Bring your son to farm

Su Jun already knew that he would not be with Lu Tingchuan forever.

For a lifetime, these three words are too beautiful, so they are not suitable for him or them.But even so, he still wanted to give it a try. Now that he tried it, he knew it was obsession.His heart is not made of iron, and it will hurt and be sad.

Five years, a snap of the fingers.It is difficult for two people to be together and there will be some friction, but no matter what, Su Jun can always get confused at critical moments, and the two of them can live in peace.

Lu Tingchuan has a strong personality, he doesn't mind making concessions, not accommodating, two people should be considerate of each other when they are together, although it is mostly because he is considerate of Lu Tingchuan.

In love, whoever is deeply involved has to pay more, this sentence is not bad at all, let alone his wishful love.

Pedestrians on the bridge passed by in a hurry, the night fell, as if heavy ink was splashed, and the city lights were dim, as if falling into the night and dancing stars.The weather is hot, and even the wind blowing by the ears is warm.

Su Jun numbly followed the crowd and walked forward aimlessly.Thousands of thoughts were jumbled together in his head, making him feel top-heavy.

He tried to find a reason, or the fragments of warmth in his memory to comfort himself, maybe these years were not just his own wishful thinking?

This is a false thesis, which was quickly disproved.He thought for a long time to no avail, and the details of those memories seemed unable to withstand a little scrutiny.

Lu Tingchuan doesn't love him, he has always known it, he is sober, he can't even be a 'fan of the authorities'.

When Lu Tingchuan was with him, there was never a time when he was not without a condom, logically speaking.Creampie is not good for the person below, he should be relieved that Lu Tingchuan is considerate of him.But one night, when the family ran out of condoms, Su Jun was already emotional at that time, and said that it didn't matter, anyway, the two men would not get pregnant, but it was more troublesome to clean up.

At that time, Lu Tingchuan pushed him away abruptly and told him to go downstairs to buy condoms.

The words were very calm, and the emotion that he was still churning a second ago disappeared in a moment. He tried his best to look at Lu Tingchuan, and the more he looked, the more strange he became.

That person's eyebrows and eyes were cold, like a thousand mountains and snow at dusk, which only made him feel cold and frozen every inch of his heart.

Su Jun was in a daze all night, he couldn't persuade himself not to think too much.

Lu Tingchuan thought he was dirty?Obviously not, Lu Tingchuan was his first and only man.

Su Jun knew the reason better than anyone else.He knew that Lu Tingchuan didn't want to cross that relationship with him.The bank card that Lu Tingchuan gave him always reminded him not to go over it.Sometimes Su Jun wondered why he couldn't be a little confused, maybe he wouldn't be so clear, and it would be much easier.

He and Lu Tingchuan were just a transaction from beginning to end, a transaction of money and sex.And now, it's time for his one-man show to come to an end.

It's time to wake up from a prosperous and lonely dream.

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Su Jun suddenly stopped. He leaned on the cold guardrail, raised his head, and stared intently at the huge electronic screen in front of the park.

The man on the screen is very handsome, with a smile that is not a smile, wearing a white shirt with a natural beauty, and the hand on the violin is smooth and slender.

The term 'red lips and white teeth' is not suitable for a man, but Nie Zipei is like this. He has a peaceful nobility and a neutral beauty, which is just right and makes people unable to move their eyes away.

Since this week, the advertisements for violinist Nie Zipei’s national tour concert have occupied the electronic screens in many prosperous areas of the city, often making passing female students or white-collar workers stop in front of the advertisement, showing obsessed or amazed expressions Come.

The violin prince is more beautiful than the violin.

It wasn't until his neck felt sore that Su Jun lowered his head again.

Look, the rival in love is too good, so he doesn't feel too disappointed.

Su Jun muran recalled the headline of the entertainment news that he saw yesterday, "Nie Zipei met with close friends of the same sex at night, the two held hands and whispered".

The big red title is very ambiguous, and there is a blurry photo next to it, which makes people imagine and is full of gimmicks.

That photo only took one side view. Seeing the hand holding the tweezers, Su Jun's heart sank at that moment. He knew the watch on that hand.

IWC Grandecomplication watches are limited to [-] pieces for sale each year, and the price is higher than a sports car. It is difficult for Su Jun to convince himself that the man with the watch in the photo is not Lu Tingchuan.

Su Jun remembered the morning three days ago, when he helped Lu Tingchuan tie his tie, he raised his head and asked casually, "Are you coming back for dinner tonight?"

Lu Tingchuan tapped his chin, "Well, I want to drink your soup."

That afternoon, Su Jun finished the work ahead of time, bought the ingredients and hurried home.After dinner was ready, he sat on the sofa and waited, the second and minute hands ticking.At twelve o'clock in the evening, Lu Tingchuan didn't come back either.

Maybe the air conditioner in the living room was turned on too much, which made him feel cold hands and feet, and that chill seemed to spread all the way to his heart.The evening entertainment news on TV replays the scene of Nie Zipei picking up the plane in the afternoon. The man standing next to Nie Zipei is known to Su Jun. He is Lu Tingchuan's personal assistant, Chen Ang.

Afterwards, Su Jun got up silently, and he brought the always warm soup to the dining table.He stewed and warmed that can of soup for six hours. It’s not a pity to waste it. He bowled one bowl after another. After drinking all the soup, he couldn’t eat anything anymore, and his stomach felt very uncomfortable.

After waiting for six or seven hours, I was obviously very hungry, but I felt that the soup was tasteless, and it was like drinking plain water in my mouth.Very much like myself.Why bother to get to the point where I can't even look at myself.

He himself has never been the kind of person who seeks perfection after being wronged, how could he let himself fall into this situation.But now that he has reached this point, what can he not let go of, what is he still hoping for?

Didn't it hurt enough to make me despair?

That night, Su Jun stayed up all night.After that, Lu Tingchuan didn't come back for three consecutive days, and he only inferred where Lu Tingchuan was from the few words in the TV newspaper's report about Nie Zipei.

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The water flow under the feet is full of waves under the reflection of the colored light strips on both sides of the river.

'Plop', I don't know who threw a stone, and the ripples swayed layer by layer, like one after another grotesque circles, and my own reflection in the water also shattered.

Su Jun had imagined today before, thinking that he might be unwilling and disappointed?But now there is none, he just feels tired.Never have I been so tired, not wanting to say a word.

In the past, he always thought that Lu Tingchuan was always cold and rational, but later he found out that it was not, but Lu Tingchuan's heart was not with him, so he was extraordinarily rational.

In Lu Tingchuan's office just now, when Nie Zipei saw him, his face didn't change a bit, and he always had a decent smile, as if he was never an opponent, an insignificant person.

Existence does not pose any threat, so it is not enough to face it squarely.

At that time, Nie Zipei said with a smile on his lips, "Are you living with Ting Chuan? I hope you can handle your relationship as soon as possible. It will be better for you."

At that time, Su Jun still wanted to hold on, and laughed, but couldn't say a word.

Then Lu Tingchuan opened the door and came in, "Zipei, when did you come?" After a pause, he looked at Su Jun who was standing aside, "Su Jun, why are you here?"

Two people, with different tones and distinct attitudes.

At that time, Su Jun shirked that he was just passing by to take a look, and then fled. He was afraid of hearing what he didn't want to hear from Lu Tingchuan's mouth, and he couldn't bear it in front of Nie Zipei.

He felt that he had become a clown on the stage, and those bad plots in the eight o'clock file were all set on him. He was a vulgar supporting role, the kind of villain who prevented the protagonist from being together.

Thinking of this, Su Jun felt a little funny, opened his mouth, but he couldn't laugh.

He has been waiting for this day for a long time, but when it really comes, he still feels uncomfortable. It turns out that he is not as free and easy as he thought, but what can he do?I still have to leave, even if I don't want to.

Lu Tingchuan was his first love, and also his only love. The two had been together for five years, more than 1000 days.

There is an inspirational saying that says: Focus on one thing for five years, and you can become half an expert.

So you can see how long five years is.

Five years ago, the first encounter between the two was a money-sex transaction.Lu Tingchuan took care of him, and now, the two of them have come to a fork.

New love is just love, old love is love.What's more, he doesn't even have an old love.

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Su Jun is the eldest in the family, with two younger brothers and a younger sister.When he was admitted to university, his brother who was one year younger than him was in the second year of high school, and the other two twins were in the first year of junior high school. The family's financial pressure was too great. At that time, his father and stepmother didn't want him to go to university and wanted him to go to college. Work, subsidize the family, and pay for my younger brother to go to school next year.

Su Jun refused to agree. He promised that the university would not take any money from his family. He had a tough attitude. No matter how much the family beat and scolded him, he would not let go. His parents had no choice but to nod reluctantly, expressing angrily that he would not be given a penny by the four-year university. money.

Su Jun, 17 years old at the time, had nowhere to go, so he was recommended to go to the bar. That was the day he met Lu Tingchuan.

Su Jun thought for a while, but actually Lu Tingchuan was kind to him. In the first two years when they were together, Lu Tingchuan gave him 1 yuan a month and let him stay with him two days a week.Such a large amount of money was an astronomical figure for him at the time, and he was uneasy.But now, Su Jun thinks about his price at that time, no matter what, he must be regarded as a high-level public relations officer, and it is worth it.

Besides, Lu Tingchuan has never treated him badly, so he is considered a very good benefactor.There is no eccentricity in bed, but the physical strength and endurance are too good, and Su Jun couldn't stand the repeated tossing of several positions at the beginning.

And now, after a few years, the two of them have become more and more harmonious in bed, giving them the illusion of an old married couple.

Every time Lu Tingchuan exerted force on him, the thin sweat on his forehead seemed to pass through a layer of cold light, sometimes the sweat fell down his perfectly shaped chin, and the long eyelashes were long and dense, blocking the deep eyes, making Su Jun looked a little obsessed.

When Su Jun was in his third year of junior year, the school classes gradually decreased, and they were concentrated on Mondays and Tuesdays. He was not at school five days a week. I don’t remember who proposed it first. He moved to live with Lu Tingchuan. Together, it is not considered cohabitation, this residence is three years.

After Su Jun and Lu Tingchuan lived together, he started to help Lu Tingchuan with daily chores, and fired the part-time worker in the second month.

Lu Tingchuan would occasionally come back for dinner.Su Jun's cooking skills are very good, and he is patient. He is quick to learn and willing to work hard. It may be better than the hotel's dishes, and it has more warmth, so Lu Tingchuan likes it a bit.

Until Su Jun graduated from university, the two still lived together. Lu Tingchuan no longer asked his assistant to transfer money to Su Jun every month. He gave Su Jun a card with a limit of 20.

Lu Tingchuan didn't want Su Jun to be too busy with work, so Su Jun found a leisurely job close to home. Two men can't both be strong together. For Lu Tingchuan, Su Jun was willing to make concessions.

Su Jun likes Lu Tingchuan, he never denies or hides it, he went to the bar for the first time five years ago, the two of them met for the first time, Lu Tingchuan was standing in the corridor smoking, half of his face was hidden in the shadows, the smoke lingered and slowly raised his head, Trance is the slow motion in the movie. The long and dense eyelashes look like two feathers under the warm orange wall lamp, casting a shadow on the lower eyelid, making it difficult to see his expression clearly.

Su Jun was stunned for a moment, and stood there blankly, looking at the flickering lights at Lu Tingchuan's fingertips, so that now, he didn't know whether he fell in love with Lu Tingchuan at first sight. .

He had never seen such a good-looking person. At that time, he wondered if this person was of mixed race, otherwise how could his facial features be so good-looking.

It wasn't until someone led him into the box that Su Jun came back to his senses.

And he never expected that Lu Tingchuan would walk into the box he was in, and later, things became natural, and the two of them got a room at a nearby hotel that night.

Su Jun hugged Lu Tingchuan's shoulders, looked at that face, and felt that the impact in his body was not so unbearable.

Over the years, Su Jun would stay with Lu Tingchuan in such a way, and did not leave after he became fully independent financially. A large part of the reason was that Lu Tingchuan gave him a sense of belonging and a sense of family, although it was an ethereal illusion.Saying this might sound hypocritical.But Su Jun is different from others, those are things he has been pursuing but can't get, so he cherishes them all the more. Even if he knows that there is no future for the two of them, he is still reluctant to give up the first beam, and he is willing to give.

Until now, someone finally killed his expectations with his own hands.

He went to school earlier than the average person. In order to save money, his family didn't let him go to preschool, and went directly to the first grade. So when he went to college, Su Jun was only 17 years old.

Think about it, I followed Lu Tingchuan at the age of 17, and now I am 22 years old, but it was only yesterday.

-

Su Jun stood in front of the iron gate. Looking from the outside, the inside of the house was still dark, which meant that Lu Tingchuan hadn't come back.

When the door was opened, under the cold light, the blue-gray decoration tone was a bit impersonal, and Su Jun was in a daze.

Xiao Chuan crawled out from under the coffee table, and slowly crawled to Su Jun's feet. Su Jun came back to his senses, took out lean meat from the refrigerator, and fed it to Xiao Chuan little by little.

Xiao Chuan is a tortoise, which was bought by Lu Tingchuan for Su Jun last year. Lu Tingchuan is very busy with work and often flies around. Su Jun is usually the only one left in the courtyard of such a big house. It seems that he can hear the response when he goes upstairs alone, so he is not lonely. , I just feel that this house is less popular.

Humans are social animals after all.

One day, Su Jun accidentally saw a puppy on the Internet asking for adoption. He took a two-hour bus ride to see the dog the next day. It was a half-year-old golden retriever, smart and smart, and he really liked it. , At that time, I wanted to take it home.But he didn't dare to make a decision, so he thought that it would not be too late to bring the dog back after asking Lu Tingchuan.

Lu Tingchuan vetoed it, he hated all furry animals.The next day, he asked his assistant to throw a turtle to Su Jun.

That tortoise, Su Jun named it Xiao Chuan, because there was a pattern of the word "Chuan" on its back, and because it had the same character as Lu Tingchuan's name, Su Jun would have a sense of secret intimacy when calling it.

The first time when Lu Tingchuan heard Su Jun calling the name Wugui behind his back, he stopped, frowned and didn't speak. At night, he tossed Su Jun on the bed until midnight, and didn't stop until Su Jun asked for mercy.

After Xiao Chuan was full, he turned around slowly and crawled under the sofa.It wasn't until it disappeared from sight that Su Jun stood up.

Waiting for Su Jun to come out from the bathroom after washing his hands, the door rang, Su Jun turned his head, and Lu Tingchuan came back.

He froze for a moment, his heart didn't have the expected big ups and downs, it turned out to be unusually calm.

Su Jun's character is soft but also tough. If it is something he believes in, he will never let it go easily, but if he makes a decision, he will not be muddy, let alone waver.

He knew what he wanted all the time, and he did his best to get it.But now, he was tired and didn't want to spend any more time. He felt that it was time to leave. At least now that he took the initiative to go, he could still look decent.

If there is a destiny, they will gather and if there is no destiny, they will disperse.Some things, no matter how much you like them, they will not belong to you, and some people are destined to miss you no matter how much you miss them.There's no need to embarrass yourself, at least if you leave now, you can still maintain a good impression of each other, so that you won't frown when the other party thinks of you inadvertently.

Thinking of Lu Tingchuan frowning slightly, Su Jun felt a pain in his heart.