like drinking ice

I don't know how to face this situation.

So I drove the car into a ditch.

After playing for a while, everyone was hungry. I don’t know who called it. There were pizza, various grilled sausages, several salad steaks and the like, and a large jar of porridge and fried chicken. The drinks included cold beer and Wine, all kinds of soft drinks, but no mineral water.

Zheng Ao chose the lightest soda among a bunch of sodas, tasted it, and handed it to me.

I seldom play with such a large group of people. The Wanqiyuan store is fully equipped with high-tech equipment, but there is not even a decent big table. Everything is crowded and piled up on a small table. Standing, Ye Susu dragged a fluffy sofa from nowhere, and was eating a sandwich that was bigger than her face. The Russian man was standing next to her talking to him.

The place Zheng Ao found for me to sit on was a projection lamp—it was very suitable for sitting, because it was big and smooth, like a table, but it felt like it should be very expensive, because Wan Chengyuan looked very distressed, always I looked this way from time to time, so I just leaned on it and didn't really sit down.Zheng Ao didn't seem to be very interested in the food here, he just always ate my food, he wanted to drink my porridge, but he didn't want to drink it specially for him.

"I'll take you to play with the plane later." He took a bite of the pizza I was eating and put his arm around my shoulder.

I looked at Xia Qi'an who was frowning and choosing a drink. He probably wanted to choose a bottle of water from the sodas and wine.Even if everyone was playing around, even Zhou Xun was playing with guns, Zheng Ao had already taken off his suit and unbuttoned his shirt collar, but he was still meticulous, even standing up and eating.

"Is he from the Xia family?"

Zheng Ao is researching the ingredients of the pizza I ate: "You can tell that your surname is Xia just by looking at that character, and you're afraid of being corrupted by capitalism even if you drink a drink."

People in the Xia family have always been self-disciplined and upright, and they are the most unique among them. Zheng Ao fed me a bite of pizza, and was very upset. He turned my head away: "Is he as good-looking as I am?"

I thought about it for a while: "He is quite suitable for wearing a military uniform."

Not knowing which word offended him, Zheng Ao angrily threw the pizza back into the box: "I also have a military uniform!"

"You are not suitable for wearing it." I am telling the truth. The clothes of the Zheng family can only be in two extremes, either extremely delicate or extremely simple. Military uniforms can also support his face, but it is always inferior to a well-tailored and high-end windbreaker. nice.

He was completely angry, as if he was going to beat Xia Qi'an later, he stopped drinking the porridge, folded his arms and did not speak.But I'm not too worried about Xia Qi'an, Xia's family should fight very hard.

After playing around again in the afternoon, Zheng Ao was obsessed with comparing Xia Qi'an to simulate flying an airplane. Xia Qi'an explained for a while that he was not very familiar with this aspect, and finally played under Wan Chengyuan's provocative method. People are very smart, a bit like the role of military adviser and staff in Romance.He looks polite, but he is actually full of thought.

I was sitting next to Zheng Ao, wearing glasses, watching the sea of ​​clouds billowing in front of me, the plane spinning and heading straight down, and the hail of bullets. Even if I knew it was fake, I was scared by this experience, which was more exciting than a roller coaster, and my heart beat faster.

Zheng Ao won.

Probably because my face was a little pale, he kept asking me if I was okay, and Ye Susu wanted to take me to play games, he could manipulate the characters in the game with a gun, and projected all his gestures into the game, it looked very powerful, but unfortunately I I have no interest in fighting monsters, so I sat aside by myself.

I naturally know how to choose the quietest and most inconspicuous corner, obviously Xia Qian is also looking for a quiet place, he came over as soon as I sat down.

It seemed a little too silly for two people to sit together and always have to say something, to talk about the weather.

"What do you do?" Xia Qi'an probably felt that he should talk to me out of etiquette.

"Lawyer." I still respect the Xia family.The Xia family is a self-restraining and self-disciplined military family, and the Xia family are all true pillars.

Xia Qi'an nodded: "I'm a soldier."

Just look at the clothes.

"I was transferred to Beijing in the past two years, so you haven't seen me." He talked to me persistently and seriously.

"Oh," I nodded, "where were you before?"

"In Shenyang."

"Have you met Li Xiu over there?" I just asked casually, Xia's family and Li's family have always been at odds, and asking him might as well ask Zheng Ao.

"Yes." Xia Qi'an answered me very seriously: "His father transferred him there."

I thought of the way Li Xiu scolded his mother on the phone, and I wanted to laugh a little. He was quite fierce, so if he stayed there for a while, he didn't know what he would become.

"How is he over there?" I kind of wanted to laugh.

"He doesn't like Dongbei very much." Xia Qi'an told me: "Li Xiu's ability is still good, but he likes to play against the chief."

Expected.

"Are you working with Zheng Ao now?" I apologized to him: "I'm sorry to interrupt your meeting today."

"It's okay." He was very generous: "We're not talking about anything important."

I couldn't find anything to say, so I could only pick up a drink and drink it. He probably thought that I was bothered by this, so he sat upright for a while, and then told me: "I don't discriminate against this."

I haven't reacted yet: "Discriminate against what?"

Xia Qi'an told me in a very formal tone: "I don't discriminate against homosexuals."

It's still a bit strange to be told so specifically by an honest man.

"I know." Xia Zhifei was the first patriarch who was rebellious, and his current status seemed to be the heir of the Xia family, so it was impossible to discriminate against him.

He probably was afraid that I would not believe it, so he explained it.

"As long as it's feelings, it's all the same." Xia Qi'an told me: "Zheng Ao is very good to you."

I don't know where he came to the conclusion, and I didn't want to discuss this topic. I picked up the drink and took a sip, but it was still very bad. I remembered that Xia Qi'an was looking for a drink while eating, so I just changed the subject: "What you just drank is What?"

"Sake." Xia Qi'an told me: "It's almost like water, a bit sweet."

Before I had time to ask in detail, Zheng Ao had already walked over and sat next to me, looking unhappy, Xia Qi'an and I didn't mess with him, so I don't know what he was awkward about.

I sat with him for a while, and went to the refrigerator to find a drink. After looking around, there was only one kind of sake in a porcelain bottle, which was a bit like the sake Xia Qian mentioned. I brought two bottles to drink, and it was indeed a little sweet.

Ye Susu was the first to discover my condition.

She went to play fighting games for a while, ran over to me, and yelled, "Xu Lang, your face is so red!"

I touched my face, it seemed to be a little hot.

Zheng Ao leaned over to check my face, probably smelling alcohol, and frowned: "What did you drink?"

I was dazed by their seriousness: "No... nothing to drink."

Zheng Ao had already picked up the wine bottle that was set aside and was looking at it.

"I thought it was sake," I explained to him, "it's kind of sweet."

Everyone surrounded me, I didn't know how to deal with this scene, I felt like interrogating a prisoner.Ye Susu glanced at the wine bottle and laughed: "Okay, Xiao Lang, you have learned how to drink."

Zheng Ao stood up and came back after taking the coat from the hanger: "I'll take Xiao Lang back first, you guys can play."

"I'm fine." I said, stood up and wanted to go to the bathroom to wash my face: "Go on and play."

When I was sitting, nothing happened, but when I stood up, I felt dizzy, my head was very heavy, and I was walking straight ahead, but my whole body was uncontrollably tilted to the left.Zheng Ao reached out to support me, and wrapped me in clothes: "Ye Susu, go and drive my car here."

Ye Susu smiled and admired my unsteady walk, and finally ran to drive.

I was taken outside by Zheng Ao in a daze, the elevator swayed, and I became even more dizzy, I fell down uncontrollably, I just wanted to find a place to sleep and wait until I woke up.But Zheng Ao kept taking me outside. I don’t know who reached out and touched my head. I was scolded by Zheng Ao and refused to leave. I was helped to the car and sat on the passenger seat. Zheng Ao was helping me. I put on my seat belt, and I leaned my head sideways on the back of the seat. The cold leather was pressed against my face, and I felt that my cheeks might be really hot.

Zheng Ao fastened his seat belt and poked my face with the back of his hand: "Xiao Lang, are you feeling bad? Do you want some water?"

I pressed my face against the seat, not wanting to talk to him.

Once the car started, it was even more uncomfortable.My brain was a mess and heavy, my stomach was churning, my whole body was like a seasoning jar, all the flavors in it were mixed together, and they were about to flow out uncontrollably.

This place is not too close to Zheng’s house. I drove and stopped all the way, and I got out of the car and threw up once. Zheng Ao was afraid that I would be cold, so he kept wrapping me in the blanket on the car. I stood in the cold winter air of Beijing. When throwing up, he was next to him and said ruthlessly: "That bastard Xia Qi'an! Just wait for me."

Guan Ying taught him to be selfish, and it wasn't bad. At least he was a little bit selfish, and he didn't need to care about others, so he wouldn't feel uncomfortable just because others felt uncomfortable, but there was nothing he could do about it.For a person like him, this is a rare unsatisfactory life.

After tossing all the way, I finally got home.

The housekeeper had received the news a long time ago and had prepared hot soup and hot rice. Zheng Ao took me to rinse my mouth and wash my face, peeled off the alcohol-smelling coat, and then drank some hot tea. The housekeeper brought me a lot of light soup and porridge. Stomach pad.I don't want to drink porridge. The kitchen doesn't know what kind of snacks to make. They are fragrant and soft, in the shape of steamed buns, with a plant flavor. I ate half of them and it didn't make me feel sick.

"Let Mr. Xu go to sleep." The butler whispered to Zheng Ao beside him: "Just sleep and wake up."

I curled up in the quilt, smelling the alcohol on my body, and always felt a little dizzy.I found a suit of clothes, and staggered to take a shower.

In fact, after vomiting, the mind is clear, but the body is still a little drunk and does not listen to the control.

At first I just wanted to take a shower, but seeing the ceramic bathtub is so smooth and beautiful under the warm light, I suddenly felt that taking a bath is also good, but it takes a long time for the water to be released, I have been sitting by the side waiting, and almost fell down.

It is very comfortable to soak the whole body in hot water, and of course it may be the effect of alcohol.When I was imprisoned in Zheng's house, Ye Susu urged me to drink some wine, saying that drinking a little wine would not harm me, but would also make me feel better and prevent me from getting depressed.It is only now that I realize that after drinking, the whole world is bright, bright and warm, and I can't help but want to laugh, and even want to hum a little song.

But my dad never approved of alcoholism.

While I was humming in the bathtub, Zheng Ao came back, stopped outside for a while, and then knocked on the door.

"Xiao Lang, are you in there?"

I said "um".

He pushed the door: "I came in?"

I changed my posture and found that I couldn't lie down in the bathtub, but I was still curled up comfortably, surrounded by warm water, feeling like a child in the mother's belly.Spread your fingers and paddle in the water, and the water will slide through your fingers, which feels very comfortable.I opened both hands and stroked them.

Zheng Ao was wearing a shirt and narrow trousers, probably for wearing boots. He was tall and thin, standing in front of the bathtub, blocking my light.

"Rui Rui didn't go to bed, and has been waiting for you." He told me: "I told him that you were not feeling well, and told him not to disturb you."

I ignored him.

They say they are happy after drinking, but in fact, they forget everything after drinking, and it takes a long time to look at him to remember.So I don't remember anything after drinking, and my mind is empty, which is the happiest.

Zheng Ao dragged a stool from nowhere, sat down beside the bathtub, brought another bath ball, and began to pour shower gel on it.

"Go to sleep after washing." His voice was a little hoarse: "You will catch a cold if you always play in water."

I glanced at him.

His eyes were dark, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

"Do you drink?" I asked him.

He had a serious expression on his face, without a smile at all: "The last time I drank was three years ago."

"Are you happy drinking too? And don't you remember anything?"

He took me by the arm and brushed it with a bath pouf.

"Drinking is escape," he said. "I have nothing to escape from."

I rolled my eyes: "But drinking makes me happy."

After Zheng Ao finished brushing my arm, he began to brush my shoulder: "Does your current life make you so unhappy? Xiao Lang."

He stopped me.

"I don't know." I looked at the clear water in the bathtub, a little foam fell from my knees, and I was lost in thought.

Zheng Ao asked me to sit up and began to brush my back for me.I looked at the wall of the bathroom, a little dazed.Maybe it was because I had the courage to drink, or because I didn't look at his face, I said it so easily: "Today I met Ning Yue."

"What did he tell you?"

On the smooth bathroom wall, there is a colorful belt, which is made of many small broken tiles with bright colors like jewels, royal blue, deep purple, dark green, bright yellow... very beautiful.

"I don't remember." I was brushed on my back by him, and I was a little dazed again: "Do you really not like Ning Yue?"

The movements of Zheng Ao's hands didn't stop, he said "um", and told me in a hoarse voice: "I never liked him."

"But you had sex with him in the bathroom." I turned around and looked at Zheng Ao's face: "I saw it all."

Zheng Ao's movements stopped.

His hair was soaked with moisture, and some of it slipped down, and strands of it covered his eyes. His eyes looked at the water, not knowing what he was thinking.

"You can't wait for him." I told him, "You want to sleep with him, you like him so much you get out of control in the bathroom, but you never get out of control with me."

Zheng Ao raised his head.

His eyes were as clear as obsidian, and there seemed to be stars in the depths of his pupils, and the light shone into my heart all the time.

He said: "Maybe it's because I gave all my arrogance to others, but there are so many people in the world, but I only care about you."

"The scruples you mentioned mean 'I don't like you, so you must be with me'?" I asked him calmly.

For a moment, I thought he was angry, but instead of attacking, he leaned over and kissed me.

I don't think it's a good idea to kiss at this point, but he kissed so hard he pushed me against the wall and I don't know if he threw himself into the tub because he was covered in water and I struggled, The back of my hand grazed the colorful tape on the wall, and it was bleeding, and I felt pain, it was too heavy, and it made my bones ache.

For a split second, I thought he was probably trying to kill me, he was kind of like a lion, or something, every move was like tearing me apart and swallowing me.

I heard my own screams.

I don't know when he let me go, I kept screaming, struggling, kicking him, trying to push him away.

I'm kind of burned out.

And he stood by the bathtub, his whole body was soaked, the water flowed down his arms, his hair was soaked, and there were my scratch marks on his face, he looked like a defeated lion.

He said: "Xiao Lang, look, the two of us, who is not interested in whom?"

I curled up in the bathtub, not wanting to hear him talk.

He was still standing there, and he said: "Xiao Lang, you said that I care about you, not that I like you. Then do you like me again? You even call me like this when you kiss me. Since you were 17 Since you were young, when I touched you, every cell in your body resisted. Do you call this liking?"

I did not speak, for fear that my voice would tremble, which would be too pitiful.

After a long time, I calmly told him: "Maybe it's because since that year, you started sleeping with people whose names you don't know. That's why I think you're dirty..."

Zheng Ao didn't speak.

He just gritted his teeth, and then punched the small table where things were placed. The glass burst and all kinds of toiletries fell to the floor.

He slammed the door and walked out.

I filled the bathtub again and soaked in the messy bathroom.Probably people who drink alcohol are prone to drowsiness. I drowsy and dozed off after soaking.

Zheng Ao came back later.

He changed, got me out of the tub, dried me off, put me in pajamas, dried my hair, and took me to bed.

Shortly after falling asleep, I was woken up once.

"It's okay, the servant is cleaning up the bathroom. I'm afraid you will be pierced by glass shards tomorrow." He stroked my hair with his bandaged hand and comforted me in a low voice: "Go on to sleep."

He calmed down so quickly, as if nothing had happened.

I think his bottom line for me is indeed as long as I live.