back to innocence

Fei Yizhen hadn't figured out who to give Ling Dang'er's poster to, but the little "first love" came to the door, which gave him the illusion that the other party was actually coming to ask for the poster.

Fei Yizhen's first love was a boy in the same school and class as him, and he was a close friend, and the last memory of getting along with him was the summer vacation of this year.

Then he quickly SAYBYE-BYE with each other.

I really miss it now.

He opened the door and let the other party in, sniffed slightly, disliked the sour smell of sweat all over the other party's body, then threw him a towel and said, "Go and wash your face!"

Liang Qing always felt that Fei Yi really disliked him these few months, and he didn't go to his house to play, and he didn't go out to play together. He couldn't help but wonder if he shaved his bald head too hard when he was playing a while ago, making Fei Yi I really hated him, so I ignored him.

So he wasn't unhappy when he was dismissed when he entered the door. He obediently ran to the bathroom to wash his face. When he came out, he saw Fei Yizhen walking towards him with a blank face and smashing a roll of posters into his arms.

Liang Qing inexplicably opened the poster and saw that it was the poster of the dress of Bell, who was very popular on TV. He was surprised and asked, "Where did you get it!?"

Fei Yizhen raised his eyebrows, opened a bottle of iced Coke and drank it, and then replied unceremoniously to Liang Qing: "You don't care where I come from."

He didn't want to explain to Liang Qing how he saved Ling Dang'er as a hero, nor did he want to tell Liang Qing how he met Ling Dang'er in the publishing house, because the other party would be very excited to ask about Ling Dang'er, even He wanted to meet a little girl—and Fei Yizhen couldn't empathize with his excitement, nor was he happy to be the middleman.

He now feels that it is not clear whether there is a generation gap between him and a 12-year-old boy, but it is true that he has nothing in common with straight men no matter how old they are.

Liang Qing looked at the Coke he had opened, and asked, "Where's mine?"

Fei Yizhen said coldly: "No, you can go back with the poster."

Liang Qing said: "You are too ruthless."

Then, he did something completely unexpected to Fei Yizhen - he grasped Fei Yizhen's hand holding the bottle, brought the mouth of the bottle to his mouth, and took a sip of iced Coke.

— an indirect kiss.

Fei Yi really hated himself for thinking of this word.

He was stunned for five or six seconds, then he handed the bottle directly to Liang Qing, and said to him, "Drink it! I don't want it anymore!"

Liang Qing was stunned for a moment, and said, "Hey! Do you despise me so much?"

Fei Yizhen said: "No, it's just that I'm not used to drinking what other people have drunk."

What he said was actually a bit too arrogant and disgusting, but Liang Qing had a rare thoughtful time, and he could hear loneliness and hurt from it.

He asked, "Yizhen, what's wrong with you? I always feel that something is wrong with you recently. If I did something wrong, you can tell me directly, and I will apologize if it is my fault! If you are a man, please be straightforward and don't act like a woman." Twitching like a child!"

Fei Yizhen hated others saying that he was not a man - when he was young, he couldn't tell the difference between homosexuality and sissy, he was very sensitive to this kind of thing. He was afraid that people would say that he acted effeminate, and then they would see that he was a homosexual.

Although there were no more misunderstandings like this later, the habit of hating "sissy" remained, and now hearing Liang Qing speak like this, he couldn't help frowning.

He moved his face closer to Liang Qing, so close that his breath hit the other's face, then suddenly laughed, and said softly: "Do you really know what a man is?"

Liang Qing opened his eyes wide.

Fei Yizhen is very handsome, this is a fact recognized by all the students.But Liang Qing had never seen him at such a close distance.

The big eyes slightly turned up at the corners of the eyes, the white and soft cheeks, and the slightly raised corners of the lips are the most arrogant, but very beautiful.

Then Liang Qing felt something soft sticking to his lips.

He looked close at hand, Fei Yizhen's big black and white eyes, and it took a few seconds before he realized that it should be Fei Yizhen's lips that were sticking to his lips.

He felt as if he had been fixed, and he couldn't even move his fingertips.

Then Fei Yizhen turned his face away and whispered in his ear: "Do you know what this is?"

Liang Qing didn't know how to answer at all.

Fei Yizhen didn't need his answer, he just continued in a calm tone: "This is called kissing, normal boys would only do this to girls. But I never want to do this to girls, but only to boys Do."

"Because I'm gay, pervert," he said.

Liang Qing was dragged to the door by him, and then pushed out.Fei Yizhen stood in the door and said to him solemnly: "Don't come to me again, and don't talk to me. Unless you want to become a pervert."

For children of this age, abnormal is really the most serious and cruel word.

Fei Yizhen molested his little bamboo horse, took advantage of him, stole his first kiss, and then kicked the other party out of the house, but he didn't even have any guilt in his heart.

He joked to himself: Fei Yizhen, you have been a bad person since you were a child.

Then he returned to the room with a smile, picked up a pen and drew the characters for the next article.

Fei Yi really felt from the bottom of his heart that if he had to make a decision sooner or later, it would be better to be clean and tidy.Liang Qing was his first love when he was a teenager. Even in the end, he didn't even feel the other person's appearance as a stranger, but there was always a place in his heart that remembered the clean, beautiful and unreserved feelings back then.

He thought: If they could stop their memory of each other at this moment, it would be an extremely beautiful ending.

When Liang Qing returned home, he spent the whole afternoon in a daze, even eating the most hated celery without realizing it.

He was not even in the mood to watch TV, he lay down on his bed with the light on, opened the signed poster of Jingle Bell and looked at it for a while, only to have a hallucination——

The face of Ling Dang'er on the poster turned into Fei Yizhen's last face with a subtle smile in an instant, causing Liang Qing's heart to skip a beat.

He spread himself flat on the bed, no longer in the mood to look at any posters, but began to recall what Fei Yizhen had said.

He said he was a pervert—a pervert who didn't like girls but liked boys, how could he say such a thing with a smile?Liang Qing moved his fingers to his lips, recalling the kiss that could hardly be called a kiss, the soft touch of Fei Yizhen's lips made him blush for some reason.

Fei Yi really likes boys!Liang Qing thought, he was indeed prettier than most of the girls in the school, so did he like others the same way girls like boys?

A thought floated in Liang Qing's mind that if he said it, Fei Yizhen would definitely beat him to death, and once this thought arose, he couldn't suppress it at all.And Liang Qing even made a symbolic resistance before giving up.

He knew that what happened during the day could not be told, and he would become a pervert if he said it.Teenagers are unimaginably cruel to things they don't understand. If this matter is exposed, Fei Yizhen will be rejected and bullied by everyone.

Thinking of this, Liang Qing became anxious.

However, he still has a question - he knew from a young age that a man who likes a man is considered a pervert, but it was the first time he had such a question since he was a child: Why is homosexuality a pervert?

He thought of Fei Yizhen's expression - after half the summer vacation, Fei Yizhen was very direct and straightforward today, he looked so gloomy the few times we met before - but it didn't become any more strange.

He didn't wear weird lipstick, speak in a strange voice, raise his orchid fingers, put on a skirt...he just kissed him.

Liang Qing didn't dislike Fei Yizhen kissing him.

That night, Liang Qing, who had always slept first-class, had a rare dream.

In the dream, he and Fei Yizhen seemed to have grown up a lot. His height was close to that of an adult, wearing jeans and a white shirt, and carrying a backpack on one shoulder.Liang Qing felt that he was very handsome in his dream, almost like those campus idols on TV. Apparently many girls also thought so, so many people gathered around him to flatter him and joke with him.

Then he met Fei Yizhen who had grown up.

After growing up, Fei Yizhen was with another person, talking while walking.He saw the other party approaching from a distance, but it looked like he didn't know him at all, and the two passed each other just like that.

Liang Qing woke up from the dream and didn't fall asleep for a long time.

He recalled the appearance of the person standing with Fei Yizhen in his dream, but he only felt that the person was tall and tall, not like a girl, but there was no specific appearance or any appearance characteristics.

Just an impression.

Lying on the bed, he unexpectedly remembered what happened when he and Fei Yizhen were in elementary school.He had already almost forgotten many things, but at this moment when he dreamed back at midnight, he suddenly remembered them all.

Compared with Liang Qing, Fei Yizhen was a quieter and well-behaved child since he was a child. He didn't like to climb trees or catch bugs.

Liang Qing still remembered that when he took Fei Yizhen back to his hometown to play, they had a quarrel, Liang Qing had really forgotten all about it, only remembered that he left Fei Yizhen and ran back home, Throw each other in a strange mountain.He was very proud of it, thinking that Fei Yi must be in a hurry, and even if he could find his way back, he would definitely be very embarrassed.

Then Fei Yizhen never came back.

When it was almost dusk, Liang Qing ran back to the mountain in panic, looking for Fei Yizhen everywhere.He didn't find the child where he left Fei Yizhen, and he panicked at that moment, thinking that if he lost Fei Yizhen, he would have no face to go home.

Later he saw Fei Yizhen sitting under the tree.

He was carrying a small backpack, holding a book in his arms, and half-closed his eyes to rest under the setting sun.

Liang Qing searched tirelessly, but he was completely calm and relaxed.

Seeing Liang Qing running back, he said triumphantly, "I knew you would definitely come back to find me."

Looking back many years later, Liang Qing seems to remember that he hugged Fei Yizhen and cried when he was very hopeless.

That bad boy - Liang Qing thought so.

He is just as bad now.

He even said something like he wanted to break up the relationship.

Liang Qing didn't sleep well that night and thought a lot.By the time he reacted, the sky had already dawned before he knew it.

When Chen Xueyan heard the doorbell ringing early in the morning, opened the door and saw Liang Qing, who had a very panda-like demeanor, she was really shocked.

She asked: "Did Ah Qing come to see Zhenzhen to play? You got up really early, have you had breakfast yet?"

Liang Qing shook his head consciously with some embarrassment, and then asked: "Is Yizhen up yet? I have something to ask him."

Chen Xueyan replied: "He has been writing and painting recently, and he goes to bed very late at night, and he probably hasn't gotten up yet. Why don't you go directly to his room and wake him up?"

Liang Qing immediately nodded vigorously and said, "Then I'll go find him!"

He ran down the stairs to the second floor, then opened the door and jumped in.

After closing the door, he saw Fei Yizhen sleeping peacefully on the bed.

He seemed to be in a deep sleep. Liang Qing sat down on the edge of the bed, cleared his throat, and when he was mentally prepared, he stretched out his hand to push him, and shouted: "Fei Yizhen! Wake up! I have something to tell you !"

As a result, Fei Yizhen turned over and turned his head to face him with the back of his head.

Liang Qing stretched out his hand even harder and began to push him, shouting in his ear: "Get up!"

Fei Yizhen opened his eyes in a daze, and seeing Liang Qing in front of him, he didn't know where he was for a moment, so he asked, "Who are you?"

Liang Qing was stunned for a moment.

He was stimulated by Fei Yizhen's question just now, and he suddenly opened his mouth and said loudly: "Fei Yizhen, you heard clearly! I will not break up with you!"

Fei Yizhen was confused for a while before he realized what Liang Qing said.He finally woke up, and said, "If you don't break up with me, are you trying to be a pervert?"

Liang Qing said, "I don't hate... being a pervert."

It was somewhat difficult for Liang Qing to accept this adjective, so he got stuck when pronouncing these two pronunciations, but he still finished the sentence.

Fei Yizhen suddenly couldn't believe his ears, and felt that he had heard it wrong."Do you really know what you're talking about?" he asked.

Liang Qing said, "Of course I know!"

Then he bent down, approached Fei Yizhen suddenly, and bit his lips.

Really "bites".

He didn't use a lot of strength with his teeth, but the way he moved could only be described as biting, not kissing.Fei Yizhen was taken aback by his behavior, pushed him away abruptly, and then became flushed.

Although he acted frivolously yesterday, Fei Yizhen was still a pure young man even if he counted the ten years before his rebirth.

Liang Qing, however, hadn't forgotten to pursue the victory, pursed his lips, showed a slightly reserved smile, and said, "Look, I know what this means."