Euthanasia

Liu Zhiwei had a dream at night.

He dreamed that he was still in the original tube building, and when he woke up, he stared at the greasy ceiling in a daze for a while.He felt that he had a very long and beautiful dream, dreaming that he was married to Jon Williams, and in a whimsical way, Sun Peihua was imprisoned and Liu Yi cleared up his reputation.

He sat up from the bed in a trance, wandering around the crew in a blink of an eye.He was still acting as a sideshow without showing his face, not the protagonist, no lines, and no actor to play against him.

Desperately, Liu Zhiwei lingered among the various crews, buying vegetables in the noisy vegetable market, and cooking in the kitchen.The doors of every room in the shared house were closed, but various sounds still came out through the walls and door panels.

He hasn't been home, he can't go home.He had never been to Spain with Zhu Yuli, and it was impossible for Zhu Yuli to accept the fact that he was gay.

Liu Zhiwei could smell the aroma of his braised fish. He wondered how it was possible for Jon Williams to come to China, and how could he only like to eat his dishes.

whimsical.This is reality.

Liu Zhiwei sat in the living room alone with the dishes and ate.While eating, tears fell from my eyes and fell into the rice.

A big warm and dry hand stretched out from behind to his face, wiping away his tears.

"Whathappened, babe? (What happened, babe)"

When Liu Zhiwei turned his head, he found that he was holding a bowl and sitting on a round stool in his narrow room, and Jon was sitting on the bed behind him, with a magazine spread out on his lap.

"...Why are you here..." Liu Zhiwei said.

"Why am I not here?" Jon said, "I'm always by your side."

"Nonsense," Lau said. "You said 'forever' doesn't exist."

He turned his head and put down the bowl, and when he turned his head again, Jon was no longer behind him.

Liu Zhiwei's throat was choked, and the pain climbed up from his lungs, exhausted all the way to his throat.

He closed his eyes and heard someone say, "What are you thinking?"

Then a pair of lips kissed him, Liu Zhiwei stretched out his hands and hugged him tightly, afraid that when he opened his eyes, there would be nothing in front of him.

"Hey babe, open your eyes."

Liu Zhiwei refused to open his eyes.

"Zeo, wake up, Zeo." Jon's voice was in his ear, "Hey, I'm here."

Liu Zhiwei opened his eyes.

What was in front of him was not a greasy ceiling, what was lying under him was not the small bed that only half a person could sleep in, and there were no noisy co-tenants around.

Jon propped his arms beside him, frowning and looking at him nervously: "Are you okay?"

Jon turned on a mild floor lamp, but the light was not very bright, and everything looked hazy.

Liu Zhiwei was in a daze for a while, and hugged Jon tightly.

"What's wrong with you? What nightmare did you have?" Jon responded by hugging Liu Zhiwei tightly.His hand stroked Liu Zhiwei's back, and several kisses fell on the other's head.

"...I dreamed that all of this is fake." Liu Zhiwei said, "I still suspect that all of this is fake. If it is fake, don't let me wake up."

"Zeo," Jon said calmly, "you know, your greatest skill, and most charming charm, is to face reality without fear. You are always a sober, dreamer who faces reality— My dreamer."

Liu Zhiwei let go of Jon slightly, and touched the other's face with his hand.He could feel the hard stubble on Jon's cheeks, real and charming.

He glanced at the alarm clock on the bedside table.

Three in the morning.

"Then the wedding is not my dream, right?"

"You can tell what is a dream and what is reality." Jon raised his lips slightly, "And I, I married with my dream (I married with my dream)."

Liu Zhiwei hugged Jon tightly, and the body temperature passed and blended with each other through the chest cavity.He kissed Jon on the chin and said, "You want to do it?"

"I don't really want to." Jon said, "I just want to hold you like this now."

Liu Zhiwei curled his mouth and hugged Jon even tighter.

Early the next morning, Liu Zhiwei called Zhu Yuli to inform her of the news.

He said it very tactfully, because he didn't know what Jon was planning.Zhu Yuli was stunned when she heard this.She asked first: "...Is your relationship going to be made public?"

Liu Zhiwei pursed his lips: "I don't know...I don't care if it's public or not...I want to marry him, Mom, for the rest of my life." Liu Zhiwei's marriage agreement was signed very hastily.It's not so much a marriage as an employment contract.He doesn't feel anything himself, and the contract has more loopholes.He's had bad experiences, but that hasn't stopped him from continuing to develop himself.He still bravely found a few partners, but he also knew that neither those people nor himself had thought about the word "forever".

Now he suddenly felt that it was time.

He didn't want to "get something for nothing" with Jon in the past, and now he doesn't want to keep his love secret.If marriage was just a legal agreement, then he and Jon had it from the beginning, and he never felt like he and Jon were actually married.If there is only love between him and Jon, then they will be like those feelings that both parties have experienced before, like a fire, burning to the end and leaving only ashes, not even ashes.He loves Jon, not just Jon, which includes responsibility, kindness, friendship, respect and understanding, and more importantly, Jon symbolizes courage and everything else he yearns for.

So what is he to Jon?

Liu Zhiwei has never had such strong self-confidence in the past, but he decided to believe in himself once.He knows what he means to Jon.

Jon may have just used him as an excuse to survive at first, but this excuse did allow Jon to survive successfully.He knew that Jon had seen himself from him, hope, dream, and everything that Jon had lost or abandoned.

"...Mom, no matter how we go in the future, he will always be the most special person to me."

Liu Zhiwei had reached the end of his dream when he met Jon.No one can stick to his dream for a lifetime under the most difficult situation.At a certain point a man finds that he has reached an age when he can no longer dream.Giving up the dream is the only salvation for the desperate self.

Then Jon showed up.

Liu Zhiwei clenched his phone tightly, remembering the dream from the previous night.

"Mom, I had a nightmare," Liu Zhiwei said standing by the window, "I dreamed that everything was back to the original place, and I was still in that building, in that rented house. I didn't have 30 yuan on me, and I didn't know the future and Where is the way out.

"But I'm not sad about these. What I'm most sad about is that Jon never knew me." Liu Zhiwei said, "...he is a stranger that I have never met before."

Zhu Yuli was silent for a while, and said, "Let's do it. We're married, why don't we have a wedding? The more grand the better, my son is no longer an unknown little character, he will soon be an international superstar! How do you arrange it?" ? Your dad and I have to go."

Liu Zhiwei wiped his face and said with a smile, "It may be in the United States, or it may be in Venice... I will definitely buy your air tickets in advance."

"Okay! Next month and next month will be free for both of you! Your dad and I can go on vacation again!" Zhu Yuli said happily.She yelled twice on the phone to inform Liu Shuying that they were going on a trip again, then suddenly turned back to the microphone and said, "At that time, take a few more photos, and I will piss off that little bastard Yang Shuo and his family." .”

Liu Zhiwei hadn't heard Yang Shuo's name for a long time, and now he didn't feel the same as before.He asked casually, "Is he still working in the old place?"

"Hey, I've been fired a long time ago." Zhu Yuli's tone couldn't hide her joy and disdain, "When he went to date with a partner, he was reported anonymously for embezzling public funds. Consumption in the store..."

"Shop? What store?"

"Hey, you know, it's just that kind of shop... it's just for men and men." Zhu Yuli's gossip poured out, "Now, let's not talk about compensation to the company, everyone knows that he is gay Yes. At the beginning, their family spread the news of us to watch a good show, but now everyone is watching their good show. The wife he just talked about directly appealed for points, and he still has to give the girl a lot of money. "

Liu Zhiwei also heard it, but vaguely remembered that Jon had told him that he would not let Yang Shuo go.He smiled and said, "Good thing, at least other girls won't be cheated anymore."

"Isn't that right, I heard that the girl is pregnant... Also, in the family downstairs, the little girl often comes to see me," Zhu Yuli said again, "Her mother figured it out, and the little girl came to see me again." You always come here to give me things. You said that a family with a girl is more enlightened..."

"Try to spread the benefits to others... without me, their family will never associate with us." Liu Shuying's voice sounded from behind.

Liu Zhiwei froze for a moment: "What's going on?"

"There is a class called calculus in my little girl's school. It's not very good. Your father happened to know the teacher of that class, so he asked him to open a small stove and pay for a tutor." Zhu Yuli said, "Your father also That's all there is to it."

Liu Shuying had some objections, but Zhu Yuli suppressed them with a few words.Liu Zhiwei smiled and listened to Zhu Yuli chattering about homework for a while, then hung up the phone.

After Zhu Yuli hung up the phone, she turned to look at Liu Shuying, only to hear that Liu Shuying was still rambling: "Why are you going on a trip again, spending more money..."

She said seriously: "My son is getting married."

"Didn't he marry that long ago?" Liu Shuying frowned.

"The wedding hasn't even been held yet," Zhu Yuli said. "They're going to hold a make-up wedding this time. According to the influence of your son and daughter-in-law in the world, it's likely that the whole world will know that your son married a man."

Liu Shuying was stunned for a while, and then he said slowly: "...It's over...then it's over, can I, this old man, still manage him?"

"You don't mind now?" Zhu Yuli said, staring into his eyes.

"I already knew..." Liu Shuying avoided Zhu Yuli's eyes, "Besides, he's not here to do it."