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Hearing Udyr calling his name repeatedly in a hoarse voice, Ling Feng's eyes became hot, Udyr's strong hug and gentle gaze made Ling Feng unable to push him away, so he had to let him go hold.

The hug lasted for a long time, so long that only the sound of each other's breathing remained in our ears.

The temperature of the man named Ling Feng in his arms, the scent of the shower gel, the black and smooth hair like ink, and the pair of clear eyes—all of these are extremely familiar, so familiar that it almost makes people want to to cry.

The appearance of this person finally filled the void in my heart for many years.

It's a pity that Udyr can't remember those pasts at all——

What was the past between them, how much he loved him,

These precious memories have long been deliberately erased.

Udyr let go of Ling Feng, touched the man's hair gently with some distress, looked at him tenderly, and asked in a low voice: "Ling Feng, I don't remember the past, do you know what happened back then? what?"

Ling Feng was stunned for a moment, looked away, and said calmly, "All I know is that you have undergone amnestic surgery."

Udyr frowned slightly, "A memory erasure operation?"

Ling Feng nodded, "This kind of surgery can clear part of the memory in the brain without causing any damage to the brain."

Udyr fell silent.Obviously, this so-called "memory erasure operation" is inseparable from the "elders" of the Sharman family.Over the years, when I rejected the Omega introduced by them, every time I mentioned "people in memory", their faces would become very strange, probably because of guilty conscience?

Udyr's eyes sank slightly, he looked down at Ling Feng and said, "Can I regain those memories?"

Ling Feng turned his head away, not knowing what to say.

It is possible to get it back, but it takes a lot of risk.Ling Feng knew he shouldn't say it, but with Udyr's temper, even if he didn't say it, he would definitely find out through other channels...

Udyr put his hands on Ling Feng's shoulders, stared at him seriously, and said in a gentle but firm tone: "You know? I haven't been able to sleep well these years, and your shadow always appears in my dreams, but I don't see you at all. I don't know what you look like... For me, that memory is very important, I can't just throw it away...I don't want to forget everything about you."

The tenderness and affection in the man's eyes made Ling Feng's heart tremble suddenly.

I thought that Udyr had completely forgotten the past and started a new life, but I didn't expect that he never let go of it all these years.Even though his memory was washed away by someone, he still persistently searched for those precious pasts in his dreams.

With only a necklace engraved with his name and some vague dreams, he has searched for so many years...

This man's deadly stubbornness is really shocking and distressing.

Seeing that Ling Feng's expression was a little shaken, Udyr said softly, "Can you tell me? Tell me how to restore memory. I hope you can tell me. I don't want to ask other doctors."

Ling Feng was silent for a long time before saying softly: "I... know a method, but... this method is very risky."

Udyr said decisively: "It's okay, let's listen to it."

Ling Feng said: "It is necessary to find a neurosurgery expert to perform a craniotomy operation and perform the most direct electrical stimulation on the cerebral cortex. The operation requires a very experienced doctor. If there is a deviation in the operation, it is likely to damage the brain. Seriously, it may even turn the person undergoing surgery into a vegetable directly."

Udyr smiled, "I see."

Seeing Udyr turn and leave, Ling Feng hurriedly stopped him: "Are you going to have this operation? No, it's too risky..."

Before Ling Feng finished speaking, Udyr stopped and looked back at him deeply, "Compared to forgetting you, I can take such a risk. Besides, as long as you find an experienced doctor, This kind of risk can be minimized, can't it?" Udyr leaned down, kissed Ling Feng's forehead lightly, and said in a low voice, "Wait for me to come back."

——Wait for the former Udyr to return to you completely.

Udyr left Ling Feng's residence, called four of his most trustworthy subordinates to guard here, and very "considerately" helped Dr. Charlie ask for a two-day leave from the military hospital.

Although he said "wait for me to come back", whether Ling Feng will wait for him to come back, he has no idea.

He couldn't let Ling Feng run away secretly.

When he remembered everything, he hoped to see Ling Feng immediately.

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Udyr returned to the reception of the military region, and immediately contacted a trusted friend, asking him to come over overnight.

Dr. Kent, an expert in neurosurgery at the Imperial Central Hospital, set off immediately after receiving the urgent secret letter from General Udyr, drove the mech to make two consecutive space jumps, and arrived at the Broken Army Star on time at [-]:[-] the next morning.

Udyr pretended to be seriously ill because of acclimatization, and let the deputy commander of the legion continue to supervise today's military training, while he came to the operating room of a private hospital alone, and had a secret meeting with Dr. Kent.

After Kent saw him, he couldn't help but smiled and teased: "Udyr, once you come to Pojunxing, you will not be acclimatized and get sick every day. Is your body a little too weak?"

Udyr said with a serious expression: "I pretended to be sick, just to hide from the eyeliner that my grandpa put around me. I called you here this time because I want you to perform an operation on me secretly and help me find my lost memories. "

Kent asked in surprise, "Recover your memory?"

Udyr nodded, "I have consulted several doctors before, and they all told me that it is impossible to get back the erased memory. I also believed it at the time. Now it seems that those people should have received my grandfather's order , I lied to me on purpose." Udyr frowned slightly, and his eyes became darker, "Kent, tell me the truth, can this kind of artificially erased memory be retrieved?"

Kent hesitated for a moment, then whispered, "In theory, it's possible."

Udyr immediately looked up at him, "Tell me."

Kent carefully explained: "The principle of human memory is the interconnection between nerve cells. The memory center is similar to an information network composed of a large number of nerve cells. The hippocampus is a transfer station and the cerebral cortex is a storage warehouse. Memory erasure surgery It is artificially blocking the transmission pathways of some nerve cells, resulting in the failure to read the memory information normally. Your cerebral cortex—that is, the warehouse for storing memories—has not been seriously damaged, and those memories still exist. The cerebral cortex is stimulated to completely open the pathway for information reading, and those memories can be reproduced."

Dr. Kent paused, looked up at Udyr, and said with a serious expression: "However, the risk of this approach is quite high, it may damage your brain, and even turn you into a vegetable... Are you sure you want to take this risk ?”

Udyr said seriously: "Yes."

Kent asked in surprise, "Why are you so determined all of a sudden?"

Udyr was silent for a moment, then smiled and said, "Because I saw Ling Feng."

Udyr turned to look out the window at the sky.

Only this planet in the Pojun star field is suitable for human habitation, and it was later developed by the empire as a military base. There are few people on this planet, and the sky is extraordinarily vast.Today is a sunny day, and the blue sky is dotted with some white clouds, which looks very beautiful.

Those lost memories are like clouds in the sky. Although they are just embellishments to the sky, what remains in the sky without clouds is infinite emptiness and desolation.

Udyr, without those memories, only had a desolation in his heart.

Udyr raised the corners of his lips and said in a low voice: "The moment I saw him, I knew what it meant to me to forget him."

——It means that I have forgotten the people who once regarded as precious as my life.

——It means that I have forgotten the person I want to cherish and protect the most in this life.

These years have passed like a walking dead, and the place in his heart that has been dug out is empty. Udyr has always wondered why he is always sleepless at night, tossing and turning?

It wasn't until today that he finally met Ling Feng that he knew what the blankness in his heart was.

He loves that person.

He loved too deeply and was too persistent, so even if he lost his memory, he still refused to let go subconsciously. He still tightly held the necklace with Ling Feng's name engraved on it, reminding himself not to forget it all the time.

Udyr touched the necklace on his chest lightly, turned to Kent and said, "Get ready for the operation as soon as possible, I want to remember everything about him."

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The operation process is very complicated, and Udyr will become a vegetable. The operation must be performed in an awake state, and the intensity of the electrical stimulation of the cerebral cortex must be finely adjusted at any time.

Fortunately, Dr. Kent is an expert in neurosurgery with rich experience, which is why Udyr urgently invited him over.

After a five-hour operation, Udyr’s neural pathways were finally fully opened. Due to the emergence of a large number of memories, his brain was overloaded and his spirit almost collapsed. Dr. Kent immediately injected him with a sedative and let him enter the The state of deep sleep.

Udyr slept for a full 24 hours this time.

It was like having a long, long dream.

He dreamed of himself many years ago, when his arm was cut by broken glass while performing military duties, bleeding profusely.He didn't want to disturb his father, so he went to a nearby hospital to treat the wound in private.It was three o'clock in the middle of the night, and the emergency department was very quiet. He walked straight to the doctor's office. The young doctor on duty looked up at him, and then walked over calmly and took him to the treatment room.

The young doctor's white coat was spotlessly clean, and the collar of the shirt inside was as neat as if it had been ironed. A pair of black eyes were clear and transparent, with a slight smile in them. While examining the wound, he spoke softly He jokingly said: "You are lucky, you will cut the aorta one centimeter away... Hey, don't move... I will disinfect it for you first..."

The man lowered his head to help him treat the wound seriously, with a focused expression and gentle movements. The white and slender neck was in stark contrast to the ink-like black hair. His long and thick eyelashes were like brushes made of feathers. His appearance was gentle and his fingers Slender, he should be a young doctor who has just graduated from university, and he has a strong bookish air about him.

The two were so close that Udyr could even feel the warmth of his breath gently brushing against his face... it was unbearably itchy.

The moment he stayed with this doctor and was taken care of gently by him, Udyr suddenly felt a special peace in his heart.

I even thought it would be nice if time stopped...

When he left, he took a special look at the name tag on the doctor's chest - emergency department, Sander, job number 71982.

A row of small characters, never forgetting ever since.

Udyr quickly found out all the information about Dr. Sander—both parents died, no relatives and no reason, he was studying at the San Romia Military Medical Academy, and after graduation he worked as a doctor in the emergency department of the Imperial Central Hospital, and more importantly : currently single.

Udyr looked at the photos in the profile and smiled slightly.

By the way, I copied a copy of their hospital schedule and put it in the electronic note that I carried with me.

A week later, in the middle of the night, Ling Feng was on night shift again. A familiar patient came to the emergency department of the Central Hospital. The wound on his arm had already healed. The reason for coming to the hospital this time was that he had a headache in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep.

Ling Feng conscientiously took the "patient" Comrade Udyr to take a CT scan of his head to check for lesions. It turned out that the man's head was extremely normal, and the cause of the headache could not be found at all.Ling Feng had no choice but to prescribe some painkillers for him, and temporarily dismissed him.

Another week later, Ling Feng was still on the night shift, and another familiar patient came to the emergency department, and his headache was gone. woke up.

Ling Feng responsibly took him for an abdominal examination, and the results were still completely normal.

Another week later, when Ling Feng was on the night shift, Udyr came to the door again with a painful expression on his face. This time it was a stomachache, and he said that he couldn't eat for a few days and threw up whatever he ate.

Seeing the painful frown of the handsome man in front of him, Ling Feng couldn't help but seriously said: "Udyr, according to the test results just now, there is no problem with your stomach at all... you really Do you have a stomachache?"

Udyr stared at his serious eyes, the more he looked at it, the more he liked it.

After a while, Udyr whispered: "Actually, I pretended to be sick on purpose, because I want to see you."

Ling Feng: "..."

Udyr smiled, took a step closer, and raised his chin ambiguously, "Doctor Sander, I've been with you for three whole weeks, haven't you noticed that I'm chasing you?"

Ling Feng: "..."

Ling Feng really didn't realize that Udyr was chasing him. As a doctor, seeing this kind of guy pretending to be sick, Ling Feng actually always thought that Udyr had "hypochondriasis"—a kind of always doubting himself. "Psychopaths" with physical problems.

Udyr, who was regarded as a "mentally ill patient", was deeply shocked and left the hospital angrily.

The next day, when Ling Feng was off the night shift, Udyr blocked him directly at the door of Ling Feng's house, and kissed him forcefully and deeply.

Seeing the man's eyes wide open in shock, Udyr smiled and wiped his wet lips with his thumb, and whispered, "Now you believe that I'm chasing you, don't you?"

Ling Feng: "..."

Udyr has been pestering Ling Feng for half a year.

He likes the way Ling Feng smiles very much, and also likes to see Ling Feng's frowning and helpless expression. He wants to take that gentle doctor as his own completely. This strong desire almost makes Udyr's whole body The blood is burning.

It happened to be Ling Feng's birthday that day, so Udyr went to the cake workshop to find a cake master to study for several days, made a birthday cake by himself, prepared a candlelight dinner, and bought this priceless spar—from The best spar bought at the auction, as transparent blue as the sky, was polished into a beautiful rhombus necklace as a birthday present for Ling Feng.

Ling Feng looked at Udyr with a complex look in his eyes.

No one has remembered his birthday for so many years. For him, birthday is no different from every day.However, Udyr prepared cakes and gifts for him so carefully, Ling Feng was a little touched.

I can't help but think: Is this man serious about liking me?

Taking advantage of his trance moment, Udyr cleverly took the opportunity to hug him and steal a kiss.

And she was very pleased to find that the man who was always gentle and indifferent was actually... blushed by her kiss.

The days when the two were together were as happy and sweet as every couple in love.

However, the good times didn't last long. His father asked Udyr to marry the Omega appointed by the family, but Udyr naturally refused, and the existence of Lingfeng was finally discovered by the old general Shaman.

The head of the Rose Legion at the time—Udyr's grandfather, General Christ Sharman, was a man with a very cold and tough personality, and he was even more paranoid about the inheritance of blood to a morbid level.

The marriages of the descendants of the Sharman family are all linked to the interests of the family, and the partner is also selected by the elders. They chose a daughter of the Olaf family for Udyr. And well-educated, such an Omega is the best candidate for their daughter-in-law.

In their view, the man Udyr liked was just an ordinary Beta, and an orphan without father and mother. How could such a man be included in the genealogy of the Sharman family?

Christ forced Udyr to break up with Lingfeng, but Udyr was so infatuated that he boldly took Lingfeng away from Capital Star.

The two went to live in a remote town on the planet Oman, where it snowed heavily all year round, and the vast white snow became the only scenery in their eyes.However, even though it was freezing outside, the two cuddling each other inside the house felt extremely warm.

Later, Ling Feng finally let go of his defenses and told Udyr that he is an Omega.

He took the initiative to disable the inhibitor, and when the first estrus came, he opened his body with some anxiety, and was completely marked by Udyr.

They have a baby.

The little baby was born in the middle of a snowy night, and Udyr named him Snow. The two held the little baby in their arms, holding his son's soft fingers, so happy that they even forgot the difficult situation at that time.

The family of three lived a difficult but extremely warm life for four years, until the hiding place was discovered by the Sharman family again.

Udyr will never forget the day of parting.

It was snowing heavily that day, and the food stored at home was almost gone. He went out to buy food, and before leaving, he hugged Ling Feng and kissed his forehead reluctantly.

Ling Feng smiled and said, "Come back early."

Little Snow stood beside him and looked at him eagerly, imitating his father, and said in a childish voice: "Come back soon."

Udyr couldn't help laughing, pinched his son's face, and whispered, "I'll be back soon, and I'll bring you something delicious."

However, when he returned home, what he saw was his grandfather with a gloomy face and a group of soldiers in pure white military uniforms. The pattern of white roses on the floating vehicle parked beside him was particularly dazzling in the snow.

The house was empty, and Ling Feng, who sensed something was wrong in advance, took four-year-old Snow and ran away secretly.

He looked for Ling Feng everywhere like crazy, but was directly knocked unconscious by the Rose Legion and took him away.

From then on, he never saw Ling Feng again.

He was taken home, and under the arrangement of the old General Crist, he underwent amnesiac surgery.When he woke up, he was holding a necklace tightly in his hand - a sky blue transparent spar, with a name engraved in it: Ling Feng.

That was his birthday present to Ling Feng.

The necklace originally didn't have a name in it, but when passing a certain street corner a few days ago, he happened to see a shop that specializes in processing necklaces. He took the necklace off Ling Feng's neck and planned to have it processed by the way when he was shopping today. At once, engrave the name "Lingfeng" into the spar as a commemoration of the fifth anniversary of their acquaintance.

Unfortunately, he never gave away this necklace with his name engraved on it.

He forgot who Ling Feng was.

When I woke up, looking at the necklace in my hand, I felt a convulsive pain in my heart, but I couldn't remember any past about this name at all.