I was crying stupidly by myself [rebirth]

The brisk ending song had already started playing on the TV, and the two brothers stood facing each other in the dormitory, looking at each other with big eyes.

Gu Dong quietly tightened his hanging right hand, and moved the finger he had kissed a moment ago. He looked at the neatly cut boy with a new hairstyle in front of him, with a slight smile on his lips, "Christmas in the third year of high school Vacation too?"

Looking away from the corner of the eye, Gu Yan lowered his eyes, his voice was usually indifferent, and he said lightly, "I asked for sick leave."

"..." Gu Dong subconsciously wanted to reach out to touch Gu Yan's forehead, but suddenly stopped when he remembered those words not long ago. He observed carefully with his eyes, "Are you sick?"

Gu Yan nodded seriously, his thin lips curled slightly, and his eyes fixed on Gu Dong, "Well, he's very sick."

Feeling a bit uncomfortable being looked at by him, Gu Dong first looked away, scratched his hair, and yawned calmly, "Go to bed, it's getting late."

Gu Yan didn't move at all, and kept his eyes on Gu Dong, "I was confessing my love to you just now, but you haven't answered me yet."

It was as if something had been rubbed against in the stagnant air, and the flames that sprang out suddenly spread out and melted into the breath.

Gu Yan approached directly, threw his backpack on Gu Dong's bed, stood in front of him, and watched him quietly without saying a word, watching the calmness he maintained disintegrate a little bit, and the whole person became stiff.

Gu Dong took a big sip of water, put his hands on his knees, looking very calm, "I am your brother."

Unzipping the coat, taking it off and throwing it on the bed, Gu Yan rolled up the sleeves of the sweater, and let out a sound from his nose, "Yeah."

His lips moved, but Gu Dong still looked calm, "We are all men."

"Yes." Gu Yan picked up the water glass that Gu Dong drank and drank along the traces left by him. Seeing that Gu Dong was silent, he made a gesture of "continue, I am listening very seriously".

"Men can't like men." Gu Dong pressed his throbbing forehead, doing science popularization work with his remaining rationality, and his tone was a bit harsh, "Only people with different genders can fall in love and live a lifetime."

As if he had expected him to say that, Gu Yan raised his eyebrows, as if he was talking to himself, and seemed to have other unclear emotions, "Really?"

With his lips pursed imperceptibly, Gu Dong suddenly felt a little guilty. As a person who has been a homosexual for two lifetimes, he really has no confidence.

"You are still young, and you may have misunderstood it. Your so-called liking and that kind of liking are two different things."

Gu Yan asked without answering, his face turned cold, "What kind of like is that like?"

At this moment, the TV shows the hero and heroine embracing and kissing each other. The scene freezes for a few seconds. Gu Dong coughs lightly and gestures with his eyes.

"If this is the case, then I can tell you that I want to touch you, kiss you, and hug you." Gu Yan raised his eyes and looked directly at him, deep and fiery, "I want to think about it every day."

There was a very clear expression change on Gu Dong's face. He was obviously shocked by Gu Yan's unabashed and even explicit words. No matter in his previous life or this life, he couldn't handle this kind of overly enthusiastic and straightforward expression. In this scene, the helpless look looks really stupid.

Gu Yan stared at the person in front of him with hot and focused eyes, "Brother, I know very well that I don't like men, and my sexual orientation is fine."

The words stuck in his throat were incongruous, and before Gu Dong could figure out how to speak, he heard the other party say again, "But I like you, it has nothing to do with gender."

It sounded calm and calm all the time, but in fact Gu Yan's back was soaked with sweat, and his palms were full of sweat. He was not as calm as he appeared on the outside, but in fact he was extremely nervous.

These words were secretly prepared a long time ago, chewed word by word, and recited silently many times on the way here, sorting out a variety of expressions that the other party will show, shock, disgust, nausea, avoidance, anger, What's worse may be that the relationship has deteriorated, and they will meet strangers from now on, so he is afraid.

But Gu Yan received a text message from Zhang Yiyang saying that a man often appeared in the dormitory and came to look for Gu Dong. He couldn't read books for several days, and then he knew that he couldn't wait for the Chinese New Year.

His coming here means that he has made enough preparations, no matter what the answer is, he will not let go.

Gu Yan squatted down and looked up at Gu Dong, "Brother, do you have someone you like?" "

Gu Dong, whose mind was in a mess, shook his head. Zhao Yi taught him what it means to like, and also let him understand what it means to be betrayed. The injury was too serious, and he already had a shadow on those "likes" and "forever".

Perhaps the protagonist of today's incident was Gu Yan, he cared about the people he recognized, so there was not much resentment and rejection, but more accidents.

He didn't tell Gu Yan about the paternity test, which meant that Gu Yan regarded him as his own brother, so it took a lot of courage to say those words.

Shady taboos, ethical pressure and condemnation, ridicule by public opinion, scolding by family members, these are unimaginably terrifying and can easily destroy a person's will.

Gu Dong sighed deeply, his mood was so complicated that he couldn't even see it clearly.

Although this answer was good, it still made Gu Yan's heart stutter. He actually hoped that the other party's answer would be "Yes, the person I like is right in front of me", which would drive him crazy.

After all, there is a difference between reality and ideals. Gu Yan regretted it for a while, and continued to induce patiently, "Do you like to eat the meals I cook? Braised pork, lion head, sweet and sour pork ribs, potato omelette, pickled pork with preserved vegetables... ..."

Following the names in his ears, plates of dishes appeared in front of Gu Dong's eyes. He unconsciously licked his lips and nodded.

Gu Yan took advantage of his slack to get straight to the point, "I'll cook for you for a lifetime."

"Okay." Almost without thinking, he agreed, the corner of Gu Dong's mouth twitched the next moment, and he suddenly woke up that he was being led by the nose by Gu Yan.

In winter, the temperature is low, and the water in the cup is already cold. Gu Dong touched the cup and withdrew his hand, as if he remembered something, "I remember last year you said that you had someone you liked."

At that time, the school belle Lin Lin confessed to Gu Yan, he was still listening to the people in the class chatting, Gu Dong let out a breath, and finally regained his position.

Unexpectedly, Gu Yan looked at him with the eyes of a fool.

"Let me be quiet." Gu Dong got up and opened the door to go out. There was a cold wind blowing on the rooftop, it was freezing cold, it was too cold, and he came back silently.

Gu Yan took off his shoes, skillfully took out the slippers he left behind last time from under the bed and put them on, then took out a card from his backpack and handed it over, "Mr. Xiong gave it to you."

The card was clean, and the lower right corner was a sketch. The figure outlined in pencil was a young man with handsome features. There were two lines of writing in the middle.

I miss you so much and Merry Christmas.

— Mr. Xiong.

The hand holding the card tightened unconsciously. Gu Dong suddenly looked at Gu Yan suspiciously. He usually had a cold face and liked to ignore him. What, today is really not like this person's style, did someone teach him behind his back?

Gu Dong looked at the half-open window of the balcony, and the small snowflakes that came in were radiant. He felt that his determination could be used on others, but it would not work on the person next to him. Maybe in that alley, the other party took The moment he rushed up with a steel pipe began.

However, accepting a relationship is much more difficult than accepting a younger brother... at this troubled juncture.

Gu Dong's temples hurt a little, "Is it snowing at home?"

Out of the corner of his eye, Gu Yan caught the entanglement on his face, and Gu Yan's heart sank, restraining himself not to force the other party, he said lightly, "It's been almost a week."

Gu Dong lowered his eyes, "How is Dad?"

"Not bad." Gu Yan raised his eyes slightly.

After a lot of twists and turns, Gu Dong pointed to the sketch on the card and asked, "When will you be able to draw?"

Gu Yan raised his lips, "I want to learn, there is nothing I can't do."

It was still the kind of arrogance that he didn't want to beat, Gu Dong put the card in the drawer, and fell silent again. The two looked at each other, and there seemed to be a strange emotion quietly brewing.

A melodious love song came from the TV, and the rich atmosphere was simply beautiful, but at this moment, something unexpected happened.

The sudden knock on the door made Gu Yan's face turn cold. He opened the door and looked at the boy outside expressionlessly, and asked coldly, "What's the matter?"

Recognizing that it was Gu Dong's younger brother, he naturally knew that he was cold-tempered. The boy swallowed, the smile on his face widened, and he smiled at Gu Yan. He shouted inside, "Gu Dong, I'm here to borrow two water bottles."

There are no hot water bottles in the school dormitory, and taking a bath in winter is more troublesome. Some students boil water for washing in the dormitory when they are too lazy to go to the bathroom. Gu Dong took two of the water bottles placed on the balcony and gave them to them.

The dormitory became quiet again, Gu Yan locked the door, took out his cell phone from his pants pocket and quickly sent a text message.

In a barbecue restaurant in the back street of the Science and Technology College next door, Zhang Yiyang, who was eating, drinking and chatting with his little girlfriend, was full of gossip. He glanced at his phone, smacked his lips, and laughed when he replied. By the way, he sent a message to Chu Jiran sent a text message.

Gu Dong didn't know this happened, he looked up at the TV, absently pressing the remote control in his hand to change channels.

"I can only stay for one day." Gu Yan frowned. The third year of high school was too tight, and the price for him to ask for leave to come here was to guarantee a score with the head teacher.

Gu Dong didn't look back, he pursed his lips, "Have you bought the ticket for the return trip in advance? There are many people at the station during the festival, you shouldn't be..."

"You say one more word, and I'll kiss you." Gu Yan said something in a cold voice that made him feel unreasonable, but luckily he covered up his embarrassment calmly.

Gu Dong's face was covered with black lines, and the veins on his forehead twitched faintly. He didn't have the urge to challenge him.

Nearly an hour later, Gu Dong sat on the chair in a daze, always feeling like he was knocked out by something, otherwise, why would he not know when he agreed to the other party...

Didn't you decide to refuse?Is there any link that he ignored?Gu Dong took off the glasses on the bridge of his nose, and covered his forehead with his hands, looking very deep.

Gu Yan approached, his long and narrow eyes gleamed with blazing light, and his tone slowed down with imperceptible expectation, "Can I kiss you now?"

With itchy nose, Gu Dong pursed his lips, propped his hands on the table, leaned back, and said two words from his mouth sullenly, "No."

Then, Gu Yan kissed the corner of Gu Dong's lips.