in a low voice: "I don't know if I told you before...but, I, I love you."

Luo Lin's eyes widened suddenly, he let out an unnatural breath, and could only turn his head to the side.He wondered why he was still shocked when he heard this sentence, although his heart was ashamed.

Duan Fei wanted to comfort himself with a smile, but it didn't look natural at all, his eyebrows furrowed slightly, looking very pitiful and sad.

"...Yes, it doesn't matter if you don't love me...It's okay if you don't forgive me...I love you, just love you..."

The sentences are almost inaudible by the end.

... Duan Fei rehearsed what he was going to say many times before coming here, and the doctor also made a cheat sheet for him with the medical content that needed to be explained.He deliberately bought a set of formal clothes that Luo Lin would also like, wanting to show that he is different from the past.He thought that he should not be so fragile, even if Luo Lin didn't want to listen to his explanation, he should be strong enough to keep talking.

He was wrong.

He may be able to persist in facing Luo Lin's cold face, but Luo Lin's unremarkable "I don't love" can really crush his heart.

He thought, it turned out that the pain Luo Lin had experienced before was actually like this.

Duan Fei suddenly felt ridiculous.This is definitely God's retribution for him-self-inflicted, he can't live.

If he had the brains to stop trying to save Luo Lin now, perhaps the torment would be less.Duan Fei is not completely irrational, but he knows that he can only continue these stupid behaviors.

It might hurt him to pester Luo Lin.Give up Luo Lin, he will die.

When a person becomes the sustenance of almost all your emotions, your behavior is no longer under your control.

Duan Fei looked at Luo Lin as if he had made up his mind not to look at him anymore, and the corner of his mouth still tried his best to raise an arc, so as not to look so embarrassed: "That's it... I'll go first..."

Duan Fei took one last look at Luo Lin, then turned around.

"……goodbye."

When stepping out the door, Duan Fei suddenly heard a soft voice calling from behind: "You..."

Duan Fei turned around.Luo Lin still didn't look at him, just put his hand on the side of his face, and said hesitantly: "...Come on."

When Duan Fei heard that sentence, his dejected face suddenly became radiant, and he answered "Yes" in a hoarse voice.

……

"YEEEEEEEEES!!!"

Duan Fei ran out of Luo Lin's apartment, clenching his fists all the way, with an expression of ecstasy that he had never seen before.

The words Luo Lin gave him were like a prisoner who was scheduled to be executed tomorrow and suddenly received a one-year probation period—as long as he is still alive, there is hope.

Duan Fei stood on the side of the street and let out a long breath, and found that he was so excited that tears were in his eyes.

"I'm really worthless too..." Duan Fei said to himself, but in the end he couldn't help being happy, he squatted down, buried his head in his arms and smiled silly.

He was so excited that he ran all the way over without even noticing that he passed by He Shiwei.

...He Shiwei stopped on the stairs, with an expressionless face, facing the direction Duan Fei was leaving coldly.

That day, He Shiwei tasted Luo Lin's soup with several times more salt for the first time.The docile man seemed absent-minded, pacing back and forth between the dining room and the kitchen, busy fixing his cooking mistakes.In the end, because of getting more and more panicked and busy, Luo Lin stumbled on the sole of his foot and almost broke the bowl.

He Shiwei silently helped him up from the side, took the bowl out of Luo Lin's hand, and put it back on the table.

"... Just eat like this, don't be busy."

Luo Lin sat down awkwardly, and moved his chopsticks awkwardly.He Shiwei controlled his expression, and ate all the food and soup without saying a word.Luo Lin was in a hurry to wash the dishes, while He Shiwei was still sitting at the dining table.He stroked the position where Luo Lin was sitting just now with his hand, and there was something indescribable in his eyes.