Self-reliance

"So..." Ji Qin hesitated, and finally asked again, "Are you really going to another city?"

"My father is very determined."

"..."

"What do you think?" Zhou Zui asked suddenly, "Do you want me to stay?"

"..." After a while, Ji Qin said, "I don't care."

Zhou Zui looked at Ji Qin.Ji Qin's heart skipped a beat, he had never seen this look in his eyes before.

"Ji Qin." Zhou Zui sighed, "If you want me to stay, I will stay for you."

Ji Qin gritted his teeth, and said the same sentence: "I don't care."

As if he still didn't give up, Zhou Zui confirmed with him for the third time: "So, do you think that in the future, having me in this family is the same as just you and Xinxin?"

Ji Qin didn't think so.It’s good to have Zhou Zui here, and I’m even used to him now, if he leaves, then the house will always look empty, as if something is missing, the whole atmosphere is very different, the father and son will look lonely, This is very strange, because obviously there is only one person missing, just one person, how could it be empty immediately.

However, although Ji Qin thought so, facing Zhou Zui, he couldn't say it out.He is very afraid of admitting his weak status quo, very afraid of admitting that he cannot or does not want to continue to face everything alone. This feeling of being led by others without knowing where he will be taken makes him feel strange.Ji Qin has always been a proud person, he can't say what Zhou Zui wants to hear, he can't show that side.

After being frozen for a while, Ji Qin said, "Almost."

"That's it." Zhou Zui finally nodded, "If you think so, then I have nothing to miss."

"...Well." Ji Qin said, "I wish you good luck over there."

Then for a whole night, both of them were silent, Zhou Zui didn't speak any more, and so did Ji Qin.It's just that Ji Qin often stands upstairs and looks at the living room downstairs from afar, watching Zhou Zui play with Xinxin's toys, and thinks in a daze: Is this the end...?Is it really over?

……

——The day Zhou Zui left for another city, Ji Qin didn't go to see him off.

As soon as it was dawn, Ji Qin started to pack up, sent Xinxin to the kindergarten early, and then went to the company.

Zhou Zui was also awake when he woke up, Ji Qin knew this very well, but Zhou Zui chose to pretend to be asleep and didn't say a word.

Since that night, the relationship between the two has been a bit awkward.Ji Qin completely denied everything Zhou Zui had done in the past, so Zhou Zui seemed to give up on continuing to work hard.

Ji Qin buried his head in his work, trying not to think about whether Zhou Zui had left.

Although there was still a glimmer of hope in his heart, hoping that the person would still be there when he went back at night, he also knew that this hope was very slim.

Then, just as he expected, when he came out of the company, picked up Xinxin as quickly as possible, and after returning home and carefully opening the door with the key, all he saw was darkness——Zhou Zui had already left , There is no human smell in the empty house.

"..."

In this case, Ji Qin thought, he should give Xinxin a better life.

Never let your decisions affect your son.

He went to the supermarket to buy some vegetables, as well as recipes, and wanted to try to make a dinner, but maybe he really didn't have the talent, after a long time of tossing, the taste was still unsatisfactory, which made people a little frustrated.

After dinner, Xinxin told Ji Qin that the kindergarten teacher told them a story.

"Oh...?" Ji Qin asked, "What story?"

"It's a story about a mermaid princess." Xinxin's childish voice was clear and clear, "There was a little mermaid who secretly floated to the surface of the sea to play...and saved a prince...well, I fell in love with that prince..."

Looking at Xinxin's face, Ji Qin thought of the "fairy tale" that Zhou Zui told him back then.

In that bullshit story, the witch lives happily with a handsome prince from nowhere.

However, now, he seemed to have a little understanding of what that messy "fairy tale" meant.

"..."

The ending is really nonsense, Ji Qin thought, it turns out that he will leave in the end.

Ji Qin began to doubt whether he should ask Zhou Zui to stay that day.Could it be that as long as he admits that he needs Zhou Zui, he won't be in the mood he is now?

In the past, Ji Qin never felt that there would be anything wrong with living alone, but now he suddenly realized that he had always liked to be alone, but in fact there was no way not to be lonely. At that time, there was no one who could make him truly feel that he was being accompanied , Even family members who live together are far apart in their hearts.But now, after experiencing the feeling of not being lonely anymore, I realize that my past self was indeed too lonely.

However, it is very difficult for Ji Qin to ask others to stay for him and not to do what he should do.

He never begged anyone.

Although, Zhou Zui had already said a lot at that time.

Besides, if he asks Zhou Zui to stay, he will probably accept that person soon. The matter is a bit sudden, and Ji Qin is still a little uncertain.Is that... really okay?

Over there, Xinxin had finished telling the story, and Ji Qin forced a smile: "That's really well said."

"That..." Xinxin asked, "Are we just the two of us again tonight?"

"...Well." After a moment of silence, Ji Qin said again, "Dad will help you wash up."

"Oh……"

It is really tiring to take Xinxin alone.

There are so many things to do in the company during the day, and there is no time to rest.

Ji Qin was tired, but he still had to do it.How can you make a mess of your life just because that person is gone.And, maybe, it's better to be busy, because if you are busy, you won't have time to think about that person.Those people who think wildly all day may be idle.

However, lying there with eyes closed, there was always another thought that lingered.

I always feel that something is missing... Or, call him back?

In fact, so what if you show weakness, you can get real gains if you show weakness, isn't everyone else doing this, and you won't lose a piece of meat, what else can you do, there is nothing you can't do.Is it really necessary to continue to hold on, and then toss and turn at night so uncomfortable that I can't sleep.

But this idea will always be suppressed by Ji Qin.He faintly felt terrible.Zhou Zui, has it made him want to throw away all the most important things before?

For a week to get drunk, and then completely overthrow the previous way of life.