evil sea tide

After leaving Yang Yang with Chao Sheng, Yang Anqing drove to the agreed place.He's a little nervous, and it's a little embarrassing to say that he's been in a relationship once in his 36 years of life, and he's been entangled until now, so he has no confidence in trusting strangers, and he doesn't know if they can fall in love with them he.

He heard the car in front of a tea house, and the waiter took him to a private room.Through the bamboo curtain, he could vaguely see a man in a light blue polo shirt sitting inside drinking tea.

Yang Anqing felt that he was too worthless, his children were grown up, so it was just a blind date, what a shame.He encouraged himself in his heart, but the expression on his face was still very unnatural.

On the other hand, the other party was very polite. As soon as he saw him, he stood up and shook hands with him, and made a simple self-introduction: "Hi, my name is Ye Xingqu, an old classmate of Mr. Jiang's colleague, you are his uncle, right? ?”

The other party's calm and composed look showed Yang Anqing's embarrassment even more. He reached out and shook hands with the other party, showing a stiff smile: "Hi, my name is Yang Anqing."

Ye Xingqu beckoned him to sit down and made him a cup of tea, only then did the two begin to concentrate and look at each other.Yang Anqing felt that Chao Sheng, the matchmaker, did a good job. Ye Xingqu was indeed as he said, gentle and elegant, and his elegance was different from Hai Donglin's high above the clouds, which made people feel no sense of distance.He is slightly taller than himself, and looks good. In short, the first impression can be scored as 90 points.

Yang Anqing didn't know what the other party thought of her, but seeing his slightly joyful eyes, she should be satisfied.This kind of thought swept away his previous nervousness, and gave him a little more confidence: Look, being a father is still so attractive!

Although the industries they are engaged in are thousands of miles apart, Ye Xingqu is very talkative and is good at finding topics. The two of them sat in the teahouse for a full two hours, and there was no cold talk.

Seeing that it was almost the end of the show, Ye Xingqu really got into the topic, and he asked bluntly: "Excuse me for asking, Mr. Yang, what do you think about the relationship between the same sex?"

Yang Anqing was eating melon seeds while drinking tea, and almost choked to death on melon seeds when he heard this. Ye Xingqu didn't make a transition, and directly talked about homosexuality from the changes in the international political situation.

He coughed badly, Ye Xingqu patted his back to comfort him, like an old friend who has known for many years, "Mr. Yang really can't tell his age at all, oh, I don't know his appearance."

Yang Anqing felt ashamed, and quickly distanced herself slightly from him.He thought about Ye Xingqu's question, and felt that this way of talking is actually quite good, explain everything clearly at the beginning, then continue if they agree, break up if they don't, and no one will waste anyone's time.

The other party got straight to the point, and Yang Anqing was also very angry, and said directly: "I think two same-sex couples are no different from heterosexual couples. The obligations and responsibilities that should be fulfilled are the same. You can't just because a marriage certificate is missing. Treat verbal promises as a trifle. And I think the most important thing is to be loyal to your relationship, not to deceive and hide from each other, and respect each other.”

Speaking of this, Yang Anqing straightened his back slightly. Finally, there will be a day when he can say these words. If time can go back more than ten years, he will say this on the first day when he and Song Jue are together, and then tell the other party Two choices, either to be absolutely loyal, or not to start at all.That way, there won't be as much damage later on.It's a pity that money is hard to buy. If he knew it earlier, he was already dazzled by love at that time, and he was completely led by the nose by Song Jue. How could he be so rational?

So he can't let the mistakes repeat itself. Before he starts a relationship again, he must let the other party know what he thinks. If the other party disagrees, then he can just go out for a meal or make ordinary friends, and the rest is unnecessary.

After listening to his words, Ye Xingqu's eyes showed admiration, "If you have time, invite Mr. Jiang out to have a meal together. I must thank him and introduce me to someone who thinks the same as me."

Yang Anqing also felt the same way, if he had a glass of wine in his hand, he would clink glasses directly with the other party.Although Yang Anqing has never set foot in places like gay bars, he has heard a little about how chaotic this circle is. Fraudulent marriages and one-night stands happen frequently, and there are probably very few people like him and Ye Xingqu.

The two looked at each other and smiled, showing some sympathy for each other.

This time the blind date ended in a pleasant and peaceful atmosphere. Since Yang Anqing also came by car, he rejected Ye Xingqu's proposal to take him home.The two walked side by side and left the teahouse, but they didn't want their every move to fall into the eyes of a person, that person was sitting in a corner of the hall, covering his face with a newspaper, his facial features were impeccably handsome, His brows were frowned into the word "Chuan", staring at Ye Xingqu and Yang Anqing side by side.

Yang Anqing was satisfied with the result of the first blind date, and the other party also meant to continue. The two left each other's contact information and waved goodbye in a friendly manner.Yang Anqing didn't go home directly, he had to go to Chaosheng to bring Yangyang back.As soon as he entered his house, he was interrogated by Chao Sheng in various ways. When he learned that the two had met each other, Chao Sheng was even happier than Yang Anqing.

Yang Anqing hugged Hai Bao who was already able to walk, and let him stand on his lap and kick his chubby legs. Yang Yang beside him was teasing him with toys.

Yang Anqing said to Chao Sheng: "I just met once, but I can't really say what I felt. I don't believe in love at first sight. But I think it's really rare that he can agree with me on same-sex marriage. It's..." He tried love at first sight, and almost missed his life, so now he believes in love based on mutual understanding.

Chao Sheng nodded, "That's why I want to introduce him to you. There are not many such people, little uncle, take the opportunity, maybe you will develop feelings after talking more."

Yang Anqing nodded, "I will."

When he got home, Yang Anqing saw today's lunch at the door, probably because Song Jue didn't find him in the studio and put it on the cabinet.Thinking of Song Jue, Yang Anqing's good mood sank. Although he was looking for a partner in an aboveboard manner, for some reason, he always felt awkward facing such an attentive Song Jue.

He decided that if he really started dating Ye Xingqu, he would tell Song Jue about it and make him give up completely. It would be best to get out of his sight, otherwise Yang Anqing would lose the courage to fall in love with someone when he saw him.

He would chat with Ye Xingqu every day, without too deep topics, just chatting casually like ordinary friends, which made Yang Anqing feel very comfortable, he didn't have any burdens, he only needed to listen and express his opinions occasionally.They will meet every weekend, watch a movie or go for a walk, every time they get along very happily.

This situation continued for a while, and suddenly one day, Ye Xingqu asked for further communication.The first time Yang Anqing heard this request, he hesitated and contradicted in his heart.In fairness, he has a good impression of Ye Xingqu, but this kind of good feeling is far from reaching the level of communication.Ye Xingqu made him feel like his classmate or colleague, and he never felt moved.

But he still agreed, he remembered Chao Sheng's words and his current situation.Maybe life should be so flat, without waves, feelings need to be cultivated, maybe after a long time he will have a good impression of Ye Xingqu, after all he is such an excellent man.Vigorous love without a sense of responsibility will only disappear in the end. It is better to give yourself a chance to try the long-lasting love.

After getting his consent, Ye Xingqu was very happy on the phone, he said: "I'm so happy, why did you show up so late, you know I've been looking for someone like you for a long time."

The childish words made Yang Anqing smile. He seems to have a special relationship with men who are two years younger than him. Song Jue is, and Ye Xingqu is too. They may look mature and sophisticated, but occasionally behave like children. Whenever this time, He will be very soft-hearted.

The two chatted for a while, because Ye Xingqu broke through the boundaries of ordinary friends, Ye Xingqu began to speak with some ambiguous colors, and when he hung up the phone, he said nastyly: "Good night, dear, wait for me tomorrow Telephone."

Yang Anqing was a little unsuitable, he had a straightforward personality, and even in the early days of their relationship with Song Jue, they never said such flirtatious words.Most of the time, they will use actions to express their feelings, or they will just cuddle up to each other and do nothing and say nothing, quietly enjoying the time together.

Yang Anqing persuaded herself in her heart to get used to it, people want to hear such love talk but they can't listen to it, why do they have so many problems?Or was he always trapped in the circle Song Jue drew for him and never jumped out?So he only knows which way to fall in love?

Yang Anqing quickly denied this, even if it was, she would never admit it.He has established a relationship with Ye Xingqu, and there are still many things to do, first of all, with his son...

I don't know if Yang Yang will accept it. Yang Anqing never told the child about the past with Song Jue. He doesn't want the child's innocent and pure world to be polluted by those dirty things, so Yang Yang doesn't hate Song Jue. I hate it, maybe because of blood relationship, he always wanted to get close to Song Jue, but because of his own relationship, he didn't dare to show it, for fear of hurting his heart.

How should he tell his child that he found him a stepdad?

Yang Anqing was so worried that she tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep. Later, she decided to tell her child that if Yang Yang firmly opposed him, he would give up. Nothing was more important than her son.

So the next day he bought his son a small cake, and the fifth-generation model of Galaxy Superman that he had always wanted.The dinner was still delivered by Song Jue, and Yang Anqing added an extra dish for his son.There are delicious dishes, desserts and toys. Yang Yang is very happy. After eating, he hugged his beloved model and started playing.Yang Anqing felt that the time had come, so she asked her son on the sidelines: "Yangyang, Dad asked you something, if Dad fell in love with other men or even got married, would you be unhappy?"

He thought that Yang Yang would be angry or sad, but he didn't expect that he suddenly raised his face, put all the models in his hands aside, and looked at him with anticipation in his eyes: "Is it with Uncle Song?"

Yang Anqing didn't expect him to ask such a question, and only then realized that Song Jue was probably more important to his son than he imagined.Seeing his son's expectation, he really couldn't bear to hit him, but he still decided to tell him the truth: "Yangyang, Dad won't be with Uncle Song. What Dad said was another uncle who treats Dad very well." Well, Dad likes him too, and he will treat Yang Yang very well in the future, Dad wants to be with him."

The anticipation in Yang Yang's eyes slowly dimmed, he lowered his head, pursed his mouth tightly and did not speak.He wanted to tell his father that he didn't want to, why should he be with an uncle he didn't know, isn't it good now?Uncle Song treats him very well. Although Dad doesn't like Uncle Song, he can see him every day, as if they are a family.

But he didn't say what was in his heart. He was already 9 years old, and his perception of things became more and more sensitive. Although his father didn't tell him about Uncle Song, he could feel it from their attitudes. Uncle Song probably did something bad before, which made Dad hate him so much.Otherwise, he wouldn't have waited until he was nine years old to find out that he had another father.

He nodded silently, tears rolled in his eyes, he was a boy, he couldn't cry, but he was really sad.He wanted his father to be with Uncle Song, he didn't want other uncles!

His son's sensibility made Yang Anqing feel distressed. He knew that Yang Yang was very unwilling, but he still endured his sadness and agreed.Yang Anqing hugged his son tightly, and his eyes were moved. He promised his son: "No matter who father is with, the person I love the most will always be you. Thank you..."

The son has really grown up, and before he knows it, he has changed from a trouble-loving little monkey to a sensible and considerate young man. Thinking of how father and son have been dependent on each other for so many years, Yang Anqing feels that his life may be doomed to fail, but But because of having this child, she has become extremely glorious.

In his father's arms, Yang Yang finally burst into tears, the tears remained on his father's clothes, but he endured it all the time, without saying a word of reluctance.

After finishing his son, Yang Anqing planned to tell Song Jue the next step.However, something happened before that. He Miao asked him to resign, and he left very hastily. He packed his things and left the company that day.

Yang Anqing felt a little surprised. She has been busy with her relationship these days, but forgot about the little girl. She didn't expect her to leave suddenly, and the reason was very good. She found a good job with good pay. The day is going to report.Although he was surprised, Yang Anqing let her take the salary of the month plus a bonus and leave, but He Miao looked at him a little strangely when he left, a little scared and reluctant, and I don't know why.

Probably because her family found out that she likes someone who is ten years older than herself and has a child, so she was asked to resign immediately.

In any case, this is a good thing, He Miao is a good girl, she shouldn't be hanged on his crooked neck tree, he wished her to find someone who truly loves her and loves her in his heart.

Next is Song Jue... This is a tough battle...

At night, Song Jue delivered meals to the father and son as usual, but just as he put the lunch box on the cabinet, the door suddenly opened.Yang Anqing said to him solemnly: "I have something to tell you, let's go in and sit down."

Song Jue was surprised, Yang Anqing never allowed him to enter his home, what happened today?But he was still very happy that he could finally walk into the place where the father and son lived in a fair manner.

It's not the first time he's been here, but he's never been as excited as he is today. He's sitting on the sofa a little stiff and excited, looking at Yang Anqing with eyes brighter than light bulbs.

It's that big dog-like look again...

Yang Anqing turned her head away, deliberately not looking into his eyes, because what he said next would cast dust on those black and white eyes.

In fact, when we first met, he didn't think Song Jue would sincerely repent. In his impression, Song Jue had always been selfish and indulgent. It seemed that nothing in this world could restrain him. What about emotional injuries?Maybe he will regret it, but that's just because he is the one who proposed to break up, not him, so he feels somewhat unwilling.

But Song Jue's performance was too serious and persistent, so he had to start to believe that maybe the love that left him covered with scars also left a wound in Song Jue's heart, which has not healed yet.Especially when he risked his life to save their father and son, he really felt that Song Jue was serious this time, and he really took their father and son into his heart, which is why he finally chose to let go of his hatred .

But so what?This is something he was willing to pay any price to get years ago, and now he finally got it, but he doesn't need it anymore.The result of him and Song Jue should be to forget each other in the rivers and lakes, not to be entangled to the end of the world.

He neither loves nor hates him, the only connection is Yangyang.But now that he has taken steps to pursue a new relationship, Song Jue's behavior can also stop.

In fact, seeing the expression on Yang Anqing's face, Song Jue already had a hunch that maybe what he heard next would not be a good thing.But for the current Song Jue, there was nothing unbearable. He had already survived the painful eight years, so what was there to be afraid of now?

Despite his self-confidence, when Yang Anqing said that he already had a date and asked him to stop his current behavior, his body trembled uncontrollably.

He never thought that this day would come so soon, Yang Anqing was about to fall into the arms of another person, would he love that person like he loved him in the past?Would he be so happy to jump on him and kiss him madly just because of a word of love?Will he choose to forgive him again and again when he has done something?

Thinking of that possibility, Song Jue's whole body was surrounded by crazy jealousy, and his body was as hot as wanting to catch fire.He wanted to kill the man named Ye Xingqu, tear him into pieces, so that he would never have the chance to touch him again!

He knew of Ye Xingqu's existence from the very beginning, but he didn't take any action, but watched quietly.He has no position to interfere with Yang Anqing's doing so. It is not difficult to make that man disappear from his side by means, but if Yang Anqing finds out, I'm afraid he won't be able to save him in his life.So he secretly investigated Ye Xingqu. Based on his understanding of Yang Anqing, he felt that the two of them would definitely not get together, but he did nothing. He wanted Yang Anqing to understand that Ye Xingqu was not suitable for him, or in other words, apart from him Song Jue, no one is suitable for him.

Song Jue's selfishness was on full display at this time. He stubbornly believed that the person who untied the bell had to tie the bell. Only he could heal the pain in Yang Anqing's heart, and only he who had experienced the loss could know how to cherish him more.

But Yang Anqing just told him so lightly that he was dating another man and hoped that he would stop interfering in their lives.

The dull pain in his heart gradually became clear. Song Jue's knuckles turned white, and his face showed a painful pleading look: "An Qing, have you really... thought it through?"

Yang Anqing nodded affirmatively.

"Why! Can't I? Why don't you want to give me another chance?" Song Jue stood up suddenly, crossed the coffee table and grabbed Yang Anqing's shoulder to question.

He was very strong, and Yang Anqing's arms were aching from his grasp. He pushed Song Jue away suddenly, and asked loudly: "Song Jue! How many opportunities did I give you? You didn't want it!"

Song Jue froze in place, her empty hands were still in the same position as before, and she couldn't recover for a long time.Yes, there are so many opportunities, why not cherish them!Why!

Every time Yang Anqing forgave him, it was accompanied by tears and pain. Those injuries even changed his temperament drastically, turning him into a person whom even he hated.How much did he go through to get out of that despair?It was a big joke for him to start all over again!

"Song Jue, love is not something you just throw away if you want it or not, and you can get it if you want it! From the moment I walked out of that house, we were doomed to be impossible!"

Song Jue suddenly sat back on the sofa, staring at Yang Anqing, unable to accept what he said.

Even if the hope is slim, but he always feels that as long as he always treats their father and son well, and uses 12 points of sincerity to make up for the mistakes he made, if he can't do it in one year, it will be five years, and if he can't do it in five years, it will be ten years. One day, he will Wait until Yang Anqing reopens her heart to accept him.

But the reality beat him to the ground again and again, everything was his own wishful thinking, Yang Anqing didn't wait for him, he had already given his love to another person.

It used to be his own treasure.

"Do you love him……"

Love?

After hearing his words, Yang Anqing fell silent.He knows better than anyone else that after that period of unforgettable love, there is not much love left in his heart. The reason why he agreed to associate with Ye Xingqu is, on the one hand, because he is indeed a suitable partner, on the other hand, he feels that, If he doesn't start a new relationship, he may live in Song Jue's persistent entanglement for the rest of his life.

So he felt a little guilty towards Ye Xingqu, he always felt that he had used him and failed his love for him.When did he become such a despicable and selfish person?

Yang Anqing suppressed the guilt in her heart and said to Song Jue, "Yes, I love him."