like drinking ice

"It's nothing." After all, I was still talking about him just now, so I felt guilty and prepared to open the door and go in.

Zheng Ao grabbed my wrist.

I looked back at him: "Do you want to be hard again?"

He let go of his hand, looking tired: "I just asked you."

"I have already said."

He stood there without saying anything else, just said softly: "Stay with me for a while, Xiao Lang."

Working long hours with just a few repetitions can be very tiring—even the simplest of lemonade.What's more, he has almost no rest time in a day, except that there are fewer people in class, and the rest are basically lined up.Especially after Lin Yi held a discount and gave out postcards - the postcards had pictures of the shop owner and "waiters".

I was silent for a while.

"Let me get you a glass of water."

When I came out again, he was already sitting against the corner of my door, eyes closed, not sure if he was resting or asleep.

I waited for a while, and he opened his eyes and looked at me.

I handed him the cup.

He drank water silently, his eyelashes drooped, and Ruirui looked like him when he drank water.

"Actually, you don't need to do this job." I persuaded him softly, "I don't see the need for you to do this now. No matter how hard you try, you will never become the person you are playing now."

You were born Zheng Ao with a golden spoon in your mouth, why should you be so low in the dust like you are now.

He raised his eyes to look at me.

"Someone told me that we have come to this point, in addition to my character flaws, your distrust is also a reason. Even if I change my character, it will be difficult for us to be together, because you treat yourself, You didn't trust me, you didn't trust love, you never believed that we could be together."

"We would never be together," I laughed: "People who are together are in love."

"I said I love you." He looked tired, but his eyes were so direct.

"You don't love me." I sat at the door of my house and discussed the heavy word "love" with him: "Love wants to be together, but you 'love' me just to want to be with me .”

"Whether I love you or not, I know it in my heart. Even if Yu Susu tells you that I love you, you will believe me." He told me bluntly: "You just don't believe what I say."

He hit the mark.

"That person told me that your perception of yourself is just an ordinary person, and you feel that you don't belong to our circle. You have already decided that you can't get some things, and you won't believe me anyway. So I think , maybe I can try to be such an ordinary person. Maybe I will understand your situation, your mood, your lack of self-confidence. Then find a way for the two of us."

I don't know who the person he was talking about, every sentence poked at my weakness, I was powerless to fight back.

I really, never felt like I belonged in that circle, I didn't believe I was worthy of anything in that circle, I was just a lucky orphan and luck has a limit.In the fable my grandma told me, the poor man took care of a pair of scissors that can cut wool into gold for the mountain god. After 20 years, the mountain god came to ask for it. He became greedy and refused to return it. As a result, he aged and turned white overnight. The gray-haired old man, every cut he made before was his own life.

He is my golden scissors, I dare not ask for it, and I will not ask for it.I'm afraid I won't be able to afford it when the property is returned to the original owner.

So from the time I fell in love with him secretly, I gradually kept a distance, used the excuse of studying, and kept seeing him once a month, and it gradually changed to two months, three months...

I can forgive him for all the excesses he has done to me, because at best he has ruined our chance to be together.And I never thought we could be together.

The three years here have been the most peaceful three years in my life. I don't have to worry about anyone except Ruirui.I open a small bookstore by my own ability, and spend as much money as I make. I can’t become a great physicist, nor can I be a lawyer, but I can read books every day, read fluid mechanics, read Fermi’s paradox, read For Ming and Qing novels, read the Greek Codex.I'm fine without love.

I have nothing else to ask but that he will not come to disturb my life.It is often written in the book that the lovers who have been separated for many years, goodbye has been a long time, and we are now a long time. I have found my life in this small city, whether it is secular or mediocre, this is my life.Professor Lin's proposal may be tempting, but the most tempting mushrooms are often poisonous.

"You can't live like this for the rest of your life." I told him, "You don't fit here."

"As long as you stick to it, it's okay if it's not suitable." He said stubbornly.

Such a state of mind is not what a waiter in a cold drink shop should have. In the life of an ordinary person, even a broken mobile phone has to be uncomfortable for a whole day. Who can talk about his life so lightly?He has a retreat, so he is so free and easy.

"Whatever you want." I knew none of us could convince anyone: "I heard that you got into a fight with someone today?"

There was a faint murderous look in his eyes, but it was fleeting.

"It's just meeting an idiot." He said in a disdainful tone, "I didn't really fight."

It seems that Xiaoxin's possibility of obscenity is correct.For an ordinary waiter, he looks too good-looking, he belongs to the kind of good-looking who will be asked by scouts when he walks on the road, not to mention that gender-neutral beauty is still popular now.In the identity of the waiter he is playing now, it is not a good thing to be so good-looking.Everyone is innocent, but pregnant is guilty.

When he was still Zheng Ao, he was surrounded by all kinds of beauties, and some people joked that he didn't know if he was prostitution or someone else was prostitution.From the perspective of public aesthetics, the three families of Xia, Li, and Zheng, and the Zheng family are indeed the most suitable for prostitution. The Li family is too cold, and the Xia family is too tough, and they will suffer from indigestion after eating, but the Zheng family looks pleasing to the eye.

Xiaoxin and the others think about things between the same sex too well. Homosexuality is essentially the same as heterosexuality, and it may be even more confusing. It is not uncommon to play with several men.When I was a lawyer, I also learned about this specifically. "Fitness instructors" quoted higher prices than prostitutes.

"If you keep playing like this, there will be more and more things like this," I told him.

It’s not uncommon to be joked about a few times. He is good-looking, and he faces more harassment—or temptation, I don’t know. Which option is more insulting.

"I'll just bear it." He didn't take it seriously.

I know that he doesn't take this matter to heart at all, and he doesn't need to take it to heart, maybe there is a bodyguard watching him secretly at this moment, maybe it is Zheng Yan.Maybe he'll send someone to covertly sort this out.

This kind of thing cannot be tolerated.

The reason why he is so good-looking is because the Zheng family has been passed down to him for five generations, plus the good genes of the Guan family who were entrenched in the Northeast during the Republic of China.The source of good genes is the beauties married from generation to generation.

Probably because of studying the law, I have a very pessimistic attitude towards the development of society. The law has been perfected, but the society is still like this. If the law is withdrawn, what will happen?

The accumulation of capital has always been an unstoppable trend, and the current social system cannot stop this. Those big consortiums that have become behemoths are like a magnet, with the best educational resources, talents, opportunities, and the most beautiful faces and the most beautiful faces. The figure and the most extravagant enjoyment will be sucked away by them like a magnet.Just like Li Ka-shing is to Hong Kong, just like those beautiful stars are to the Li family.

What Zheng Ao saw was just a small magnet.He felt disgusted because the so-called "black and white" big brother was nothing but an ant in front of him.If he stays here, he will only see more overreach like this.In front of him, he might be reckless, but with Xiaoxin and the others, and with Lin Yi, it might be taken for granted.

What's more, in the final analysis, he is just a huge magnet.

People with extravagant enjoyment, beautiful faces and figures, and those temptations that I can't imagine beyond my imagination will rush towards him like moths to a flame. After all, he belongs to that world, and I am just an ordinary person That's all.He is willing to give up those things for me today, but what about tomorrow?What about ten years from now? 20 years?What can I give to compensate him for these sacrifices?

Li Zhurong gave up these things for my dad because of love.And sometimes love is not enough to defeat everything, just look at Zheng Yehu and Lin Wei.

Besides, there is no love between us.

It's been raining for a few days recently.The cold drink shop across the street finally had less business. Zheng Ao had some time to play with Niu Niu and Rui Rui.But Ruirui has been very unfriendly to Zheng Ao since the last plan failed. Fortunately, there is a bully, although he is a bit dumb, he can be regarded as the link between Ruirui and Zheng Ao.

Since even Xiaoxin can see the resemblance between Ruirui and Zheng Ao, I don't think I have the right to obstruct the communication between Zheng Ao and Ruirui, so I usually don't care about them in this situation.

The rain stopped for a while that afternoon, and I washed Ruirui’s clothes inside. Ruirui and Niu Niu were sitting in front of the store and playing. Zheng Ao was probably talking to them. After a while, Zheng Ao came into the store and yelled: " I'll take them shopping for food."

It seems that the day of salary advance has arrived.

When I chased them out, Zheng Ao had already left with the two children, and there was only a white van on the road. I thought Zheng Ao's skills would be fine with the two children, so I went in to do the laundry.

When the phone rang, my hands were full of washing powder foam, I found dry clothes to wipe it twice, and answered the phone.

It was Ruirui's voice, and it was crying.

"Dad, come quickly." He was so nervous that he still remembered to report the address: "I am opposite the ATM, and Zheng Ao was taken away by some rogue-like villains!" Xi Shi was taken away..."

There was a "boom" in my head, but I knew that everyone could panic at this time, but I couldn't.

"Don't move." I tried to calm down: "Don't cry, keep quiet, find a place to hide, wait for Dad to come over, calm down, Rui Rui, take care of Niu Niu, do you hear, he is younger than you."

Ruirui agreed with a crying sound.

I hung up the phone and called Li Xiu.

The situation over there was probably not good, Li Xiu said in a very dry tone, "What are you doing!"

"Do you have anyone on our side that we can use? Zheng Ao was taken away, and Rui Rui is outside now." I was so anxious that I pinched my palm with my fingers habitually: "By the way, give me Zheng Yan's phone number. "

"Wow, someone is messing with him before I even make a move!" Li Xiu gloated: "Don't move, the young master has set up a station near your house, and it will arrive in 10 minutes. Both you and Rui Rui There is a positioning device."

"I'm going to find Ruirui. And Zheng Yan's phone number, give it to me quickly." I was so anxious that I couldn't stand still.

"What's the rush?" Li Xiu was very happy when he heard about Zheng Ao's accident, "You also live more and more innocently, that fox Zheng Ao won't die if the young master dies, so don't be fooled." real."

"You don't know the situation at all!" I didn't feel like messing with him anymore, so I hung up the phone in a hurry.As soon as the phone rang, Zheng Yan's call arrived.

I ran towards the place where Ruirui was hiding, and called Zheng Yan at the same time, and I was connected quickly.

"Xu Lang?" Zheng Yan obviously knew my phone number: "What happened?"

"Where are you now?" I asked him.

"In the city center." He reacted quickly: "Is something wrong with Mr.?"

I really can't believe that no one is following Zheng Ao, but the anxiety in his tone doesn't seem to be faking at all.

"Ruirui said that Zheng Ao was taken away, and the ATM near my house belongs to CCB." I asked him, "Li Xiu's person is closer here, does Zheng Ao have any positioning device on him? "

There was silence for a while, Zheng Yan seemed to be giving instructions to the people around him in a low voice.

Then he said: "About a week ago, when Mr. found you, he asked us all to go back to Beijing. I was worried and waited here. Now I will meet with you in the past, and you can tell me about the situation on the way. Where is the other party from, do you have a clue?"

"I don't know, Ruirui said he is a villain like a hooligan." I panicked and said, "Does Zheng Ao have any enemies here?"

"Do those people have guns?" Zheng Yan asked.

"I don't know." I had already run to the entrance of the alley, saw the ATM that Ruirui said, and ran over quickly: "Ruirui, Niuniu!"

"We are here..." Two heads poked out from the green belt, wearing the same coat, Rui Rui's hair was wet from the rain on the branches and leaves, the tears on Niu Niu's face were still wet, and both of them crawled He came out and threw himself into my arms.

After all, he was a child, and he was terrified, trembling in my arms.Niuniu's face was scratched by a branch, and he stammered to talk to me. Ruirui calmed down and told me: "They didn't block their faces, I can draw them, I still remember the license plate number, I just called the police We'll get Zheng Ao back soon."

I patted his head, wrapped them in my coat, comforted them in a low voice, asked Ruirui about the characteristics of those people at that time, and told Zheng Yan the license plate number. According to Ruirui, those people seemed to be just Some local hooligans and the like, it is impossible to have a gun. Zheng Ao let Ruirui and the others run first because he was afraid of hurting the children. Yes go with them.

Ruirui obviously knows this too, so she is obsessed with getting Zheng Ao back.

The police car came after Li Xiu's men.

Li Xiu probably didn't pay much attention to this matter, the people who came were not in military uniform, they drove a Land Rover, there were five of them, including a girl in her early twenties, all dressed casually and smiling.

The leader was a man in his early thirties, wearing camouflage pants, and called himself Li Kan. I told him to call me Xu Lang, and he did. Several people stood there with arms folded, listening to Li Kan ask Rui Rui the ins and outs.

There were only two policemen sitting in the police car, one older and one younger, who wanted to take us to the police station to make records.

I looked at Li Kan and the others, and asked, "Isn't the most important thing now is to track down that car along the way? Should we adjust the monitoring?"

I have stayed in Li's house for a long time, and I know these things. Li Yao once wanted to join the army like Xia Zhifei, and often opened his mouth with guns and closed his mouth. Zheng Ao even laughed at him, saying that now is a civilized society, and guns are not as good as The pen, the Li family will be defeated by this violent man sooner or later.

The old policeman laughed.

"It takes 24 hours for an adult to report a missing person. How many hours have you been here? Young people, it's superfluous to take notes."

"But he was taken away by some hooligans, and he had a previous feud with someone." I tried to recall the name of the person Xiaoxin mentioned to me: "That person is Tang Jinghua."

This time the younger one smiled.

"What are you laughing at?" My face sank.

"Boss Tang, we don't know, he is famous..." The young man probably hadn't worked for a few days, and he saw the old policeman winking and said, "I'm afraid it's emotional entanglement?"

Li Kan held me back.

"What are you doing? Beat the police?" The old policeman's face sank, and he showed his handcuffs: "Believe it or not, we will take you to drink tea first."

Li Kan stopped me with one hand and took out some documents from his pocket.The policeman looked more serious after seeing him, and put away the handcuffs.

"Tell me where that Tang Jinghua came from and where he is now." Li Kan spoke neatly, pointing at the young policeman: "Say it."

The young policeman is probably a newborn calf who is not afraid of tigers, and is very enthusiastic.

"This Tang Jinghua is in the real estate business. He made his fortune ten years ago. He didn't do anything wrong, but he has a hobby..."

"What hobby?" Li Kan asked.

"Playing with men," the young policeman laughed, looking at me with a hint of mockery in his eyes: "Last time someone came to the police station to make a fuss, and you guys are also interesting, and you will die if you are taken advantage of." Yes, why did you go early? They invite you to eat and drink. Is it a free lunch. But I don’t blame you. After paying the money, it’s not like going back to my hometown to marry a wife.”

He said it funny, and Li Kan also laughed.

Probably because Li Kan smiled, and the policeman relaxed a lot: "I said it was my own, let's go and take you to Boss Tang. It's strange that people in your army will be deceived."

But I didn't move.

Niuniu and Ruirui hugged one leg of me, Niuniu was fine, with tears in his eyes, he didn't understand anything, and looked up at me blankly.Ruirui is smart, and probably understood a lot, she clenched her fists tightly, gritted her teeth and lowered her head.

He knew what these people said, which was probably the reason why his father was taken away.

In fact, if it wasn't Zheng Ao who was taken away, but an ordinary young man, maybe it was just as he said, he could only knock out his teeth and swallow his blood, and take the compensation money to go back to his hometown to marry a wife.

Seeing that I had no intention of following, Li Kan asked inquiringly, "Xu Lang?"

"Call me Mr. Xu." I told him coldly: "You can go back. I heard that the people in your army are very disciplined. If Li Xiu asks what happened to you today, you can tell him all the conversations you just had. , including how happy you are smiling."

Li Kan had a confused expression: "Xu... Mr. Xu?"

"I forgot to tell you," I told him, "your boss, Li Xiu, is the one from Beijing. He's also gay, the kind of man you find funny."

Rui Rui grabbed my trouser legs, finally raised her head, and looked at the group of people coldly.

"And you." I pointed to the young policeman: "I used to be a legal worker, and I once hoped to make men also become legally recognized victims of sexual assault. And you, a policeman , is the executor of the law. I heard that you policemen have to take an oath when you take office. You probably have forgotten the oath. As a policeman, you have to protect the life and property of every citizen. Citizens are not only men and women, but also The men who like men and women who like women are distinguished and treated by you. They are also qualified not to sleep with people they don’t like. They are taken advantage of and are also qualified to take up legal weapons to defend themselves. It's not that you should take the money and go back to your hometown to get married. I don't agree with tit for tat all my life, but now I really want you to experience that after being played by a man, you can still laugh."

After saying this, I hugged Ruirui without waiting for their response.

"Let's go back," I whispered to him, "I'll send you back first, and then go find Zheng Ao."

Ruirui hugged my arm tightly and said nothing more.

"Wait." Someone chased after him, it was the young woman.

I turned my head to look at her.

"My name is Lin Ying," she looked into my eyes: "I want to help you find that person, and I'm also in the army."

Seeing me looking at her suspiciously, she added softly: "My brother is also the kind of person they say... gay."

I let go of Niu Niu's hand, and Niu Niu stared at her blankly, then extended his hand to her.

"Is your brother... okay?" I couldn't think of anything to say.

"I ran away from home for many years." She said: "I was still young at that time, and my father was a soldier, so I couldn't accept it."

I said "Oh" and wanted to say something more when the phone rang and it was Zheng Yan.

"Found Mister."

When I arrived at the construction site, it was already 10 minutes later.

It is said that Zheng Yan asked for the address from Tang Jinghua's younger sister, and he must have used intimidation. If it is normal, I might think it is not good.But now I just take it for granted.

If she was an innocent disaster, then what are these worries, insults and prejudices that Ruirui and I have borne?My dad always said to be kind to people, but kindness is not armor, strength is.Even the goddess of law is holding a balance in one hand and a sword in the other. Only a sharp sword can uphold justice.

Zheng Yan was farther than me, so he stopped by the school to catch Tang Jinghua's younger sister. She arrived slower than me. Just in case, I took Yu Ying with me. firearms.

The construction site was still under construction, and there was only one warehouse enough for people to hide. We stopped the car and ran towards it. Yu Ying pulled out his gun directly. It had just rained, and the construction site was covered with mud and water. Walk to the warehouse with shallow feet.

"Zheng Ao! Zheng Ao!" I called his name loudly: "Are you here!"

Yu Ying stopped me and kicked open the door of the warehouse.

In the dark warehouse, many people fell here and there, the air was filled with the smell of blood, and there was dust everywhere, which made me a little sick to my stomach.

Zheng Ao was standing in the middle of the warehouse. When he saw us coming, he raised his head slowly. His eyes were red.

I ran towards him.

There are people on the ground, the bald head in Ruirui's description, the little ruffian with dyed yellow hair, the iron rod in their hands, the tall man in a black vest, and the man who is probably Tang Jinghua, about 36 seven, in a suit The leather shoes and glasses lenses were broken and stuck in the eyes.Lying on the ground on his back, his hands and feet were probably broken, and he was lying in a strange posture. He was very close to the door, and he probably wanted to run, but unfortunately no one else could stop Zheng Ao.

I didn't dare to look any further, so I ran over and helped Zheng Ao.

He's still wearing that white overalls, that funny hat in a pool of blood, blood all over his body, and bloody vomit on his trouser legs, I've studied homicide forensics, and I know that the stomach has been severely injured. Stomach bleeding and vomiting.

"I'm sorry, Xiao Lang." He apologized softly to me: "I didn't intend to hit anyone."

"I know, I know, it's not your fault..." I supported him, his face was also covered with blood, I don't know when it splashed, the back of his hand was torn, and his knuckles were covered with blood Yes, but he didn't feel any pain.

Probably because the expression on my face was too nervous, he smiled at me, his smile was very faint, and then he just slipped down and fell to the ground.

I saw the knife wound on his back.

"Don't touch him," Yu Ying put the gun into the holster, and reached out to check Zheng Ao's breathing: "Go to the car and get the medicine kit, and call an ambulance."

I watched her neatly tore off her clothes and bandaged Zheng Ao to stop the bleeding, and looked at my hands in a daze.

My hands were covered with blood, I don't know if it was Zheng Ao's or those people's. I opened my palm, and there was a metal ring lying in the palm, with blood, it seemed to be silver indistinctly.It was Zheng Ao who put it in my hand before he fell down.

is a ring.