After drawing Zhongye SSR

No one can figure out how the human memory works.

It was like a most complicated maze, full of twists and turns.

Maki asked herself, how on earth did she forget such a thing?

so important.

Such an incredible thing.

She felt that her dusty memory was slowly being opened.

But not all.

If her memory is a deck of cards, only a few of them are turned over, and most of the remaining details and processes are still buried deep in her mind.

But that was enough to give her a glimpse of the truth of the matter.

Maki is still on the sidelines, which is good - because she has more leeway to think about how it all happened.

The first picture is a bit blurry.

Probably the memory of children is limited.

At the beginning of Maki's memory, she was five years old, and Osamu Dazai was almost twenty. A few years ago, he seized power from Mori Ogai and became the leader of Hong Kong gangsters.

20-year-olds generally don't have five-year-olds.

But Maki felt that Dazai Osamu should not be unable to do this.

She saw the little girl.

The little girl had no expression on her face, her hair was disheveled, and her iris-colored eyes were lifeless, like inorganic glass beads.Although the appearance is very delicate, but looking at it this way, it seems to be a lifeless doll, which is a bit permeable.

But Dazai didn't care at all.

He stood in front of the little girl and smiled at her: "Hello."

The little girl opened her mouth. She didn't seem to be very good at talking, and said word by word: "Hello. What should I call you?"

Osamu Dazai thought for a while, and then said, "You can call me father."

The little girl nodded stiffly.

She blinked, and a subtle gleam flashed in her eyeballs: "'Father' should be with 'mother' to give birth to a 'child', who is my mother?"

Osamu Dazai walked around behind her, gently combed her hair with his fingers, then took out a comb from nowhere, and combed her messy hair like weeds: "Your mother gave birth to you Died shortly afterwards, you grew up in an orphanage, I happened to find it in an accident, and then picked it up - if someone asks, just answer like this, remember?"

The little girl looked up at him.

Osamu Dazai had combed her hair neatly.He pulled out two red-gold ribbons and tied her hair into two low ponytails.

The little girl looked at herself through the mirror opposite.

"Thank you," she said, "is the way to say gratitude?"

Osamu Dazai rubbed her head, his narrow eyes narrowed into a smile: "Very smart, little girl."

The little girl doesn't seem to have received the education she deserves.

Maki suspects that she grew up in a place isolated from people. She doesn't even know how to deal with people, and she doesn't know when to show what kind of expression. To be precise, her expression is only "face Expressionless" kind of.

As Osamu Dazai said, she was brought back to Hong Kong and Hei.

Regarding the sudden appearance of the leader's daughter, everyone in Hong Kong and black had mixed reactions, but because there are not many veterans left now, the only person who raised doubts was Mr. Nakahara Nakaya, the cadre.

That's right.

When he heard that Zhong Ye was actually a Hong Kong gangster cadre, Maki didn't come to his senses for a long time.

Although in her world, Chuya is also inextricably linked with Hong Kong gangsters, but no matter what, Mr. Chuya is a Hong Kong gangster cadre...?

Obviously he is a rare good man.

Although he once doubted it, but Maki has long dispelled this unrealistic conjecture, after all, it is too absurd.

Maki can only guess whether it is due to the influence of the parallel world. After all, in this world Atsushi Nakajima belongs to the gangsters, while Ryunosuke Akutagawa is working for Butei instead. It seems that Chuya's identity change is not a strange thing.

——But she subconsciously felt that it was not that simple.

Zhong Ye's attitude towards the little girl is not much different from that of the other world, except that he is not as intimate.

Maki heard that when the little girl was not around, he once asked Osamu Dazai hesitantly: "Is she really your child?"

Osamu Dazai was noncommittal.

His thin face was blocked by thick documents, casting a shadow.

No matter how strange it is, there is a fundamental difference in status between Chuya and Dazai Osamu. Even if what Dazai Osamu said is not true, Chuya cannot be questioned.So he just sighed and said, "At least you have to be nice to her."

Osamu Dazai smiled and said, "I will."

As he said, he was good to the little girl.

Unbelievably good.

He taught the little girl to read and write, and taught her how to deal with people.

He also taught her how to laugh.

"The books say laughing is a muscle cramp."

The little girl tilted her head, then stretched out two fingers, and pulled the corners of her mouth up a little: "Like this?"

"Yes, but also no."

Osamu Dazai squatted down and showed a perfect smile to Maki, the smile in his eyes was like stars scattered: "It's like this."

Little girl: "I don't understand."

Osamu Dazai: "One day you will understand that laughing is never intentional."

He is right.

The first time the little girl laughed was at her six-year-old birthday party—it was not a grand birthday party. In order to protect the little girl, only some members of the Hong Kong gang knew her existence.

But I have to say that it was a very fairy-tale birthday party - there were lots and lots of balloons, lots of gifts, and beautiful, sweet-smelling buttercream.

On that day, she learned how to laugh.

The little girl smiled exactly like Dazai Osamu, with tiny stars in her eyes.

*****

Maki's memory is not continuous.

It seems that only some memorable episodes will be remembered by her, such as the birthday party, or the first time I went on a mission with Atsushi Nakajima——

Little girls are generally not willful, and that was the only time.

Because she had a fight with Osamu Dazai, for some reason - Maki didn't remember the reason for that incident.

Atsushi Nakajima's method of doing tasks is very rough.

Fortunately, he still managed to remember the leader's explanation, not to let Master Maki's hands get dirty.

So he taught the little girl a hand knife.

The little girl is very smart and has good physical fitness, so she quickly became proficient in using this small self-defense method.

When she returned to the Ganghei Building, she had already forgotten to be angry.

Rarely, Osamu Dazai is not in the chief's office.

Normally, Osamu Dazai would not let her touch the things on her table, but since Osamu Dazai was away, she turned to the edge of the table and stood on tiptoe to look at the things on it.

Then she saw that report.

Maki slowly opened his eyes.

The little girl's expression was exactly the same as hers.

... On the table is a body report, the name on it is "Dazai Maki", and the words on the back are bright red and dazzling.

It is a common terminal illness, and it often appears in the eight o'clock TV dramas. Maki never dreamed that it would appear on her body.

But this can explain why she left Dazai Osamu's side.

Osamu Dazai will be back soon.

He didn't notice that the little girl flipped through his documents, but asked, "Aren't you angry?"

The little girl shook her head blankly.

She stood there for a long time, then said, "Father?"

Osamu Dazai: "Huh?"

Little girl: "You haven't answered me before, what does it look like to cry?"

Osamu Dazai turned his head and smiled softly at her.

Osamu Dazai: "You don't need to know—because you won't have a chance to cry."

Maki's mouth opened and closed.

When Osamu Dazai said that sentence, she felt a little out of breath, she subconsciously resisted to see what happened next, but it didn't go as she wished, the picture in front of her switched again, this time it seemed to directly A year later——

This time she is no longer bystanders.

Maki looked at her own hand—it was the hand of a young girl.

She found herself standing in front of an iron door, behind which was a tall staircase, which probably led to the roof.

Maki's body moved by itself.

She found herself out of breath as if she had gone through a strenuous run.

She felt her whole head hurt like it was splitting open.

Maki pushed open the roof door.

Standing by the door, she saw Atsushi Nakajima and Ryunosuke Akutagawa standing on the edge of the roof.

When they saw her, they seemed a little panicked, and wanted to come up to stop her, but they stopped in place as if they were suddenly blocked by an invisible wall.

Maki slowly stepped forward, then poked his head out of the roof——

She saw large expanses of crimson blood.

She sensed what she should have shouted at that moment.

But that piece of memory has been blurred, and what is left is only a large piece of sadness that seems to drown people.

Reality, hospital.

Zhong Yuanzhong also looked a little haggard.

Maki has been lying on the hospital bed for almost a week, but she has no intention of waking up. The doctor even said that they had better prepare for her turning into a vegetative state.

"Chuya, go and rest for a while."

Osamu Dazai came in with a bag of fruit, his voice a little low.

Zhong also shook his head and tightened his hand holding the note.

Just as he was about to say something, the monitor next to him suddenly rang.

He turned back sharply.

A trace of tears appeared on the face of the girl who had been motionless for a long time.

Then, her eyelashes quivered.

The author has something to say:

I was not very satisfied with the previous two chapters, so I basically rewrote them, so please read them again.

Warm reminder: memory does not necessarily equal truth