The Eight Winds of Rebirth

It was obviously the first time for Gu Xiangtan to be so close to someone, and he couldn't help trembling slightly after Zhao Yuan's kiss fell. He raised his head.

Gu Xiangtan's face in front of him was blushing, his eyebrows were moist, and there was deep nostalgia and reluctance hidden in his embarrassment. Zhao Yuan couldn't help but feel soft when he saw it. He touched Gu Xiangtan's cheek and said a word. One sentence: "I will definitely come back alive..."

After finishing speaking, he let go of the person cruelly, picked up his Jiyue sword, turned around and left with a big stride.

Gu Xiangtan watched Zhao Yuan ride the unicorn, whipped the whip, and the horse flew out of the courtyard like a bolt of lightning. Mou Fei and Bi Fu followed closely behind.

Gu Xiangtan couldn't help but chased after him before he regained consciousness, but with his foot strength, he was no match for a galloping horse. After only two or three steps, he could only watch Zhao Yuan's back gradually disappear into the rolling loess Among the smoke and dust.

However, Gu Xiangtan still ran foolishly for a long time, and finally he was so tired that his legs softened and he squatted down. He tightly grasped the Buddhist beads on his wrist, and looked up at an empty distance. The breath and body temperature of the man It seemed as if it was still lingering around him and hadn't left.

"Yuanqing..."

Gu Xiangtan's eyes were hot, and he whispered.

……

Su Xi and An Yin went back to their courtyard first, but after waiting for a long time, they did not see Gu Xiangtan returning. They hurriedly went out to look for it, but as soon as they left the courtyard, they saw someone walking slowly.

Su Xi was startled, and hurried forward and said: "My lord, what's the matter with you?" But after a while, why is the corner of his robe stained with dust, his face darkened, and his whole body in a state of embarrassment?

Gu Xiangtan's eyes were a little dull, but when he looked up, he met Fu Yalian who was standing by the door.

Fu Yalian looked at Gu Xiangtan quietly, with deep eyes.

But Gu Xiangtan didn't have time to imagine the expression of the master, and put aside the matter of Zhao Yuan's departure for the time being, walked to Fu Yalian with wide eyes, and looked up and down the person in front of him in amazement.

But I haven't seen you for a year, why did the master lose weight so much?

When Fu Yalian was the prime minister, she was graceful and refined, and she lived in seclusion with a blunt fairy style. She always had her own leisurely demeanor. How could she be so haggard?The eye sockets and cheeks of the person in front of him are deeply sunken, and the wide sleeves of the toga are fluttering in the wind, as if they are about to be blown away by the wind, the whole person is almost out of shape.

"Master..." Gu Xiangtan called out with difficulty.

Fu Yalian didn't have any big emotions, she just nodded to him, turned around and walked into the house, saying as she walked, "First wash and tidy up, and then we can eat."

Gu Xiangtan allowed Su Xi and An Yin to fetch bath water for himself. He should be at ease when he got home smoothly, but when he was soaking in the water, Gu Xiangtan's brows frowned even tighter. After sitting at the table, his expression still did not relax.

Fu Yalian pointed to the chopsticks in front of her to signal to eat first.

Gu Xiangtan looked at the table, although there were only two simple dishes and a bowl of soup, they were all Gu Xiangtan's favorite food in the past. He picked up a piece and took a sip. The familiar and heart-warming taste was made by the master himself. Made it in the kitchen.

It's just that Gu Xiangtan chewed hard, but it was very difficult to swallow.

The two masters and apprentices ate the meal without saying a word, and finally managed to force a few mouthfuls. Finally, Gu Xiangtan couldn't hold back and said: "Master... I wrote many letters to Zen Master Guanyun. He kept sending letters. Say you are in good health, why now..."

Fu Yalian didn't even raise her head: "It's none of Zen master's business, being a master is a good thing, and there is no pain."

"Then why are you so thin..."

"People who practice Qing Dynasty don't eat meat, so it doesn't matter if they are thinner."

"Master!" Gu Xiangtan was in a hurry, "Did you forget what I said before I left? The matter of my parents has already been settled in the capital, so there is no need for Master to be so concerned..."

"Crack!" Fu Yalian suddenly put down her chopsticks, and looked at Gu Xiangtan coldly: "Do you still know why you went to the capital? As a teacher, you should have forgotten."

Gu Xiangtan was taken aback for a moment, and just about to speak, Fu Yalian shouted: "—Kneel down!"

Gu Xiangtan was startled again, and after a while he slowly got up and knelt down in front of Fu Yalian.

Fu Yalian stared straight at the child who had grown up a lot after not seeing him for a year, with a sad look in his eyes: "Do you still remember what your parents said when they sent you to Luli to learn Buddhism? Do you still remember what the teacher said to you when you left? Only when you are pure and stable can you focus on seeking the truth, but what about you? Instead, you are deeply obsessed with your own nature, greedy for the world, and forget your original heart even more!"

Gu Xiangtan's heart skipped a beat. If the master blamed him for using some ghostly tricks in the capital to stir up the undercurrent in the court, Gu Xiangtan could still deal with it calmly. However, Fu Yalian's anger and overly intense emotions are obviously not the same. Just for this matter, it seems that there is something that touched the taboo in the heart of the master.

Gu Xiangtan couldn't help turning his eyes, and suddenly his gaze fell not far away, and he saw a piece of plaster the size of a palm on the corner of Fu Yalian's moon-white robe, which was half dry and half wet. According to the master's temperament of being clean, if Those who were dirty before, probably changed their clothes a long time ago, obviously the mud has only been on it for a while...

Before I came back, the master had just left the house...

Gu Xiangtan suddenly understood something, and felt a basin of ice water poured down from the top of his head, freezing him so hard that he couldn't speak for a while.

"Xiangtan..." Fu Yalian called him, stood up from the chair, and squatted in front of him, "What are you thinking? Maybe you have kept it from many people, but as a teacher, you always know it. Do you think you can do it?" Lying to me?"

From childhood to adulthood, none of Gu Xiangtan's sharp minds and tricky thoughts escaped his master's eyes. Gu Xiangtan had never told a lie in front of Fu Yalian, so at this moment, he could only press his lips tightly, thinking Thinking about how to speak to him and express his feelings.

However, Gu Xiangtan's hesitation, in Fu Yalian's eyes, was a guilty conscience and weak heart. Fu Yalian felt the blood in his chest rushing, and suddenly stood up and patted the table, saying: "The majestic Ye Lingfo doesn't know how to restrain himself. , deep in the world of mortals, abandoning your beliefs, do you still have Buddha in your heart, do you have the world, do you have those people who entrusted you with great responsibility?! How is it different from those actors who are so self-sufficient and depraved!"

As soon as these words came out, not only Gu Xiangtan was stunned, but even Fu Yalian was a little stunned.

Buddhism is prevalent in Daye Kingdom. Although not everyone wants to be as pure-hearted as a monk and avoid sexual desires, even the emperor and all the dignitaries and officials are no longer in the backyard. How dare some people mess around with flowers and grass? The day is desolate and immoral, even in such a big capital city, there is only Huajufang, which can be regarded as a glorious Qinlou Chuguan, and most of them are Qingyuan, who listen to music and recite poems most of the time. For some careless things, he only dares to mess around in private, and he is afraid that if he leaves a son's blood, he will be gossiped instead, just like Guan Yonghou Mei Sisheng, if an illegitimate child can add glory to his face, he doesn't need it. Such a prudent way of raising the child outside secretly, no one dared to let him know, nor dared to take him back to the house.

However, everyone has the five dusts and six desires, greed, hatred, ignorance, and a pure heart, so naturally they also have heavy desires. Since they don’t make a fuss on the surface, in private, they are willing to do all kinds of things to make a living to please the rich. Son, especially those rich and powerful officials and rich men with great fortunes, who play with women too much, so they can find someone who is equally beautiful and unfollowed, so many actors and actresses are born from this. , most of these are led by a troupe leader, and a troupe is full of boys before and after their hair tied up. Going to the mansion to sing an opera, as for whether to sing for one night or for a month, it depends on whether you are not favored.

This trend has gradually grown since Emperor Zongzheng ascended the throne, and it has intensified in the past few years. In his previous life, Gu Xiangtan had been in Beijing for so many years. Those who have been raised, at least have seen it, but no one has revealed it, and it has become a well-known secret. However, even if countless people have tasted it, it is still a filthy deed that cannot be seen in the light. Daye was also smeared with a layer of darkness. Even if he had sincere intentions, he didn't dare to bring it up on the table, so he could only live in hiding secretly.

Now, the dearest master actually used such an analogy to talk about himself. Gu Xiangtan heard it like a thunderbolt, which shocked him to the ground, and his spirit came out of his body!

Gu Xiangtan opened his mouth with a pale face, and said with difficulty: "I'm not...Yuanqing, let alone...we, we..."

Fu Yalian's complexion was not much better, his footsteps were a little weak, he tried his best to hold on to the edge of the table to stabilize his figure, staggered two steps, clenched his teeth for a moment, tasted a piece of blood in his mouth, but still He said forcefully: "That's the case, you shouldn't hurt yourself, let alone him!"

Gu Xiangtan stared blankly at the master.

Fu Yalian turned her head, and said in a cold voice: "From today onwards, you will shut the door in your room and think about your mistakes. When you figure it out, when will you go back to the capital? If you can't figure it out for the rest of your life, then you can stay here forever. It's better than being an opponent." You can't face the world of the Buddha, and you can't deal with the absurd spiritual Buddha of the common people and subjects!"

After finishing speaking, Fu Yalian walked away, leaving behind Gu Xiangtan who was sitting slumped on the ground in a trance.

……

Su Xi went outside the door with the meal, and saw An Yin and Yan Fang standing outside, relatively speechless.

Although he knew the answer, Su Xi still asked, "Have you used the one you brought in just now?"

An Yin shook her head: "No, I also said that I don't want to send any more today, so as not to waste food."

Su Xi listened anxiously, since he didn't have the patience of An Yin and Yan Fang, he simply pushed the door open.

Entering the room, I saw Gu Xiangtan leaning against the window looking at the distant scenery in a daze. In front of him was a tall grape rack. On the rack, the grapes in May were not ripe yet, and there were bunches of green, lo and behold It tastes watery and tender, but it tastes astringent enough to tear out a mouthful of teeth. Gu Xiangtan was really greedy to try it when he was a child, but the taste was just like his current mood, wishing he could eat it from liver to lung Take it out, the feeling will never be forgotten in a lifetime.

Seeing the unspeakable bitterness on the young master's mouth, Su Xi felt extremely uncomfortable, put down the fresh porridge, and put away the cold dishes before, Su Xi stood there without moving.

Gu Xiangtan noticed that the figure in the corner of his eyes hadn't moved away, so he finally turned his head slowly and looked at him.

Su Xi met Gu Xiangtan's gaze, and couldn't help but redden his eyes: "Young Master, Master Fu, Lay Shi is just a passing moment. Since childhood, he has loved you the most. You must not give birth to him." Fu Yalian's voice is not loud, but she used all her strength to reprimand Gu Xiangtan, even though they were standing outside the door, they could still hear it clearly, although Su Xi didn't quite understand the meaning of an actor, But seeing the young master so sad, and Fu Jushi had never scolded the young master in such a tone, Su Xi understood that this matter was not a trivial matter.

Gu Xiangtan paused, and asked, "Do you also think I'm ridiculous?"

Su Xi was stunned for a moment, shaking his head like a rattle: "No! Su Xi is smarter than Mr. Wu and Layman Fu, and he doesn't know much about the truth, but I understand that it must have taken a long time for Mr. Su to make a decision. Although Su Xi You have been a servant since you were a child, but you have also lived for yourself. However, you have always thought of others since you were a child, and you have never relaxed your mind to do something you want to do. Su Xi only hopes that one day, you can really do it. Happy to live for myself, no matter what it is..."

Su Xi wiped his tears while talking, Gu Xiangtan looked at him, and his eyes turned red.

"Thank you, Su Xi."

Su Xi hurriedly shook his head.

Gu Xiangtan said again: "I understand Master's heart better than anyone else. He is just afraid that I will betray the trust of the people and the reputation of Xiangguo Temple. In the end, he will become a sinner of Daye, harming himself and others and Yuanqing. , how could I blame him, I was just thinking about how to make him willing to come to Beijing with me."