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Zhuang Ji sat there, silent, and even his eyes were a little dazed, as if he had been haunted.

Zhuang Ji suffered from depression when he was in junior high school. Of course, this was Xia Zhen's guess. At that time, Zhuang Ji liked to be alone in a daze, and he was not very cheerful, so I don't blame Xia Zhen for guessing that he had depression.

Xia Zhen felt that depression was not good. Many people who committed suicide were due to depression.

Although ten years have passed, Zhuang Ji is no longer what he used to be. The resolute and calm look in his eyes shows that he will not be a person who will commit suicide in depression at all, but Xia Zhen is still worried about him and dare not leave for a while.

The driver had brought him his clothes, and he had put them all on, and the driver had taken away the dirty clothes and brought them home. Besides, he was busy with work and had to go to work, but he still sat at Zhuangji's house without moving.

Zhuang Ji said he was going to go out, but he sat on the sofa without moving.

Xia Zhen deliberated for a while before waking Zhuang Ji up from that state of silent fugue, "Zhuang Ji!"

Zhuang Ji looked up at him, as if taken aback, "Ah, why haven't you left yet?"

Xia Zhen, "..."

Xia Zhen said, "Are you okay? In fact, people cannot be resurrected after death, you know this truth. Rather than being sad here, it's better to go and see if the deceased has any family members who need help. That's good, right?"

Zhuang Ji let out an "ah" in a daze, then nodded, but he didn't move.

Xia Zhen couldn't see anymore, got up and sat next to Zhuang Ji, stretched out her hand to wrap his shoulders, and said, "In the past, you would tell me anything, but since I'm your good friend, you're not happy, why don't you If it’s inconvenient for others to say anything, you can tell me. I won’t say it.”

Zhuang Ji looked at him, raised his hand to press his temple, and said, "It's actually nothing. It's just that someone died, and things will hurt others."

Xia Zhen said, "Who died, did they have a good relationship with you?"

Zhuang Ji seemed to have suddenly removed the hard and spiky shell before, exposing the fragility and softness that everyone would have.

Zhuang Ji knew what he was like at this time, so he didn't want Xia Zhen to be around, so he pushed Xia Zhen and said, "Go, I want to stay by myself for a while, and go to the company later."

Xia Zhen turned cold, stared at him with an ugly face, and said, "What do you mean, don't you actually regard me as a friend in your heart? Are you so wary of me?"

Zhuang Ji's rejection of him made Xia Zhen embarrassed and sad.

After all, he himself was confiding in Zhuang Ji.

Zhuang Ji treats everyone else with entertainment, and has a good relationship with everyone, but he doesn't have a heart-to-heart relationship, except for Xia Zhen.

However, he really didn't want to become a babbling, fragile man in front of Xia Zhen, only a loser would do that, his appearance was too ugly.

But Xia Zhen's words were too serious, and Zhuang Ji had to pay attention to them. He sighed, even suppressed the excessive sadness in his heart, put away the uncomfortable trance, and said, "It's not what you think. It's just, this There is really nothing to say about such a thing. It was one of my seniors who died, and he had supported me before."

Xia Zhen said, "Who the hell is it?"

Zhuang Ji said, "You definitely don't know him, his name is Ji He."

Xia Zhen was a little surprised, because he knew this person, he had heard jokes about him, and he had seen a real person.

Xia Zhen knew this, and it was all thanks to Yi Xiao. Yi Xiao once entertained him to play. At that time, there were several other friends of Yi Xiao, and a lot of men and women in the entertainment industry, even Xia Yibo was there.

The joke at that time was naturally very obscene and ugly. It seemed that someone was fucked hard and had to go to the hospital to see anorectal department every three days. It became a big joke in the circle. He is still a talented actor, but he has been hidden by the snow. He can't live on. He can only live by selling his ass. He has become a male prostitute. Someone asked Xia Yibo if he had slept with this person before. Don't want to touch, and so on.

The person being laughed at is Ji He.

That was not long after Xia Zhen returned to China. When he was abroad, although the atmosphere there was open, he was a complete academic, and because of his fucking relationship, he was quite conservative about the relationship between men and women, and he was definitely not a person who indulged in private life, so this kind of It's a joke, it's the first time he's heard it.

Moreover, as a man, he felt that he had a little grace, so he wouldn't take other people's things like this as a joke.

So he has a very clear memory of the person who was laughed at at that time.

Even afterwards, there was another person on the spot who said that Ji He was on call, and in order to prove that what he said was serious, he actually called someone.

The man did arrive soon, the light was not particularly bright at the time, what Xia Zhen saw was a man with a pale to yellowish complexion, not very tall, about 175, thin, wearing a pink shirt and leggings, with facial features He is very handsome, although his movements are not feminine, but his whole body exudes an aura that is more charming than women.

Although Xia Zhen felt that it was wrong to show disgust and disgust to a stranger out of politeness, Xia Zhen did hate and disgust him at the time. Someone deliberately introduced Ji He to Xia Zhen, and Ji He reached out to shake his hand. Xia Zhen He didn't answer, just nodded indifferently and arrogantly to him, then turned his face away, hardly sat down again after that, talked to Yi Xiao and left first.

Ji He should have been embarrassed at the time, but Xia Zhen didn't notice.

What was he thinking at that time?He seemed to be wondering if this would happen to Zhuang Ji, and he was insulted and laughed at by others.

Xia Zhen felt that she was suffering from Zhuang Ji's persecution paranoia. As long as there were bad things in the entertainment industry, he would like to add to Zhuang Ji, and then he became upset and couldn't do anything.

But now that I think about it, people are different.

Not everyone's suffering will appear on his beloved, Zhuang Ji is not so bad and fragile.

Xia Zhen didn't say that she knew Ji He, and besides, she couldn't say that she knew Ji He, it was just that she met him once, and he hated him very much at that time.

Xia Zhen said, "Did he treat you well before? How did you know each other?"

Zhuang Ji, who was sitting upright, bent down. He put his arms on his thighs and buried his face in his palms. After a while, he said, "Speaking of which, I'm sorry for him. I was still studying at the time, I worked as an odd job in a modern light comedy crew. That show is very old. It was called "Happy Events Next Door". It was quite popular back then. Ji He was the second male lead in it at that time. Someone in the crew wanted to sneak up on me. Ji He helped me out of a crisis. Then again, when I was in my junior year, I played a small supporting role in a drama. I was bullied by several staff members and even hit my head. It’s a big bag, because of the concussion and nausea for several days, it was Ji He who helped me at that time, and asked me to go to the drugstore to buy medicinal oil to rub it. In another movie after that, he also helped me say I got a good word, I played a supporting role in some scenes, and then I got in touch with Director Chen, and got a lot of advice from Director Chen. At that time, I was too arrogant and suffered too much, and then I realized the importance of being easy-going. But , Since then, Ji He has been on the decline. He has never been popular. After being rumored to be gay, he basically couldn’t get a movie. The directors are unwilling to use him. He thinks his mother is gay. I can’t play a straight man at all. In fact, he was not a girl at all at that time. You can tell by watching his works at that time, but people’s subjective judgments are so biased. Willing to change his mind. Later, because he offended someone, he couldn't get along in the circle anymore, so he was completely hidden and never acted again. He has no education at all, no savings, and his reputation has been spread badly. It's terrible, but he was popular before and he was gay, I heard that someone pimped him and asked him to accompany others to earn some extra money."

Having said this, Zhuang Ji stopped, raised his face, and looked at a pair of calligraphy and painting on the opposite wall with confused and painful eyes, and then continued, "Actually, after I became popular, he came to see me several times. , said that he still wanted to act, and asked if I could help him as a director. Based on the preference of several directors for me, it is actually no problem to let him join the crew as a small supporting role."

He turned his head to look at Xia Zhen, his eyes were painful but determined, "I didn't agree, I gave him some money and sent him away, saying that his image was already bad and it was impossible to get back up. And if he comes back again In the entertainment industry, the media has no morals. As long as it is newsworthy, the more painful other people's scars are, the more they will expose them. At that time, what privacy does he have? Originally, only people in the circle laughed at him. People laughed and laughed at me. It’s better to hide myself than to live a joke. Why do I have to come back to play again.”

Xia Zhen felt very complicated in her heart, and Zhuang Ji's pain seemed to have infected him as well.

Zhuang Ji laughed again at this time, and laughed sarcastically, "Look, am I a very hypocritical person? Others have helped me many times, and I never agreed to help him. If it was Me, I have fallen into that situation. In fact, I definitely want to continue acting. Only acting can make me feel fulfilled and valuable. Even if I am ridiculed, I want to continue. But for my own benefit, I don’t I don’t want to help him. If I help him, people will say something about me. Be friends with a notorious person, say that I am like him, and anyone can do it? People in the circle laugh at it, and the director and producer have to question it Is there something wrong with me as a person? Even advertisers won’t look for me again.”

This was probably the first time that Zhuang Ji had cut his heart out for others to see. Xia Zhen was so shocked that it was only then that he truly understood how much Zhuang Ji had paid for the career he liked.

Others prejudged that the entertainment industry is a mess, but are those who live and make progress in this considered dirty place really inferior to those rich people who think they are superior and can play with others?

Xia Zhen was always clumsy, comforting people was not his forte, so he could only put his arm around Zhuang Ji's shoulder and said, "It's not your fault. Does that Ji He have any family members? Donate a sum of money for his family." Bar."

Zhuang Ji glanced at Xia Zhen and said, "I'm not as good as you think. People in the circle call me a bad person in private, and they say that I do one thing in person and another in another, and it's not wrong. You go, I'm going The company is gone. Ji He is dead. Surely many media will start writing about him. People are dead, and they will pull him out to earn the last fortune from his scars. This is how this world is. Who really thinks about other people’s injuries and Pain, but it’s all for your own benefit. Even if you’re sad, it’s just feeling sorry for yourself when something hurts you.”

Zhuang Ji pushed Xia Zhen's hand away, stood up, and said viciously, "There are a few good people, good people like Ji He were trampled to such an extent that they were forced to commit suicide! Sometimes even if you cry and miss Ji He, you are still farting!" He scolded himself.

Zhuang Ji seldom swears unrestrainedly, but now he is cursing indiscriminately, even his expression is a little ferocious, there is no image of an elegant nobleman.

He ignored Xia Zhen and walked upstairs quickly.