Euthanasia

Liu Zhiwei stared wide-eyed and lay on the bed looking at the ceiling.

An aroma of instant noodles wafted through the room.Jon ate a whole three packs of instant noodles. Liu Zhiwei didn't know why he didn't gain weight after eating so much every day and not exercising.

Now this foreign man, who was hiccupping after eating too much before going to bed, was lying beside him, unable to move his feet, but holding Liu Zhiwei's chest tightly with his hands.

Jon's palms are large, with slender fingers. Unlike his feet, the palms of his hands are very warm.His hands were on Liu Zhiwei's shoulders and abdomen, which almost made Liu Zhiwei's blood flow faster.

Liu Zhiwei is a very normal gay, it's like having a beautiful woman sleep next to a straight man unsuspectingly, it makes people feel distracted.But Liu Zhiwei quickly and habitually stopped his thoughts.

He'd been on the edge of the bed for so long, stiff in that position, and now he had to consider the chance of slipping out of bed and finding another room, or simply sleeping on the carpet in the room.

However, as soon as Liu Zhiwei moved, Jon opened his eyes.

Liu Zhiwei smiled slightly: "You, you haven't slept yet?"

"Do you know how long I've been with Andy?"

Liu Zhiwei froze and looked at Jon. "……have no idea."

Jon's green eyes still looked crystal clear in the night.

"It was a gift from my mother when I was eight years old. After I couldn't walk, my mother dug it out of a discarded gift box and put it on my bedside."

Liu Zhiwei was stunned for a moment, never expecting that bear to have such a long life.

"It doesn't look that old, does it?" Jon seemed to know what Liu Zhiwei was thinking. "It's been patched hundreds of times—maybe thousands of times."

Liu Zhiwei opened his mouth, not knowing how to respond.

"I was very angry at first," Jon said. "I did everything I could to hurt and tear him up. I ripped open his belly with scissors, threw him in a fire, threw him in the muck of a river... …I deal with it with the punishment I imagined to inflict on the living to ease my pain and my desire to vent.”

Liu Zhiwei frowned, and turned his head to look at Jon.

"It's very effective, but the premise of doing that is that you must regard it as a living life," Jon said lightly, "It has become my unique partner. The object of my sadistic vent is also the closest to my heart s life."

Liu Zhiwei turned his body sideways to Jon, frowning and staring into his eyes. "How are you?"

"I named it," Jon said, "from the dead dog I grew up with. That's another story. If you've had a playmate from birth, you've given It’s so emotional, it gives back the same emotion to you, and when it disappears from your world, it usually makes a huge difference in your world—that’s the grief and gift of bereavement.”

"But what makes Andy different from people is that it belongs to me, and it belongs to me alone." When Jon said this, Liu Zhiwei heard a very strong paranoia, "As long as the object is a person, you must Share him with countless people. He does not belong to you alone, and you can never make any decisions about him. But in the face of animals and objects, the 'master' represents everything. You can decide its living state, you can decide Whether it is tattered or shiny, you can even decide whether its 'life' exists."

Liu Zhiwei's frown became tighter and tighter. He turned sideways, facing Jon, and pressed his hand on his shoulder.

"So Andy means more to me than anything," Jon said, "in terms of everything and people."

Liu Zhiwei pressed his hand tightly, and asked slowly: "Between Andy's death and your inability to walk, do you still need another Andy bear?"

Jon pursed his lips: "...No need." At that time, Jon was a sunny boy with unlimited prospects and possibilities, creativity and talent beyond anyone else.

"Yes, so sometimes you don't need such a character." Liu Zhiwei squeezed his hand, "When you recall it over and over again, its importance is emphasized over and over again, and its concept of 'life' is random. It deepens as you recall it again and again, changing every moment. Do you agree with me?"

Jon pursed his lips.

"I think it's a good thing for you that it's not here now, what do you think?" Liu Zhiwei said again.

Jon let out a sigh of relief: "You made it disappear."

Liu Zhiwei froze for a moment.

"I never forget to bring it, only this time."

Liu Zhiwei remembered that the last time they went to Malaysia, the big bear was also in Jon's suitcase.

"You know what it's like to lose control?" Jon said. "That's what I feel right now. When you board a piece of public transport and it's not going where you're going, it's heading into the unknown. direction. Now I’m on that bus. Panic and feeling out of control is what I hate the most.”

Liu Zhiwei was silent for a while, staring into Jon's eyes in the dark, hesitantly and slowly said: "If necessary, before you don't need Andy at all, at any time, I can be your 'life', your by the decision maker."

"But I'm a real life," Liu Zhiwei said nervously before Jon spoke, "You can't do to me what you did to Andy."

Jon smiled suddenly, and he said, "Then can I hug you?"

Liu Zhiwei didn't react, Jon had already tightened his arms and hugged Liu Zhiwei into his arms.Liu Zhiwei's body was moved from the edge of the bed to the inside, and Jon hugged him so tightly that he almost felt suffocated.The warm body temperature spread from Jon's chest to Liu Zhiwei's body, and the heart was almost stuck together with only two layers of skin.

Jon's breath blew past Liu Zhiwei's ears, and their ear bones were squeezed together. Liu Zhiwei couldn't help reminding Jon that he was not a doll, and when he was about to be crushed, Jon said softly: " Can I kiss you?"

Liu Zhiwei's brain crashed——

He said in a daze, "...would you still kiss your teddy bear?"

Jon thought hard for a while, and said very rigorously: "Sometimes."

Liu Zhiwei pushed Jon away violently: "I have a little altitude sickness - lack of oxygen." He took a deep breath, turned over suddenly, and turned his back to Jon.

"Now I'm on that bus. What I hate the most is panic and the feeling of being out of control." Jon's words echoed in Liu Zhiwei's mind, preventing him from forcing himself to leave.

He was still lying on the edge of the bed, but this time his back was facing Jon, his body curled up like a shrimp.Jon smiled slightly behind him.Then a pair of arms reached Liu Zhiwei's waist again, pulling him back into the same embrace.

Liu Zhiwei's whole body was feverish, he maintained that posture and did not dare to move, his eyes were wide open in the darkness.Jon behind him seemed very satisfied with this position. He hugged Liu Zhiwei tightly with the same strength as before. After a few minutes, he couldn't hear any movement—he fell asleep.

Liu Zhiwei could only feel his cheeks warming up.He turned his head and buried his face in the soft pillow, opened his mouth wide and let out a silent voice: "...mmp!"

On the afternoon of Liu Zhiwei's first trip to Lhasa, Zhang Chengqian's entertainment company released a new video - a photo of Zhang Chengqian playing and singing in the band in his early years, and there was another person in the team who was also familiar to fans - Bai He.

Originally, the popularity of this matter has remained high. Recently, due to the delay for a long time, some attention has been taken away by the new news, but now as soon as the new progress comes out, the army of fans who have been paying attention to this matter are all boiling.

This photo proves that Zhang Chengqian has indeed worked with Bai He, and the division of roles in the band can be seen at a glance from the instruments: Zhang Chengqian is the guitar and vocalist, and Bai He is the bass.

Bai He's fans reacted inconsistently to this photo.Some people say that this photo is fabricated, some people say that this may be the only time they were photographed working together, they have never been in a band, and some people say that even if they are in a band, Bai He, the bass player, is the band Zhang Chengqian is just the lead singer.

But with this photo as the basis to support Zhang Chengqian's accusation, everyone is more inclined to believe Zhang Chengqian's words.

——If Zhang Chengqian's words are true, then Bai He is the most successful deceitful person!

Bai He's public relations team was so busy that they ran around looking for the person who released this photo.On Zhang Chengqian, they determined that the other party had no evidence, because since Bai He had made such a decision, he would not leave Zhang Chengqian with any evidence or falsehoods that would allow him to win the lawsuit.But Bai He can clear a hard drive, can he clear the hard drives of all the people who went to see the band's performance?

Many people have actually taken photos, but that was ten years ago. Who still remembers the members of a small band singing on the street?

In the muddy water, only Liu Zhiwei's fans are particularly happy.

The idol doesn't have to do anything to be popularly searched by these two people every day, so happy!

And recently, the idol is still haunting the airport, and the ladies and sisters all sent us a group photo!

Not jealous, not envious...just hate! !

Miao Huijia and Dai Shan, who had just got off the plane and ran to their residence, couldn't wait to report the day's itinerary to the girls in the group, and sent countless photos of Liu Zhiwei's high-value profile.

Flipping through, Miao Huijia suddenly pressed one of the photos, frowned and said in doubt: "Hey, is this a ring? The one on the finger of the foreign little brother... looks like it was taken during an interview with Zeo That looks like it."