evil sea tide

Ze Yang has been away for eight full years.

The hole in Song Jue's heart became bigger and bigger as time went by, until it ate away his entire soul.He no longer has the confidence to persevere, but he is afraid that once he gives up, he will be like a ship that has lost its direction and will eventually be submerged by the waves.

Love parting, can't get what you want, resentment and hatred will meet.

He paid the price for the absurdity of the year, and when he finally came to his senses, that person had been completely heartbroken by him, and hid in a place where he couldn't find him. He could only live in remorse for the past every day .

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Before Hai Donglin arrived, Song Jue noticed the young man in the corner.

He has handsome features, a slender figure, and a kind of unrefined beauty, but in the eyes of Song Jue, who is used to beauties, this kind of appearance is not superior. What really attracts him is the youth's eyebrows, because they are very similar. The person in my heart.

He clearly knew that it was not Yang Ze, but a young man who looked a little like him, but he still couldn't control his pace and walked towards him.But soon, Hai Donglin's appearance made him stop. They seemed to know each other, and Dong Ge looked at him like Song Jue had never seen before.

He was extremely shocked. He used to think that a person like Brother Dong would never touch love for the rest of his life, but at this moment, he saw the possessive desire in Hai Donglin's eyes.

He looked at the young man again, and there was a beautifully dressed woman beside him, they seemed to be a couple.He shook the wine glass in his hand, and suddenly felt a little sympathetic to that young man. He didn't know whether he had accumulated good fortune or sin in his previous life, so he could be favored by Hai Donglin.

As a brother for many years, Song Jue felt that he had to help him, so after Hai Donglin lost his target, he walked to his side with a smile.

When he learned that Hai Donglin hadn't got the young man yet, he jokingly asked if he could compete fairly, but he didn't expect to attract a burst of astonishment from the other party——

"You have been vegetarian for so many years, why do you suddenly want to eat meat today?"

Song Jue twitched the corners of his mouth and gave a wry smile, and then said teasingly, "Don't you think his eyebrows and eyes look like a person..."

Hai Donglin could hear the obvious loneliness from his words, he patted Song Jue on the shoulder, sighed and said, "It's been almost eight years, and you still can't forget him."

How to forget?As long as you close your eyes, your mind will be full of Yang Ze's shadow, he has penetrated into his bone marrow, even if his brain forgets, every hair, every inch of his skin, and even every cell will be remembered.

He once doubted whether his feelings for Yang Ze were love or not. For so many years, he couldn't find the answer to this question. Maybe it was, maybe it wasn't, maybe it wasn't all.Always Yang Ze has become his habit, an obsession he cannot give up, and the only direction of his life.

He couldn't get the person he wanted, but he wanted Hai Donglin to get what he wanted.It's a miracle that his brother Dong is able to fall in love with someone. After passing this village, there may be no such shop.

So he did some things that made him feel unbelievable, including the scene where Jiang Chaosheng and Ren Jiawen finally broke up in the heavy rain, all of which are due to him.

Then, he found that Dong Ge had changed, he was no longer the unworldly Hai Donglin, his cold eyes gradually warmed up, when he looked at Jiang Chaosheng, he was so warm that Song Jue couldn't recognize him .

Hai Donglin finally found the person in his destiny. He is not like himself, he will hold on to him firmly if he is determined, and he will try his best to control Jiang Chaosheng by his side.

And him?As early as more than ten years ago, he had met his destined lover, but lost it with his own hands. In comparison, Hai Donglin was much better than him.

But Hai Donglin's love is not all smooth sailing, because of his extreme and overly strong desire to control, Jiang Chao fled in despair.Seeing Hai Donglin drinking away his sorrows, he also became melancholy, and the two of them simply got drunk together and forgot all their troubles.

Facts once again proved that Hai Donglin was better than him in terms of chasing his wife and luck. Within a few months, he found Jiang Chaosheng, and the two of them regained their previous harmony, even sweeter. Dong Ge's house went to drink, afraid of disturbing their warm time.

But the strange thing is that since Jiang Chaosheng came back, Hai Donglin's attitude towards him has changed subtly. It's hard to say what's different, but Song Jue always feels that Hai Donglin is always hesitant to speak, as if Something is hiding from him.

Months later, he finally understood what that meant.

As if there was some omen, when he got up that day, he smelled a refreshing fragrance. It turned out that the orchid raised by Yang Ze had bloomed.He doesn't know how to take care of flowers and plants. This pot of orchid hasn't bloomed half a flower bud in so many years, but it bloomed quietly today.

When Jiang Chaosheng's accident happened, he and Hai Donglin were holding the NAE shareholders' meeting. When he learned of the incident, he followed Hai Donglin to Ren'ai Hospital in a hurry.

From the outside, he would never think that this is a hospital, but inside it is small, but it has all internal organs, and it is indeed a place to save lives and heal the wounded.Everyone waited silently outside the door of the operating room, and no one told him what happened.He looked at Hai Donglin's solemn expression, and guessed what accident might have happened to Jiang Chaosheng.

Suddenly, he heard a voice, like a sharp sword, piercing his heart directly.

A voice came from behind him, accompanied by hurried footsteps, this voice appeared in his dreams countless times, even if he never heard it again, he would remember it for a lifetime, bringing his voice, appearance and memories into the grave.

So when he heard the voice again, there was only a sense of unreality, because such a thing had happened before.When he thought he found Yang Ze, he found that it was just his hallucination.

He turned his head slowly, and saw the person who was running -

Time was frozen, and only that person remained in Song Jue's world.

It's a pity that the man didn't know it, his eyes were always fixed on the front, and he didn't notice Song Jue's fiery eyes at all.He flew past Song Jue, and when he passed by, Song Jue even felt his breath.

The familiar smell that was only recalled in dreams is now here, right beside him!This is not a dream!

Yang Ze stood in front of the operating room, leaving only Song Jue's back.Song Jue's fists were clenched tightly, trembling slightly due to excitement, he widened his eyes wide, not daring to blink his eyelids, for fear that he would never be able to see him again after opening his eyes, just like what he experienced in his dream Same.

What happened later, he couldn't notice at all, because from the moment Yang Ze appeared, all his thoughts were on him, he stared at him, watched his every movement greedily, listened Listening to his every word, breathing the air with him.

Until everyone left here, only he and Yang Ze were left standing in front of the operating room, one behind the other.

Yang Ze still turned his back to him, he bent down, put his head in the crack of the door and looked in hard, he wanted to see Chao Sheng and his nephew, but Hai Donglin's tall back blocked his view line of sight.

Yang Ze was happy in his heart, thinking that there would be opportunities in the future, so he would leave it to his family at this time, so he planned to leave here.At this moment, he finally felt something strange, as if a scalding gaze had been hitting his back, making him feel like he was about to burn.

Turn around, Yang Ze, turn around...let me see you...

Song Jue could no longer restrain the longing in his heart, and softly called his name——

"Yang...Ze..."

Then, he saw Yang Ze's shocked face.He was thinner than he remembered, but also stronger.The years did not leave too many traces on his face, but made him a lot more stable, far from the escaped him in his memory.

But soon, Song Jue tasted the feeling of heart-wrenching again. After a brief shock, he saw a strange expression on Yang Ze's face, indifference, alienation, irritability, and even... disgust……

"My name is Yang Anqing."

He heard him say lightly that this was why he couldn't find him.

Song Jue suffered far more than that. Yang Ze called him Mr. Song, said that he, his wife and children were living well, and even refused to give him his contact information.

"Song Jue, you really haven't changed at all."

These were the last words Yang Ze left before leaving the hospital, and then he strode out of the hospital, as if something was chasing after him.

Song Jue didn't catch up. The disgust in Yang Ze's eyes hurt him deeply, and he blocked a lot of words of atonement in his throat.He wanted to tell Yang Ze that he had repented for many years, that he was no longer the same Song Jue, and that he would treat him well, just as he had treated him.

But he seems to have no chance. Yang Ze is living a good life. He has a wife and children, and lives an ordinary and warm life like a normal man. He broke the heart of the enemy.

Song Jue stood in the corridor of Renai for an unknown amount of time, and when his hands and feet became as cold as his heart, Hai Donglin came out of the operating room, saw him in a daze, and told him that Yang Ze had never married , and, these years have been single.

Looking at the question marks on Song Jue's face, Hai Donglin said, "Go to Yang Ze, with him, you will find the answers to all your questions."

From his words, Song Jue heard that things were not as bad as he thought, and there might be room for improvement.So he couldn't wait to find Song Jue's house the next day.

Sure enough, as expected, Song Jue didn't intend to give him a chance to repent at all, and closed the door heavily the moment he saw him.Song Jue wasn't discouraged, no matter what Yang Ze did to him, he should bear it, so he was mentally prepared before coming.

But Yang Ze's heart was as hard as iron, no matter how much he begged, he was unwilling to open the door.Just at this time, a child with a thick head and a thick head came to the door bouncing around with a body of mud. He called out to Yang Ze who was inside the door for his father.

Song Jue was startled, hasn't Yang Ze been single all this time, how could he have such a big son, and why this child made him feel so familiar.

Under his call, Yang Ze opened the door, first glanced at him defensively, and then pulled his son in, showing no intention of letting Song Jue in.

Song Jue finally nodded intelligently, and watched the door close quickly with extremely reluctant eyes, separating him and Yang Ze into two worlds.

Even though they were so close, they seemed to be separated by hundreds of thousands of miles. No matter how hard he tried to reach him, there was always so much difference.

Feeling helpless, he had no choice but to find Hai Donglin again, hoping that he could give himself an answer about that child.But this time Hai Donglin's words made him feel even more confused. Instead of answering his own question directly, he hugged his son and asked who he looked like.

Of course the son looks like his father, and I don't know the surrogate.Song Jue almost blurted out the words, but chose to remain silent when he saw Hai Donglin's meaningful smile.He observed Hai Bao's facial features carefully, and found that apart from his resemblance to Hai Donglin, he also looked somewhat like Jiang Chaosheng.

He was taken aback by his own thought, and then remembered the scene he ignored in Ren'ai Hospital.

An astonishing answer is about to surface, but can he believe such an incredible thing?

Song Jue finally thought of a way: paternity test.

Hai Donglin would never make such a joke, and Yang Yang and his childhood photos looked so much alike, if the two of them stood together, anyone would say they were a father and son.

If Yang Yang is really his son...

Song Jue felt an uncontrollable excitement.He thought that there was no connection between him and Yang Ze, which was why he found it difficult to recover Yang Ze, but if there was a child between them...

Then can he... have a little expectation...

He nervously waited for the result of the appraisal, but was cut off by his parents. As a result, his old father was so frightened that he fainted on the sofa, and his mother was crying because of the fright.

After comforting his parents, Song Jue's heart was filled with ecstasy—Yang Yang was his son with Yang Ze, the child born to him by Yang Ze! ! !

This fact made him very excited, as if after so many years of waiting there was finally hope.But after the surprise, he calmed down.He thought of Yang Ze eight years ago, how did he discover the child in his stomach, and how hard it was to give birth to and raise the child?

There seemed to be such a scene in front of his eyes: Yang Ze, who was alone, came to this strange city, learned of the existence of the fetus in his womb by accident, gave birth to him after experiencing countless hardships, and brought him up in his stomach .

Thinking of this, he couldn't help asking himself: What qualifications do you have to be Yang Yang's father?What have you done that deserves Yang Ze's forgiveness?He thought of Yang Ze's defensive eyes, maybe he was afraid that he would snatch Yang Yang away from him...

Only then did Song Jue realize what an unbearable image he had become in Yang Ze's heart, and the flame that had just ignited in his heart dimmed again.

Before he could figure out how to talk to Yang Ze, his parents had already acted before him. Their actions completely angered Yang Ze and made their relationship even more tense.He persuaded his disappointed parents to leave. Before leaving, his father said: "Is it our fault that Yang Ze left back then? What good things have you done yourself?"

Song Jue was speechless, neither to his parents nor to Yang Ze.He was the only one who was wrong. If he hadn't been so stupid back then, fascinated by the fleeting lust and dazzling beauty, now he would live happily with Yang Ze and his son, enjoying the most ordinary and beautiful life. The longest happiness.

Yang Ze gave him love wholeheartedly, even wanting to be with him even at the expense of trampling on his dignity, but what about him?What did he do?

Song Jue leaned against the door and showed a wry smile. He shook his head and prepared to leave here.At this moment, the door suddenly opened, and he suddenly turned his head, seeing Yang Ze looking at him with a troubled face and saying, "Come in, let's talk."

This is Song Jue's first visit to Yang Ze and Yang Yang's home.The decoration here is very new, it can be seen that the house has not been purchased for a long time, Yang Ze has decorated this place very warmly, it doesn't look like a home without a hostess at all.He also found that all places with sharp corners that may hurt children, such as table corners, cabinet doors, etc., are wrapped with special fleece covers, so that there is no need to worry about hurting children.

Every detail in the room can feel Yang Ze's concern for the child.He is not a naturally meticulous person. On the contrary, he has a lively personality and is an informal person. He will become very considerate and considerate only when he is with people he cares about, and this kindness will not burden people at all. Instead, it makes people feel comfortable and free like the fresh air in the mountains and forests.

Song Jue had enjoyed all of Yang Ze's patience and care, but now seeing him transfer this emotion to his son, he couldn't help but feel a lot of emotion in his heart.

"sit down."

Yang Ze told him and poured him a glass of water by the way.Song Jue sat on the soft sofa, and before Yang Ze could speak, he apologized: "I'm really sorry about my parents, they didn't do it on purpose, but they were too impatient, please forgive them, and please forgive me. Believe me, my parents and I have no intention of taking Yangyang away."

Yang Ze's face was obviously relaxed. What he was most worried about was that the Song family would rob him of their children. He was relieved after hearing Song Jue's words.

"Thank you."

When Yang Ze said this, his head was lowered. From this angle, Song Jue saw his drooping eyelashes and the collarbone exposed between his neckline, which was exactly the same as he remembered, even more charming.How long has he not seen Yang Ze so clearly?When was the last time, 8000 years?No, it should be a long time ago, because as early as their last few years, his eyes would no longer stay on Yang Ze.

He is obviously such a good person, why did he miss him for so many years?How many eight years in life can be wasted?

Sensing his gaze, Yang Ze looked up at him and asked, "Song Jue, how long have we known each other?"

Song Jue was slightly taken aback, not knowing what his intention was, "15 years and three months."

Yang Ze nodded slightly, and let out a long breath, "It's been a long time..."

"Song Jue, I don't know what you think. But in my heart, we are already in the past tense. Although Yang Yang is also... your child, but I gave birth to him and raised him to such an age. We have been living together forever. Well, there is no need for a third person to disturb our life, I say that, do you understand?"

Song Jue quickly defended, "Yang Ze, you misunderstood. I really want to say sorry to you for everything that happened. Yang Yang is your son, and my dereliction of duty father is not qualified for him to call him Dad. Yes, I know that very well, so you don't have to worry at all, I just think, think..."

Under Yang Ze's gaze, he suddenly lost the courage to continue, because he knew that Yang Ze's answer would definitely cause him great pain.

Yang Ze was very calm, "You can say whatever you want. I haven't heard anything nasty from you. It's about this time. Let's just say it."

His words made Song Jue feel ashamed, but he still decided to say the following: "I just want to tell you that I have never forgotten you over the years. After you left, I realized how much I love you. I do How stupid and beastly those things are!"

Yang Ze's expression seemed to have heard some terrible joke, and he snorted coldly and said, "Love me? Song Jue, is this your new game?"

Song Jue knew that Yang Ze's trust in him had long since ceased to exist, and it would not be easy to start over now, but he had survived eight years, so what blow could he not bear?

"Yang Ze, I know you don't believe me. But it's true, I love you more than you think, I love you more than I imagined. During the years you've been away, I... haven't missed a single day You... I took your kindness to me as a habit, squandered your love, and did many things that are worse than beasts. I am not qualified to beg your forgiveness. I just hope that you can give me a chance and let me make it up you……"

"No need!!" Yang Ze suddenly stood up excitedly, "Song Jue, you keep saying you love me, but how do you love me? When you kept betraying me? When you lied to me When? When you and Qiao Ke are having sex on the phone!! Song Jue, I really don’t understand how you still have the face to say the words “love me!”

"Yang Ze!" Song Jue wanted to pull him, but Yang Ze threw his hand away.

Yang Ze's chest heaved violently because of the excitement, as if he wanted to vent out the grievances that he hadn't had time to say back then. These words have been buried in his heart for too long, making him almost sick, and now it's like a volcanic eruption Spewing out: "It's you who made me understand that there is no reward for what you give. Some people, even if I give him my heart, he would rather hug others and laugh, and even feel annoyed by looking at me. Song Jue, I The only fortunate thing is that it was not too late to wake up. In those years, I was stupid and cheap, and I couldn’t blame others, but I don’t want to think about those days, so I don’t want to see you, because when I see you, I will... ..."

His lips trembled, and he continued: "You will think of me who is so cheap to the bone."

Song Jue's body froze, and he was silent for a long while, unable to speak.He wanted to tell him that it wasn't like that, that he, Song Jue, was the one who really committed the crime. He turned a blind eye to someone who was trying to treat him with all his heart, and wanted to seek excitement from those women who approached him because of fame and fortune.But when the words came to his lips, he choked up and couldn't speak, because he saw the tears in Yang Ze's eyes.

Yang Ze paused, trying to calm down the fire in his heart, trying to make his voice sound calmer, "So Song Jue, I beg you, please go, if you really love me, then don't Appear in front of us again. I'm only better off without you."

I don't know when, Song Jue's eyes became wet, and he covered his face with his hands in pain, feeling the sharp pain from his heart.Every word of Yang Ze turned into a sharp knife and pierced his heart. As for the harm he brought to Yang Ze, he could only rely on his imagination to infer, but now, from Yang Ze's words, he knew, It was far more serious than he had imagined, so serious that as long as he saw him, Yang Ze would feel pain.

Looking at his appearance, Yang Ze didn't feel touched at all. Although his expression was excited, his eyes were calm, as if he was looking at a stranger, "Also, please don't call me Yang Ze anymore, that one The idiot named Yang Ze died a long time ago, and the person in front of you is Yang Anqing."