[Titanic] I can't help myself

"Karl seems to have a very close relationship with you recently?" The mother said immediately, "I heard that you can receive letters from him every day."

I felt that all the hairs on my back stood up, and even the muscles in my legs began to tremble uncontrollably.Why did she suddenly start caring about my marriage?Why is she talking to me about William?Why did she mention Karl after she just finished talking about the ambiguity between William and the man?

All of this points to an answer I've been thinking for a long time to come.And right now I'm not ready at all, either mentally or physically.

"Yes." I pretended to be calm and said with a smile, the nail of the index finger touched the pad of the thumb, and the nail sank deeply into the flesh, bringing a piercing pain, "Carl and I, after all, we experienced After life and death, feelings are naturally different. Mom, in fact, at the time in Titanic, if it wasn’t for Carl, I must have died. Several times I couldn’t hold on, it was he who kept protecting me and pulling me to make me hold on , Do not give up a glimmer of hope for survival. To me, Karl is very important to me, he is not only my benefactor, but also my relative."

My mother's smile faded, and her eyes trembled slightly. She stayed on my face for a while, and then fell on the distant scenery outside the window.

"Dear...is that right?" Her voice was light, like a whisper.

I didn't know what to say, so I had to hold the teacup and drink tea non-stop.After suffering in silence for more than ten minutes, the mother changed the subject, and the atmosphere gradually recovered.

Until the evening, I still had a feeling of lingering fear after being greatly frightened.Half lying on the soft bed, I took out Carl's letter again, leaned against the head of the bed and read it carefully, then slipped into the bed, stretched my limbs, turned my head, and stared at the letter through the gap in the curtains. Looking at the starry sky outside the window.

I think mother already knew.She has always loved me, and she has spent most of her thoughts on me, and the state of Carl and me during that time must have been very obvious.Can't see it, that's impossible.Perhaps it was the relationship between my father and Viscount Stewart that gave my mother some buffer against such things, and she didn't ask much of me.Now, this society regards homosexuality as a crime and a mental illness. I heard that many people will send their children to a special "treatment" for homosexuality after they learn that they like homosexuality. Lian's hospital received very cruel treatment.

And the mother seems to have known that a person's sexuality cannot be changed.What she said today, the meaning revealed, does not seem to expect me to "reform" to like women.But the intention of me getting married and having children is already very obvious.

She didn't make it clear all this, so I had no choice but to pretend to be a fool, as long as it lasted for a day.But I have already made up my mind that I will not get married, because getting married means that an outsider will intervene in the life between Karl and me in the most private way, and it is impossible without a little influence. Regressing one step means that in the future, we will definitely regress again on the issue of future generations.

My mother was not as open-minded as Karl's parents, and she was bound to find ways to disconnect me from Karl.It is very possible that the reason for her current reaction to my sexuality is not so fierce, but because she wants to soften me slowly. After all, tough measures will only cause greater resistance.

I know my flaws, I'm not as determined as Karl, not as decisive as he is, and I can't completely ignore a woman who lives under the same roof as me, especially when the woman is the mother of my child.Divorce is a huge scandal for nobles. Once I get married, it is impossible to get divorced, and the identity of the marriage partner is destined to prevent me from using money and power to coerce and lure him to leave like Karl.After having a complete family, I can't guarantee that I will be able to withstand all the pressure and stick to my relationship with Carl.So I can't get married.I can't leave myself any reason or excuse to betray him.

I turned sideways, covered Carl's letter over my face, and took a deep breath.Perhaps it was an illusion, I always felt that I could smell the men's perfume on Carl's body, and those hot words on the letter came to my mind again, awakening the memory of my body.Missing Carl now turned into such a huge void that I couldn't resist reaching into my pants.

Suddenly, I felt a sinking on the side of the bed, and I was turned over and hugged tightly in my arms.Before I was so scared that I screamed out, I felt a burst of hot air being sprayed on my face, followed by my lips being held and sucked hard.

I was stunned for a few seconds before I realized the identity of this inexplicable assailant who appeared in the middle of the night.The smell on his body, the strength of his hug, the sound of his panting, and this familiar and no longer familiar way of kissing as if he was going to eat me, all made his identity obvious.

I reached out and hugged him tightly, opened my mouth, and let him take everything he wanted.

"Surprise, baby." He briefly let go of my lips, caressing my face, "Do you like it?"

"I like it, of course I like it!" I moved my hand back and forth on his face and neck, staring deeply into his eyes, "It's midnight! How did you get here?"

"It's a long story, but it's unexpectedly full of romance, isn't it?" As soon as he finished speaking, he kissed me again, and his hands moved around my body.

After more than a month of separation, his appearance was like a dream.I was completely immersed in this kiss and couldn't extricate myself. When he let go of me again, I found that my pajamas had been completely stripped off by him, and he was also tuo. Hanging, chiluoluo's kneeling between my legs, the huge scorching heat is pressing against my body.

It was as if I had been ignited, my whole body was so weak from the heat, and the last sliver of reason disappeared without a trace, so I could only open everything to him and let him do whatever he wanted.

We fought like crazy that night, and at the end I seemed to pass out, with no memory of what happened afterwards.And when I woke up the next morning, I found out that besides the horrific kiss, my thighs, roots, and chest were damaged, and the bloody tooth marks were next to each other, and the culprit was still thick. Cheeky leaned over to hold it in his mouth, and said he wanted to clean the wound for me.

After getting up, he didn't let the valet come in to serve me, saying that he would bathe me himself.And just a few minutes after sitting in the bathtub, he became agitated again, tirelessly pestering me to ask for another one in a rascal way, which made the bathroom floor full of water.So the windows were not closed, and the whole bathroom was very bright under the bright morning light. Even though I knew that no one could see in from outside, I still felt ashamed, ashamed, and looked down upon outside, and I was extremely nervous.But it seemed to make him feel brighter, from the intensity of his bite and the intensity of his movements.He didn't stop until the water in the bathtub was cold, refilled a tub of hot water, and lay down in the bathtub with me to rest.

My chest was bitten and swollen by him, and he fumbled around dishonestly, which made me furious, so I slapped him on the face in a moderate manner, signaling him to be more behaved, and asked: " You didn't tell me yesterday, why did you arrive suddenly?"

"I came to inspect the work of a large oxygen plant factory. As a result, the cruise ship was delayed, and I was supposed to spend the night in the hotel, but I thought about it and decided to give you a surprise. I think you don't want to delay even a minute "He kissed my neck and shoulders, while kneading and relaxing the muscles of my whole body, "Baby, sweetheart, you don't know how tormented I have been this month."

I ignored his sweet talk and asked, "How's the factory going?"

"A small number of large oxygen generators have been put into trial use in some factories that have signed agreements with us to test their working performance and check for loopholes. The feedback from the factories is very good."

"You have invested a lot of money in advertising." I stroked his hair back with one hand, and stroked his arm with the other, feeling the firm muscles under my palm, "How is the order status of the factory?" Sample?"

"Very good." Carl lifted me up and began to rub my thighs, "We have received orders from at least six countries, and this is just the first batch. After all, the oxygen production capacity of the oxygen generator suddenly increased so much." It will take time for these potential customers to gain more confidence in our products. Don’t worry,” he suddenly held my waist, put his nose to my face and said affectionately, “The profit of shareholders’ dividends at the end of the year will scare me. Jump."

We changed our clothes during the fight, washed up, and went downstairs to have breakfast.We walked into the restaurant talking and laughing, and I saw my mother sitting at the table.

"Mom!" I was startled, and immediately began to think about whether Carl and I did something we shouldn't have done when we entered the door, and then pulled out a surprised smile, "Why did you come to the restaurant for breakfast?"

My mother didn't answer me right away, her eyes darted around Karl a few times and then on me with a cold, polite smile.I restrained the urge to touch the neckline, there were many hickey marks on it, and my mother's sight made me subconsciously want to cover it, but my reason immediately told me that my collar was so high that nothing could be exposed .

"I heard that Mr. Hockley arrived at midnight last night." My mother took a sip of her coffee and put down the cup. There was a crisp sound of collision between the cup and the cup holder, which made me shiver.

"Yes." Carl looked very relaxed, as if he didn't know anything about the undercurrents in the restaurant. I didn’t want to spend the night in the hotel, so I drove the taxi to Acton overnight. The taxi fare in the middle of the night is really high.”

While smiling, he pulled me into the seat as if nothing had happened, and spread the napkin on his lap: "But I think, Henry, you shouldn't blame me for this rude behavior. Speaking of which, Ruth, in What a surprise to see you at the breakfast table, I thought it would be a few more hours before I could say hello to you."

"This is even more of a surprise to me." Mother said softly, her tone soft, "I didn't expect you to come back to Acton, after all Rose is gone, I thought I would never see you in Acton again Your figure is gone."

"How could it be?" Carl laughed, glanced at me and said, "Henry is my best friend who has experienced life and death with me. Of course I have to visit him often."

"How did you sleep last night?" Mother asked with a smile, "You came too suddenly and the guest room was prepared in a hurry. You must have not slept well."

"Actually, Henry took me to spend the night in his room," Carl said with a smile as he spread butter on his bread.

Mother's eyes suddenly widened.I couldn't help kicking Carl hard under the table.

"That would be a real slight to you, Mr. Hockley," said the mother stiffly.

"How could it be?" Carl took a sip of coffee, "When I was on the Carpathia, Henry and I lived in the same room. With our relationship, we don't need to care too much about those things." He looked at it with a smile I glance.

I am almost desperate.No matter how you hear this passage, it sounds like you are provoking your mother.I crushed his instep with my heel under the table, and pretended to concentrate on enjoying the breakfast that I almost choked to death.

A breakfast ended in this weird atmosphere.My mother left the dining table and looked at us meaningfully for a long time before leaving. This meal of breakfast made me depressed, and the food I ate seemed to be stuck there, which made my stomach ache.

The author has something to say: I think of the father of one of my classmates. In [-], this uncle had the opportunity to work abroad, with an annual salary of hundreds of thousands. This figure is very impressive even now, but that uncle He didn't go, saying that because he knew that if his wife and children were not around when he went abroad, there would definitely be temptations. He couldn't guarantee that he would not be tempted, so he simply didn't want to put himself in such a dangerous environment.

What a good father in China. .