Bring your son to farm
Chapter 143
1.0
Gu Huai once heard such a saying: The world is big, a person will meet about 2920 million people in a lifetime, and the probability of two people falling in love is 0.000049.
But he thinks this sentence is sophistry, as long as you meet the right person at the right time and place, the other 29199999 people actually have nothing to do with you.
As for what is the right person, Gu Huai looked at the person standing at the door and looked around, the corners of his lips curled up.
Sometimes, the world is actually quite small.
Ji Yu seldom goes to such brightly lit occasions. He finds it boring. Is it interesting to drink so much wine and get yourself into a trance?Anyway, he didn't think it was interesting at all, and he didn't like the feeling that he couldn't control himself.
The main reason for coming this time is thanks to his mother.Recently, the family arranges blind dates for him every day. He feels that he is almost becoming a commodity for sale. He is tall, short, fat and thin, white and black, and finally becomes a face. There is no obstacle in the mind.
In order not to be handed over to the next woman by his mother, he had no choice but to tell his mother euphemistically that the one he saw so far is not bad, and he can date her first, and he may not fall in love at first sight, right.
What Ji Yu didn't expect was that his strategy of slowing down caused another trouble. Since the last blind date, Xu Min has been calling him and contacting him frequently, very enthusiastically.
He used to be able to take care of his mother, the adults, and perfunctory, but later he became more and more impatient.
First, she has no interest in that woman at all, and she doesn't want to marry so early.
Second, Xu Min's title of "Eight-Power Allied Forces" is out there, ordinary people can't hold it, he doesn't want to challenge, he doesn't have that kind of luck.
Ji Yu originally wanted to be perfunctory until he finished his vacation, but later found that he couldn't do it. He had to stand firm on this matter. Her mother almost regarded Xu Min as a prospective daughter-in-law. Regarding this, Ji Yu was actually quite depressed. He felt that his market situation didn't seem so bad.
Well, a large part of the reason for this is his cousin. The Ji family has been passed down to this generation, and there are only two men. His brother is 40 years old and still single. People in the family dare not force his brother, so he It became cannon fodder, and I wish I could find a suitable one, marry him immediately, and show someone the next day.
Ji Yu pondered for a while on the way here. His fucking personality definitely can't be forced, so he decided to take a roundabout policy. First, he made it clear to Xu Min, made it clear, and asked Xu Min to retreat. It's easy to explain.
He had already worked hard to fight for it. It was because others looked down on her son, so his mother would have nothing to say after a few words.
Ji Yu walked in, his eyes scanned for a week, he didn't expect to see an acquaintance, he walked straight towards the two people sitting in the booth, and before he said a word, Xu Min came over, spraying too much perfume , he smelled a little dizzy.
"It's fate to meet you. Are you interested in sitting down and having a drink?" Gu Huai said to Xu Min, but his eyes crossed people.Looking at Ji Yu.
Looking at Gu Huai, who has attracted the attention of countless men and women, Ji Yu always feels a little weird, how should I put it, Su Jun is the type who can't tell at a glance that he likes men, but Gu Huai doesn't.
Ji Yu just felt that the other party liked men, and to him... Ji Yu didn't have time to react, Xu Min had already pulled him to sit down, and picked up the dice on the table, as always like a nightclub queen, eagerly said , "How about we play games, and whoever has the lowest points will drink."
Ji Yu frowned inwardly.
"Okay." Gu Huai said with a smile, "However, how about we play a little fancy? The two of them are in charge of drinking. If my points are small, my people will drink. If your points are small, Ji Yu will drink." ,what do you think?"
Ji Yu drank a lot of wine in such a muddleheaded manner. He has a good capacity for alcohol, so he was slightly drunk. But looking at the man opposite him who smiled like a fox, his face became more and more gloomy, and his mood became more and more depressed. Not wanting to make excuses with Xu Min any more, Xu Min wanted to pull him away, but he threw his hand away.
After Xu Min was so angry that Ji Yu picked up his bag and left, Gu Huai looked into his eyes and smiled, "Aren't you going to chase her?"
Ji Yu snorted coldly and said nothing, as if he had thought of something, he looked at Gu Huai and asked again, "What's your relationship with Su Jun? He has... a partner."
"I know, I never touch anyone with a family."
Ji Yu stared at the person in front of him, was silent for a while and then asked, "You...you also like men?"
Gu Huai smiled lowly, the laughter scratched Ji Yu's heart like a small brush, and asked without answering, "What about you?"
"Of course I don't like it..." The words he said lacked confidence.
Su Jun came out of the bathroom, the two of them didn't speak anymore, they just occasionally touched their eyes intentionally or unintentionally, and the colorful lights seemed to not only dazzle the eyes.
At the time of parting, Gu Huai took out a business card and slowly pushed it in front of Ji Yu, just smiled, but didn't say a word.
It wasn't until the person left that Ji Yu picked up the business card on the table and looked at it. It turned out that the person was still a deputy dean. He carried the business card back, and there was a string of handwritten personal numbers in beautiful handwriting. Sharp, as if it could seduce people.
Suddenly, his heart moved, that man was seducing him...
2.0
After going back and forth, the two gradually became acquainted.
Gu Huai would send a few text messages every day. In an era when messages were so developed, the two of them used this kind of old-fashioned way of contacting each other.Ji Yu smiled every time he heard the phone vibrate.
Although it is quite silly, but it still has a taste of innocence, but, he thinks, no matter how the other party looks at it, he is not an innocent person.
The son often looks at the phone and giggles, and Mrs. Ji also begins to have some doubts. Ji Yu has always rejected blind dates, is it because he has a girl he likes?
In fact, she doesn't like the free love that young people pay attention to nowadays. Of course, the marriage partner must be of the same family. It is good to know the basics. Can free love have good results?The example of Ji Yu's cousin is there. Ji Fanqing has been in a free relationship for so long and is still single at the age of 40. She doesn't allow his son to do the same, so she forces Ji Yu to find a girlfriend.
But then again, Ji Yu was used to being free in the past, and she didn't want to be controlled by her, so Mrs. Ji didn't dare to use too drastic methods, for fear of arousing her son's resentment, thinking about the good, at least now Ji Yu is willing to find a partner Yes, willing to get along with girls, this is a good sign, you can take your time.
Ji's family is not acceptable to all women. Worried that her son will be cheated, Mrs. Ji asked a few times on the sidelines, but was prevaricated by Ji Yu with a few casual sentences. She could only put her doubts aside.
Ji Yu heard the vibrating sound of the text message, and smiled secretly in his heart, is that the doctor who is so seductive?At least play some uniforms, seductions.
Most of the text messages between the two were sent by Gu Huai. Sometimes Ji Yu replied, sometimes he didn't reply, and then he would reply to every text message, and the reply time became shorter and shorter.
But during this period, no one called, and they maintained such a distant relationship. Amidst the "buzzing" vibrations of the text messages on the mobile phone, something changed gradually.
One day a month later, Ji Yu thought for 10 minutes, and finally sent the text message.
"Let's meet up!"
Gu Huai looked at it for a while, and only replied "Yes".
After two dinners, the atmosphere became more and more ambiguous, the men's relationship was more straightforward, and the bed sheets were opened. After the first time, it went smoothly a lot, the first time was born and the second time was familiar.
Later, Ji Yu moved into Gu Huai's apartment naturally, and the two lived together shamelessly.
Crazy pursuit of each other, as for later, both of them consciously avoided this topic.
3.0
When two men are together, it is inevitable that there will be friction. It was okay at first, but later, there were more bumps and bumps, and the original face was exposed.
Both began to live out their true selves.
Gu Huai is not a good-tempered person, nor is Ji Yu accommodating to other people's personality. After the two of them lived together shamelessly, the distance narrowed, and the problem emerged.After all, cohabitation is just about having fun, not just having fun, but there are two more profound words, life.
What is life, firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea, if you calculate it this way, between two people, most of them are Ji Yu letting Gu Huai. Well, there is no one who bows his head first.
Both of them strictly abide by their own boundaries, and they have a bottom line in their hearts. Neither of them wants to cross the boundaries.
This is good, every happy day is stolen.
Ji Yu knew in his heart that it was impossible for a family like his to accept that he was with a man no matter what, there was no possibility, even if it was a gamble, it was a gamble knowing the consequences.
When Gu Huai is not working, most of them will stay at home and read books, and Ji Yu will watch the football game next to him.
Gu Huai leaned his head on Ji Yu's lap, lay down and read a book, and when his eyes got a little tired, Gu Huai put the book aside, took off his glasses, and closed his eyes for a nap.
Ji Yu picked up Gu Huai's hand, Gu Huai's fingers were long and beautiful, Ji Yu smiled and held his hand, jokingly said, "Master Gu, your hand is for a scalpel, not a kitchen knife."
Gu Huai opened his eyes and looked at the person above his head, and then looked at the hands held together by the two. Ji Yu was covered with thick calluses, and his body temperature was higher than his, which could almost wrap his hands, with only half of his fingers exposed. tip.
Gu Huai pulled Ji Yu's hand to his lips and kissed it, and said with a smile, "I'm hungry, you can cook."
Ji Yu stood up, "Why are you so good at eating, I'll cook and it will be ready in a while."
Ji Yu has been in the army for so many years, so he doesn't think cooking is a big deal. He really likes Gu Huai a little bit, and he also vaguely knows what Gu Huai wants, but he doesn't think about it seriously. So I don't mind giving way to Gu Huai on these trivial matters.
Ji Yu put the clothes that the two of them changed into the automatic washing machine, and then asked Gu Huai to come over and press a button. Finally, Ji Yu took out the washed clothes from inside, and then dried them. This is considered a division of labor. .
Gu Huai didn't seem to care about anything, but in fact, he knew why Ji Yu was so kind to him, and why he was willing to take a step back at a critical moment.
It's rare to be confused in life, and he doesn't try to force Ji Yu, but he has his own bottom line. When Ji Yu is with him, he can't go on a blind date, or mess with other people.Don't ask for a couple forever, but at least when two people are together, each other is the only one for each other. If one day Ji Yu turns around, then he will let go readily.
Ji Yu's time to go home is getting less and less, Mrs. Ji began to notice something, looking at the photos taken by someone following Ji Yu, Mrs. Ji felt a little surprised, there was no woman around Ji Yu, but she was photographed There are many photos of Ji Yu going in and out with a man.
Ji Yu didn't go home recently, was he always with this man?Mrs. Ji frowned. She thought that Ji Yu had someone she liked, but it didn't seem to be the case. At this age, Ji Yu is still like a child, hanging out with friends all day long, not even going home , it seems that she has to press harder.
After the blind date that had been idle for more than half a year, Mrs. Ji started to help Ji Yu again. Of course, Ji Yu firmly opposed it. Later, Mrs. Ji tricked her into going home several times. Meal, first understand.
Ji Yu is tall and handsome, with a good family background. Even with a cold face, there are many girls who nod and agree. The pressure from both sides makes Ji Yu more and more irritable. He doesn't want to be manipulated like this, but the relationship between himself and Ji Yu The relationship is also felt that it cannot be made public.
Ji Yu just dragged on like this, circling between the two sides, until one weekend, Gu Huai called him, "Come back for dinner, I cooked dinner today."
When Ji Yu hung up the phone, he had a very bad premonition.
When Ji Yu returned home, Gu Huai really cooked a tableful of dishes. The vegetables were overcooked, the potatoes were not shredded enough, and the meat could only be said to be cooked.
However, the two of them finished their meal quietly.
Gu Huai ate three bowls in a row, and he seemed to have a very good appetite. Ji Yu wanted to talk a few times, but he stopped. He used to say that Gu Huai ate too little, and he seldom ate a bowl the size of a palm. Tim Fan, it's not easy for a doctor to torture himself with stomach problems.
Watching Gu Huai eat now, he felt a little uncomfortable, but he couldn't even swallow a mouthful of food.
Finally, Gu Huai put down the bowl and chopsticks, looked at Ji Yu, and said calmly, "Let's just forget it."
Ji Yu was taken aback, suspecting that he was quite wrong, "What did you just say?"
Gu Huai's voice was light, "If you want to get married and have children, I won't stop you, and I won't pester you. You don't need to make any compromises. Let's get together and break up. Although I like you, I'm not so cheap. At that level, at this level, there is no need to tear your face."
Ji Yu's heart sank, no matter how prepared he was, he had guessed that such a day would happen between the two of them, and he had a vague premonition on the way.But it turned out that when we really got to this point, all the preparations were in vain, and it was not worth three words, so I was reluctant.
How deep can the relationship be for more than half a year?he does not know.But he knew that as long as he thought of having nothing to do with Gu Huai in the future, he couldn't stand it.
"Gu Huai, I don't want to forget it, let's not break up, even if I get married, it's just a show, we can still be together, I really like you, we can still be the same as now."
Ji Yu lowered his eyes, not daring to look into Gu Huai's eyes. After hesitating for so long, he finally said what was in his heart.
4.0
After the two people's conversation broke down, within three days, they had sorted out their respective feelings, anyway, at least on the surface.
Back then, Gu Huai looked at Ji Yu coldly, his tone of voice was extremely cold, the starlight in his eyes dimmed overnight, and he was in a trance for a moment, he was already dead, without worry or fear.
Gu Huai's words shattered Ji Yu's last sliver of hope, and even dared not look into Gu Huai's eyes.
Gu Huai said at the time: "Ji Yu, if you take the initiative to let me go and meet again, I won't hate you at all, but you said such a sentence, not only trampled on me, but also despised this paragraph. Feelings, no, maybe it shouldn't be said that, what kind of feelings can there be between two men, at least, we don't deserve to use these two words."
At that time, Ji Yu opened his mouth and did not speak. He understood that at that moment, he had already lost all the right to speak. He lost Gu Huai, and his heart seemed to be empty. The wind gushed into it. Cold hands and feet.
After Ji Yu moved out, Gu Huai threw all the things that he didn't take away into the trash can regardless of the price. Even the newly purchased pair of pillows on the bed, he threw away Ji Yu's usual one.
Seeing that there was only one single pillow left in pairs, Gu Huai shook his head.
He knew in his heart that he was actually not as strong as he appeared on the surface, and it was impossible to say that he was not sad.It's just that now that he has decided to separate, he doesn't want to make himself too ugly in the face of the facts.
After all, what if you are not free and easy?
After clearing all traces of the person in the house for the past few months, everything is as before, as if that person has never been here.
Even after a few days, Gu Huai deliberately changed the soft furnishings in the house, changing the overall cold style.
If you get used to living alone, you don't think there is anything wrong with it, but if you get used to the excitement of two people, and then become one person, you will become unaccustomed and feel too cold.
Gu Huai went to work as usual, and the rules of life were not disrupted at all. After all, life had to go on, and feelings were not the whole of life. On the surface, it seemed that Ji Yu's departure seemed to him to be eliminated. Is an insignificant person in general.
Gu Huai originally thought that the two of them would return from bridge to bridge, road to road, and have nothing to do with each other, but he didn't want to. The reality was full of blood everywhere. The moment he saw Ji Yu's mother, his heart sank, and he felt uneasy. Good feeling.
Gu Huai rarely has premonitions, so every premonition is accurate, and this time is the same. Speaking of it this way, it is actually nothing unusual. It is the same as parents who know that their son is gay and cannot accept it. It is just Mrs. Ji's hysteria , the fighting power is obviously stronger than the average person.
The corridors of the hospital were full of spectators, some were doctors, some were medical staff. After the security guard took Ji Yu's mother away, Gu Huai's temples were still throbbing.
Glancing at the crowd, he patiently said with a cold face, "What are you doing here, it's not time to change shifts yet."
All the people scattered like birds and animals, Gu Huai picked up the scattered medical books and documents, restored the office to its original state, and rubbed his eye sockets.
He suddenly felt tired, and felt a kind of burnout in his heart. Those emotions that had been suppressed for a long time seemed to find an outlet to vent, and suddenly burst out.
Gu Huai took a long vacation with the hospital. He was not afraid of Mrs. Ji's threat, but he felt tired and wanted to change the environment. In the past two years, the hospital has been busy with work. Now he has retired to the second line and rarely goes to the operating table , after becoming the vice president, he is mainly responsible for management and coordination, and there are often various entertainments, so he has to go if he doesn't.
Turning his mind around and thinking about the good, now he has found a reason to be lazy, but in fact it is not a bad thing at all.
Gu Huai came out to his family as early as after graduating from high school, and was accepted by his family, but this time the incident was such a big deal, Gu Huai's father inevitably scolded him a few words, after all, he was approached by the other party's mother, and it was In a public place like a hospital, the influence is not good.
In Gu's father's heart, his son has always known how to measure, so he just mentioned a few words without saying anything serious.He also felt that it was okay for Gu Huai to suspend the work in hand and think about it, so he approved the leave, and it was rare for him to let Gu Huai go.
At that time, it happened that Su Jun and Lu Tingchuan's wedding invitation was received. After Gu Huai handed over the work, he went directly to Su Jun.
He, a miserable bachelor, traveled thousands of miles to watch other people show their affection.
After living in Shixi town for a while, Gu Huai lived in Su Jun's yard. The [-]-watt light bulb was extremely bright. The three of them were sitting in the living room together. Su Jun was thin-skinned. Let Lu Tingchuan touch, don't even think about hugging, even holding hands, Lu Tingchuan often does this, seeing Gu Huai's face getting more and more gloomy, of course he knows that Gu Huai did it on purpose.
Not only did Gu Huai act as a light bulb to prevent Lu Tingchuan's beasts from succeeding, but he also secretly bullied Lu Tingchuan's son. He pinched Beibei's fat face every day, and the feel of the Q ball seemed to make people feel better. Of course, this matter You have to carry Lu Tingchuan on your back, otherwise Lu Tingchuan's low air pressure can freeze people into ice cubes.
Lu Tingchuan has asked Gu Huai several times when to leave, and Gu Huai said to wait and see. In fact, Gu Huai can also understand that at Lu Tingchuan's age like a wolf, his mind is full of mosaics, so of course he doesn't want his light bulb to affect him. played out.
Gu Huaidang was tired of the light bulb, and Beibei's face grew bigger, and I don't know if it was because he squeezed it or because he ate too much...
The weather was also getting colder and colder, Gu Huai decided to find a place where spring flowers bloom, and finally put leaving on the itinerary, and went to the other side of the earth.
After playing for three months one after another, Gu Huai got a lot of tan, met many handsome guys from different countries, and Gu Huai's mood improved a lot. By the time he returned to the capital, it was almost the Spring Festival.
Gu Huai got out of the taxi, and just now in the car, he looked at the person standing under the street lamp from a distance, and now he got off the car and saw the person's face clearly.
I haven't seen him for almost half a year. Ji Yu has lost a lot of weight and is also ugly. The beard on his chin has not been shaved for an unknown period of time, and he looks slovenly.
Gu Huai was taken aback, and left with his luggage. Ji Yu grabbed Gu Huai's arm from behind with such strength that Gu Huai's arm hurt a little.
Ji Yu's eyes were a little red, and he asked in a low voice, "Where have you been, why are you avoiding me?"
5.0
As Ji Yu approached step by step, Gu Huai shook off Ji Yu's hand, stepped back step by step, and pressed his back against the wall.Finally, there was no way out, he stopped, "Ji Yu, why are you here?"
It was already late at night, and the wind was cold. Gu Huai didn't know how long Ji Yu had been standing, and he didn't think about why Ji Yu was standing here.
Gu Huai sighed again in his heart. He thought that after such a long time, he would not be touched again when he saw him again. After all, he still thought highly of himself.
"Why didn't you answer my call?" Ji Yu looked fiercely at the person in front of him.
Gu Huai sneered: "Ji Yu, can you please be more rational? We have nothing to do with each other. What do you mean by saying this now." After a pause, without waiting for the other party to answer, Gu Huai said, " No matter what it means, I don't want to know, so let's go."
After Gu Huai finished speaking, he grabbed the box and was about to leave.
"Please, don't go, I was wrong, I know I'm wrong, I'm sorry, don't leave me." Ji Yu hugged Gu Huai from behind, murmured, his mind went blank, and he didn't know what he was talking about .
It was hard for him to wait for Gu Huai. He was afraid that if he was not paying attention, Gu Huai would disappear again.
Gu Huai paused, and slowly removed Ji Yu's arm that was holding him, "Ji Yu, don't do this, don't make me...hate you."
Ji Yu slowly squatted down, he hugged Gu Huai's leg, "I know I'm not good, my mother went to the hospital to find you, I think I used to be a jerk, you beat me and scolded me Okay, but don't go, okay?"
After finishing speaking, Ji Yu held Gu Huai's hand and pressed it to his face, "You hit me, and you'll calm down after you hit me."
Ji Yu didn't know how long he stood in the cold wind. Gu Huai touched Ji Yu's face and it was frozen. The temperature seemed to be able to freeze his heart all the time, and there was also the roughness of his beard.
Ji Yu wanted to push Ji Yu away, but his leg was hugged by Ji Yu, so he had to pull out his hand, and only saw the back of Ji Yu's head with his downcast eyes.
At this time, the sky began to snow, which was not very big at first, and the ice particles were sandwiched, and the snowflakes were stained with the halo of the street lamps, and disappeared as soon as they fell to the ground.
Gu Huai squatted down, and broke apart Ji Yu's fingers holding his calf one by one.
Ji Yu's voice was faint, and it sounded extremely desolate, as if he jumped out to talk about other people's affairs.
He looked straight into Ji Yu's eyes, "In this life, anyone may take a wrong path, but there are very few roads that are impassable. Most of them go around, and eventually they will find an exit for you to go out, but if If you choose the smooth road from the beginning, you will never see the winding and dark scenery, Ji Yu, you are a very good scenery I passed by."
Ji Yu raised his head and looked at Gu Huai, "You mean you went astray when you were with me?"
Gu Huai did not speak.
Ji Yu lowered his head slowly, his voice was muffled, with some trills. "I don't care what the road is, please, don't want me."
Gu Huai heard Ji Yu begging like a child, and sighed inaudibly.
At this moment, he was not without heartbeat, after all, he was so fond of someone.
But having been disappointed once, he didn't want to repeat the same mistake and fall a second time in the same place.Why bother?The two obviously have no future. Ji Yu is different from him. Before he appeared, Ji Yu liked women.So even if he forgives Ji Yu now, what about after that?Waiting for the two of them to live together for a long time, and the passion fades away, Ji Yu can't guarantee that he won't regret it and think about getting married again.
He could no longer bear the second disappointment.He didn't want to see Ji Yu's resentful expression in the future.
Gu Huai stood up, the expression on his face was as cold as running water in the dark night, "Ji Yu, do you know why many people don't turn back when they hit the south wall? Because he is afraid that if he turns back, he will feel sorry for his head. Bloody self."
Ji Yu's face became gloomy in an instant, his eyes were a little red, and every word seemed to be squeezed out of his throat, "I don't care, I'm here waiting for you every day, isn't it just listening to you and me saying these things. "
"Then what do you want to hear? Ji Yu, I don't owe you anything, don't mess around. Let's talk about it. You left first, and I'm kind to you. I can do whatever you want to marry a wife and have children." I close my eyes and don’t look at it, I feel that there is nothing I’m sorry for you. We have already returned to the bridge, why do you make such a gesture.” “What do you want me to do to forgive me? "Get out now, I don't want to see you." Gu Huai's voice was cold, his hands were tightly gripping the handle of the suitcase, and he stopped looking at Ji Yu.
Ji Yu stared at the person in front of him. He felt that the cold wind blowing here for several hours could not resist the cold for a second, as if he had been transferred into an ice cellar in an instant.
It turns out that a person's heart can be so painful.
Ji Yu grew up smoothly until now. Before Gu Huai, he had never had feelings for anyone, and he didn't know what it was like to like someone. Ji Yu had a good appearance and a cheerful personality. Girls like him, and even bold ones will take the initiative to pursue him. There are lollipops and things in milk in the desk every day. It seems that he doesn’t have to do anything deliberately, and others will treat him well. Wu, in the army with few women, there are often female nurses who treat him well.
Not to mention, since he came back, her mother arranged for him a blind date, and there are a lot of women who are trying their best to marry into Ji's family.
But with Gu Huai, nothing works. Obviously Gu Huai provoked him. He made a mistake and apologized, but why Gu Huai just refused to turn around and put on a cold look.
Ji Yu has always been arrogant, and it was the first time he lowered his posture to ask for help, but he didn't want Gu Huai to be unmoved, and he would inevitably feel embarrassed.
Ji Yu stood up slowly, "I see, take care of yourself, I'll go back first."
He originally wanted to laugh, but found that he could no longer control the muscles on his face.
"You take care too."
Ji Yu turned around, his body froze when he heard Gu Huai's voice, he continued walking forward without looking back.
Some things are lost when they are lost. Not every time he does something wrong, he has a chance to make up for it, but he doesn't want to let go anyway, and he doesn't want to make himself regret for the rest of his life.
Gu Huai went upstairs and put his luggage aside. He walked to the window and watched Ji Yu's car go away. He finally breathed a sigh of relief. Sitting on the sofa, Gu Huai watched the knees of his jeans get wet. Startled, are these Ji Yu's tears?
Gu Huai threw the jeans he took off into the washing machine, walked into the bathroom naked, and the hot water washed away his fatigue.
After Gu Huai took a shower, he lay down on the bed. He suddenly felt that the bed was too big for sleeping alone.He hasn't been to this house for more than half a year. When he just walked in, he felt Ji Yu's shadow wherever his eyes stopped. What the hell, he obviously changed into a soft suit.
Gu Huai smiled wryly, thinking whether he should change to another place, even if he couldn't let it go, so what, he didn't want to turn back, so it's good to stop here.
6.0
When Gu Huai woke up, he reached out and grabbed the phone on the side to look at it. It was already eleven o'clock. He walked to the window and looked down. There was already a thin layer of snow on the ground.
He didn't sleep well yesterday, partly because of jet lag, partly because of...
It turns out that I still can't be indifferent.Ji Yu is like a thorn in his heart, even if the thorn is pulled out, it will still leave traces.
He thought wildly for a long time yesterday, and didn't sleep for a while until it was dawn.
When I got up from the bed at this moment, my head was still a little heavy.
Ji Yu looked at it for a while, recovered, turned and walked out of the bedroom.
Looking at Ji Yu who was sitting on the sofa, Gu Huai froze for a moment. He wondered if he had read it wrong.He probably wasn't so dazed yet.
Ji Yu stood up and said kindly, "I got up, I'm cooking, and I haven't been in the kitchen for a long time, you can try to see if my cooking skills have deteriorated."
Gu Huai was startled, why did Ji Yu appear here?By the way, Ji Yu still has his key here. He left in a hurry, so he didn't have time to change the lock.
This scene is like going back to those days before...
Gu Huai looked back, and said coldly: "It seems that I should change the lock, you call it illegal trespass."
Ji Yu froze for a moment, looked at Gu Huai, the previous joy disappeared, and his voice was somewhat desolate, "Huai Huai, do you have to do this?"
After he separated from Gu Huai last night, he drove aimlessly around in circles. The streets in the early morning were very empty, and there were no pedestrians under the dim street lights.
He thought a lot these days, and when he really saw Gu Huai again, he realized that the apology he had rehearsed countless times in his heart was useless. Gu Huai's indifference made him feel uncomfortable.
He thought a lot, Gu Huai is such a cold and arrogant person, why did he approach him in the first place?No matter what it is for.At first, Gu Huai's proactive approach really satisfied his vanity, no matter how proud a person is, he was taken down by him, and when he was proud, he forgot to see his own heart clearly.
The most difficult thing to heal is the human heart. He was afraid that Gu Huai would not forgive him and would reject him thousands of miles away.
The empty streets, only cars passing by in twos and threes, are completely different from the bustling and bustling during the day, lonely and cold, like another world.
Ji Yu accidentally drove the car back again, no matter what, he didn't want to let go, he didn't want to be like his brother, lonely in the dead of night.
He couldn't imagine a life without Gu Huai in the future.
Ji Yu stayed in the car all night without sleep, smoked a pack of cigarettes, and waited for dawn, when people started to pass by, he got out of the car, went to the neighborhood to buy groceries, and went to Gu Huai's home.
He knew that Gu Huai hadn't come back for so long, so there must be nothing to eat at home. Gu Huai's stomach had always been bad, and he had mild gastritis, which had a lot to do with his irregular diet. Thinking of this, Ji Yu smiled helplessly , A doctor would mess up his stomach, didn't he do it knowingly.
Ji Yu cooked a table full of joy, originally wanted to wake Gu Huai up, stretched out his hand, paused for two seconds in the air, and then put it down.
He wanted Gu Huai to sleep a little longer.
The people in the bedroom finally came out. Ji Yu didn't expect that his enthusiasm would be exchanged for the words "illegal intrusion".
Ji Yu's eyes darkened. He had never admitted his mistakes in such a humble manner, begged others, and put his dignity aside.
"Gu Huai, don't go too far."
Gu Huai sneered, "Are I going too far or you are going too far, Ji Yu, you want to enjoy the blessings of being equal, so I don't have to cooperate with you."
Ji Yu looked at Gu Huai angrily, his eyes were a little red, he took a step forward, and Gu Huai pressed against the wall.
The mobile phone that Gu Huai held in his hand fell to the ground with a "slap".
Ji Yu looked at Gu Huai intently, "Do you have to be so mean?"
The two people's faces are very close to each other, their noses are facing each other, and they can feel each other's breathing. Gu Huai smiled instead of anger, "I was originally a mean person, you just found out today?"
"I just found out that you provoked me first. It's not so easy for you to turn around and leave now."
"You're shameless." Gu Huai pushed Ji Yu away with his knee, "It's really boring for you to do this. It's just for fun, to get together and get together. You said this reminded me of the past, and it made me feel very sad. ……nausea."
Ji Yu looked at Gu Huai, this matter was his fault, so no matter how sarcastic Gu Huai said, he couldn't refute it.
Ji Yu suddenly laughed, "Since you have disgusted me to this extent, I don't need to pretend anymore, the worst is
Gu Huai once heard such a saying: The world is big, a person will meet about 2920 million people in a lifetime, and the probability of two people falling in love is 0.000049.
But he thinks this sentence is sophistry, as long as you meet the right person at the right time and place, the other 29199999 people actually have nothing to do with you.
As for what is the right person, Gu Huai looked at the person standing at the door and looked around, the corners of his lips curled up.
Sometimes, the world is actually quite small.
Ji Yu seldom goes to such brightly lit occasions. He finds it boring. Is it interesting to drink so much wine and get yourself into a trance?Anyway, he didn't think it was interesting at all, and he didn't like the feeling that he couldn't control himself.
The main reason for coming this time is thanks to his mother.Recently, the family arranges blind dates for him every day. He feels that he is almost becoming a commodity for sale. He is tall, short, fat and thin, white and black, and finally becomes a face. There is no obstacle in the mind.
In order not to be handed over to the next woman by his mother, he had no choice but to tell his mother euphemistically that the one he saw so far is not bad, and he can date her first, and he may not fall in love at first sight, right.
What Ji Yu didn't expect was that his strategy of slowing down caused another trouble. Since the last blind date, Xu Min has been calling him and contacting him frequently, very enthusiastically.
He used to be able to take care of his mother, the adults, and perfunctory, but later he became more and more impatient.
First, she has no interest in that woman at all, and she doesn't want to marry so early.
Second, Xu Min's title of "Eight-Power Allied Forces" is out there, ordinary people can't hold it, he doesn't want to challenge, he doesn't have that kind of luck.
Ji Yu originally wanted to be perfunctory until he finished his vacation, but later found that he couldn't do it. He had to stand firm on this matter. Her mother almost regarded Xu Min as a prospective daughter-in-law. Regarding this, Ji Yu was actually quite depressed. He felt that his market situation didn't seem so bad.
Well, a large part of the reason for this is his cousin. The Ji family has been passed down to this generation, and there are only two men. His brother is 40 years old and still single. People in the family dare not force his brother, so he It became cannon fodder, and I wish I could find a suitable one, marry him immediately, and show someone the next day.
Ji Yu pondered for a while on the way here. His fucking personality definitely can't be forced, so he decided to take a roundabout policy. First, he made it clear to Xu Min, made it clear, and asked Xu Min to retreat. It's easy to explain.
He had already worked hard to fight for it. It was because others looked down on her son, so his mother would have nothing to say after a few words.
Ji Yu walked in, his eyes scanned for a week, he didn't expect to see an acquaintance, he walked straight towards the two people sitting in the booth, and before he said a word, Xu Min came over, spraying too much perfume , he smelled a little dizzy.
"It's fate to meet you. Are you interested in sitting down and having a drink?" Gu Huai said to Xu Min, but his eyes crossed people.Looking at Ji Yu.
Looking at Gu Huai, who has attracted the attention of countless men and women, Ji Yu always feels a little weird, how should I put it, Su Jun is the type who can't tell at a glance that he likes men, but Gu Huai doesn't.
Ji Yu just felt that the other party liked men, and to him... Ji Yu didn't have time to react, Xu Min had already pulled him to sit down, and picked up the dice on the table, as always like a nightclub queen, eagerly said , "How about we play games, and whoever has the lowest points will drink."
Ji Yu frowned inwardly.
"Okay." Gu Huai said with a smile, "However, how about we play a little fancy? The two of them are in charge of drinking. If my points are small, my people will drink. If your points are small, Ji Yu will drink." ,what do you think?"
Ji Yu drank a lot of wine in such a muddleheaded manner. He has a good capacity for alcohol, so he was slightly drunk. But looking at the man opposite him who smiled like a fox, his face became more and more gloomy, and his mood became more and more depressed. Not wanting to make excuses with Xu Min any more, Xu Min wanted to pull him away, but he threw his hand away.
After Xu Min was so angry that Ji Yu picked up his bag and left, Gu Huai looked into his eyes and smiled, "Aren't you going to chase her?"
Ji Yu snorted coldly and said nothing, as if he had thought of something, he looked at Gu Huai and asked again, "What's your relationship with Su Jun? He has... a partner."
"I know, I never touch anyone with a family."
Ji Yu stared at the person in front of him, was silent for a while and then asked, "You...you also like men?"
Gu Huai smiled lowly, the laughter scratched Ji Yu's heart like a small brush, and asked without answering, "What about you?"
"Of course I don't like it..." The words he said lacked confidence.
Su Jun came out of the bathroom, the two of them didn't speak anymore, they just occasionally touched their eyes intentionally or unintentionally, and the colorful lights seemed to not only dazzle the eyes.
At the time of parting, Gu Huai took out a business card and slowly pushed it in front of Ji Yu, just smiled, but didn't say a word.
It wasn't until the person left that Ji Yu picked up the business card on the table and looked at it. It turned out that the person was still a deputy dean. He carried the business card back, and there was a string of handwritten personal numbers in beautiful handwriting. Sharp, as if it could seduce people.
Suddenly, his heart moved, that man was seducing him...
2.0
After going back and forth, the two gradually became acquainted.
Gu Huai would send a few text messages every day. In an era when messages were so developed, the two of them used this kind of old-fashioned way of contacting each other.Ji Yu smiled every time he heard the phone vibrate.
Although it is quite silly, but it still has a taste of innocence, but, he thinks, no matter how the other party looks at it, he is not an innocent person.
The son often looks at the phone and giggles, and Mrs. Ji also begins to have some doubts. Ji Yu has always rejected blind dates, is it because he has a girl he likes?
In fact, she doesn't like the free love that young people pay attention to nowadays. Of course, the marriage partner must be of the same family. It is good to know the basics. Can free love have good results?The example of Ji Yu's cousin is there. Ji Fanqing has been in a free relationship for so long and is still single at the age of 40. She doesn't allow his son to do the same, so she forces Ji Yu to find a girlfriend.
But then again, Ji Yu was used to being free in the past, and she didn't want to be controlled by her, so Mrs. Ji didn't dare to use too drastic methods, for fear of arousing her son's resentment, thinking about the good, at least now Ji Yu is willing to find a partner Yes, willing to get along with girls, this is a good sign, you can take your time.
Ji's family is not acceptable to all women. Worried that her son will be cheated, Mrs. Ji asked a few times on the sidelines, but was prevaricated by Ji Yu with a few casual sentences. She could only put her doubts aside.
Ji Yu heard the vibrating sound of the text message, and smiled secretly in his heart, is that the doctor who is so seductive?At least play some uniforms, seductions.
Most of the text messages between the two were sent by Gu Huai. Sometimes Ji Yu replied, sometimes he didn't reply, and then he would reply to every text message, and the reply time became shorter and shorter.
But during this period, no one called, and they maintained such a distant relationship. Amidst the "buzzing" vibrations of the text messages on the mobile phone, something changed gradually.
One day a month later, Ji Yu thought for 10 minutes, and finally sent the text message.
"Let's meet up!"
Gu Huai looked at it for a while, and only replied "Yes".
After two dinners, the atmosphere became more and more ambiguous, the men's relationship was more straightforward, and the bed sheets were opened. After the first time, it went smoothly a lot, the first time was born and the second time was familiar.
Later, Ji Yu moved into Gu Huai's apartment naturally, and the two lived together shamelessly.
Crazy pursuit of each other, as for later, both of them consciously avoided this topic.
3.0
When two men are together, it is inevitable that there will be friction. It was okay at first, but later, there were more bumps and bumps, and the original face was exposed.
Both began to live out their true selves.
Gu Huai is not a good-tempered person, nor is Ji Yu accommodating to other people's personality. After the two of them lived together shamelessly, the distance narrowed, and the problem emerged.After all, cohabitation is just about having fun, not just having fun, but there are two more profound words, life.
What is life, firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea, if you calculate it this way, between two people, most of them are Ji Yu letting Gu Huai. Well, there is no one who bows his head first.
Both of them strictly abide by their own boundaries, and they have a bottom line in their hearts. Neither of them wants to cross the boundaries.
This is good, every happy day is stolen.
Ji Yu knew in his heart that it was impossible for a family like his to accept that he was with a man no matter what, there was no possibility, even if it was a gamble, it was a gamble knowing the consequences.
When Gu Huai is not working, most of them will stay at home and read books, and Ji Yu will watch the football game next to him.
Gu Huai leaned his head on Ji Yu's lap, lay down and read a book, and when his eyes got a little tired, Gu Huai put the book aside, took off his glasses, and closed his eyes for a nap.
Ji Yu picked up Gu Huai's hand, Gu Huai's fingers were long and beautiful, Ji Yu smiled and held his hand, jokingly said, "Master Gu, your hand is for a scalpel, not a kitchen knife."
Gu Huai opened his eyes and looked at the person above his head, and then looked at the hands held together by the two. Ji Yu was covered with thick calluses, and his body temperature was higher than his, which could almost wrap his hands, with only half of his fingers exposed. tip.
Gu Huai pulled Ji Yu's hand to his lips and kissed it, and said with a smile, "I'm hungry, you can cook."
Ji Yu stood up, "Why are you so good at eating, I'll cook and it will be ready in a while."
Ji Yu has been in the army for so many years, so he doesn't think cooking is a big deal. He really likes Gu Huai a little bit, and he also vaguely knows what Gu Huai wants, but he doesn't think about it seriously. So I don't mind giving way to Gu Huai on these trivial matters.
Ji Yu put the clothes that the two of them changed into the automatic washing machine, and then asked Gu Huai to come over and press a button. Finally, Ji Yu took out the washed clothes from inside, and then dried them. This is considered a division of labor. .
Gu Huai didn't seem to care about anything, but in fact, he knew why Ji Yu was so kind to him, and why he was willing to take a step back at a critical moment.
It's rare to be confused in life, and he doesn't try to force Ji Yu, but he has his own bottom line. When Ji Yu is with him, he can't go on a blind date, or mess with other people.Don't ask for a couple forever, but at least when two people are together, each other is the only one for each other. If one day Ji Yu turns around, then he will let go readily.
Ji Yu's time to go home is getting less and less, Mrs. Ji began to notice something, looking at the photos taken by someone following Ji Yu, Mrs. Ji felt a little surprised, there was no woman around Ji Yu, but she was photographed There are many photos of Ji Yu going in and out with a man.
Ji Yu didn't go home recently, was he always with this man?Mrs. Ji frowned. She thought that Ji Yu had someone she liked, but it didn't seem to be the case. At this age, Ji Yu is still like a child, hanging out with friends all day long, not even going home , it seems that she has to press harder.
After the blind date that had been idle for more than half a year, Mrs. Ji started to help Ji Yu again. Of course, Ji Yu firmly opposed it. Later, Mrs. Ji tricked her into going home several times. Meal, first understand.
Ji Yu is tall and handsome, with a good family background. Even with a cold face, there are many girls who nod and agree. The pressure from both sides makes Ji Yu more and more irritable. He doesn't want to be manipulated like this, but the relationship between himself and Ji Yu The relationship is also felt that it cannot be made public.
Ji Yu just dragged on like this, circling between the two sides, until one weekend, Gu Huai called him, "Come back for dinner, I cooked dinner today."
When Ji Yu hung up the phone, he had a very bad premonition.
When Ji Yu returned home, Gu Huai really cooked a tableful of dishes. The vegetables were overcooked, the potatoes were not shredded enough, and the meat could only be said to be cooked.
However, the two of them finished their meal quietly.
Gu Huai ate three bowls in a row, and he seemed to have a very good appetite. Ji Yu wanted to talk a few times, but he stopped. He used to say that Gu Huai ate too little, and he seldom ate a bowl the size of a palm. Tim Fan, it's not easy for a doctor to torture himself with stomach problems.
Watching Gu Huai eat now, he felt a little uncomfortable, but he couldn't even swallow a mouthful of food.
Finally, Gu Huai put down the bowl and chopsticks, looked at Ji Yu, and said calmly, "Let's just forget it."
Ji Yu was taken aback, suspecting that he was quite wrong, "What did you just say?"
Gu Huai's voice was light, "If you want to get married and have children, I won't stop you, and I won't pester you. You don't need to make any compromises. Let's get together and break up. Although I like you, I'm not so cheap. At that level, at this level, there is no need to tear your face."
Ji Yu's heart sank, no matter how prepared he was, he had guessed that such a day would happen between the two of them, and he had a vague premonition on the way.But it turned out that when we really got to this point, all the preparations were in vain, and it was not worth three words, so I was reluctant.
How deep can the relationship be for more than half a year?he does not know.But he knew that as long as he thought of having nothing to do with Gu Huai in the future, he couldn't stand it.
"Gu Huai, I don't want to forget it, let's not break up, even if I get married, it's just a show, we can still be together, I really like you, we can still be the same as now."
Ji Yu lowered his eyes, not daring to look into Gu Huai's eyes. After hesitating for so long, he finally said what was in his heart.
4.0
After the two people's conversation broke down, within three days, they had sorted out their respective feelings, anyway, at least on the surface.
Back then, Gu Huai looked at Ji Yu coldly, his tone of voice was extremely cold, the starlight in his eyes dimmed overnight, and he was in a trance for a moment, he was already dead, without worry or fear.
Gu Huai's words shattered Ji Yu's last sliver of hope, and even dared not look into Gu Huai's eyes.
Gu Huai said at the time: "Ji Yu, if you take the initiative to let me go and meet again, I won't hate you at all, but you said such a sentence, not only trampled on me, but also despised this paragraph. Feelings, no, maybe it shouldn't be said that, what kind of feelings can there be between two men, at least, we don't deserve to use these two words."
At that time, Ji Yu opened his mouth and did not speak. He understood that at that moment, he had already lost all the right to speak. He lost Gu Huai, and his heart seemed to be empty. The wind gushed into it. Cold hands and feet.
After Ji Yu moved out, Gu Huai threw all the things that he didn't take away into the trash can regardless of the price. Even the newly purchased pair of pillows on the bed, he threw away Ji Yu's usual one.
Seeing that there was only one single pillow left in pairs, Gu Huai shook his head.
He knew in his heart that he was actually not as strong as he appeared on the surface, and it was impossible to say that he was not sad.It's just that now that he has decided to separate, he doesn't want to make himself too ugly in the face of the facts.
After all, what if you are not free and easy?
After clearing all traces of the person in the house for the past few months, everything is as before, as if that person has never been here.
Even after a few days, Gu Huai deliberately changed the soft furnishings in the house, changing the overall cold style.
If you get used to living alone, you don't think there is anything wrong with it, but if you get used to the excitement of two people, and then become one person, you will become unaccustomed and feel too cold.
Gu Huai went to work as usual, and the rules of life were not disrupted at all. After all, life had to go on, and feelings were not the whole of life. On the surface, it seemed that Ji Yu's departure seemed to him to be eliminated. Is an insignificant person in general.
Gu Huai originally thought that the two of them would return from bridge to bridge, road to road, and have nothing to do with each other, but he didn't want to. The reality was full of blood everywhere. The moment he saw Ji Yu's mother, his heart sank, and he felt uneasy. Good feeling.
Gu Huai rarely has premonitions, so every premonition is accurate, and this time is the same. Speaking of it this way, it is actually nothing unusual. It is the same as parents who know that their son is gay and cannot accept it. It is just Mrs. Ji's hysteria , the fighting power is obviously stronger than the average person.
The corridors of the hospital were full of spectators, some were doctors, some were medical staff. After the security guard took Ji Yu's mother away, Gu Huai's temples were still throbbing.
Glancing at the crowd, he patiently said with a cold face, "What are you doing here, it's not time to change shifts yet."
All the people scattered like birds and animals, Gu Huai picked up the scattered medical books and documents, restored the office to its original state, and rubbed his eye sockets.
He suddenly felt tired, and felt a kind of burnout in his heart. Those emotions that had been suppressed for a long time seemed to find an outlet to vent, and suddenly burst out.
Gu Huai took a long vacation with the hospital. He was not afraid of Mrs. Ji's threat, but he felt tired and wanted to change the environment. In the past two years, the hospital has been busy with work. Now he has retired to the second line and rarely goes to the operating table , after becoming the vice president, he is mainly responsible for management and coordination, and there are often various entertainments, so he has to go if he doesn't.
Turning his mind around and thinking about the good, now he has found a reason to be lazy, but in fact it is not a bad thing at all.
Gu Huai came out to his family as early as after graduating from high school, and was accepted by his family, but this time the incident was such a big deal, Gu Huai's father inevitably scolded him a few words, after all, he was approached by the other party's mother, and it was In a public place like a hospital, the influence is not good.
In Gu's father's heart, his son has always known how to measure, so he just mentioned a few words without saying anything serious.He also felt that it was okay for Gu Huai to suspend the work in hand and think about it, so he approved the leave, and it was rare for him to let Gu Huai go.
At that time, it happened that Su Jun and Lu Tingchuan's wedding invitation was received. After Gu Huai handed over the work, he went directly to Su Jun.
He, a miserable bachelor, traveled thousands of miles to watch other people show their affection.
After living in Shixi town for a while, Gu Huai lived in Su Jun's yard. The [-]-watt light bulb was extremely bright. The three of them were sitting in the living room together. Su Jun was thin-skinned. Let Lu Tingchuan touch, don't even think about hugging, even holding hands, Lu Tingchuan often does this, seeing Gu Huai's face getting more and more gloomy, of course he knows that Gu Huai did it on purpose.
Not only did Gu Huai act as a light bulb to prevent Lu Tingchuan's beasts from succeeding, but he also secretly bullied Lu Tingchuan's son. He pinched Beibei's fat face every day, and the feel of the Q ball seemed to make people feel better. Of course, this matter You have to carry Lu Tingchuan on your back, otherwise Lu Tingchuan's low air pressure can freeze people into ice cubes.
Lu Tingchuan has asked Gu Huai several times when to leave, and Gu Huai said to wait and see. In fact, Gu Huai can also understand that at Lu Tingchuan's age like a wolf, his mind is full of mosaics, so of course he doesn't want his light bulb to affect him. played out.
Gu Huaidang was tired of the light bulb, and Beibei's face grew bigger, and I don't know if it was because he squeezed it or because he ate too much...
The weather was also getting colder and colder, Gu Huai decided to find a place where spring flowers bloom, and finally put leaving on the itinerary, and went to the other side of the earth.
After playing for three months one after another, Gu Huai got a lot of tan, met many handsome guys from different countries, and Gu Huai's mood improved a lot. By the time he returned to the capital, it was almost the Spring Festival.
Gu Huai got out of the taxi, and just now in the car, he looked at the person standing under the street lamp from a distance, and now he got off the car and saw the person's face clearly.
I haven't seen him for almost half a year. Ji Yu has lost a lot of weight and is also ugly. The beard on his chin has not been shaved for an unknown period of time, and he looks slovenly.
Gu Huai was taken aback, and left with his luggage. Ji Yu grabbed Gu Huai's arm from behind with such strength that Gu Huai's arm hurt a little.
Ji Yu's eyes were a little red, and he asked in a low voice, "Where have you been, why are you avoiding me?"
5.0
As Ji Yu approached step by step, Gu Huai shook off Ji Yu's hand, stepped back step by step, and pressed his back against the wall.Finally, there was no way out, he stopped, "Ji Yu, why are you here?"
It was already late at night, and the wind was cold. Gu Huai didn't know how long Ji Yu had been standing, and he didn't think about why Ji Yu was standing here.
Gu Huai sighed again in his heart. He thought that after such a long time, he would not be touched again when he saw him again. After all, he still thought highly of himself.
"Why didn't you answer my call?" Ji Yu looked fiercely at the person in front of him.
Gu Huai sneered: "Ji Yu, can you please be more rational? We have nothing to do with each other. What do you mean by saying this now." After a pause, without waiting for the other party to answer, Gu Huai said, " No matter what it means, I don't want to know, so let's go."
After Gu Huai finished speaking, he grabbed the box and was about to leave.
"Please, don't go, I was wrong, I know I'm wrong, I'm sorry, don't leave me." Ji Yu hugged Gu Huai from behind, murmured, his mind went blank, and he didn't know what he was talking about .
It was hard for him to wait for Gu Huai. He was afraid that if he was not paying attention, Gu Huai would disappear again.
Gu Huai paused, and slowly removed Ji Yu's arm that was holding him, "Ji Yu, don't do this, don't make me...hate you."
Ji Yu slowly squatted down, he hugged Gu Huai's leg, "I know I'm not good, my mother went to the hospital to find you, I think I used to be a jerk, you beat me and scolded me Okay, but don't go, okay?"
After finishing speaking, Ji Yu held Gu Huai's hand and pressed it to his face, "You hit me, and you'll calm down after you hit me."
Ji Yu didn't know how long he stood in the cold wind. Gu Huai touched Ji Yu's face and it was frozen. The temperature seemed to be able to freeze his heart all the time, and there was also the roughness of his beard.
Ji Yu wanted to push Ji Yu away, but his leg was hugged by Ji Yu, so he had to pull out his hand, and only saw the back of Ji Yu's head with his downcast eyes.
At this time, the sky began to snow, which was not very big at first, and the ice particles were sandwiched, and the snowflakes were stained with the halo of the street lamps, and disappeared as soon as they fell to the ground.
Gu Huai squatted down, and broke apart Ji Yu's fingers holding his calf one by one.
Ji Yu's voice was faint, and it sounded extremely desolate, as if he jumped out to talk about other people's affairs.
He looked straight into Ji Yu's eyes, "In this life, anyone may take a wrong path, but there are very few roads that are impassable. Most of them go around, and eventually they will find an exit for you to go out, but if If you choose the smooth road from the beginning, you will never see the winding and dark scenery, Ji Yu, you are a very good scenery I passed by."
Ji Yu raised his head and looked at Gu Huai, "You mean you went astray when you were with me?"
Gu Huai did not speak.
Ji Yu lowered his head slowly, his voice was muffled, with some trills. "I don't care what the road is, please, don't want me."
Gu Huai heard Ji Yu begging like a child, and sighed inaudibly.
At this moment, he was not without heartbeat, after all, he was so fond of someone.
But having been disappointed once, he didn't want to repeat the same mistake and fall a second time in the same place.Why bother?The two obviously have no future. Ji Yu is different from him. Before he appeared, Ji Yu liked women.So even if he forgives Ji Yu now, what about after that?Waiting for the two of them to live together for a long time, and the passion fades away, Ji Yu can't guarantee that he won't regret it and think about getting married again.
He could no longer bear the second disappointment.He didn't want to see Ji Yu's resentful expression in the future.
Gu Huai stood up, the expression on his face was as cold as running water in the dark night, "Ji Yu, do you know why many people don't turn back when they hit the south wall? Because he is afraid that if he turns back, he will feel sorry for his head. Bloody self."
Ji Yu's face became gloomy in an instant, his eyes were a little red, and every word seemed to be squeezed out of his throat, "I don't care, I'm here waiting for you every day, isn't it just listening to you and me saying these things. "
"Then what do you want to hear? Ji Yu, I don't owe you anything, don't mess around. Let's talk about it. You left first, and I'm kind to you. I can do whatever you want to marry a wife and have children." I close my eyes and don’t look at it, I feel that there is nothing I’m sorry for you. We have already returned to the bridge, why do you make such a gesture.” “What do you want me to do to forgive me? "Get out now, I don't want to see you." Gu Huai's voice was cold, his hands were tightly gripping the handle of the suitcase, and he stopped looking at Ji Yu.
Ji Yu stared at the person in front of him. He felt that the cold wind blowing here for several hours could not resist the cold for a second, as if he had been transferred into an ice cellar in an instant.
It turns out that a person's heart can be so painful.
Ji Yu grew up smoothly until now. Before Gu Huai, he had never had feelings for anyone, and he didn't know what it was like to like someone. Ji Yu had a good appearance and a cheerful personality. Girls like him, and even bold ones will take the initiative to pursue him. There are lollipops and things in milk in the desk every day. It seems that he doesn’t have to do anything deliberately, and others will treat him well. Wu, in the army with few women, there are often female nurses who treat him well.
Not to mention, since he came back, her mother arranged for him a blind date, and there are a lot of women who are trying their best to marry into Ji's family.
But with Gu Huai, nothing works. Obviously Gu Huai provoked him. He made a mistake and apologized, but why Gu Huai just refused to turn around and put on a cold look.
Ji Yu has always been arrogant, and it was the first time he lowered his posture to ask for help, but he didn't want Gu Huai to be unmoved, and he would inevitably feel embarrassed.
Ji Yu stood up slowly, "I see, take care of yourself, I'll go back first."
He originally wanted to laugh, but found that he could no longer control the muscles on his face.
"You take care too."
Ji Yu turned around, his body froze when he heard Gu Huai's voice, he continued walking forward without looking back.
Some things are lost when they are lost. Not every time he does something wrong, he has a chance to make up for it, but he doesn't want to let go anyway, and he doesn't want to make himself regret for the rest of his life.
Gu Huai went upstairs and put his luggage aside. He walked to the window and watched Ji Yu's car go away. He finally breathed a sigh of relief. Sitting on the sofa, Gu Huai watched the knees of his jeans get wet. Startled, are these Ji Yu's tears?
Gu Huai threw the jeans he took off into the washing machine, walked into the bathroom naked, and the hot water washed away his fatigue.
After Gu Huai took a shower, he lay down on the bed. He suddenly felt that the bed was too big for sleeping alone.He hasn't been to this house for more than half a year. When he just walked in, he felt Ji Yu's shadow wherever his eyes stopped. What the hell, he obviously changed into a soft suit.
Gu Huai smiled wryly, thinking whether he should change to another place, even if he couldn't let it go, so what, he didn't want to turn back, so it's good to stop here.
6.0
When Gu Huai woke up, he reached out and grabbed the phone on the side to look at it. It was already eleven o'clock. He walked to the window and looked down. There was already a thin layer of snow on the ground.
He didn't sleep well yesterday, partly because of jet lag, partly because of...
It turns out that I still can't be indifferent.Ji Yu is like a thorn in his heart, even if the thorn is pulled out, it will still leave traces.
He thought wildly for a long time yesterday, and didn't sleep for a while until it was dawn.
When I got up from the bed at this moment, my head was still a little heavy.
Ji Yu looked at it for a while, recovered, turned and walked out of the bedroom.
Looking at Ji Yu who was sitting on the sofa, Gu Huai froze for a moment. He wondered if he had read it wrong.He probably wasn't so dazed yet.
Ji Yu stood up and said kindly, "I got up, I'm cooking, and I haven't been in the kitchen for a long time, you can try to see if my cooking skills have deteriorated."
Gu Huai was startled, why did Ji Yu appear here?By the way, Ji Yu still has his key here. He left in a hurry, so he didn't have time to change the lock.
This scene is like going back to those days before...
Gu Huai looked back, and said coldly: "It seems that I should change the lock, you call it illegal trespass."
Ji Yu froze for a moment, looked at Gu Huai, the previous joy disappeared, and his voice was somewhat desolate, "Huai Huai, do you have to do this?"
After he separated from Gu Huai last night, he drove aimlessly around in circles. The streets in the early morning were very empty, and there were no pedestrians under the dim street lights.
He thought a lot these days, and when he really saw Gu Huai again, he realized that the apology he had rehearsed countless times in his heart was useless. Gu Huai's indifference made him feel uncomfortable.
He thought a lot, Gu Huai is such a cold and arrogant person, why did he approach him in the first place?No matter what it is for.At first, Gu Huai's proactive approach really satisfied his vanity, no matter how proud a person is, he was taken down by him, and when he was proud, he forgot to see his own heart clearly.
The most difficult thing to heal is the human heart. He was afraid that Gu Huai would not forgive him and would reject him thousands of miles away.
The empty streets, only cars passing by in twos and threes, are completely different from the bustling and bustling during the day, lonely and cold, like another world.
Ji Yu accidentally drove the car back again, no matter what, he didn't want to let go, he didn't want to be like his brother, lonely in the dead of night.
He couldn't imagine a life without Gu Huai in the future.
Ji Yu stayed in the car all night without sleep, smoked a pack of cigarettes, and waited for dawn, when people started to pass by, he got out of the car, went to the neighborhood to buy groceries, and went to Gu Huai's home.
He knew that Gu Huai hadn't come back for so long, so there must be nothing to eat at home. Gu Huai's stomach had always been bad, and he had mild gastritis, which had a lot to do with his irregular diet. Thinking of this, Ji Yu smiled helplessly , A doctor would mess up his stomach, didn't he do it knowingly.
Ji Yu cooked a table full of joy, originally wanted to wake Gu Huai up, stretched out his hand, paused for two seconds in the air, and then put it down.
He wanted Gu Huai to sleep a little longer.
The people in the bedroom finally came out. Ji Yu didn't expect that his enthusiasm would be exchanged for the words "illegal intrusion".
Ji Yu's eyes darkened. He had never admitted his mistakes in such a humble manner, begged others, and put his dignity aside.
"Gu Huai, don't go too far."
Gu Huai sneered, "Are I going too far or you are going too far, Ji Yu, you want to enjoy the blessings of being equal, so I don't have to cooperate with you."
Ji Yu looked at Gu Huai angrily, his eyes were a little red, he took a step forward, and Gu Huai pressed against the wall.
The mobile phone that Gu Huai held in his hand fell to the ground with a "slap".
Ji Yu looked at Gu Huai intently, "Do you have to be so mean?"
The two people's faces are very close to each other, their noses are facing each other, and they can feel each other's breathing. Gu Huai smiled instead of anger, "I was originally a mean person, you just found out today?"
"I just found out that you provoked me first. It's not so easy for you to turn around and leave now."
"You're shameless." Gu Huai pushed Ji Yu away with his knee, "It's really boring for you to do this. It's just for fun, to get together and get together. You said this reminded me of the past, and it made me feel very sad. ……nausea."
Ji Yu looked at Gu Huai, this matter was his fault, so no matter how sarcastic Gu Huai said, he couldn't refute it.
Ji Yu suddenly laughed, "Since you have disgusted me to this extent, I don't need to pretend anymore, the worst is
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