Euthanasia

Jon hasn't seen Lu Yi for a long time.When he saw Lu Yi and Shanna in the coffee shop, he covered his eyes with one hand while moving forward: "Put down your crossed hands, you hurt me."

Lu Yi and Shanna looked at each other and put their hands down.

With Lu Yi's help, Jon sat on a soft seat and ordered a glass of iced mocha.

"I heard that Zeo's mother has approved your relationship." Shanna said, looking narrowly at Jon.

"That's right," Jon exhaled while looking at the ceiling, "She just treats Zeo like a chick that just broke its shell."

"Congratulations, Jon." Lu Yi said very sincerely from the side.

"Come on, you don't care about me at all," Jon rolled his eyes, "you don't care about your old buddy after you have Shanna."

"It's not normal that he cared about you that much," Shannah said bluntly, "especially when he's straight."

"Did you emphasize 'straight'?"

"I do not have."

"No, you emphasized."

"NO, I have not."

"you--"

"Stop," Lu Yi interrupted them, "Is there anything else you want to tell us, Jon?"

Jon was reminded by Lu Yi, he scratched his chin and said in a fluttering voice: "Errr...it's just some work and life coordination issues...you know, he is a workaholic, very dedicated...sometimes he is a bit So dedicated..."

Both Shanna and Lu Yi looked at him with raised eyebrows.

"Well, I don't have sex." Jon patted the back of his hand.

"Pfft." Shanna didn't hold back.

"Hey, you just laughed."

"I do not have."

"No, you laughed." Jon glared at her affirmatively, "This is a personal attack, Shanna."

"NO, I have not."

"Hey, hey hey, let's go back to the previous question." Lu Yi stopped them again, "How long has it been?"

"Oh...you know, from here..." Jon's words floated again, "Of course before that...maybe a year..."

"Jon, have you ever thought that this is your punishment?" Shanna said narrowly, "Jon Williams, there was a time when he couldn't have sex for a whole year."

"Lu Yi, can you shut her up?" Jon asked Lu Yi.

"No, you need her." Lu Yi said.

"Well, Ms. Shanna, do you have any thoughts, opinions, and suggestions on this?" Jon said before Shanna opened his mouth. "All forms of ridicule, sarcasm, and personal attacks are prohibited."

Shanna rested her chin and said, "Have you ever thought that this might be Zeo's problem?"

"Of course it's his problem, I wish..." Jon stopped in the middle of speaking, "What do you mean?"

"Zeo was sexually abused at a young age," Shanna said, "and not long after he became sexually conscious."

"But he's had boyfriends," Jon said, glaring at Shannah, "and he's had other sexual experiences. If he's having trouble with that, he's not going to have sex with his ex-boyfriends."

"Oh, so did he tell you about the good sex he had with his ex-boyfriends?" Shanna stirred the coffee with a spoon, and Jon was taken aback by her words.

Liu Zhiwei only told Jon that the emotional experience between him and his ex-boyfriends was not pleasant, but what about the sexual experience?

Jon opened his mouth, and it took a long time to utter the word "I": "I——don't know."

"Also, the meaning of you to him is different from that of his ex-boyfriends. He said you are his god, but Lu Yike never said that to me." Shanna said.

Lu Yi: "...Okay, my Athena, what else do you want me to do?"

Shanna smiled and scratched Lu Yi's chin.

"Thathurtsmeagain." Jon pointed grimly at them.

"If you were the most important and enjoyable of all his partners," Shannah said, withdrawing her hand and continuing to stir the coffee, "he would want you all to have a perfect, well-prepared experience. Jon, when you were about to post What was it like when you launched a new product?"

"Not feeling...maybe a little excited—" Jon shrugged.

"Oh, forget it (forget this), I'll change the question... emmmm, how did you feel when you were going to confront Zeo's mother and try to convince her?"

"A little nervous," Jon said. "It's not a small thing."

"That's right," Shanna said, "he's going to do a little unusual thing now, too, and because it's with you, the first time, and maybe he's never had a good time at these things in the past." experience, so he has a greater sense of panic about failure."

"But I'm not those people, he doesn't need to panic..."

"Jon, you know there's an experiment in psychology. People put two dogs in different cages and gave them light electric shocks. One set had a stop button, and as soon as they pressed that button, the shocks stopped, and the other One group would not stop no matter how they touched the button. After a few experiments, people switched them to another cage. Guess what happened?" Shanna raised her eyebrows and looked at Jon who was engrossed, "It was able to successfully stop the electric shock of the dogs who kept trying to hit the button, even though it didn't work, didn't give up easily, and the dogs who had failed so much earlier in the experiment that they knew what they were doing was futile, even though they could stop this time. Electric shocks, and not a single dog touched the button."

Jon spread his hands: "What do you want to say?"

"If a person has experienced a lot of failures in the early stage, it is difficult to have the courage to continue to try, and those who have experienced success will not give up trying easily. Zeo has experienced a lot of failures in his life, but he still persists because he once There have been huge successes—like the Independent Film Director Award he won, or that "Broken Style" you're investigating. But in this case, this one that he was hurt from the beginning, he are more likely to avoid and give up than to face it aggressively.”

Jon glared at Shannah and said, "You're a genius."

"Of course there is one more thing." Shanna took a sip of coffee, "Asians are more reserved about this aspect, they are not willing to express their desires directly, so there may not be any skills... But some A man takes this very seriously, maybe he doesn't want to make a fool of himself in front of a guy who has been through a lot of battles. For example, suppose Zeo is a hundred times better at flirting than you, and you can only be led by the nose, will you be happy? "

Jon rubbed his nose and said, "...that's impossible."

"See?" Shanna shrugged at Lu Yi, "If he is also sensitive in this regard, and you are in a dominant position, any behavior of yours may be interpreted as disrespect. That sensitivity will be infinitely magnified when you have desires. It has nothing to do with whether you really believe in the other person. It’s human shame at work, and the Chinese are much more serious than us in this regard.”

Jon said: "...you understand men better than men."

Shanna said: "I just understand human beings better...Of course, I spent a lot of effort to catch up with this old man." Shanna kissed the corner of Lu Yi's mouth.

"Hey, old man?" Lu Yi looked at Shanna.

"You're the most handsome man, no matter your age," Shanna said.

Jon rolled his eyes: "I'm sorry to interrupt your flirting...but can't we have a trusting sex?"

"As I said, let him have confidence," Shannah said. "He's a tough guy, and if he's had one chance to succeed, he's likely to try a second time. The first step can't be crossed." Too big, I know you're desperate, Jon, but he needs your respect more. I don't suggest you show too much skill, it might make him feel inferior."

"Inferiority?" Jon said, "I mean, he's facing me, a guy whose legs can't move easily—"

"Look, Jon, it's a stereotype mentality. A lot of people think boys are better at math than girls, even the girls themselves. Somebody split the same number of boys and girls in the same class, They were placed in two classrooms, and everyone in the two classrooms did the same set of problems. The only difference was that the children in group A were told that they were doing a set of math problems, while the children in group B were told that they were doing a set of math problems. What they did was just a geometric puzzle." Shanna pulled out a few toothpicks and arranged them on the table. "You know what the result is? The average grade of the boys in group A is twice that of the girls in group A," she snapped a toothpick Next to another intact toothpick, "In group B, it was the opposite. The girls scored twice as much as the boys."

The other two toothpicks are set aside: "That's the stereotype, you don't even know it exists. If Zeo thinks you're American, you're older, you've got more sexual experience, he'll think you're would be way above him in that, if he happened to be very sensitive in that—you know—" Shannah shrugged.

Jon pondered for a while, and slowly took a sip of mocha with his chin resting on his lips, the milk froth sticking to his lips: "Okay, I'll try... you know, I never thought I would want to be with you My husband makes love so hard."

"Jon, it's not difficult at all," Shanna said, "you are much luckier than me. You know, I fell in love with Lu Yi when I was 17, but this guy fell in love with you when you had an accident. I almost had a nervous breakdown, and I never thought about marriage and family since then. What's more, I can't continue to think about my relationship with him under your situation."

Lu Yi looked at Shanna with a surprised expression, while Jon opened his mouth and said in a daze, "...Thank you."

"You're welcome." Shannah leaned back in her chair. "He's mine now."

Liu Zhiwei sneezed while packing up the drum sticks.He rubbed his nose, only to hear Yan Ming ask: "Have you caught a cold?"

"It's just an itchy nose..." Liu Zhiwei thought of Jon inexplicably, and the thought of going home to face the longing Jon gave him a headache.He packed his things slowly, and was about to leave when he heard Yan Ming say, "Hey, by the way, you're going to record next week's variety show on Saturday, right?"

"Yes." Liu Zhiwei nodded.The Pretender Challenge recording is broadcast weekly, and the script will be adjusted accordingly according to the broadcast situation. Liu Zhiwei was reminded by Xu Ting before that there may be more parts in the next episode.

"That's right, let's find a time to have a drink tomorrow?"

Liu Zhiwei froze for a moment.Yan Ming has made an appointment for the third time, and it will be obvious if he refuses again.What made him feel a little strange was how did Yan Ming know that he was recording a show on Saturday?

"Is there something going on at home tomorrow?" Yan Ming said jokingly, but blocked Liu Zhiwei's way.Liu Zhiwei smiled and said, "It's okay, let's do it tomorrow."

"Okay, let's go together after we beat the drums," Yan Ming said cheerfully, "I'll take you to a good place."

After Liu Zhiwei returned home, he didn't find Jon approaching excitedly.Jon was sitting on the sofa watching a movie, holding half a watermelon in his hand, and eating it with a spoon using the method Liu Zhiwei taught him.

Seeing Liu Zhiwei coming home, Jon turned around and greeted him very normally: "Hey, welcome back."

Liu Zhiwei heaved a sigh of relief somehow.He put down his things and said, "Have you had dinner yet?"

"No."

Liu Zhiwei had already expected it. While putting on his apron, he said, "Jon, someone uploaded my video on the Internet, do you know what happened?"

"Probably your second fan," Jon said.

"...What is a secondary fan?"

"The number one is me." Jon pointed at himself with a spoon, "But you know, there is a guy in my team who is obsessed with you. I have never seen him watch any TV series, but he will all your TV series, I can’t stop watching movies or even variety shows.”

Liu Zhiwei: "...it scares me a little."

"I will seriously stop his shameful behavior." Jon said.

"...No, you are more terrifying."

Jon pretended not to hear.

Liu Zhiwei simply cooked two dishes and put them in front of Jon, watching a movie with him.Jon played an old love movie, and Liu Zhiwei watched it for a while and said, "Isn't this an early movie made by Liszt?"

Liszt is now a well-known big-name commercial film director, but in the early days he also made many literary romance films, and this is one of them.The movie tells the story of a boy who met a mermaid while collecting shells on the seashore, so he hid the mermaid as his only playmate.But as he grew up, he gradually changed. He realized the rarity of mermaids, so his love for mermaids turned into a pathological possessive desire, and he and the mermaids were isolated in a closed rented room.Mermaids end up rotting in filthy fish tanks.

This film discusses many things, whether it is an actor or an actress, they all become first-line movie stars in the end.The video has played to the end, Liu Zhiwei looked at the filthy fish tank and the mermaid with silver scales in it, couldn't help sighing and said: "Liszt is amazing."

"Do you think this is love?" Jon said while slowly picking up the food.He is very used to using chopsticks. "They are two kinds of creatures, even the medium of survival is different. He thought she loved him, but they don't even use the same language. All this may just be his imagination."

"Hmm... who knows..." Liu Zhiwei gave Jon a piece of meat, "Love is something completely private. She has a human face and puts his emotions on her. He fell in love, but with her Nothing to do."

"Am I in such imaginary love now?" Jon asked suddenly.

Liu Zhiwei was stunned for a moment, and the chopsticks stopped.

Jon didn't urge him, just waited quietly for his answer.

"No." Liu Zhiwei said.

"That means I can get the same response," Jon said.

Liu Zhiwei was silent for a while: "...you can."

Jon didn't insist on a kiss or a hug as Liu Zhiwei imagined, he just simply smiled and blinked his eyes slowly.His eyelashes were long, and his emerald green eyes were tinged yellow in the light, and when he blinked, the lashes slowly lowered and then rose.That smile is damn charming.

Liu Zhiwei put down his chopsticks: "You...what's wrong with you today?"

"It's nothing," Jon said, "I'm just waiting for you to take the initiative."

The author has something to say:

Liu Zhiwei: "...insidious and cunning."