Self-reliance

"Go to bed too." Ji Qin looked at Xinxin.

"Oh……"

"Where do you want to go tomorrow?"

"I..." Xinxin said suddenly, "I've been out to play for a few days, I should go home..."

"..." Ji Qin stared at Xinxin, speechless for a while.

"Either, or else, parents should say me..."

Ji Qin took a deep breath, "They won't do this, you can stay."

"That, that won't work either..." Xinxin was actually a little afraid of Ji Qin.

"Xinxin." Ji Qin squatted down, "Is it boring to stay here?"

"No..." Xinxin was a little confused, "But I still have to go home."

"Is there any reason?" Ji Qin squatted down.

"No..." The child began to stammer, "Anyway... I still want to go home."

"..." In fact, Xinxin still doesn't quite understand what Ji Qin's appearance means.Before Ji Qin brought him here, his adoptive parents just told him that they had played for a few days in the past, and at Xinxin's age, they didn't understand that his life was about to undergo earth-shaking changes.From Xinxin's point of view, Ji Qin's appearance may just be the addition of a father.

Xinxin looked at Ji Qin.

"Go to sleep first."

"Oh……"

As a result, after Xinxin entered the bedroom, she sneaked out again and called her adoptive parents.

"..."

Ji Qin drank all night.

After all, can't you rush for success?

Ji Qin has always planned to make his son completely forget, or at least forget, what happened.Xinxin is still very young, so it is still possible that this memory will be very vague after a long time.It's probably not good to keep pestering. Ji Qin doesn't want Xinxin to tell other people how complicated his family relationship is in school, work and life, and then get a lot of strange eyes.Ji Qin hoped to immediately cut off all contact between Xinxin and his adoptive parents so that his child could return to a normal life. Therefore, at that time, Ji Qin told the adoptive parents that the only issue that could be discussed was money.And, after years of purgatory searching, Ji Qin just wanted to own his child completely.

But... Although Ji Qin wished that the adoptive parents would disappear completely from the lives of their father and son immediately, for Xinxin who couldn't understand all this, forcibly splitting his past might cause him more damage than before. serious injury.As if being taken away again, Ji Qin didn't want him to experience that pain again.Xinxin is still so young, suddenly placed in a completely unfamiliar environment, subverting everything he was familiar with in the past, he will feel fear and anxiety.It's not that the child can understand it after being reasonable, and Ji Qin doesn't want him to be exposed to too cruel things at such an age, such as hatred.Although Ji Qin didn't want to admit it, he had to admit that the relationship between him and Xinxin was still shallow.For adoptive parents, Ji Qin has no feelings, Ji Qin doesn't care what will happen to them, but he will respect Xin Xin's feelings, no matter whether it is for him or not.

In fact, Ji Qin has asked many child psychologists, doctors, and police officers, and everyone’s advice to him is that if the child already has feelings for the adoptive parents, then it is best to have a transition to let him adapt to the new life The environment can also be gradually accepted psychologically, and the previous traces will fade, and then all the love and care of the biological parents will be used to smooth the child's wounds.At that time, Ji Qin asked them what would happen if they were taken away forcibly and then let the child integrate slowly, because this was the way Ji Qin most hoped to adopt from his point of view, and it was also the first idea that jumped into his mind.At that time, the other party's answer was that there is a lack of sufficient empirical research, but many children will become taciturn, negatively treated, or psychologically rebellious and emotionally extreme. ——Ji Qin already knows this, but he almost stubbornly believes that Xinxin will not be unfamiliar to him, just like he has not thought of Xinxin for a day in all these years, the two of them, even if separated by time and space, can feel it arrived.But now it seems that this is not the case.

Maybe, it really needs to be done on both sides for a while?You can meet Ji Qin and your adoptive parents... Then, as time in Ji Qin's house gets longer and longer, I will find an opportunity to tell Xin Xin that he will always live with his biological father in the future, so that maybe he can get a little Can accept some.

Ji Qin felt that he drank a little too much.

Moreover, if they were forced to split... Ji Qin couldn't imagine how Xinxin would react.In the past few days, Xinxin seems to have gotten a little closer to herself, without the initial resistance.If he becomes the "wicked person" in Xinxin's mind, then the hard work of the past few days will probably be wiped out, and Xinxin will hate him. He is very afraid that Xinxin will hate him, and it will be difficult to establish a relationship in the future.Although, even if there is a period of transition, he will still leave his adoptive parents sooner or later, and he may not be able to bear it at that time, but...if he is psychologically prepared, he should be able to accept it a little bit, and their father and son can have another period of pure love. day.

Give me a little more time?

This can also make Xinxin like herself a little more...

Ji Qin still insisted on making Xinxin forget everything and excluding the adoptive parents from the future of their father and son. This will never change.However, if you use the shortest time to transition, and then try to break the bond between the two parties...

In fact, Ji Qin still had a hard time accepting it.From his personal point of view, he wanted to tell his son that he would never see his adoptive parents again, and ordered his son to never think about those two people, but only think about him, his own father.But it doesn't look like that's going to work.Letting Xinxin go to adopt his parents again is undoubtedly like slashing Ji Qin's heart a few times. Just thinking about it will cause blood to rush out, and he can't cover it no matter what. The thing to do is that Xinxin is innocent. All these are the consequences caused by adults, and Xinxin should not bear the greatest extent.

Ji Qin has always had a bad temper. He picked up the beer can and instinctively wanted to throw it on the floor.But Ji Qin stopped his movements at the last moment - because his son was still sleeping upstairs.

"..."

……

When the adoptive parents came over, Ji Qin didn't go to see him, so he sent Zhou Zui to deal with it.

He really didn't want to face that scene, and he also didn't want to see those two faces again, it would be best if he could never see them again - as long as he saw them, he would think of the scene back then and the search he had made in the past few years.

This time, Ji Qin only gave them five days, and at the end of the week, Ji Qin still wanted to take Xinxin here again.

Ji Qin bought a lot of things for Xinxin to take away, including food and entertainment, even Zhou Zui thought it was too exaggerated.

"There is one thing I want to remind you—don't say what you shouldn't say." Before telling Xinxin to go down, Zhou Zui said this to his adoptive parents.

"..."

"After three months, no matter how Xinxin adapts, we will bring him here completely. During this period, everything we do is for him. I hope you will remain rational and consider him. I think you understand that you should It's the best way to do it."

"..."

"You don't need me to get a bug, do you?"

"No..." The adoptive parents shook their heads, "You should understand that we...we also love him very much, and we also hope that he will live well..."

"That would be the best."

"We know how to help him accept a new family..."

Zhou Zui nodded with sharp eyes.

"..."

"Xinxin is very honest." Zhou Zui said again, "If I find out that something is wrong, I will immediately prevent you from contacting each other. Don't regret it later."

Zhou Zui has never been a kind and soft-hearted person.In order to prevent accidents from happening, it is necessary to assume a tough attitude.

"..."

……

——After Xin Xin left, Zhou Zui went up to see Ji Qin.

Ji Qin's complexion was very bad, with heavy dark circles under his eyes, and he was listless.

"Xinxin left?" He asked hoarsely.

"Yeah." Zhou Zui said, "I'll pick him up again on the weekend."

"Don't let them play tricks." Ji Qin reminded again.

"Don't worry, we're all watching, whether it's them or another child." Zhou Zui said softly again, "They will never run away."

"...Well." Ji Qin was still very wary of the adoptive parents, although he didn't think the other party would do this in his heart.

"I'll wait for him to come back with you." Zhou Zui said again.

"Ok?"

"You look like you could cry."

"I'm not in the mood for that joke."

Zhou Zui sighed: "Then go and rest, you didn't sleep last night."

"..."

"Hey," Zhou Zui said again, "Don't do this."

"..."

"Xinxin is still yours, no one can take it away."

"..."

Zhou Zui sighed, reached out and pulled Ji Qin into his arms.

"..." Ji Qin didn't particularly struggle.He is exhausted now, it is not bad to stand here without exerting all his energy.

Then Zhou Zui grabbed Ji Qin's shoulder, and lightly kissed him on the lips.

"……you!"

"Okay, okay, let's go to rest." Zhou Zui smiled again, with a feeling of comfort.

"..."

——In Xinxin's absence for the past few days, Ji Qin still didn't go to the company.The company is all handed over to Ji Meng, and Ji Qin has nothing to worry about.Ji Meng is very capable, and he also knows the reason why Ji Qin left, so he will deal with it carefully.

Strangely, Zhou Zui didn't go to the company either.

Ji Qin didn't say anything at all at home, he just sat there in a daze, drinking one can of beer after another, sitting for a whole day, doing nothing other than that.

Zhou Zui would prepare meals every day and ask Ji Qin to eat a little, unexpectedly not too noisy.

Zhou Zui would sleep on the sofa in the living room downstairs at night.Ji Qin would never let people stay, or even let people enter his door, but now his mind is not here at all, so he goes with others.

Only every time Xinxin came, Ji Qin would become bright.

Xinxin went to a lot of places that she had never been to, played a lot of things that she had never played before, and ate a lot of food that she had never eaten before. Gradually, Xinxin seemed to feel the huge difference between the two sides. Ji Qin can give There are many things that adoptive parents cannot give, and it is difficult for children not to be interested after seeing them.Moreover, he is the only one here, and the adoptive parents are still a younger brother. Although the adoptive parents treat each other equally, the attention is also divided in half.He also has a few friends with whom he often hangs out.

Because Xinxin was always in that small county, Zhou Zui and Ji Qin took him to travel several times.Xinxin's favorite is the ice lamp.The colorful and dreamlike castles, pagodas, characters, animals in the dark night... made Xinxin very interested.Sitting on a mat and sliding down the long ice slide, Xinxin screamed in surprise.

The adoptive parents did not say anything inappropriate.After a period of time, Xinxin will give more and more affirmative answers to questions such as "is it good to go and kiss my father", "are you happy there", "how about staying for a few more days".Although, when the adults asked if they wanted to move there completely, Xinxin would immediately say no.

Then, at the end of the three-month period, the adoptive parents told Xinxin that they needed to go out to relatives' homes in the countryside, and Xinxin needed to live in Jiqinna for a whole month.Xinxin didn't object either. He had also been to that relative's house in the countryside, and it was very boring.This is the first time he has been away from his adoptive parents for an extended period of time.

After this month passed, the adoptive parents took Xinxin back for another two weeks.Then, finally one day, Ji Qin and his adoptive parents got together and asked Xinxin if he wanted to go to kindergarten.

Xinxin agreed immediately.

He has always wanted to go to kindergarten.He has never been to his adoptive parents' home. The adoptive parents think that kindergarten is not very important, and they want to start primary school directly after getting him a household registration.But the younger brother "at home" goes every day, even though the kid doesn't like it.Listening to my brother come back every day to tell fairy tales told in the kindergarten, sing various nursery rhymes sung in the kindergarten, dance various dances in the kindergarten, and tell about the various toys and games played with other children What it looks like, and what kind of knowledge the teacher taught, what kind of experiment was done... Xinxin is always very envious.Going to kindergarten has always been his greatest wish. Sometimes, he even dreams of going to the district kindergarten.

"But," Ji Qin said, "if you want to go to kindergarten, you have to live with me."

"……what?"

"Yeah..." The adoptive parents showed an ugly smile and lied, "There is a rule that only one child in a family can go to kindergarten... You can only go to kindergarten if you live there..."

"..." Xinxin didn't doubt that he was there, and got tangled up again.

"That's pretty good..." The voice of the adoptive parents trembled a little, "Although you live there, you can come back anytime, weekends, holidays... you can still make calls, so it's actually the same... "

"..." Ji Qin glanced at them, but didn't say much.

There were a total of four adults on both sides coaxing like this, Xinxin quickly lost his mind, and agreed in a daze.

After arriving here, Xinxin is considered to have returned to Jiqin's house, even if he has not completely broken with his adoptive parents.

Zhou Zui found a top-notch private kindergarten.

Ji Qin still believed in Zhou Zui's choice, but he also did some research and confirmed that this kindergarten is indeed the best.

Ji Qin said hello to the kindergarten, but Xin Xin has never been there before, so he must be careful not to hurt him in everything, if anyone dares to say ugly words to Xin Xin and do ugly things, Ji Qin will definitely make them regret it done.

Ji Qin felt that everything was fine.

Xinxin's name is no longer Li Qiuping.

However, he forgot one thing - on Xinxin's first day in kindergarten, when he went to pick Xinxin up with Zhou Zui, he saw Zhou Zui's cousin again.

"..."