Inspirational life of rebirth

Tang Minyi had a dream, and the plot in the dream was ridiculous: his son married his daughter.

In the dream, Hong Hong was about 25 or [-] years old, several centimeters shorter than he is now, with a pale complexion, delicate facial features but a sickly appearance, wearing a groom's dress without much joy, and his eyes were indifferent and emotionless , it looks like an action figure at first glance.

Daughter Xin Yan wore a gorgeous wedding dress, and the diamond ring on her finger was big and shiny. She was beautiful, but she didn't show any joy on her face. She stood quietly beside Hong Hong, and the two held each other stiffly. Proceed to greet the guests.

There was also a strange self, standing beside the couple with a smile on his face, he didn't seem to see that the young couple's looks were different, and they were far away from each other, and he spoke words of satisfaction and comfort to them.This situation was terrifying. He rushed forward to wake himself up, but when he stretched out his fingers, he realized that he was an invisible and transparent person, and no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't touch anyone present.

How could he be so stupid? It must not be him who smiled and watched Honghong and Xinyan hold their wedding ceremony. Although the young couple are not related by blood, they only have a brother-sister relationship with each other. As a father, he understands it very clearly .

Honghong only liked him as his father at the age of first love, this is the most taboo secret between father and son, and no matter how much he objected and obstructed, Honghong persisted stubbornly, rejecting all the signals of suitors, except him Do not want any.

Of course, he also likes Honghong, especially his son's perseverance, which slowly settles from the impetuous and violent enthusiasm, and sublimates into an affectionate but dedicated and self-disciplined.He could hardly believe that there was a person in this world who could love him like this. This kind of pure and strong emotion was what he lacked the most in his life.He is used to planning and compromise, using reason and logic to behave and act. Too emotional experience will affect his correct judgment and make everything worse and out of control.

But he also failed. For example, in the only marriage, he thought he was a traditional man. If he married a wife, he would definitely be a good husband. Honoring elders... His wife is not a mature and traditional woman.At that time, she was about his age, but he was already a precocious man, and she was just a little girl yearning for romantic love.

This is the root of the tragedy between him and her. He never knew that what she wanted most was what he tried his best to abandon.He felt that those unstable emotional factors were like the appendix. If it is not inflamed now, it does not mean that it will not be life-threatening in the future, so it is best to cut it off early.But like every young girl, she is waiting for a love of her own, and she also fantasizes about being a star who can sing and dance, so that more people can see her and like her.

It's not that he doesn't like her, he is a man, and she is a beautiful girl. When they met for the first time, she also blushed and secretly lowered her head.On the wedding day, her happy smile was more beautiful than flowers, and his heart was peaceful and sweet in the few days after marriage.

But soon, she became depressed. She thought he was not interesting, and never said nice words to coax him, let alone her dream of becoming a star, but let her conceive immediately according to the parents' request. pregnant.She was afraid of having a child, she shed tears in front of him more than once and said that she didn't want it, fearing that the child would make her waist thicker and her breasts sag, and she would never be able to realize her dream again.

He could actually coax her well, he just needed a little more patience, but at that time he really couldn't understand her worry, so he just invited her mother to accompany her, while he was busy studying for exams... It was a chaotic era, and This is a difficult time, how important it is for him to study well in college, and marriage and children have already completed most of the previous goals.

At that time, he didn't know that there was a disease called postpartum depression. When she gave birth, it was like going through a ghost gate, shed a lot of blood, and after being rescued, she was very depressed, and she didn't even want to see her child. He lost his temper and let him go.He was not angry, but thought that she might need a good rest, so he obediently got out of the room, and only went to see her in the morning and evening every day, and at other times he entered her room to persuade her to take medicine.

All that remained of her depressed life was those medicines. She tried every means to spit them out or not to take them.In the last few days, she was lying in the hospital in a broken state. He asked for leave to accompany her, and was beaten and scolded by her parents and kicked out of the ward. He didn't even feel angry, but a little sad and at a loss. It should be a peaceful and happy marriage, how could it be like this?

It wasn't until he read her diary later that he realized that she was actually smart and sensitive.She had already understood that he did not love her.

Their marriage was the order of their parents and the words of a matchmaker, but she still wanted love.He still doesn't know much about the diversity of love. He only thinks that those romantic romances are romantic on paper. True love is like his father and mother.Then persevere, unwavering in life and death.It was the deepest trust, the heaviest commitment, and the end point that can only be reached by crossing thousands of rivers and mountains together. Now he and his wife have just begun, and there are still long years to go to verify the business.

He didn't expect that she would be so fragile, because she was disappointed in him, and she no longer looked forward to it, and went directly to another end: death of despair.

For her death, he felt very guilty, he had harmed her in this marriage, he finally realized that they were not suitable, but the price was so high that he could never forget it in his life.

He didn't even want to try it again, maybe there are only a few women as strong as his mother in this world.Most normal women, like his ex-wife, are sensitive and delicate, need delicate and gentle treatment, and love to listen to false love stories, which he really can't do.In addition to his original intention, the path he wants to take also determines that his life will be extremely busy, and he needs the other party to accommodate and take care of him in turn.

So when he adopted his son, he didn't think about it for a long time. Since he didn't want to get married again, and Hong Hong was so cute and pitiful, then they needed each other.

He never expected that Honghong would be so sensible and well-behaved, he would not let him worry about it since he was a child, and he learned to take care of his father when he was only ten years old.But when raising his son in his teens, Hong Hong became his biggest worry overnight. The son actually liked him, not only because the son liked his father.

This was an unbelievable thing, completely beyond his reason and logic, and he was a little flustered when dealing with it, and he was in a hurry for a while.He will definitely be able to get back on the right track. This is the son he taught himself. As long as Honghong learns tolerance and self-discipline, he will be able to correct himself when he matures. The wrong emotions and physical desires need his calm control and guidance. It can no longer be too simple and rude like treating the first marriage.

But Honghong is not his ex-wife. This child is very cunning and tenacious. No matter how he obstructs and suppresses him, Honghong perseveres hard and spends his entire adolescence like that.

He witnessed the growth of his son in those years, and felt the authenticity of that emotion.Those things that he had discarded long ago slowly emerged in his heart. Sensual impulse has no practical value, but it does have the heat to burn everything. It can make him happy physically and mentally, and feel that he has returned to his youth. Watching The sly look in his son's eyes when he bowed his head made him suddenly have the desire to bully and kiss each other.

His son has become more and more aggressive and active, even when he deliberately shows weakness, he still makes small movements that tickle his heart. This is by no means a delicate flower, but a fast-growing tree that clings to him, firmly Rooted in his heart, in order to follow his footsteps all the way, grow taller day after day.

This is a natural accumulation, and it is also the true love in his ideal. He can't help but like Tang Qinghong like this, as a father and a man.

But what does this dream mean?He knew that he didn't feel that much sense of security.In the dream, he was very anxious and angry. He couldn't touch himself or others, let alone speak. This feeling was almost terrifying.

He watched helplessly another pair of resentful couples, just like him and his ex-wife back then.This can only be a tragedy, Xinyan marrying Honghong will not have a happy ending.There is only one person Hong Hong loves, and it cannot be anyone else, and it is not allowed to be anyone else, even his daughter Tang Xinyan.

The scene in the dream was too realistic, and he was filled with the idea of ​​"must stop", otherwise Xinyan and Honghong's life would be over, and he would die alone.

He said to Honghong that when I am old in the future, you can pursue your own happiness, but he is not old yet, he will never admit to being old, and he does not believe that Honghong's love is only so short and shallow. More than once, he took the promise of a lifetime, and he took it all seriously.

He waved his hands and shouted loudly, but still no one could hear him. He was sweating profusely, but a familiar voice sounded in his ears, "Dad? Are you having a nightmare?"

This is not a dream, Hong Hong heard his voice, he moved his body in surprise, and woke up suddenly, only to realize that he was really dreaming just now.

He almost never had nightmares after that, so the son looked at him with surprise, "Did you really have a nightmare? Dad, what did you dream about, so nervous?"

He hesitated for a moment, but still said, "I dreamed a very ridiculous thing, you and Xinyan... got married."

There was a ghostly expression on his son's face, he opened his mouth wide for a long time before closing it, and then smiled stiffly, "Huh? Uh... what a strange dream, haha."

This "hehe" sounded too fake, Tang Minyi frowned slightly, feeling a little embarrassed, "It's just a dream, you don't have to think about it. If I knew you had such a big reaction, I wouldn't say it."

Tang Qinghong tried to make his expression more natural, covered his mouth and yawned, "Yes, it's just a dream, what can I think about, Dad, it's up to you not to think too much."

The two chatted a few words, then turned off the light and continued to sleep.Tang Qinghong, who was in a disturbed mood in the second half of the night, also had a dream.

He dreamed that he told his father all the secrets, and his father not only believed him, but also hugged him full of love, and he felt satisfied that there would be no happier moment than now... Then there was a loud noise in the sky, An unnamed god appeared on the stage: "Bold Tang Qinghong, I thought that you died unjustly, and I gave you a chance to be reborn, but dared to disregard the grace of heaven and leak the secret of heaven! Now take back the gift and send you to the underworld, you It's convincing!"

He screamed in fright, and woke up immediately, waking up his father who had just fallen asleep, and patted his back to comfort him for a long time.He huddled in his father's arms and gasped for breath with lingering fear, never daring to have the idea of ​​revealing the secret, and silently praying not to have this terrible dream.