Euthanasia

Jon and Liu Zhiwei have a new activity.Besides waiting for Liu Zhiwei to come home to cook every day, Jon's current favorite activity is sharing stories with Liu Zhiwei before going to bed.

The story has been short and jerky at the beginning, and has become longer and more vivid.

From the very beginning, he could think of one thing in a few seconds, but now he needs to spend an hour a day to fully recall the cause, process and result of that thing, so that it can be displayed in front of Liu Zhiwei most interestingly.

On the fifth night after Liu Zhiwei finished filming Zhang Chengqian's MV, Jon lay on the bed with SpongeBob SquarePants in his arms, looked at Liu Zhiwei expectantly with the same expression, and patted the bed beside him.

"Storytime!"

Liu Zhiwei changed his clothes just after the night's scene, and sat on the side of the bed, looking at Jon and couldn't help laughing.

"Then I'll go first." Lu Yi knocked on the door frame of their bedroom, with his coat on his wrist.

"Thank you, Brother Lu." Liu Zhiwei greeted the other party, and saw Lu Yi leave eagerly while looking at his watch.

"Brother Lu is so late, what's the matter?" Liu Zhiwei couldn't help but said as he watched him leave.

Jon rolled his eyes: "Sanna lives in his house recently, maybe he is always worried about accidents in his house."

"What accident will happen to the house?" Liu Zhiwei asked, "...damage the furniture?"

"Break the furniture? No, that's too childish," Jon said, "One summer I went to Shanna's beach villa with Lu Yi, and she claimed that it was the beach villa she bought. It was given to her by a rich man. She lost a bet with others during the horse race and took the house as a mortgage. We were thrown out by a group of black security guards when we were sleeping in the middle of the night."

Liu Zhiwei couldn't help but burst out laughing. "It's her house, she can do it."

"Yes," Jon said angrily, "the rich man she met the day before gave her his villa that night, and she lost the villa the next day without losing a penny. But Lu Yi and I tasted the feeling of being 'swept out' for the first time."

Liu Zhiwei knew that he had to show sympathy to Jon at this time, but he couldn't help but want to laugh, and the result was that his face was flushed and his stomach hurt.

"Let me see how much your legs can move." Liu Zhiwei said slowly.

Jon lifted his legs vigorously.Perhaps in the eyes of others, it can be said that it has hardly moved, but Liu Zhiwei showed a happy smile, "Jon, you recovered very quickly!"

"Of course, I spend at least a third of my day trying to get them to move," Jon said proudly.

Liu Zhiwei asked: "Okay, what are we talking about today?"

Jon blurted out: "Have you ever sung?"

Liu Zhiwei was a little puzzled: "Everyone has sung it."

"Who was the last time you sang to?"

Liu Zhiwei thought for a while: "A few years ago... There was an annual meeting in the company. I almost never attended it. I attended it once and sang an old song as a show."

Jon suppressed the cry of "you haven't even sung to me" and asked, "When was the last time you sang to yourself?"

Liu Zhiwei froze for a moment.

"The last time I sang to myself...in the shower." Liu Zhiwei said.

Jon didn't expect the answer to be so simple, he asked unwillingly: "Why haven't I heard you sing in the bathroom?"

Liu Zhiwei was stunned again.After a while, he said, "That time I fell out of love."

Jon made a "Wow" mouth.

Liu Zhiwei adjusted the pillow to a comfortable position for himself, found a doll of Jon and hugged it in his arms. After thinking about it for a while, he said: "It was my first love. We almost grew up together, but only in the same class in high school. University Sometimes I thought we were together—”

Jon paused for a moment at the word "thought".

"But he doesn't think so."

Jon frowned, sat upright, and looked at Liu Zhiwei: "What does that mean?"

"I didn't find out that he and I were both gay until high school. You know, the environment in China was not so friendly to gays more than ten years ago. In China, a country where even heterosexual education is lacking, all you can do online The information I found all contained the so-called "erotic" meaning, prejudiced and even wrong. We can't openly declare sex, so this knowledge is too scarce for heterosexuals or homosexuals." Liu Zhiwei Said, "After I found out that he and I were the same kind of people, we would communicate and communicate quietly, and I learned a lot from him."

Jon didn't speak, he had a vague guess.

"When we came to university, we went to another city, and people around us became more open and self-conscious. I thought I was in a freer place." Liu Zhiwei said, "But the reality is that we went from one cage to another, which is even more terrifying. In the past, someone else made a cage for us, but now we make a cage for ourselves, and we become the former 'others'."

Jon reached out and touched Liu Zhiwei's back.Liu Zhiwei moved slightly closer to him.

"He had a showdown with me, he didn't mean to be with me." Liu Zhiwei paused for a while, "It took me a long time to get out of that relationship."

Jon touched Liu Zhiwei's hand with the back of his hand.He spoke lightly, but his fingers were cold.

Jon said, "It's over, babe."

Liu Zhiwei cocked his lips at him.

Jon said, "Comeon, ask your husband to give you a hug."

Liu Zhiwei faced Jon, so Jon hugged SpongeBob SquarePants in his arms, the mud horse doll in front of Liu Zhiwei, and Liu Zhiwei.

"If you find it difficult, you don't have to say it," Jon said. "You have your own spiritual world."

Liu Zhiwei was bored in the doll, and said: "... Shanna is right, we don't know each other well... I'm a coward, but I want to try, just try."

Jon tightened his arms and said, "Do you want to know who I sang to last time?"

"Who?" Liu Zhiwei asked.

"For you," said Jon, "on the island, did you forget?"

Liu Zhiwei thought of that night, the bonfire, the sea breeze, and Jon's singing.

The corners of Liu Zhiwei's lips curled up slowly.

"Then what do you do to yourself?"

"Now," said Jon, "can you hear me? I'm singing in my head right now."

Liu Zhiwei hummed and laughed: "What are you singing?"

"What were you singing to yourself in the bathroom?" Jon asked him back.

"Lostit." Liu Zhiwei said.

"It's cruel," said Jon.

"So what are you singing about?"

"Umbrella." Jon said, "And that's when you need me there, with you I'll always share (that's when you need me, I will always share with you)."

Lu Yi sat on the sofa, looking at a questionnaire in front of him with a headache. "What do you want to do?"

Shanna was wearing a black lace pajamas, with red wine in hand, and lit a scented candle, which made the whole room smell sweet. "A psychological questionnaire," Shannah said.

"You know 80.00% of the answers." Lu Yi said with a glance.

"But you don't know mine."

"Your answer is likely to change at any time." Lu Yi said.

Shanna said, "You can try."

Lu Yi picked up the questionnaire, looked at it for a while, and randomly picked one he didn't know the answer to: "What is your most precious memory?"

"It's polite to say your own answer before asking someone else's question," Shanna said, resting her chin.

"I played with Jon before he broke his leg." Lu Yi said, "It's your turn."

Shanna said: "You bought me cake after that game, and I got a ring."

Lu Yi froze for a moment. "...that's your birthday."

"That's right, the ring was made by Jon. I know his aesthetics." Shanna exchanged her crossed legs. "He hid the ring in the cake, but asked you to give the cake to me."

"That was his prank." Lu Yi said awkwardly.

"I know." Shanna shrugged.

Lu Yi coughed dryly, changed the subject, and saw the next question: "What is your worst memory?"

Seeing Shanna pouting at him, Lu Yi said consciously, "The day Jon fell from the sky. I almost thought he was dead. What about you?"

"Jon did 30 hours of emergency surgery, and you waited outside for more than [-] hours without eating or drinking," Shanna said.

"Yes, but we're talking about your worst memory."

"That's my worst memory," Shanna said.

Lu Yi was stunned.

"Then I flew to Hawaii after Jon was safe, told you I was dying, and told you to fly over immediately."

"But I only saw a sand sculpture tombstone." Lu Yi said indifferently.

"Then you slept for forty hours at the resort hotel I arranged on that island," Shanna said.

Lu Yi pursed his lips and whispered, "Thank you."

"Next, how about this one? Take turns sharing at least five of the good qualities you think a romantic partner should have."

Lu Yi was silent for a while, then said, "Pretty."

"Handsome," Shanna continued.

"clever."

"Responsible."

"Full of hope in life."

"sympathetic."

"Not stingy."

"Love clean."

"I like animals."

"I don't like to point fingers at others."

"..."

"..."

They looked at each other for a while, then moved their eyes to the next question in unison.

"Make three affirmative sentences with 'we' as the subject." Lu Yi said, "We live together."

"we are good friends."

"We fight sometimes."

"We'll celebrate birthdays together."

"We've known each other for a dozen...20 years."

"We haven't seen each other very much since Jon broke his leg."

Lu Yi put down the questionnaire: "Is this the 'topic' you asked Jon to talk to Zoe every night?"

Shanna held her chin: "Yes, it's very interesting, isn't it. The test is the exposure between people. Once you tell another person what you have never exposed, you will have far more intimacy with him than others. "

Lu Yi was silent.

"It's very effective, isn't it?" Shanna smiled at Lu Yi through the candlelight, and then moved to the next question, "If you die tonight, and you don't have a chance to tell anyone, your regret..."

Lu Yi suddenly stretched out his arms and held Shanna's chin towards him with his palm, kissing her lips.

Shanna dropped the questionnaire and took his head in both hands, deepening the kiss.

When Lu Yi pressed her on the bed, he looked down at her: "You expected it a long time ago?"

Shanna laughed, the black lace pajamas outlined her beautiful figure, and her wavy long hair was scattered on the bed, as if glowing: "If I die tonight, I will regret that I didn't go with you Get over the bed."

In the early hours of the morning, Jon was sleeping soundly with Liu Zhiwei in his arms. The phone beside his bed was on, and it was a text message from Rick.

"Jon! We found something amazing!  …"