Luo Shengmeng has no feelings today

Human capabilities have limits.

The harder you work, the more you will discover the existence of the limit.

Some people have a high endurance, and may never touch the limit in their lives; some people's mentality is as thin as a hair and breaks at the touch of a hair.Akutagawa Ryunosuke obviously does not belong to the latter group. His paranoia towards his teacher has brought him endless patience, making him walk toward a long and difficult future with no end in sight, alone and firmly.

However, no matter how patient you are, if you continue like this indefinitely, you will eventually touch the brink of collapse.

The elegant and peaceful daily life of Mr. Akutagawa in the eyes of outsiders is just an illusion.

A body that is slender and weaker than most people, even women, and hidden under the clothes, the glaring and abrupt fine scars, the condensed gun calluses on the slender hands, malnutrition and lack of sleep... This is Akutagawa Ryunosuke true.

Constantly jumping through time and space, traveling to another world in order to find a mentor whose situation is unknown, he hardly ever rests a few times.

It's not that he doesn't know the importance of rest, it's just that he doesn't dare to stop at all.

Only those who have mastered the ability to travel through different worlds can know the scene outside the world.

The number of different worlds is denser than that of the Milky Way, and there are countless timelines and time points in the same different world. For example, a hemp rope represents the high-level space that accommodates all the different worlds, and several strands are not related to each other. The sub-ropes circling to form the hemp rope represent a different world, and a sub-rope is constructed of countless fibers—corresponding to countless branches of a world line.

It's too much.

There are too many to count, and there are so many that Akutagawa Ryunosuke is afraid that he will not be able to return to the time and space where the teacher is after the end of his life.

Therefore, in any case, it is impossible to rest with peace of mind.

Constantly using abilities, constantly jumping and shuttling in various worlds, if you are lucky, you may be able to calmly wait until the cooldown period ends in another world, and then leave safely. If you are unlucky, you may be involved in a bad battle—a gunfight , man-eating monsters, the end of the world... There are all kinds of environments.

Is Akutagawa Ryunosuke strong?

Of course powerful.

But human beings are just human beings after all, and since they are human beings, they will not be invincible.

Although Akutagawa still maintains a young body, his inner soul has already gone through several times of time and has become riddled with holes.

Living too long is not a good thing.

Because as a short-lived species, the mentality of a normal human being cannot be compared with that of a long-lived species.

That's why Edogawa Ranpo asked him in astonishment, "Is it really all right?"

"30 years? 50 years? How did you persevere? Don't you get tired?"

Of course it will be tiring, especially if you are very tired, and there is nothing more painful than seeing no hope.

However, compared to his own exhaustion, Akutagawa Ryunosuke was more unacceptable to give up this path.

Edogawa Ranpo pointed out with some concern:

What if I can't find it all the time?Akutagawa, how long can you last?

If you find it, but you are faced with an unacceptable result, what should you do?

You will break down.

Although a little childish, the essence is the chaotic steps of a good man, who is so straightforward that he persuades him harshly: Do you still have your family here?Are you going to leave them alone?

Akutagawa was silent for a long time without answering.

But Ranbu already knew his answer.

——Never give up, some things must be done.

Edogawa Ranpo abided by the agreement and did not tell this matter—unless the president he admired personally and took the initiative to ask, but Akutagawa Ryunosuke's disguise is very good. So far, for so many years, only Ranpo can see it See the truth that he hides.

Fukuzawa Yukichi, the president of the detective agency, didn't find any clues, not to mention that he and Akutagawa didn't meet many times.In addition, according to Fukuzawa Yukichi's character, he will not do things that probe into other people's privacy.

Therefore, in Akutagawa's impression, only his Sanhuamao and Ranpo know part of the facts.

He concealed it very well, at least, even the family members who lived with him day and night did not notice any abnormalities.

But also because of this.

Osamu Dazai thought: This makes Mr. Akutagawa's loneliness even more apparent.

Osamu Dazai, an unpredictable mind, although his ability to find out the truth is not as good as Mr. Ranpo, it is far beyond ordinary people and has reached a rare level in the world.

He is a former mafia member who has become a cadre purely relying on his clever mind and cruel means, but his power cannot be on the table. As a matter of course, his observation ability is also one of the best.

Something is wrong with Akutagawa-sensei.

He came to this conclusion two years ago.

Obviously I seldom go out, but my mental state has never been very good; there are strange scars on my body for no reason, which can be clearly felt through the bandages on my hands and the thin layer of kimono on Mr. Akutagawa’s body. Almost every one or two days, Sometimes even just for a few hours, he rushed over to hug Mr. Akutagawa's body, and the feeling was not right; he obviously didn't like perfume, but sometimes he deliberately put some other smells on his body, the purpose...in addition to covering up the bloody smell of the wound, but also to have what?

Osamu Dazai once tried to squat in front of Akutagawa's house for a night, and also tried to stay overnight in a shameless manner.

——Never saw Akutagawa go out, nor any signs of fighting.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke was clearly staying at home safely, but his minor wounds and tired mental state never healed.

……

Mr. Akutagawa is looking for someone.

Osamu Dazai, who often climbed the window, would occasionally bump into Mr. Akutagawa who was writing a letter. Unlike the maturity and stability of other people, Ryunosuke Akutagawa who wrote the letter rarely brought a trace of confusion and impatience, as if he was talking to someone It's like a trustworthy person confiding, and there is a sense of peace of mind mixed with contradictions.

Obviously, the recipient of the letter is someone who is unconditionally trusted by Akutagawa-sensei, and can even be said to rely on.

Osamu Dazai was curious like a cat scratching, but he never managed to peek at what Akutagawa wrote.

Only the letter for that person, Akutagawa Ryunosuke would not show it to anyone—almost just after writing it, he gave it to Rashomon to devour, so as to prevent him from sticking to the eyes of an extreme fan.

This habit continued for many years.

But Dazai never saw the other party send the letter.

Why not send it?

Because there is no receiving address, the person Akutagawa-sensei wants to communicate with is not with Akutagawa Ryunosuke.

——That's the person Akutagawa-sensei is looking for!

Getting connected almost instantly, Osamu Dazai connected the abnormality of Ryunosuke Akutagawa with this unknown person.

The person whom Akutagawa-sensei admires, even if he is risking his life, injured, and mentally exhausted, he wants to find someone.

Osamu Dazai: ...

Osamu Dazai was so envious that he secretly poked and bit the handkerchief.

He immediately thought angrily that the guy that Mr. Akutagawa worked so hard to find must not be a good person, but at the same time he was so envious and jealous: how can the other party get such admiration from Mr. Akutagawa!

——That kind of guy, that kind of guy, Akutagawa-sensei just ignore him!

But Osamu Dazai did not say anything about Akutagawa Ryunosuke's letter writing in the end.

Because, this is Akutagawa's sustenance.

As Osamu Dazai said to himself last time:

[Ryunosuke Akutagawa has redeemed countless people, who can redeem him in turn? ]

can i do itOsamu Dazai thought, and quickly vetoed himself.

No, it's impossible.

Osamu Dazai was unable to save Ryunosuke Akutagawa.

Because, Dazai, who has no desire to survive, will only drag his admired teacher Akutagawa to die in love without hesitation.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke will not rely on him either.

... After all, Osamu Dazai is unreliable and happy most of the time, and it has probably been deeply rooted in the hearts of the people.

Mature, calm and reliable Mr. Akutagawa is always the one to be relied on.

hateful.

Osamu Dazai was very depressed.

That unknown guy who was relied on by Akutagawa-sensei and asked Akutagawa-sensei to look for him...Damn it, he is really angry, why?Being able to be treated specially by Mr. Akutagawa.

The angry Osamu Dazai has recently jumped on Akutagawa-sensei more frequently.

There is no other reason.

The origin of the wound on Mr. Akutagawa's body is unknown. He obviously didn't leave but his spirit has been depressed. Basically, it can be confirmed that it has something to do with the supernatural power Rashomon.

So, no matter what the truth is, Osamu Dazai just needs to hug his beloved Akutagawa master...

——His [Disqualification in the World] can keep Ryunosuke Akutagawa.

……

Akutagawa was extremely grateful.

Osamu Dazai just likes to throw himself into his arms and wrap his arms around his waist. He just needs to be careful to raise his left hand to avoid being crushed, and the wound will not be discovered.

But also because of Osamu Dazai's overly intimate behavior, Akutagawa had to lightly spray a little perfume on his body to avoid the smell of medicine and blood.

Although Akutagawa is quite confident in his cover-up, he is not sure whether the overly smart Dazai Osamu has discovered anything abnormal, but since the other party has never revealed anything for so many years, Akutagawa will not take the initiative to mention it. It has been a long time Akutagawa probably thought that the other party hadn't discovered his secret.

So he treated this... reader calmly as always?fan?friend?Akutagawa couldn't pinpoint the meaning of Dazai's existence accurately, but he gave his trust under the effect of time and the harassing coquettishness of the other party.

"Don't you want to start writing novels?"

Akutagawa patted Dazai's slightly curly, fluffy and fluffy black hair skillfully, as if he was looking at a child who was hot for 3 minutes: "Will you not be distracted by running here every two days like this?"

"Writing a novel is so difficult." Dazai hugged Akutagawa-sensei's waist, and muttered sullenly, "So I want to come to Akutagawa-sensei's place to feel the atmosphere of a writer."

As he spoke, he squinted his eyes and rubbed his hands, lying on the tatami of Akutagawa's house, with his hands tightly around Akutagawa's waist, Osamu Dazai sucked Akutagawa like a cat: "Only when I have enough energy from Akutagawa, can I be inspired to write oh."

"Skipping work again?" Akutagawa was used to Dazai's coquetry, he looked up at the time aside, and changed the subject: "It should not be off-duty time."

"Because—I don't want to help clean up the office."

Dazai said: "The port mafia sent people to attack the detective agency. Although they must have been shot out, the documents, tables, and glass were all messed up, and there were countless bullet holes on the wall."

Dazai narrowed his eyes and muttered, "I don't want to stay and clean up."

"Mafia attack?" Akutagawa was a little confused, thinking for a while: "Is it because of Nakajima?"

"Yep."

The man with black hair and kite eyes nodded and explained: "Sayexiang should have told you, the teacher, right? Atsushi Tora Nakajima who was rounded up the day before yesterday, Mr. Hirotsu and his subordinates failed to capture him, and today he brought people to attack the detective agency gone."

"I mentioned it a little bit." Akutagawa finally remembered everything that happened, because he had just crossed once not long ago, and there was a little memory gap, which made him a little slow. Fortunately, there was no sign of disobedience on his face, and he just answered the words calmly : "Sayexiang said he was offered a reward on the black market."

After a pause, Akutagawa frowned slightly: "Dazai, have you dealt with it? It won't affect Sayaka, right?"

Part-time jobs are part-time jobs, but in fact, their Akutagawa family is not short of money now.

The usual work is basically clerical work, which is not bad, but if the detective agency is fighting with the port mafia, there is a possibility of being found and attacked, then for the safety of Sayaka, Akutagawa will not hesitate to persuade the child to resign— — At least not for the time being.

"It should be fine in a short time."

Dazai replied, he let go of his hand, and sat down cross-legged obediently, his kite-colored eyes had a gentle taste like water, he grabbed Akutagawa Ryunosuke's hand, which was a circle smaller than his own, cold and tingly Wearing a gun cocoon - he especially likes to touch Akutagawa Ryunosuke, because it not only symbolizes that the cautious and suspicious Akutagawa teacher has trusted him and accepted his existence, but also ensures that the other party cannot use supernatural powers.

——Ms. Akutagawa, who can't use supernatural powers, doesn't go anywhere.

"Please rest assured, Akutagawa-sensei, if there is anything, I will notify you as soon as possible. Whether it is me, Odasaku, or others, we will protect Sayaka."

The man who always behaved particularly unreliable in daily life made such a promise.

Rare without making people doubt the authenticity.

Because Dazai's expression was too serious.

Sayaka's surname is Akutagawa, and she is the youngest girl in the Akutagawa family who likes to act like a baby with Ryunosuke the most.

Besides silver, Akutagawa Ryunosuke's favorite is this little sister.

That was enough for Dazai to commit.

The author has something to say: Luo Shengmeng: I was angry, I was angry, I was eliminated by the bandage bastard's supernatural power, only Osamu Dazai, I absolutely do not agree to approach——