Thrive in Catastrophe

Jane turned her head and looked into Xiao Yan's eyes. His gaze was firm and unshakable, completely different from the rookie researcher who used to shake his fingers when he raised his gun.

"Are you sure you want to shoot?" Jane approached step by step.

The two special forces behind Xiao Yan were about to step forward, but Jane made a gesture, and they stopped behind Xiao Yan.

"I can."

"You like this kid so much?" Jane was still smiling, her lips were perfectly curved, and the strength in her eyes almost crushed Xiao Yan.

"I don't have many friends. Major Maya is a very important one of the few friends I have. Not only can I shoot for him, this is not the first time I have shot for him." In Xiao Yan's hand is Condensation gun, another sample he made during the base repair.

Jane looked at Xiao Yan, her gaze became more and more cold, but in the end he let go of Maya and walked in front of Xiao Yan. Jane deliberately put her chest on the muzzle of the gun, and easily opened Xiao Yan's fingers. , pinned the condensation gun to his waist.He lowered his head, put it next to Xiao Yan's ear, and said softly: "Don't let me find out that he is more than just a friend to you. Otherwise, I will make his life worse than death."

His tone was extremely slow, Xiao Yan stood there motionless.

It wasn't until Jane Wallis walked away that Maya pulled Xiao Yan over, "Hey! Are you okay!"

"...I'm fine! You're fine! Why did you appear suddenly! Why are you arguing with that lunatic!" Xiao Yan punched Maya hard.

"What lunatic? That guy is a pervert! He wanted to kiss you just now!" Maya was furious, and glared at the two special forces behind him, "You protect him like this! Did Lieutenant Colonel Wallis put him to bed? Watching from the side too!"

The faces of the two special forces did not change, but embarrassment was obvious in their eyes.

"You were almost killed by that guy!" Xiao Yan scolded angrily, seeing Maya lying in a pool of blood, his nerves had had enough of being stabbed, and now if he did it again, he would definitely have a weak heart!

"Then I can't tolerate him touching you! I promised..."

"What did you promise?" Xiao Yan tilted his head.

"I promised someone that I would take good care of you."

"Who?"

"None of your business!" Maya turned around angrily and walked forward vigorously.

Xiao Yan hurried to catch up, put his hands on his shoulders from behind, "Why is it none of my business! You are so handsome and want to protect me! Don't be angry! Let me buy you a beer, okay?"

"Can you still go to drink beer? You have been thoroughly supervised, and you can't even get out of the special missions headquarters!"

"How about I pay for it, and you go buy beer? Let's have a drink!"

"Come on, you drink a dozen bottles before pouring them out, talking nonsense and vomiting everywhere!"

"Then how about... go to a restaurant for dinner together?"

"Let's eat." Maya muttered in a low voice, "Otherwise, if you get drunk, the boss will definitely trouble me."

"Huh? What?"

"Nothing! I said I want steak!"

The two sat at the dining table, the steak was served on a plate as simple as a special task force, without any aesthetic feeling, and the taste had not been innovative for decades.

"Hey, are you guys still fantasizing about Liv recently?" Maya asked casually, Xiao Yan almost choked himself to death.

"Huh? What? For Liv..." Xiao Yan remembered that he had discussed with Maya the reason for the hallucinations in his mind. At that time, the other party mistakenly believed that the object of his fantasy was Liv.

Maya propped her chin up in a funny way, and leaned forward slightly, "Actually, Liv is very nice! She protects you everywhere, and she clearly has a crush on you."

Xiao Yan was silent.

He doesn't want to see a therapist, or a brain specialist, or talk to Kathy about his delusions and fantasies, because he knows he's going to be bombarded by Kathy and the rest of his life won't stop .

But Maya is different.No matter how careless he looks on the surface, he would not have survived on the cruel battlefield until now if he was thoughtful. He also has a sense of responsibility as a soldier. Xiao Yan still remembers the scene of him desperately protecting himself.He's a guy who can be trusted and who can keep a secret.

"Actually, my fantasy object is not Liv."

"Huh? Could it be Sharon...you like Sharon...Oh, my god, I'm sorry, I shouldn't bring this up..." Maya immediately showed an apologetic expression.

"I have a lot of respect for Sharon. I'm not fantasizing about her."

"Then who else? The only female special forces you know are the two of them!" Maya frowned and thought hard.

"The other party is not a woman."

Maya froze slightly, "What? Who?"

"..." Xiao Yan opened his mouth, but still said it, he had to say it, otherwise he would have a nervous breakdown sooner or later, "It's Colonel Burton."

Everything is quiet and empty.

Until Maya shook her hand, the fork slashed across the plate and made a sharp sound. Fortunately, they came earlier, and there were almost no people in the restaurant.

Xiao Yan thought Maya would have a bigger reaction, but he quickly turned the plate back in front of him, pressed his other hand on his forehead, and asked very softly, "How far have you fantasized?"

It was really difficult for Xiao Yan to answer this question.

"I can't even imagine the Colonel hugging someone. Do you imagine him hugging you?"

"En." Xiao Yan lowered his head.

"kiss?"

"Hmm..." Come on, what's the point of asking such a question!

Xiao Yan felt like a boy who came back from a first date and was being interrogated by his father.

Maya was silent for two seconds, and asked the ultimate question: "Is your little chrysanthemum okay?"

"..." Xiao Yan's ears turned red.

Maya's summary gave Xiao Yan the urge to die: "As expected of a brain intervention speed of [-] trillion! Even fantasies are different from ordinary people!"

"Maya..." Xiao Yan really wanted to bite him to death, "I'm telling you this because I want to know if there is a solution! It's not someone else! It's Colonel Burton!"

Maya's smile was relaxed, even a little gloating.

"Xiao Yan, have you ever thought that the reason you have these delusions or fantasies is because the boss wants to fall in love with you?"

"Ha...Maya, are you not crazy? Jane Wallis broke your head?" This was the most outrageous sentence Xiao Yan had ever heard.

"The desire of special soldiers is several times that of ordinary people. The more depressed they are, the crazier they will be when they explode. I'm sure the boss hasn't been injured in that place, so when he wants to fuck someone, he can suppress it and dismantle him." The urge to enter the abdomen does not mean that he can suppress the instinct. The hormones that are released hundreds of times cannot be controlled. These are indeed illusions in your mind, but they are also signals to you from the boss. miss you."

Xiao Yan wanted to convince himself that Maya was making up stories to scare him, but this brother's expression was too serious!More serious than the professors in the Academy of Sciences!

"No... If Colonel Burton has his eyes on someone, he can..."

"What is it? He will put you in the safest range, watch over you, take care of you, and demand you with standards that are a hundred times higher than others, but he will not touch you in reality. Because he is too precious, so Afraid that one impulse will ruin everything."

"It sounds like you have become Colonel Burton." Xiao Yan couldn't believe Maya's words.

"Because Colonel Burton and I have one thing in common - we are both special forces. What attracts us and what we fear is the same."

Xiao Yan looked into Maya's eyes.Everyone thinks that special missions have all the glory, that they can splurge and enjoy the rest of their short lives, but their pain is forever wrapped in combat uniforms.

"Well, the condition for your point of view to be valid is that the colonel must be by my side when I have delusions and fantasies, right?"

"Yeah, otherwise how could you feel his hormones?"

"But my hallucinations are not limited to when he is by my side." Xiao Yan ate the last bite of steak with a smile, stood up slowly, and blinked at Maya, "If what I told you is taken by the second person If you know, I will break up with you, and I will cut off your hair!"

"What? When have you ever had hallucinations?" Maya followed behind Xiao Yan, but Xiao Yan just smiled and didn't answer.

"Secret." Xiao Yan didn't tell Maya that he had dreamed of Heine while chatting with Casey in the terminal and even accidentally fell asleep in the laboratory.

After drinking the beer, Maya sent Xiao Yan back to the room, and the two special forces followed behind them.

"You should know that your place has become the target of the tide, right?" Maya tapped Xiao Yan's forehead lightly with her fingers.

"Hey, I don't want to remember this at all!" Xiao Yan pressed his forehead in distress, he deliberately mentioned this when he knew Maya.

Maya smiled slightly, and passed the two special forces soldiers. Although it was only a short glance, her eyes were very serious, and the meaning was obvious: protect him.

Until Maya walked away, Xiao Yan still put his hands on his forehead.

Maya!You are fucking too much!I have already told you most of my secrets, but I just want to keep some small desires, do you need to scare people like this!

Sure enough, under Maya's mental torment, Xiao Yan didn't fall asleep after lying on the bed, and even had a nightmare between half-dream and half-awake, which made his whole body sweat coldly.Just as he walked into the bathroom to take a shower, another alarm sounded above his head, and Xiao Yan fell hard.The special forces outside the door rushed in without saying a word, and what they saw was Xiao Yan sitting on the ground in embarrassment, with the overhead shower pouring down on him arrogantly.

Ignoring his embarrassment, Xiao Yan stood up, "What happened!"

"It's the special task force's preparation alert. A team has been attacked outside the city, and tonight's preparation troops will go out to support."

"...Has the tide man entered the Shire?"

"still has not now."

Xiao Yan let out a breath, but it didn't mean he was at ease.Seeing that Xiao Yan was fine, the two special forces exited the room.Xiao Yan closed his eyes, water poured down from the top of his head, his palm covered the wall, and slowly clenched into a fist.

Everything that happened in the research base of the Tide organization came to mind again.

The torn special forces, countless monsters, Sharon who never wakes up...

This night, Xiao Yan was doomed to find it difficult to sleep.

I don't know what happened to Casey?A genius like him is also a target for Tide, right?

Has Jane left the Shire?

Is it really safe to stay in the special mission force?Could the commando outside the door be a surge lurker like Cole?Will the killers of the Tide Organization lingering outside the Shire sneak in quietly, even the heavily guarded special mission forces are really invincible?Maybe his brain was taken away in his sleep, and his cold body would be found on the bed tomorrow morning...

He has always been a lazy person, thinking is a very strenuous thing.Even if the sky falls, he can sleep until the sky is dark, but what is the current anxiety?It was as if the belief that had been supporting him was suddenly emptied.

He thought he was no longer afraid, and even death was no big deal.

But he is still afraid, afraid that one day what he thinks is no longer what he wants to think, and the result he draws. All his achievements are not for those he cares about, but a weapon to hurt them.

When the door of the room was pushed open, Xiao Yan's nerves suddenly tensed, and his back stiffened.

who is it?

The other party got closer and closer, Xiao Yan closed his eyes and pretended to be asleep.

Was it the special forces guarding him who came in to check, or... people from the Tide Organization?

His heart was beating so hard that Xiao Yan couldn't pretend anymore.

The other party sat down beside his bed, and his cool fingertips brushed Xiao Yan's brow bone, which made people feel inexplicably reassuring.

Xiao Yan slowly opened his eyes, even in the boundless darkness, he could still recognize the deep outline of the opponent.

He really thought that no one could grab the corner of this man's clothes and make him stop, even the expectations of the whole world couldn't crush him, but at this moment, he was sitting beside him, leaving behind the eyes at the end of his sight. The most realistic expression.

"Colonel Burton!"

Subconsciously, Xiao Yan wanted to prop up his upper body.

How could it be Heine Burton?How could this guy come in!

The opponent's body leaned down slowly, and the ever-closer distance made Xiao Yan's thoughts uncontrollably chaotic.

His palm was pressed against Xiao Yan's ear, and the warm breath flowed between Xiao Yan's lips. It was a kind of silent intrusion. For the first time, Xiao Yan felt that the man in front of him was no longer so unattainable.He fell from the edge of the cliff close to the sky, into his own eyes.

"I'll give you 3 minutes, and if you can't fall asleep, I'll make you pass out."

There is no turbulent intonation, no ups and downs in sound quality, an imperative tone that cannot be rejected but is justified, and there will be no one else except Heine Burton.

He raised his fingers, gently covered Xiao Yan's eyes, and closed his eyelids.

This cold and invincible man, but few people know that his palm is warm.

Xiao Yan thought of the night he and Hein spent in the windproof shelter, and Hein also stayed by his side with a high fever like this, as if he had become the person this man had to protect.

There are so many questions in his heart, especially the words Maya said to him, every word at this moment beats his heart.

Do you want to hug me?

Ever wanted to kiss me?

Even more uncontrolled than these?

But Xiao Yan knew that once he asked, he would have only two outcomes: Heine would pull out a sharp knife and mercilessly pierce all his imagination like he did in the nuclear power plant, or directly rape him.But no matter what the result is, Xiao Yan knows that he is not strong enough to accept it.

He didn't know when he fell asleep, the breath that belonged to Heine permeated into the depths of his thinking, between dreams and not dreams, it was as if something soft touched his lips, and when he pressed it lightly, everything sink.

When he woke up again, the electronic clock next to the bed showed that it was only [-]:[-] in the morning.Xiao Yan was at a loss after washing up, he didn't know what to do.

Pushing open the door, I saw two special soldiers standing outside the door.

"Excuse me, did anyone enter my room last night?"

Xiao Yan didn't understand why he was full of anticipation, and even became nervous the moment the other party opened his lips.

"Only Colonel Burton ever came in."

The thoughts that had been suppressed all this time finally spread out uncontrollably.

The Heine who sat by the bed and watched him fall asleep last night turned out to be real!

Just when he was in a daze, the communicator showed that he had received a notification: From now on, all researchers will conduct unified militarized training.

Click on the contactor, and the training schedule will pop up on the holographic image. From the most basic physical training to fighting skills, their time is basically occupied by training in the first three months. They are not allowed to return to their respective research positions until they pass the assessment.Technical soldiers who were not tested for physical fitness and fighting skills in the past will also undergo a monthly military assessment like the Military and Political Department and the Interrogation Force. If they fail to pass, they will return to the training camp for training.

Xiao Yan let out a breath. The armed forces of the military department have always blamed the technical soldiers represented by the researchers for lack of combat ability in critical moments and cannot be a help to complete the task, or even a burden. They have repeatedly demanded unified military training for the technical soldiers. training.The Central Academy of Sciences stated that the responsibilities of technical soldiers are scientific research and technical support to the armed forces. If the limited energy is dispersed, the research efficiency will be reduced.So the Armed Forces proposal has never been adopted.But judging from what happened in the Institute several times recently, this has become necessary.Not to mention the last mission, if she had the combat power of the armed forces, Sharon wouldn't be able to...

The videophone rang, and Mark's exaggerated face appeared on the screen.

"Hey Xiao Yan! I'm here to give you a combat uniform!"

"Oh, thanks!"

Xiao Yan opened the door and took the combat uniform from Mark, and covered it with his palm. This is completely different from the uniform of the army. It is soft and fit, but it can maintain body temperature and prevent external damage. Except for the sharp blade for hunting zombies, there is no Nothing can penetrate it easily.

Before he could talk to Mark, the radio rang.

"Attention all researchers, please pay attention to all researchers, gather at training ground No. 5 within [-] minutes!" "So fast?"

"Hurry up and put on the combat uniform. If you miss the assembly time, the instructor will definitely show you!"

Mark, who had been laughing all the time, restrained his smile and urged Xiao Yan.

Hastily putting on the combat uniform, Xiao Yan's body was outlined.

Mark rubbed his chin and looked at Xiao Yan, then shook his head, "You really don't look at anything from top to bottom!"

Xiao Yan walked past the mirror and smiled awkwardly. If Mark is a top-quality steak, then he can only be regarded as dry macaroni.

The two walked quickly in the passage.

Mark looked at Xiao Yan's serious side face, and blinked, "Hey, you seem to have a good attitude, rookie! Many researchers have the expression of wanting them to die when they hear this news!"

"It is better to save yourself than to wait for salvation from heaven."

As a reserve technician, Xiao Yan was already tired of his own powerlessness in front of zombies. Not having the ability to protect himself meant that he would never have the opportunity to get out of the aircraft to do what he wanted to do. No matter how good he was at thinking, it was just a burden for others.

Freedom is powerful once it leaves, and it is too fragile to be vulnerable.

Mark patted Xiao Yan on the shoulder, as if he was his little brother, "Don't be arrogant, rookie, your physical training plan is not easy at all! Otherwise, with your body, you won't be able to withstand even a punch !"

Xiao Yan didn't speak.

No matter what kind of training he goes through, he can't reach the level of Mark and the others, but at least...he still remembers the unwillingness in Heine's heart when he carried himself back to the No. [-] base, and also remembers when Jane fell to the ground to protect him The crisp sound, even Liv had to reveal that she almost died in order to divert the gunfire for him, and Sharon, who stopped breathing forever.He once accepted his own incompetence, but every time Heine's gaze reminded him, even if it was just a little bit, he longed to get closer to Heine Burton's domain.

When he followed Mark to the training ground, he saw a dozen researchers in combat uniforms standing together and whispering.

"What are you doing? If even we have to learn some fighting techniques, what do we need the special mission forces for?"

"Isn't our job research?"

"I'm almost 40 years old, do I still need to go out to fight?"

"Xiao Yan!"

Xiao Yan followed the shout and saw Casey.

"Cathy!"

As soon as Xiao Yan stepped forward, Casey hugged him. This guy's strength was still so strong that Xiao Yan's bones were almost crushed by him.

"Easy... Kathy... I can't breathe..."

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The author has something to say: Xiao Yan: I want to exercise!Don't be a burden to others!

Heine: On the bed too.

Xiao Yan: ...