back to innocence

The bell rang for the end of get out of class, and Ms. Wen stopped looking at Ye Zhen, walked to the door of the classroom, and said to someone, "Could you please call me Fei Yi?"

In the past two days, the students sitting by the door have heard this sentence and almost thought it was Ms. Wen's mantra.Fei Yizhen didn't have to wait for the classmate to speak, and walked over on his own initiative.

Ms. Wen's eyes were calm, but she didn't have the toughness of the previous few days, but she could speak softly: "Yizhen, it's because I love you that I bother you these days, I hope you don't hate Auntie because of it. I'm really..." Her voice was slightly choked, and she paused before continuing, "...I really like talented children, and I can't see people wasting their talents. But if you have other things you love, Don't hesitate, just do it. You are right, people can only be happy if they shine in the field they love. I love my career and I am proud of it. It is the most fortunate thing in the world .”

She thought for a while, and then gave Fei Yizhen a business card: "I give you this business card, not to force you to learn from me. It's just that if you are occasionally interested in knowing some singing skills, just call me or find me .Even if you don’t want to learn traditional singing or become a singer, you can occasionally learn some singing-related knowledge and points—even if it’s just for people around you. You have a good voice, and listening to you sing should be a happy thing , don't waste it."

In the end, she gave Fei Yizhen the small black and white cloth stage doll in her hand. The doll looked a little old and had a strange shape, so Ms. Wen blushed for a rare moment: "This... don't dislike stitches. Rough. I sewed this one myself. I used to think that if I accepted an apprentice, I would teach him everything I knew, and lead him the same way the teacher led me, so that he would know the beauty of this stage and fall in love with it. Those applause and lights... I probably will never have a chance. This is for you, don't hold it against you."

Fei Yizhen took the business card and the doll, and said, "Aunt Wen, I'm sorry."

Ms. Wen shook her head: "Don't say I'm sorry, you have nothing to be sorry for me. You are fine... I know my behavior has troubled you, but you have been very patient and endured the immaturity of a grown-up aunt. You are a Good boy."

She finally couldn't hold back the tears, but wiped them away immediately.Then she turned around and left the classroom, with her back straight and her head held high, her figure was as cold and rigid as her character, unflexible, yet stubborn enough to make people sigh.

Mr. Ye was stunned for a moment, and followed, as if he was arguing with her.Ye Zhen didn't leave, she stood there in a daze, looking at the cloth stage in Fei Yizhen's arms, and suddenly burst into tears.

Fei Yizhen looked at her for a while, then suddenly reached out and handed the puppet to Ye Zhen, and said, "Is this your thing?"

Ye Zhen shook her head vigorously, then turned around and ran away suddenly.

Fei Yizhen looked at the puppet in his hand, showing a troubled expression.

He knew that this puppet must have a special meaning to Ms. Wen and Ye Zhen's family.The stage puppets are not as crudely stitched as Ms. Ye said. In fact, although the stitches are not very neat, they are very fine. It can be seen that the sewing people have spent 120 minutes of thought.

A thought popped into his mind.

This puppet must have been made for Ye Zhen, and Ms. Wen must have loved her daughter very much, so she made this puppet herself.She should have hoped that Ye Zhen would be happy, but unexpectedly, it made her unhappy instead.

Ms. Wen has already stated that she will not come to look for her, and the matter of the Ye family has nothing to do with Fei Yizhen.Fei Yizhen should have felt relieved, but he still felt that his heart was covered with a layer of haze.

This kind of haze blinded him all night, and even the quality of the manuscript was low. In the end, he had to lie down and sleep early.

When he was sleeping, he had many dreams one after another, but when he woke up, he didn't remember any of them. He only felt that he was extremely tired, but he couldn't fall asleep anymore.

The next morning, Fei Yizhen called Ms. Wen according to the number on the business card and asked her to come and get the doll back.

Ms. Wen's tone was a little low and frustrated, and she asked, "Why? Do you hate it too?"

Fei Yizhen replied: "No. It's just because I know this is very important to you, Auntie, and Sister Ye Zhen. The meaning it represents is too special, and I can't accept it."

Ms. Wen didn't expect him to say that, she was silent for a while, and then said, "I'm sorry to trouble you again. I'll come and get it later."

Fei Yizhen didn't feel that it was causing trouble, and it wasn't because of the puppet that he felt a little uncomfortable.After Ms. Wen apologized yesterday, Fei Yizhen's perception of her has improved a lot - although she is a bit stubborn, she is not completely unreasonable.

But before the second class started, someone said to Fei Yizhen, "Fei Yizhen, someone is looking for you."

Fei Yi really thought it was Ms. Wen, and was surprised that she came so quickly, but the person looking for him turned out to be someone he hadn't expected.

He hesitantly opened his mouth and said, "Hello... Sister Ye Zhen."

"Fei Yizhen, hello, I'm sorry to disturb you. Can we have a few words in private?" Her eyes were red and swollen to the point that her whole face looked deformed. I feel afraid to refuse her.

"Let's go to the playground," he said.

The two arrived at the horizontal bars and parallel bars area of ​​the playground. For some reason, there were swings in this area of ​​the school.The two sat side by side on the swing and started talking.

Ye Zhen asked: "I heard that you sing very well, can you just hum a few lines for me?"

Fei Yizhen hesitated for a moment, thought for a while, and softly hummed a few words "Let happiness fly" to her, Ye Zhen suddenly sobbed, covered her face and burst into tears.

Fei Yizhen was stunned for a moment, and wanted to comfort him, but he didn't know how to comfort him because of the unfamiliarity, and finally he just said weakly: "Don't be sad."

Ye Zhen cried for a while, and gradually stopped crying by herself, but her voice became hoarse and rough than before.

She said: "My voice used to be as beautiful as yours. My mother told me since I was a child that my songs are the sounds of nature."

Fei Yi had a real meal.

Ye Zhen's voice has been very hoarse since she appeared, it is the kind of hoarseness that is difficult to speak, not the natural deep and magnetic hoarseness.Although Fei Yizhen knew that she should have had a good voice before, but she couldn't imagine what it was like.

Ye Zhen seemed to be talking to herself, and said: "The most beautiful voice in the world, the most touching singing voice in the world... She said that since she was a child. I always took such words seriously when I was a child, because she said it so seriously, Steadfast...until I got on stage for the first time in middle school."

She thought for a while, and then added: "When I was in elementary school, I often performed on stage. When the performance was over, people would applaud. I am very proud and proud, but I can't always feel what my mother said. The excitement that burns from the soul. Now that I think about it, it’s because the applause was not sincere. Because my parents are celebrities, the teachers in the school always give me a high look. Even if the students don’t think it sounds good, they still applaud. .”

"When I was in middle school, after I performed on stage for the first time, the applause was completely sparse. Then I heard a girl say: What singing? It's so ugly, it's better than me humming. She even cursed' Old hat'."

"I was shocked at the time. But I thought my singing voice was very good, because everyone said so, right? However, in middle school, it seemed that the whole world changed. Everyone liked to listen to pop songs. That girl... I can sing a lot of popular songs, and I am sought after by many people. And every time I sing, the awkward atmosphere makes me feel heavy and it is difficult to continue.”

"But the teacher will still arrange for me to go on stage, and my mother will still make the teacher let me go on stage. I really don't want to sing, because no one will like it at all...Even I think pop songs are actually better. Obviously already It’s not the past, but my mother is still immersed in the good memories of her past. I told my mother once, but my mother didn’t listen at all. She spent a lot of time trying to convince me that traditional vocal music is the most beautiful in her heart. If I don't think so, she gives a hurt look, once or twice, and I don't want to tell her."

"But I really don't want to sing anymore. Every time I go on stage, my classmates will talk about me, saying that I rely on my parents to engage in shady things, but I really don't... No, maybe I do, but That was not what I wanted. One day I mustered up a lot of courage, and after several days of practice, I sang the song "Playground" in class. After the students listened to it, they were all laughing. Laugh at me 'what are you singing about'."

"I don't think I've ever been able to sing a song that people like in my life. I felt so hopeless that I ran off the stage crying. I didn't have any friends because everyone thought I was 'weird' and 'corny' , 'It's not interesting'. At that time, only one girl came to comfort me and said that I actually sang very well."

"I really like her very much. She will comfort me when I am sad, tell me many little popular secrets among girls, and bring me to know a lot of people. But I don't like her introducing me None of the girls I know really like me, I know... only she likes me."

"I asked her, why did she come to be friends with me? She said, because she likes me very much, because she thinks, I am a good girl, and we will become very good friends."

"I spent a whole year without any friends, no one to talk to, and I was almost numb to that kind of life. I thought maybe I would live like this for the rest of my life."

"But when she talked to me, I seemed to come back to life all of a sudden. I suddenly realized that the sky was still blue, the flowers were still fragrant, and people would still smile at me. She defended me in front of other people. , share her interests and hobbies with me, and will try to reconcile the relationship between me and everyone. I like her very much, and I think as long as she is there, even if she is always considered a freak, it will not be so painful."

"Then, the school held another singing competition that year."

"I don't want to participate."

"In last year's competition, I won the championship, but none of my classmates liked my song. They all said that I should not win the award, because the runner-up sang much, much better than me. As a result, I have no more friends, and I don't want to be that one again. look."

"Silkworm knew my pain, so he helped me find a way. At that time, the movie 'Street Dance' was popular all over the country, and some of our classmates organized hip-hop dance lessons, thinking of street performances. Silkworm said that we should also participate, and get to know everyone well. There will be no such misunderstanding. She also said that I was too withdrawn and introverted, so I was misunderstood."

"Those people didn't want me to join at first, but Silkworm interceded with many people, and finally they agreed to my joining."

"But I missed my appointment."

Ye Zhen slowly told about what happened after that, Fei Yi really knew that she just needed someone who was willing to listen to what she told, so he nodded and continued to listen.

On the day she missed the appointment, Ye Zhen told Ms. Wen that she was going to participate in hip-hop dancing, but Ms. Wen was very angry, thinking that she hadn't practiced singing well recently, wasting her rare talent, thinking that she was complacent because of her current achievements, and she was not allowed to go.

Ye Zhen watched the hour hand pass by one point, two o'clock, three o'clock... until 04:30, feeling extremely hopeless in her heart.

"When I went to school the next day, I saw Silkworm. I explained to her and said sorry to her, and she said it was okay. But she was also depressed. Then, because of me, she was also isolated by her classmates. .”

Ye Zhen suddenly became emotional and said: "I was so sad and in pain. Why did I sing? I don't want to sing at all. Silkworm was so kind to me, but I hurt her. I was so excited at that time, I went...to get a medicine that is said to damage my throat. I think that as long as my throat is damaged, my mother will not let me sing, and my classmates will not isolate me, and I will become... ...an ordinary girl."

Fei Yi was really stunned.

He has been popular since he was a child, even when he was most withdrawn, Mo Yao was always by his side.On the contrary, Mo Yao was isolated by many girls because of being close to him, so he never knew that this kind of thing would make people so painful, even self-harm.

Ye Zhen continued: "My throat is broken. At first, my parents panicked and took me to see a doctor, but the doctor checked and said that the damage to my throat was serious and irreparable. This is the first time my mother heard this. When I said this, I just fainted."

"When she woke up, she saw me. I sat by her bed, feeling sad and guilty, but she said to me with tears in my eyes: 'Zhenzhen, don't be afraid. There is always a way to make your voice It’s cured. Even if it’s really not good, a good voice can sing with a good voice, and a dumb voice can sing songs with a dumb voice.’”