Mr. Butler on the catwalk

31-year-old Luo Lin has a secret.

That is, he is still a virgin.

Luo Lin himself didn't know why he was reduced to this state. At the age of 30, he failed to live up to his good looks and figure. It's okay to remain single from the beginning to the end. Now he has a lover who has been with him for more than a year, and he still maintains this state...

He was really, really an able-bodied man.

To be honest, Luo Lin couldn't be blamed for this.His lover who was eight years younger than him was a recovering leukemia patient, and the two officially started their relationship in the hospital.It was a matter of life and death, and everyone might be gone, so how could there be any interest in having sex.Later, his lover Duan Fei was discharged from the hospital, and had been in a state of careful recuperation for half a year, even a small infection could make people fall down again.Luo Lin is considerate by nature, and devotes himself to taking care of his lover. In addition, he is busy with his job as a model, so he has no time to make further progress in love.

Then, Duan Feihao was almost done.If two people get tired of being together every day, they will definitely take the last step in a few weeks.However, Duan Fei chose to go to the United States to continue his university studies. The two separated from each other in the Pacific Ocean, and the time for intimacy was naturally reduced.

In fact, the week before Duan Fei went to the United States, the two of them almost crossed that line.At that time, Luo Lin was lying on the bed, his shirt buttons were all unbuttoned, and even the zippers of his trousers were pulled down.Duan Fei straddled Luo Lin, raised his hand and threw the long-sleeved shirt on the ground, and was about to bend down to kiss Luo Lin's neck, something bad happened.

Duan Fei had a nosebleed.

It might be an embarrassing thing to change someone else, but Duan Fei has a history of leukemia, and the sudden mucous membrane bleeding made both of them "click" at the same time, and they immediately softened.The ambiguous atmosphere dissipated in an instant. Thinking of the possibility of relapse, Luo Lin straightened up his clothes, sat up and started calling the hospital.

The inspection report came out two days later, nothing major, except that Duan Fei's fragile nasal mucosa could not hold up in the room with overheated floor heating.Luo Lin heaved a sigh of relief. During the two days he waited for the news, he never let go of his heart. Fortunately, it was a false alarm.

After all, leukemia is no different than others, and only after three years can it be said that a person is temporarily saved.

The two people who had been tossed about again walked back and forth after leaving the hospital, with a long distance between them, because they didn't drive and were afraid of being photographed by the paparazzi.As a result, when passing a certain green park, Duan Fei couldn't hold back, and went forward to hold Luo Lin's hand.It was the coldest time in mid-January, and both of them wore scarves, hats and sunglasses. When kissing, these clothes covered their faces, and it was impossible to tell who was who from the side.After returning to Luo Lin's apartment, when Duan Fei took off his coat, he found Luo Lin staring blankly at his face, wondering why he was in a daze.

They are all grown men in their 30s, why do they still have such innocent eyes.Duan Fei thought so, walked towards Luo Lin, raised his hand and tapped the other person's forehead.

Luo Lin finally came back to his senses, raised the corners of his mouth and smiled.There was a mixture of happiness and bitterness in that smile, and it could be interpreted in one sentence - it's great that you're fine.

Duan Fei was moved by Luo Lin's wordless expression every time, but he was too clumsy to respond.That night, Duan Ying went to participate in the study tour winter camp and did not return home, so Duan Fei rarely stayed overnight at Luo Lin's house.At that time, Duan Fei should have thought about what was going to happen, but it turned out that the whole experience was more tiring than he imagined. That night, he hugged Luo Lin from behind while kissing the back of Luo Lin's neck, One side fell asleep.

The two woke up almost at the same time.I don't know if Duan Fei is still a little confused, he squinted his eyes and smiled, and said good morning to Luo Lin in a hoarse voice.That warm smile almost made Luo Lin think of a little angel—something completely out of touch with Duan Fei's personality.However, after Duan Fei realized that it was dawn, his face became very ugly.

Luo Lin thought something was wrong, but God knows Duan Fei was gnashing his teeth. It was the last night he could spend together before he left, but nothing happened between him and Luo Lin.

After a day, Luo Lin and Duan Fei bid farewell at the airport.It's always better to keep a low profile in this kind of place, the two of them can't even kiss, so Duan Fei can only pull up his luggage and go to the security check.

He has been away for more than a year.

Luo Lin has nothing to worry about long-distance love.He was originally a trapeze man, and he had a lot of time to go to New York. If he caught up with the schedule, he could meet with Duan Fei once a month or so.If it were another couple, they might be worried about the other party cheating, but Luo Lin felt that the two of them had passed through life and death, so it was naturally difficult to be separated by anything.

Duan Fei had the same thought as Luo Lin when he left.It's a pity that people's calculations are not as good as heaven's calculations. Duan Fei spent most of his time abroad alone, and his mentality slowly changed.

He didn't cheat.He even said that in order to show his loyalty, he cut off contact with all women.

... Later Luo Lin teased him and said that he should have ignored the man at that time.Duan Fei could only laugh dryly, unable to answer.He has never been interested in men other than Luo Lin in his whole life, and he has no way to sum up his sexuality.And when he went back to New York, he simply hid the woman as a monster, for fear that Luo Lin would suddenly come to him one day and see him with a woman and cause a misunderstanding.

What is more terrifying than this extreme display of loyalty is that Duan Fei is afraid.There are many reasons for this fear, but in the final analysis it is still the same thing.

He was afraid that Luo Lin would leave him.

The fear came almost out of the blue.

Originally, he could still keep his own pace. Although he thought about Luo Lin from time to time, seeing the other party's text message or receiving a phone call would dispel the anxiety he had accumulated.No matter how busy Luo Lin is at work, he will keep in touch with him. In order to maintain his true nature of keeping few words and few words, Duan Fei sometimes even bears the pain to be the one who ends the call first.At that time, Luo Lin would subconsciously apologize, and said with a smile that he took up his precious study time again, so he should not forget to rest.

Every time Duan Fei heard those words, he wanted to slap himself a few times.By the time he hangs up the phone, he often feels empty.He is not a sentimental person, so I can only guess that it is a feeling of loneliness.

Lonely is lonely. Duan Fei also lived alone in the past, so he simply started reading.He was very dissatisfied with the fact that he had become an older college student, and every time he went to listen to the lecture with a dark face, and then began to take notes with great force on his laptop.At first, the professors and classmates were a little afraid of him, but later they all kindly called Duan Fei "King of notes at the front row", which translates to the king of notes sitting in the front row.

Before the test, someone had the guts to ask Duan Fei to borrow notes. Duan Fei was too lazy to respond one by one, so he simply printed out more than a dozen copies, and whoever asked would throw them to whomever they asked, so as to save the politeness.His demeanor inexplicably increased his popularity, and he even got closer to his classmates.

Then that day he was dragged out to eat with a group of classmates who were several years younger than him, and there were several girls who kept chirping in the group, which made his face so dark that water dripped out.

Then, seeing this group of girls chatting excitedly, he threw a copy of Cosmopolitan out of his bag and started talking about masculinity.

Then, the group of people talked about Luo Lin.

Duan Fei has never really felt how popular Luo Lin is.He didn't go after Luo Lin's photos, and he didn't search for Luo Lin's name on the Internet. At most, he just watched Luo Lin's interviews on TV.

He subconsciously avoided these things.So it wasn't until that day that Duan Fei realized what the reason for his avoidance was.

... He knew that Luo Lin liked his job, and whenever he mentioned it occasionally, there would be a special look in his eyes, which made Duan Fei very fond of it.He knew that Luo Lin was an excellent model, he was so serious and talented, he deserved to be recognized by many people.

He should be happy about Luo Lin's popularity.

But when he saw a group of people who had nothing to do with Luo Lin say "Oh my God, I really love him to death" in an excited tone, Duan Fei suddenly felt his heart sink.

On the double page of the magazine, Luo Lin was topless, with his head raised and his eyes squinted.His bare skin seemed to have been oiled, and his whole body had become wheat-colored, glowing against the black background.Several girls pointed their fingers at Luo Lin's chest, all the way down, turning around on the mermaid line, and stopped at Luo Lin's lower body.

The girls laughed badly, and there was something in that smile that they both knew.

Duan Fei slowly clenched the glass water glass, then slowly let go, telling everyone that he suddenly remembered something urgent and had to leave.

A group of people said "Hey" twice, and Duan Fei had already left before he could make a sound to persuade him to stay.

... Duan Fei dropped a glass in the rented apartment that night.At that time, his unprovoked anger was on the verge of exploding, and he wanted to throw something badly.Just thinking that Luo Lin has always disliked such a tyrannical part of him, he could only try his best not to do anything.However, he was so angry that his hands were shaking, and when he was holding the water glass, the water glass simply slipped off, and it cracked into several pieces on the ground.

Duan Fei stared at the debris, not even in the mood to clean it.

After that, he sat in front of the computer all night, and finally made up what he hadn't done before.He searched Luo Lin's news, photos, other people's comments on the forum, and topics related to Luo Lin on various platforms.

He watched Luo Lin's name being mentioned countless times.Most of the time, the content related to this word is positive, seriousness, hard work, talent, gentleness, and then the spokesperson will draw conclusions too easily-"like him", "love him".Some people even wrote long love letters on the Internet, and the choice of words and sentences made Duan Fei want to vomit.However, Duan Fei didn't even know about the many details related to Luo Lin mentioned in it; this group of people wrote down every conversation Luo Lin made in public, and recited it like a Bible. What an obsession.There were also negative content. Some photos of Luo Lin's past were turned up, and he was maliciously speculated that he became a man who sold his body to the same sex.In these inferior conjectures, they arbitrarily put obscene scenes on Luo Lin, and some people even said, ah, although I know that Luo Lin is such a guy, but I also want to taste him.Even if he was a man, looking at that face, it must have been nice to fuck.

Duan Fei couldn't describe how he felt when he saw that sentence.

He stared at that line of words, just wanted to tear the person who posted the post from behind the screen, put his fist into the person's mouth, and then pressed his fist against the wall so hard that the back of the person's head would crack and blood flow out. White pulp comes.

It's like a treasure that I have cherished for more than ten years, and it is seen by everyone overnight.Some people want to put it on the altar, some people want to throw it in the mud, but the result is the same, they all want to take it away from him.

Regarding the latter, Duan Fei was almost murderous.For the former, Duan Fei actually has indescribable, unimaginable jealousy.

He clearly knew that those people had nothing to do with Luo Lin's life, but he couldn't help but want them to disappear completely from Luo Lin's world.

...If only Luo Lin belonged to him alone.Only put it where you can see it, and it is only good for yourself.

This thought made Duan Fei terrified.He also knows that there is an extremely extreme side in his character, tyrannical, rude, dark, and a terrible desire to control.Luo Lin doesn't like him like this, so he must not let Luo Lin find out.

Luo Lin called him the next morning.Duan Fei didn't answer.He sat on the bed and stared at the screen of his mobile phone, watching Luo Lin's name light up and then dim, and buried his head in his bent knees.

Luo Lin didn't know what happened to Duan Fei.Since Duan Fei went to the United States, the atmosphere between the two of them was still the same when Luo Lin visited for the first time, but their way of getting along gradually changed after that.

Duan Fei had fewer and fewer contacts, and occasionally Luo Lin would not answer the phone calls he made.Such situations became frequent, and Luo Lin gradually felt that something was wrong.When Luo Lin went to visit for the second time, he didn't show it on the surface, but his heart was very heavy, and he even prepared for the worst.

It was April, Luo Lin flew over from Europe, and the time of landing was early in the morning, but he landed almost an hour earlier.Luo Lin was ready to go to the city by himself, but when he got to the exit, Duan Fei was already waiting there.

Duan Fei still likes him, Luo Lin suddenly became so convinced when he saw Duan Fei.When he saw him, Duan Fei's eyes lit up instantly, just like every time they met before.However, the brilliance immediately dimmed, making Luo Lin feel heavy.

The time they spent together that time was very short, and Duan Fei was uncharacteristically silent.Luo Lin felt uneasy at first, but Duan Fei became more considerate in his demeanor.When going to the airport, Fei brought him breakfast, prepared blankets and pillows for him to rest in the car, arranged the itinerary early in the morning, and took him to a private and tasteful restaurant.Luo Lin couldn't think of a clue, since Duan Fei didn't want to talk, he stayed with him and said nothing.After staying like this for two days, Luo Lin had to go out to meet friends.

Although Luo Lin is already a regular visitor to New York, there are always some people who are too late to meet Luo Lin every time.This time I want to meet a few friends who are makeup artists. We have known each other since we were in LGM. Although they are overly enthusiastic, they are all very interesting people.Luo Lin didn't have time to say hello in the past few times, so it would be too much to refuse, so he still went to the appointment.

The circle of makeup artists is similar to the circle of models, both are crowded places.Among Luo Lin's five friends, there is actually only one straight guy, but the other four straight guys have a little ambiguous temperament.After dinner, a group of people took Luo Lin to the studio again to try on new eye makeup for him.In the end, I only painted one eye after tossing for a long time. The eyeliner is too heavy and too high. It is completely female makeup, which is very strange.

Luo Lin seldom got together with others, and accidentally forgot the time. When he came to his senses, it was almost eleven o'clock, so he quickly sent a text message to Duan Fei, saying that he was on Dongjiu Street and would go back immediately.

Duan Fei just replied: Let me pick you up, at the junction of which road?

Luo Lin sent an address to go out, after thinking about it, he said that he didn't need to pick up the phone and went back by himself, so he put down the phone and took off his makeup.After finishing the work, a group of people surrounded Luo Lin and went downstairs. The black fat man who was the leader drank too much wine, looked reluctant to part, and even kissed Luo Lin on the face when he reached the door.

Luo Lin couldn't laugh or cry. After pushing the person away, he found Duan Fei standing on the street corner with his car parked beside him.

It is quite embarrassing to be bumped into by a lover and kissed.Luo Lin walked towards Duan Fei, ready to explain.

However, there was no expression of dissatisfaction or anger on Duan Fei's face.He just looked at Luo Lin and said, after a moment of silence, he said, let's go.

Luo Lin got on the co-pilot and said, they are all friends, they just got drunk, I will pay more attention next time.

Duan Fei looked at the front and said nothing.

After thinking for a while, Luo Lin said, I'm sorry to ask you to pick me up, but next time I will go back by myself.

Duan Fei was silent for a while.The steering wheel made a bend, he turned his head to the left, and suddenly said: "...I have nothing to do. All I can do now is send you off.

In this context, this sentence can be regarded as irony.But when Duan Fei spoke seriously and slowly, Luo Lin was inexplicably sad.

... That night, the two of them lay on the same bed with half an arm's width between them. They didn't say anything and just fell asleep like that.

In April, the sky slowly began to brighten early.Luo Lin's jet lag still persisted, he woke up at three or four o'clock and never fell back asleep.However, because he was too tired, he didn't get up, just closed his eyes and fell asleep.At five o'clock, he felt that Duan Fei woke up, turned over, and hugged Luo Lin from behind, with his forehead resting on Luo Lin's neck.

Duan Fei has always liked this position. It turned out that when two people fell asleep together, he would hug Luo Lin like this.This time the two of them lay down together, but Duan Fei didn't touch him, which made Luo Lin resolve to ask the question clearly.

The sky was slowly getting brighter, Luo Lin frowned, and was about to turn over with a sigh, and ask Duan Fei what was going on recently.

However, before he moved, he felt a burst of moistness on his neck, as well as the trembling eyelashes sliding across the skin on the back of his neck.He felt Duan Fei take a heavy breath, his breath was not steady, as if he was suppressing something.

Duan Fei didn't really cry.The temperature on his arm was very hot, and he hugged Luo Lin very hard.

Luo Lin didn't say anything, and let Duan Fei hold him.This time the two of them didn't hug and kiss very well, he missed the contact with Duan Fei very much.

He felt that Duan Fei seemed sad, but he didn't know why.I can't say words of comfort now, so let's wait until dawn.

In Duan Fei's arms, Luo Lin unexpectedly fell asleep again.

However, when it was dawn, the person in front of him became silent again, treating him cautiously, but keeping a distance.

Luo Lin could only be dumbfounded, wondering if he had a dream.

...The four-day vacation is over, and Luo Lin is going back to China.

Duan Fei sent him to the airport, and the two hugged and said goodbye.Luo Lin turned his head in front of the security check gate, wanting to look at Duan Fei again, but he didn't find Duan Fei's shadow.

Something weighed heavily on Luo Lin's heart.After getting off the plane, Luo Lin turned on his phone, and the first text message was from Duan Fei.

"I'm not going back for summer vacation."

Luo Lin looked down at his phone, pulled his luggage and stopped in front of the arrival exit.People around him came and went and walked past him. He shouldn't be standing here in the way.

He closed his eyes, took a deep breath, put the phone back in his pocket, and continued walking.

He didn't reply and didn't know how to reply.

... The relationship between Luo Lin and Duan Fei dropped to a freezing point after a year of dating.None of them thought that after going through the hurdle of life and death, the relationship between them would come to this point inexplicably.

Luo Lin accepted a TV series.He has never done this kind of thing before. One is that he likes his job, and the other is that if he starts filming TV dramas, he will have to stay in China for a period of time. The longer the episodes and the more important the role, the more he cannot leave.

He never replied to Duan Fei's text messages.He didn't know what he did wrong, which made Duan Feihui suddenly change his attitude towards him.It is also possible that feelings are like this. After a period of time, it will naturally reach a bottleneck period. It is because I have no experience and it is rare and strange.

Maybe he should do what he did before, although he didn't understand the reason, he should admit his mistake first, comfort Duan Fei, and persuade him with kind words.

But this time he couldn't speak.Duan Fei's "I won't come back" made Luo Lin feel betrayed.

He had been looking forward to it by himself for a long time, thinking that after staying for more than a month, the two of them could finally spend a summer together, which was not easy.

For the first time, Luo Lin really left Duan Fei alone.Duan Fei sent him a few scattered text messages in the past few weeks, but Luo Lin didn't reply, and Duan Fei didn't send him any more.The filming of the TV series started at the beginning of May, and Duan Fei finally called Luo Lin.After a month, Duan Fei finally called him.

Duan Fei was silent for a long time after dialing the phone before saying a word. His voice sounded very hoarse, as if he was ill.

He said, "...we're still together, right?"

Hearing these words, Luo Lin felt a pain in his heart.The words were spoken, but there was only one word, um.

The two of them had nothing more to say.After hanging up the phone, Luo Lin sat on the chair without any strength.

……

Starting with Duan Fei, he and Luo Lin gradually regained contact.The frequency is the same as before, and the topics covered are similar.Luo Lin worked hard to look the same as usual, and Duan Fei also looked much more enthusiastic than before, looking no different from before.

But both of them tacitly avoided the topic of when will they meet next time.

It was the end of May, and Duan Fei had a holiday, but he really didn't come back.After waiting for more than a week, Luo Lin finally realized that what Duan Fei said at that time was serious.

He never gave up fantasizing that Duan Fei was just throwing a temper tantrum, and he would come back when he should come back.It turned out that he really stayed in New York and never thought of moving.

During the video that night, Luo Lin was still smiling, which was natural.He asked Duan Fei, what are your plans for staying there?Duan Fei was silent for a while, didn't look at the screen, said something, but didn't do anything.

Luo Lin stopped laughing.He wanted to speak clearly with Duan Fei, but Duan Fei waved his hand, saying that he had something to do and would be offline today.

After turning off the computer, Luo Lin sat alone at the desk, with his eyes closed and his head propped on his hands.He didn't know when it was dark, but when Duan Ying came home from school, he remembered that he hadn't cooked anything today, and when he stood up, his head was a little dizzy.Duan Ying ran to the room to look for him, put down her schoolbag and raised her head to ask him what's wrong.Facing the face similar to Duan Fei, Luo Lin couldn't say anything.

Afterwards, Luo Lin was ill for two days.In the past two days, Duan Fei sent a text message to apologize to him, but Luo Lin's cell phone was put aside, and the battery was slowly turned off, and he saw it later.

One month later is Luo Lin's birthday.The watch Duan Fei gave him arrived three days early, and there was also a beautiful card.

Luo Lin lowered his head.This gift is really delicate, but the mechanical watch is cold, and the temperature is not as good as a hug.

Then, Luo Lin's birthday, June [-]th, arrived as scheduled.He knew it was an unrealistic fantasy, but he really imagined that when he opened the door, Duan Fei would stand in front of him.

But no.He waited from day to night, and what he waited for was a call from Duan Fei.Happy birthday, Duan Fei said, don't be angry if you forget to press zero.

Luo Lin didn't speak, and said after a long time, Duan Fei, let's talk.

Duan Fei was silent for a long time, and then asked him, do you want to break up.

...Luo Lin prepared a lot of words, but Duan Fei suddenly mentioned such a sentence, which made him unable to breathe smoothly.

What he wanted to say was, Duan Fei, I don't know what's wrong between us, but I want to solve it.

It's not a breakup.

Luo Lin didn't understand why Duan Fei even thought of this word.

In the end, he could only try his best to calm his tone, and asked Duan Fei, "...do you want to?"

Duan Fei was breathing more and more heavily on the other end of the phone, and finally said tremblingly: "I don't want to."

"..."

"I don't want to, Luo Lin, I don't want to."

……

The day after Luo Lin became 32 years old, he did something that in his opinion was crazy.

He didn't bring any luggage, bought a plane ticket now, and flew to New York.

It was eight o'clock in the morning when we arrived in New York, Duan Fei should not have gone to class yet.Luo Lin came to Duan Fei's door and knocked on the door.

No one answered.Luo Lin took a deep breath and knocked hard on it.It was a loud noise that could be called a nuisance. It lasted for more than a minute, and finally someone answered the door.

Luo Lin looked at Duan Fei and smiled.The other party's expression was unbelievable, Luo Lin rolled his Adam's apple and asked him, "Aren't you going to invite me in?"

……

Duan Fei's expression was dumbfounded.Luo Lin stood in the living room pretending to be generous, but he hadn't thought of anything yet.

At the end Duan Fei asked him, why are you here.

Luo Lin said, it's my birthday, and I came here because I wanted to see you.

Duan Fei lowered his head and said, I'm sorry.

Luo Lin suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, but he still had to laugh: You don't have to say sorry, I just said it myself.

Duan Fei didn't speak.

Luo Lin looked at Duan Fei for a while, and then said to him:

"Duan Fei, give me a hug."

Duan Fei raised his head in surprise, saw Luo Lin looking at him with a smile, and said to him, "Yesterday was my birthday, so you should give me a birthday present, okay?"

Luo Lin was indeed smiling, but Duan Fei couldn't bear to watch it any longer.His hands trembled violently, Luo Lin pulled those hands over, wrapped them around behind him, and wrapped his arms around Duan Fei's shoulders.

……

The one who embraced cautiously seemed to be saying goodbye.

Realizing this, Duan Fei's mind exploded with a "buzz".Luo Lin's head was originally buried in the hollow of his neck, but he pulled it away violently, taking some distance away.

He saw the hurt expression on Luo Lin's face that couldn't be concealed, which made Duan Fei grit his teeth fiercely.Then he stretched out his hand, pressed the back of Luo Lin's head towards him, and kissed him roughly.

It was the least tender kiss between them.Duan Fei's tongue protruded into Luo Lin's mouth, and pressed against Luo Lin's tongue like an invasion, as if trying to block Luo Lin's breathing.Then the tip of the tongue swept over every inch of Luo Lin, and began to circle around Luo Lin's tongue, and after Luo Lin's breathing became short, Duan Fei bit the tip of Luo Lin's tongue violently.

The smell of blood spread.Duan Fei broke in again when Luo Lin was trembling in pain, going in and out like a rhythm, exuding violent hormones.Luo Lin was hardened already, his lower body was a hot and heavy mass, and it was pressed against Duan Fei's lower abdomen through his trousers. Because it swelled so much, he could even feel the shape of the front end.He opened his mouth as if giving up on himself, sucking Duan Fei's tongue back and forth, and even stretched out his hand, caressing Duan Fei's back frantically.

Duan Fei's sanity was taken away.His breathing had turned into a gasp. He stretched his hand from the hem of Luo Lin's jacket, and slid his thumb up through the strong waistline until he reached Luo Lin's chest, finding the two raised points.

It was just rough rubbing back and forth with fingertips, but Luo Lin could no longer hold his ground.Duan Fei took a breath, pushed Luo Lin back, and Luo Lin collapsed on the sofa.

Luo Lin looked up at Duan Fei, his eyes were moist with lust.Duan Fei leaned over and took away Luo Lin's belt.

What happened after that made sense.Duan Fei used his hands and mouth to go to Luo Lin first, then pulled Luo Lin to the bed in the bedroom, lubricated with the liquid that Luo Lin ejaculated, and pierced him viciously.Seeing blood between going in and out, Luo Lin raised his arm in pain to cover his face.

The rhythm was going on violently, but suddenly, the strength that almost pierced Luo Lin disappeared.Duan Fei stopped, put down Luo Lin's legs on his shoulders, and then slowly left Luo Lin's body.The thing running through Luo Lin caused extreme pain when it left completely, which caused Luo Lin to close his eyes tightly, tilt his head back, and clenched his teeth.He took a few breaths, and finally he was able to put his hands down, and then opened his eyes to look at Duan Fei who was leaning over him.

Duan Fei suddenly seemed to lose his strength.He lowered his head, propped one hand on Luo Lin's side, raised the other carefully, and stroked Luo Lin's heart with his fingertips.

Luo Lin's chest rose and fell due to breathing.Duan Fei rested his forehead on it, and stopped moving his hands.

His voice was muffled.Luo Lin heard him ask:

"...This isn't the last time, is it?"

Luo Lin's lower body was still in a numb and dull pain, and he didn't have enough time to analyze the meaning of his words.

Duan Fei's voice began to tremble:

"You didn't come to break up with me, did you?"

Luo Lin finally came to his senses, breathing was still painful, so he could only raise his hand slightly and put it in Duan Fei's hair.

"I said... I said I don't want to break up with you..."

The skin was so hot after experiencing the passion, and the tears fell on the chest, and it seemed cold.Luo Lin's boiling mind slowly cooled down. He wanted to raise Duan Fei's head, but Duan Fei stubbornly didn't want to be seen with this embarrassing expression.

Luo Lin's voice became hoarse from being pierced.He gently combed Duan Fei's hair between his fingers, and asked him, "What's wrong with you?"

Duan Fei's voice was choked for a while, and he didn't answer, but asked Luo Lin instead: "Why did you come to find me?"

Luo Lin's mind was a little blank, and the previous intense sex made him feel lost.Without any hesitation, he said directly: "...I miss you."

This sentence is usually difficult to utter, but now Luo Lin feels it is very natural.He tugged at Duan Fei's hair, and said in a low voice, "Are you saying you are still human... I don't come back for my birthday. What did I do to make you hate me so much? You ignored me and didn't want to break up with me. In the end And forced me to post it upside down."

Duan Fei didn't respond, and stretched out his bracelet around Luo Lin's waist, hugging him tightly.

Luo Lin said softly, like a sigh: "I hate you to death."

Duan Fei hugged Luo Lin for a long time, and finally raised his head.His face was wet, and he cautiously approached Luo Lin and kissed him wetly.

Looking at Duan Fei's uneasy expression in front of him, Luo Lin suddenly felt a little funny for some reason.

This person's previous coffin face was definitely faked.Now this face is finally considered to be in his 20s.

The violent and gloomy things on Duan Fei finally dissipated slowly.He bent over Luo Lin, pressed against Luo Lin's heart quietly, and said in a hoarse voice, "Luo Lin, I like you."

There was a deep resonance in Luo Lin's chest, and he really smiled: "I know."

Duan Fei seemed to live back more and more, took a deep breath, and could only apologize foolishly and said, "Don't blame me."

Luo Lin breathed out, and said helplessly, "I don't blame you. But can you change your posture and speak, you are such a big person, it makes my chest tight."

Duan Fei didn't understand the peaceful atmosphere on Luo Lin.He always felt that things were messed up by him, but Luo Lin's mood didn't seem to be like this.

He got up from Luo Lin, and Luo Lin also sat up.Luo Lin's lower body would still be painful if he was stressed, so he turned over and lay down on the bed, wrapping his waist down with a sheet.

"Tell me, what's going on?"

Luo Lin almost looked at him with laissez-faire eyes.Duan Fei suddenly understood the age difference between them, and finally showed it in this way.

When he was having trouble with himself alone, Luo Lin was able to let go of his self-esteem and tolerate him almost connivingly.

This made him feel even more ashamed, so he could only sit on the bed with his head down, and obediently admit his mistake to Luo Lin.

...Duan Fei explained the meaning of "death" by setting an example.

After clearly realizing Luo Lin's popularity, Duan Fei's jealousy got out of hand.The emotion burned him for a few days before turning into downright restlessness by the end.

Luo Lin was always by his side when he was recuperating in the hospital, and the time outside of work was unsurprisingly occupied by him.However, now that the two of them spend less time meeting each other, Duan Fei felt that he was suffering from paranoia. He couldn't help but wonder who Luo Lin was with, what he was doing, what he was saying, and what expression he was showing.

Although he knew that Luo Lin's character would never empathize with others, Duan Fei still couldn't control his possessive desire.He had always been a bad-tempered person before, and he knew that he could not blame Luo Lin for contacting others, but there was still a voice in his heart that wanted to move, and he couldn't help but want to vent his anger on Luo Lin.

It was because of this problem that he forced Luo Lin away from him before.Duan Fei felt that his appearance was extremely ugly, and he was afraid that Luo Lin would discover his inclination, and then lose heart again and leave him.

He wanted to suppress this emotion, but he couldn't. Every time before revealing his secrets, he could only hastily cut off contact with Luo Lin, for fear that Luo Lin would find out.

However, this method naturally slowly pushed Luo Lin away.He is not a fool, and he can feel it naturally.In the end, Duan Fei stayed alone in the apartment, feeling like a complete loser.

The negative cycle reached the extreme, and he completely fell into the vicious circle of self-loathing.

Speaking of which, there is nothing about him that Luo Lin likes.He doesn't know how to love people, he doesn't know how to treat people well, and he can't even speak clearly.He is not an interesting person, not only does he have no career of his own, but his personality can also be said to be bad... From this point of view, Luo Lin