back to innocence

This morning Fei Yizhen went to pray in the main hall of the chapel as usual, and Chen Qi also sat in front of him and prayed as if he couldn't see him.

But not long after, Fei Yizhen's gaze from the back of his head made Chen Qi feel very uncomfortable.He suddenly turned his head, but he didn't catch Fei Yizhen to spy on him.The other party just lowered his head and silently wrote something on the laptop.

Chen Qi had no choice but to turn around and continue praying.

But he always felt that someone behind him was studying the back of his head with impunity.

I recited the scriptures for a long time, but my heart couldn't calm down.After a long time like this, Chen Qi suddenly stood up.

For their school, this chapel is actually more like a resting place like a gazebo path. Usually, no students will come here at such an early hour.Chen Qi was stunned when he saw Fei Yizhen.

Su Tingfeng came earlier than him and sat on the last pew in the chapel.Chen Qi didn't want to get involved with him, so he deliberately found the place farthest from him in front.

Thinking about it now, it was very miscalculated.

Fei Yizhen, just breathing the air in the same room as him is enough to make people feel restless.

Chen Qi couldn't calm down and recite the scriptures, so he simply stood up, walked to the last row with big strides, and sat down on the seat opposite Su Tingfeng across the aisle.

As mentioned before, this church is just an old church attached to the old school, with a small area.

With four seats on both sides and the not-so-wide aisle, the distance between Fei Yizhen and Chen Qi has actually become very close.

Chen Qi thinks about this situation, at least he doesn't have to feel suspiciously that Fei Yizhen has been peeking at him all the time - in such a position, he can perfectly monitor the other party with the corner of his eye, and it is clear at a glance whether he is acting abnormally or not.

Although it will distract attention and make chanting less pious, at least it is much better than the restless feeling before.

But Chen Qi had a good idea, but the development of reality did not follow his ideas.Because he had just picked up the scriptures again, Fei Yizhen turned his head and harassed him blatantly: "Are you planning to become an ascetic monk in the future?"

It's no wonder that Fei Yizhen thinks so, Chen Qi's behavior doesn't look weird to ordinary classmates, even if Fei Yizhen tries to look at it with the most tolerant eyes, he still feels that the other party... is too serious.

Although Chen Qi was very anxious, he did not lose his temper. He just said in a slightly impatient tone: "Asceticism is a way of life, not a profession. By the way, what are you doing here all the time!? Are you still here?" How long do you want to stay here? Don’t tell me you suddenly believe in my lord!? If you want to believe in it, how about cutting off your twisted homosexual relationship before that?”

Facing Chen Qi's aggressive tone, Fei Yizhen was still very calm, and said in an unhurried tone: "The atmosphere here is relatively good, and it is suitable for me to come and write scripts. It is originally one of the school's ancillary facilities, and it is not There is no rule that only Christians can enter a special church, right?"

Chen Qi was speechless immediately.

He couldn't say that it was because Fei Yizhen's presence made him feel irritable, even the air seemed to have deteriorated a lot, making people not want to breathe.

But I heard Fei Yizhen continue to say: "And is your teaching be good or heterosexual? Am I heterosexual, and whether I believe in good teaching with my heart... Is there such a big conflict between them? It's so big... Even I want to believe in Christ, and I will be turned away?"

Chen Qi was silent for a while when he heard him speak like this.After a while, he said, "That's not a good deed."

Fei Yi really looked at him with some doubts.

Chen Qi said: "Homosexual behavior...that is not a good deed. It violates the essence of ethics and natural reproduction. It is a kind of yin'luan, vile, and worthless behavior. The ancient Greek debauchery must not be handed down, and it Its destruction is the result of its violation of the Lord’s will. Homosexual behavior is never a good deed, it harms parents, children, yourself and others. If you want to join the religion, you must quit such behavior.”

Fei Yizhen said: "What if I can't quit? Then should I go to hell forever?"

There was still a smile on his face, as if he had given up resisting, he asked.

Chen Qi couldn't say "yes" for a moment.

Fei Yi is really not a bad person.

Even if he had a fight with him, even if the other party had too many things that he disliked, but for some reason, Chen Qi didn't have much dislike for the other party in his heart.

The emotions are complex.I feel disgusted, but I don't think there is anything disgusting about the other party.

After a while, Chen Qi continued to speak: "That is really not a good deed. If you have the heart to believe in my lord, but you continue to do one evil deed. Then in the end, even if you abide by the teachings in other aspects and perform good deeds, you will not be able to do good deeds." Erase the evil deeds you have persisted in. You may still not be able to go to heaven!"

At the end, Chen Qi even became a little excited.

He persuaded strongly: "Lust is a matter in the world, but happiness and eternal life are things in heaven. Human life is very short, and it will pass if you have a little patience. Why should you give up for this short practice? The joy of eternal life?"

When Chen Qi said this, he was already standing in front of Fei Yizhen condescendingly.

Fei Yizhen had no choice but to temporarily put down his mobile phone, thinking that if any of his classmates heard their conversation at this time, they would probably think that both of them had gone crazy.He opened his mouth and said to Chen Qi: "I said, the relationship between lovers can't be explained only by 'lust'?"

"Mating behavior that cannot form reproduction is nothing but lust."

Fei Yizhen said: "Although I don't memorize the Bible backwards like you do, at least I know the cause and effect of the Garden of Eden. In the beginning, Eve didn't have the function of giving birth. God created her just to accompany Adam. And Procreation itself is the punishment for Eve being tempted by the snake and eating the forbidden fruit. Do you want to say that in Eden, Adam and Eve never had any intimate behavior?"

Fei Yizhen simply played his cards out of common sense.Chen Qi once again felt that he shouldn't argue with the discussion of writing novels, they always have a way to make the fallacies clear and logical, and it's hard to refute.

Fei Yi is really eloquent, and he can always find the point of argument in his favour, and then draw out an irrefutable point of view.

Seeing that Chen Qi could not refute and his eyes were gloomy, Fei Yizhen softened his voice again and said: "Besides, I think lust and love are two completely different things. To me, it represents not only It is sexual desire, but mixed feelings. Human feelings never exist alone, so lovers can also become relatives. At the same time, they may have been intimate, like-minded friends or brothers who talked about everything. At least for For me, it's hard to tell which one is more profound."

Human emotion is a wonderful thing, sometimes it is difficult for you to characterize it.She is a childhood sweetheart and a close friend, an object of admiration and a close brother.

There is pity and concern as well as resistance and hostility, respect and admiration as well as pampering and helplessness.

Compared with sex and love, it is very insignificant.But compared with the deep friendship, the narrow love is nothing more than the surface.

"Then why don't you let your brother be a brother for life?" Chen Qi asked with some sarcasm.

"There is no difference." Fei Yizhen replied with a smile, "There is no difference in the deepest feelings. It's just a difference in the form of expression."

The two argued for a long time, but no one could convince the other, Chen Qi suddenly felt that Fei Yi was really eye-catching again.He said, "You are amazing. I can't say no to you. But this can't change the abnormal nature of homosexuality."

Then he took the scriptures and turned around to return to his original position.

Fei Yizhen said, "Let's not discuss this issue for now. Can you tell me something about Christianity?"

Chen Qi glanced back, suddenly a little startled.He hesitated for a while, as if he was considering whether it was necessary to pay attention to this unrepentant homosexual.But after hesitating for a while, he sat down again and asked, "What do you want to know?"

Fei Yizhen also lacked a lot of information, read a lot of related books, and for some questions that could not find the information, he had already made a list in his mind, so basically he didn't need to go through any thinking and sorting out, and he came up with an idea. Ask questions.

Although Chen Qi was not very motivated, he still answered his questions responsibly.During the conversation, Chen Qi was a little surprised to find that Fei Yizhen knew a lot about Christianity.Considering that he doesn't believe in religion, he obviously checked the information very carefully.

He was suddenly puzzled—could this guy really believe in Christ?

However, there will be errors or inconsistencies in the information obtained after investigation. Whenever Chen Qi discovers errors in Fei Yizhen's cognition, he will correct them forcefully.Fei Yizhen didn't argue, he just followed what he said and marked out the fallacies in a notebook.

In this way, it seems to be doing some academic research.

In this way, about two weeks later, Fei Yizhen finally completed the whole script.The script was actually finished after a week, and the last week was basically polishing and picking up additions.

The creation of this script was actually quite difficult. When Liang Qing read the entire typescript with it in his hand, he said with self-knowledge: "I can't act in this play."

Fei Yizhen's script was written entirely in English, but a Chinese version was independently prepared at the same time.

But of course, this is not the reason why Liang Qing said that he "can't act" with a look of boredom.

The reason is the role of the hero.

No matter how good an actor is, it is difficult to play a character whose concept, belief, and temperament are completely contrary to his own, let alone an actor like Liang Qing who has a very strong personality.

In fact, even the background of the script is very different from the times they lived in. If it wasn’t for the old diary as the most basic core reference for the story, and reading a lot of works and materials at that time, it would have been difficult for Fei Yizhen who wrote this script.When writing the script, even in his sleep, he often felt like Fan Mengka who had traveled to the end of the Middle Ages. Sometimes he woke up in the middle of the night, and his mind was not clear yet, but he had opened the document vaguely, for fear of forgetting the emotions he felt in the dream; sometimes The sun was high, but he didn't want to get up for a long time, because he hoped that the dream could complement those complex and profound emotions that he could not experience in reality.