Self-reliance

Ji Qin took Zhou Zui back.

When Xinxin came home at night and saw Zhou Zui, he was so happy that he jumped on him.

Xinxin really doesn't know anything.

Zhou Zui's hand was in plaster, and Ji Qin needed to take care of him.

Ji Qin felt that this was not an easy task, and Zhou Zui should not have been particularly easy in the past.

Ordinary things are okay, but I have to help when dressing and undressing.

When helping him take off his clothes on the first day, Ji Qin hesitated for a long time, and finally walked up to Zhou Zui without saying a word, trying to take off his shirt lightly for him, but found it very difficult, so he took it off in a rage. Cut off all the sleeves with a pair of scissors, and this time the problem was easily solved.

"Pants, figure out your own way, you still have one hand to use."

"Okay." Zhou Zui sat there and looked at Ji Qin, "You know a lot more than before."

"I have Xinxin to support," Ji Qin said, "We don't need you long ago."

"Ji Qin..." Zhou Zui lowered his eyes and looked at the ground, then suddenly changed the subject, "I love you."

Ji Qin froze for a moment, and finally said "um".

Zhou Zui originally wanted to call Ji Qin in the shower, but Ji Qin threw him a waterproof sleeve to protect the cast: "I think you're fine."

"..."

"You can sleep in Xinxin's place, he comes to my room."

Zhou Zui nodded.

……

A month later, Zhou Zui removed the plaster cast.

But he still needs rehabilitation training, his left hand is still inconvenient, and he has not left Ji Qin's home.

Ji Qin looked at the wound on Zhou Zui's hand and asked, "How is it?"

Zhou Zui tried to move his fingers: "It should be fine."

Ji Qin held his hand in front of his eyes and took a look.The muscles seemed to be atrophied, and the nearby skin was wrinkled together, and the scars were extremely glaring.The doctor uses absorbable sutures, which don't need to be removed. They will disappear slowly in the future, and you will be completely invisible in two months.

Ji Qin said: "Don't worry too much, these traces will become very light after a while."

Zhou Zui didn't speak, but held Ji Qin's hand with his stiff and ugly fingers with difficulty and clumsily, keeping his eyes on Ji Qin's face.

Ji Qin twitched, Zhou Zui held it stubbornly again, this time Ji Qin didn't move, just looked away.

Zhou Zui took a step forward, seeming very disturbed.When he arrived in front of Ji Qin, seeing that he didn't respond, he slowly moved up to Ji Qin's eyebrows and kissed lightly.

Ji Qin could hear Zhou Zui's rapid breathing.

He felt that he was too weak.

Still want to try again.

Ji Qin still couldn't forgive Zhou Zui for deceiving him at that time.However, too many things have happened in the past six months. He once thought he was seriously ill, and experienced Zhou Zui's shock and panic when he was injured. Now he still wants to try again the matter of "people who love each other are together".Otherwise, life will be a long road in the future, and it will be too lonely to walk alone. He knows that he will never fall in love with others again.He shouldn't be afraid, but after experiencing love, loneliness, despair and other emotions, he is indeed a little afraid.Ji Qin felt that he was worthless, how could such a thing as "people who love each other stay together" be so attractive.

Zhou Zui has to do stretching and bending exercises for two hours every day, and soak in hot water. Zhou Zui said that it hurts when he first started exercising, but it gradually improved a lot.

Zhou Zui would still say "I love you", and Ji Qin would always answer "um", Zhou Zui would occasionally kiss Ji Qin, and Ji Qin would not push him away.Everything is more and more like that time a year and a half ago, when the two of them became lovers again.It's just that they won't have any more intimate actions, Zhou Zui will always sleep with Xin Xin, and Xin Xin will stay in Ji Qin's room.

……

——One day a few months later, Zhou Zui and Ji Qin took Xin Xin out for an outing.

Xinxin was very excited when she heard that she was going to climb a mountain. She bought a lot of snacks and prepared to eat them on the way.

Arriving at the foot of the mountain was a bit late, Ji Qin and the others decided to stay overnight in the hotel first.

Ji Qin likes to be quiet, so the hotel he chose was far away, and Zhou Zui walked ahead with all his belongings.

Seeing that Zhou Zui could only use his right hand all the time, Ji Qin stepped forward and said, "Let me help you."

It was the same before.

Ji Qin is a person who doesn't like driving very much, but after Zhou Zui injured his finger, as long as the journey is long, Ji Qin always let him sit in the passenger seat.

Zhou Zui glanced at Ji Qin, and didn't give him anything, but just held Ji Qin's outstretched hand.

After dinner in the hotel, Xinxin felt tired and fell asleep right after going to bed.

Ji Qin went to stay in Zhou Zui's room for a while.

When they talked about Xinxin, Zhou Zui suddenly said: "Xinxin... soon will be the age when I first met you."

"..." Ji Qin remained silent.

"I once said that I liked you when I was very young, it's true." Zhou Zui's voice was a little ethereal, "At that time I really liked you and wanted to be with you forever, but later, I myself I forgot..."

"Zhou Zui," Ji Qin took a deep breath, "I still haven't forgiven you for lying to me. I'll say it again, I hate being cheated the most. To cheat is essentially to take advantage of others' trust in yourself."

"I know..." Zhou Zui said, "It will never happen again."

"If it really will never happen again, maybe I can forgive you a little bit when the two of us die."

"Then," Zhou Zui looked at Ji Qin and asked, "May I ask why you accepted me again."

"What do you say?"

"I think it's because I love you, and you love me too. But I'm not sure..." Zhou Zui looked at Ji Qin, as if he wanted to see something in Ji Qin's eyes, "Whether it was before or now, I I'm not sure if you really love me, or if you just choose to let me stay by your side because I love you."

Ji Qin had the urge to beat someone up: "Zhou Zui."

"I'm here."

"If only because you love me, maybe I would choose to keep you by my side, but I won't do anything for you. I won't prepare a cake for you, and I won't prepare hot water for you to soak your fingers I tried the temperature carefully when I was drinking. I don’t want you to be happy and worry about your discomfort.”

"..."

"If you understand, don't ask such stupid questions again."

"..." Zhou Zui touched Ji Qin's lips, then hugged Ji Qin, and kissed him hard.He touched Ji Qin's back and waist, and soon Ji Qin felt a little lust.

Ji Qin didn't know what happened to Zhou Zui, like a wild beast, kissing, hugging and having sex constantly.

As a result, he didn't return to his own room next door until early in the morning.

……

The next day, Xinxin checked her snacks again, and shouted happily: "Let's go!"

"...Xinxin," Ji Qin sat there in an awkward posture, "Let's take the cable car up."

Xinxin was stunned at that moment.

He turned his head and looked at Zhou Zui with eyes that were begging for help.

Unexpectedly, Zhou Zui also said, "Xinxin, just take the cable car up."

Xinxin immediately widened her eyes in surprise, her eyes were full of disbelief, as if a little mist had already flowed up.

Although father is sometimes fierce, but Zhou Zui, Zhou Zui always loves him.

Xinxin felt hopeless.He was looking forward to climbing so much, bought a lot of delicious food, and planned to eat while walking.

Zhou Zui squatted down: "Father is not feeling well, let's take the cable car first this time, and bring you here in a few days, okay?"

"Oh..." Xin Xin was also very obedient, walked up to Ji Qin's side, and climbed onto Ji Qin's lap, "Dad, what's wrong with you?"

Enduring the pain, Ji Qin hugged his son: "...Don't ask, it's fine."

"Oh..." Xinxin asked again, "Why are you uncomfortable?"

He didn't seem to understand at all what "don't ask" meant.

Ji Qin still said: "Don't ask, it's fine."

Xinxin looked at his father in a daze.

—So they took the cable car directly up.

The view from the top is good.

The peaks in the distance are painted, and the stones are like black dye.

Xinxin seemed to be happy again.

A child's grief never lasts long.

Because there were too many people, Zhou Zui let Xinxin ride on his shoulders.

Xinxin immediately stood taller than others, and was talking loudly to Zhou Zui.

Ji Qin stood a little far away and watched them.

Zhou Zui turned his head to look for Ji Qin, and when he saw him, he smiled softly.Xinxin also followed Zhou Zui's eyes to look over, and then smiled.

Ji Qin always felt that he would never smile, but in fact, facing the eyes of those two people, the corners of Ji Qin's mouth curved imperceptibly.

Then he suddenly remembered that he had been to this mountain when he was very young.

It seemed to be an activity organized by the school, but Ji Qin couldn't remember the specifics clearly.

At that time, he was alone, standing quietly in a similar position to now, looking coldly at the laughing and playing classmates around him.

After 20 years, I came back to this place again.

If that child saw him now, he would definitely scoff at him.

Surprisingly, there are two people around him who he cares about all the time and who can affect him at any time.Moreover, one of them was Zhou Zui, who was hated the most by that kid back then.

However, Ji Qin said in his heart, maybe, this is not bad——

The author has something to say: Poor Xinxin...

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